Split Personality

III: Heartfelt Revelations

Natsuki stood up rapidly and dashed out of the restaurant and I left money on the table before running after him. I found him sitting on a bench alone, in the center of the park, with clouds forming above.

"N-Natsuki…. It's still you…. You know that right?" I said as I slowly approached him. I sighed, if I'm more confident this will hopefully go better.

"But it isn't me…" He said. We just stared at each other as he sniffled and I couldn't bring myself to say anything. He stood up and made to run off but I grabbed him and wrapped my arms around him, tightly.

"I'm smaller but you know that I'm stronger than you…" I mumbled.

"You…. You purposely mentioned your height…." I heard him say in surprise. I blushed and looked to the side.

"Don't get used to it… ok?" I said. He laughed and I couldn't help but chuckle.

"It's a really complicated situation…." I said, unfortunately having to interrupt our happy moment. He sighed and looked up at the sky.

"You're happy right?" He asked. I looked at him and released him from my tight hug.

"It- I'm… I'm not even sure." I said. "Just everything is happening fast since he wanted you to know about us so bad…. So know about him."

"It's a lot to take in." Natsuki said. Suddenly, a huge rumbling echoed through the air and the rain started to pour down on us. I just looked up at him, holding onto his hand.

"I only just learned about him then I learn that you've been with both of us… but it seems like you love him more…." He says.

"I love you both." I said, pounding my fists against his chest. "That's what I think this feeling is then… If only you were just one person…."

"If we were one person, who would you want to be the one that goes away?" He asked. I froze.

"I don't know…" I said looking down. Suddenly, I felt his jacket draped over me. I looked up at him and he tucked me under his coat.

"You're getting soaked." I had a sudden realization looking at his face.

"Na-Natsuki…. We forgot your glasses in the restaurant." I said. His eyes widen with surprise as he reaches for his face.

"Let's go back and get them." I said, tugging at his sleeve. He smiled and we walked together in quiet peace. We stood in front of the restaurant surprised, to find Ringo standing in front under an orange umbrella, waiting for us with Natsuki's glasses. He smiled at us.

"Satsuki, don't go forgetting these for no reason." He said, holding them out.

"I'm… not Satsuki." Natsuki responded sadly. Ringo looked surprised.

"Oh then, so you've got complete control?" Ringo asked.

"I think Satsuki is purposefully not coming out…" I said. Ringo looked at us with understanding.

"You're going through a lot I know…" Ringo said. "Love is such a hard thing to understand and managed, emotions are volatile." He pulled out a second umbrella from his belt, holding it out to us.

"Don't go getting sick now, emotions may be prevalent now but you have classes." Ringo said sincerely. "I don't mean to sound insensitive."

"Its fine, you're just looking out for us." I said, taking it and opening it, struggling to hold it above Natsuki's head.

"Here I'll hold it." He said.

"No, I've got it!" I shouted at him and he laughed.

"You're still you, that's good. It's not normal to see tears running down your cheeks." He said.

"I've just not been myself lately that's all." I said. He smiled. He took his glasses and put them on, wiping the raindrops off them. He suddenly grabbed my hand and held it tight.

"We can make it work." He said. He looked at me with pleading eyes.

"Yea…. Yeah, we can." I said. I don't think Satsuki is coming back… I guess if it's what he thinks is best.

"That's so sweet." Ringo said. "Make it back before curfew, alright?"

He turned and walked away in the rain, his hair bouncing behind him.

"I know you, Syo. You're thinking about blaming yourself aren't you?" Natsuki said. I jumped in surprise at his words.

"Well…I-"

"Don't, he left because he blamed himself." Natsuki said. "He'll come back sometime, but he wants us to get along first, at least that's what I think if he's how I think he is. It's not like I could ever meet him."

I looked at him speechless, and held out the umbrella for him to take. He looked at me confused for a moment but took it and held it above us.

"I think we'll figure everything out, right?" I asked. He smiled and nodded.

"I'll just take into account how much my clinginess bothers you." Natsuki said, laughing as he clung onto me. "But that doesn't mean I'm going to stop all together."

"Not in the rain!" I shouted, trying to wiggle away. He laughed as he let go of me.

"Let's go back, I was acting so weirdly I probably got everyone worried about me." I said, nudging him to start walking.

"Alright, we probably acted crazy." He says chuckling.

"Yeah… I'm happy everything is sorted out. I wish I could apologize to Satsuki though…" I said.

"Why don't you?" Natsuki asks. I looked at him.

"How? You can control it…." I said.

"No, but this still works right?" He said, grabbing his glasses and pulling them off. His expression quickly changed.

"Only because you seemed so forlorn." Satsuki said, giving me a rather irritated look. I looked at him surprised, hesitating before bowing my head down.

"I'm sorry." I said. "I ended up playing with both of your feelings."

"You don't have to bow." Satsuki said, grabbing my shoulders and pulling me back up to standing straight. I looked at him, tears welling in my eyes.

"I don't understand why you feel so bad… I knew what was going on and I still participated." Satsuki said.

"But still…. It was all my fault." I said. Suddenly, I felt his lips touch mine and I turned red. He pulled away and stayed close to my face, smiling a happy but sad smile.

"I had a part in it, we both hid in from him, we even played a part in your denial of your feelings for Natsuki." He said. A tear started rolling down my eye as I nodded in agreement. His hand gently swept it away.

"It makes me happy to see that you love us both, but I was never supposed to be." Satsuki says. "Embrace your love for him and know that I'll always love you too."

I threw my arms around him and started crying.

"Stop, stop." He said, I felt his tears rolling off his cheek into my hair. I pulled away and looked at him. He rubbed his eyes again.

"I'm sorry again… I've been selfish." I said. "I was so oblivious… you were hurting too." I said. He looked at me, with the saddest eyes I've ever seen.

"But… it's the right thing… it's not right for me to be with you both, even if it's tow people in the same body…" I said. He nodded.

"I know…" I wrapped my arms around him holding him close as he started to cry louder.

"I know that doesn't make it hurt any less…" I said. "I'm so sorry."

"I know it's all for the better… but… it won't stop…." He cried out in between his weeping.

"I'll still love you always, you know that. I'll always love both you and Natsuki." I said. He stood up straight, wiping his tears away again. I grabbed onto his chest and pushed myself onto my tip toes to give him a peck on the lips. I gave him a smile.

"We can always talk whenever, and by loving Natsuki I'll love you to." I said.

"I won't ever forget about us." I finished. He smiled.

"I guess I'm a hopeless romantic down underneath everything…" He said.

"It's ok; it's one of the things I like about you both." I said smiling.

He smiled as he slid the glasses back on, his expression of sad happiness fading into Natsuki's joyous smile. I smiled back.

"Oh, you got some raindrops on you Syo." Natsuki said, wiping Satsuki's tears off my shoulder and head.

"Oh, I'll get closer." I said, cuddling in closer to Natsuki.

"I know you loved us both…" Natsuki says. "And I'll try to make myself worth your love." I looked at him and smiled.

"As long as you stop creeping on me and burning food you'd be on the right track." I said.

He laughed, "I don't burn my food."

I sighed.