I stood there in front of a pastor in clothes I never thought I would wear, the clothes of a man about to be married.

I could feel in me an amazing amount of happiness that I had not felt since…well since I can remember.

I looked behind me and saw my 'nakama'.

First I saw my teachers looking at me with approval, Minato-san, the third hokage, Jiraiya senin.

After them, I saw my comrades most smiling approvingly and one, I won't mention who, who was crying his eyes out and mumbling something about the "passions of youth" whatever that meant. They smiled and grinned at me as they saw me looking at them. Asuma even waved at me and whistled before Kurenai glared at him.

As I looked behind them I noticed the next generation of shinobi, Naruto, Sakura, Shikamaru and even Sasuke were there. Most looked happy while a couple looked rather bored….

All of a sudden, music began to play. Sweet and calming, it rolled through the room much to everyone's delight.

As the music started, a door at the back of the room opened and what it revealed was enough to make my breath hitch and take away all thoughts of…other thoughts.

She walked into the room in a pure white dress holding a bouquet of crimson roses. Her purple hair that was usually tied up was let down and flowed until the mid of her back.

As she walked down the aisle, her eyes met mine and amazingly, hers were the first to look down. Even more amazing was the fact that she blushed lightly and then stumbled a bit before she reached me.

"Baka…stop staring…I know I look weird okay?" she mumbled to me, still flushed a cute pink.

I was shocked…no… astounded…no…flabbergasted…gah. I don't know…All I knew was that this woman in front of me was the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my entire life.

Despite her say so, I could not stop staring, she was…immaculate. She radiated beauty effortlessly her every action was just the definition of beauty: the way her hands fidgeted slightly, the way she kept her still flushing face averted from mine, the way her chest moved up and down distractingly….

"Baka…I said stop it" she whispered exasperatedly as she blushed an even darker shade of red.

She handed her bouquet to one of the bridesmaids and looked at me nervously.

The bridesmaid looked at me and with a start, I realized it was Rin. I went white and stared at her before "Rin…I'm so sorry I—"

She cut me off, and grinning she said "Now none of that Kakashi, today is your day to be happy."

She looked at me knowingly before backing off towards the side of the room.

"She's right Kakashi" a voice somewhere to my right said softly.

I turned and saw my friend, Obito. He was dressed in similar attire, coat and slacks.

With a start I realized he had both eyes as he smiled at me.

"Obito…your eye…you…what?" I blustered unsure of what was going on.

He grinned at me and said "Pay attention to your wife to be you idiot, she's getting nervous I think."

I turned back to Anko and took her hand in mine and gently squeezed it.

She looked at me and smiled an innocent and carefree smile before responding "Thanks Kakashi…."

In that instant I completely forgot about Rin and how she died. I forgot about all the sadness and despair I felt afterwards. I forgot everything about her except for the fact that she was my good friend and that she was here on my wedding day.

I also forgot about Obito. How he lost his life during out mission…how he gave his eye to me as a "birthday present". I forgot my feeling of loneliness and regret…my feelings of sadness and guilt. I forgot it all. All I knew was that my best friend was here, alive and my best man on the happiest day of my life.

The pastor begun to speak but nothing he said registered. All my attention was fixed on the woman in front of me.

It took a few moments for me to realize that everything was quiet and that everyone, including Anko was looking at me intently.

I looked at the pastor frantically and said in a loud voice "I'm sorry?"

The audience all begun to chuckle and whisper to each other. I heard smatterings of "must be wedding nerves" and "that is so like him…" and even "geez kakashi-sensei, don't screw up on your wedding day"

The pastor looked at me and said, "Do you, Hatake Kakashi, take Anko Mitarashi to be your lawfully wedded wife, in sickness and in health till death do you part?"

I turned away from him and looked at Anko.

She looked at me and in her eyes I noticed her fear and anxiety.

I smiled and said, "Of course"

Another moment of silence before more chuckles and whispering started.

Someone near the back who sounded suspiciously like Sakura said in a very loud voice, "Its, I do, you baka!" much to the amusement of the audience.

I smiled sheepishly and looked at Anko. "I do" I said calmly and meaning every bit of it.

The pastor turned to Anko and said Do you, Anko Mitarashi, take Hatake Kakshi to be your lawfully wedded wife, in sickness and in health till death do you part?"

She looked at me and gave a smile so bright that it put the sun to shame. "I do"

I exhaled a breathe that I didn't even know I was holding and was filled with and immeasurable sense of happiness.

I knew somewhere that I was looking forward to spending the rest of my life together with this woman.

The pastor smiled warmly and said "Then by the power vested in me, I now pronounce you man and wife. You may now kiss the bride."

I grinned, this was the part I'd been waiting for. I grinned a wolfs grin and let a hand take Anko's chin while the other went to remove my mask.

With a surprise, I found that I had no mask on. That's a first I thought to myself.

Since there were no other obstructions, I bent to kiss Anko. She had full, glossy lips that were absolutely begging to be kissed.

Right before I kissed her, I whispered "I love you, Anko"

As I kissed her, I felt her face heat up as I kissed her. She kissed back and for a few seconds, I forget everything except kissing the woman I was getting married to.

After a few…after a number of seconds, I felt something change. All of a sudden, she stopped kissing back and the taste of iron filled my mouth.

I pulled back and looked at her. I gasped.

Her eyes had an empty look and she had a trail of blood coming from her mouth.

"Why…why didn't you protect me…why didn't you protect our child?" Anko said softly, holding up a small and lifeless child who had silver hair.

I stepped back and noticed that Anko had several stab wounds.

I shook my head slowly and turned away.

Where all of my nakama were, there was a pile of corpses in their place.

I saw Obito crawling towards me, missing his eye and half of his body with a hand reaching out towards me saying, "Why Kakashi…why?"

"How could you Kakashi? How could you?" came Rin's voice.

I turned and saw here with a hole in the middle of her stomach, pouring blood.

The corpses of my nakama looked at me and all of them said in unision "Kakashi you can't protect anything…anyone. You killed your own friend…you have no right to be happy."

They pulled themselves towards me and I backed away. They quickly surrounded me and they grabbed me.

I was pulled downward. Down, down, down I went…until I saw nothing.

I awoke gasping for breath on the floor of my apartment.

I stood up shakily and went into my kitchen and opened a cupboard that had a label "For emergencies"

Inside was a small bottle of extremely potent alcohol.

I took a swig to calm myself, then sat down on a chair and followed up the single swig I had taken by a couple others because apparently one didn't cut it.

I sat down and buried my head in my hands.

Who was I kidding? I killed hundreds if not thousands of people. Even then I failed to protect my friends. I even killed one of them….

I have no right to happiness what-so ever.

Despite all this, I could not forget the emotion that I felt in my dream…and or nightmare.

I could not forget the happiness that I felt, the beauty that I saw and…and…the love I had.

It was just a dream…they couldn't be…they just couldn't.

Tears began to collect on my exposed eye as I remembered all the things I had to atone for.

In that precise moment, I heard the bedroom door open. I quickly wiped my eye and moved to return the alcohol.

Despite not feeling much of its effects, apparently the alcohol did work. As I moved

to return the alcohol to the cupboard, I banged my knee against the table.

Aanko quickly entered and said "Kakashi?" she quickly noticed my slightly red eye and the fact that I was drinking alcohol…something that I almost always avoided.

"What's wrong?" she asked carefully.

"Y—"I coughed to clear my throat… that alcohol was stronger that I thought.

"Yeah, I'm just fine…" I managed weakly.

She came near me, looked me in the eye and slapped me, hard, across the left cheek.

I was stunned. I placed my hand on my cheek and stared at her.

"There are people who notice things you schmuck, I'm one of them" she said menacingly her eyes glinting dangerously

"So, what's wrong?" she asked again.

Now it was my dilemma. Should I tell her about these feelings that I had? Could I ignore the warnings in my dream? What would happen if I told her?

So many questions unanswered and no decision in sight….

Authors note:

Sorry guys for no updates in like ages. I just entered collage last june and my first sem been really rough. Lots of problems, low grades and other stuff. I'll try to update again but I don't know if I'll be able to do it again anytime soon. Thanks again for reading. Please R and R.