Rose looked at him shocked and baffled. Probably as much as he was at the moment. That couldn't be right. Rose was human as human can be! Rose was his pink and yellow human!
"Your meaning to tell me that the TARDIS re-wrote my DNA?" Rose asked baffled and ran a hand in her hair
"Apparently!" the Doctor cried, sitting on the chair, trying to wrap his mind around it. "Oh Rose." He whispered. blaming himself. Rose looked at him. The guilt was in his eyes. She'd seen that look before. "Don't you dare start." Rose said looking at him. "Don't go blaming yourself. The TARDIS is making sure your not aloe in the universe anymore" The Doctor sighed, rubbing his eyes tired. Secretly, he was glad, but he knew she was going to need a lot of training for her new mind and abilities. He also knew that he was a bad teacher and would scare her off.
"Doctor...You can help me with this. Can't you?" She asked gently taking his hands, trying to calm him. She didn't want him to be stressed over this. They would be together...Forever, just like she'd promised. Sure, the Doctor had his worries, but Rose wanted to calm him The Doctor rubbed his eyes, looking to her, his eyes still full of worry.
"The change is permanent, but I can help train you and train your new abilities." The Doctor sighed. Rose stood from the med bay exam table and pulled him into a hug and rubbed his back in a soothing matter. They would get through this. Together. Just like all the other troubles and rough patches they'd gotten trough.
"We'll get through this. Just like everything else..."
The Doctor sighed, resting his chin on her shoulder. "We have to. I need you to be safe." He took a deep breath, holding onto Rose.
"I will be safe, I'm not going anywhere" Rose promised still rubbing his back. The Doctor let go of her, sitting on the edge of the med bed. He missed the edge, sitting on the floor, picking his knees up. He sat on the cold floor, trying to figure out what he was going to do. He held his hand up, pulling Rose down next to him. Rose sighed and looked at him. He was obviously worried. She'd seen him maybe once this worried. When she'd made her way back and chosen to say with him while her mother and Mickey were in another Universe..She brushed her thumb on his hand and rested her head on his shoulder. The Doctor was baffled, if that was the word to use...He didn't know what to do. Well, maybe he did, but he didn't say anything to her if he did.
"Doctor...We'll figure out something, yeah? We always do." Rose assured him quietly. The Doctor gave her a tight smile, pulling her to his side.
"We have to Rose. We have to figure this out." He sighed, still unsure about everything. He wanted Rose to be safe. But he knew that this wasn't keeping her safe, not with the Ood and the Hunters that were after unique and rare species- like Time Lords.
Rose sighed as well, and cuddled into him. "You think you can show me that fingertip mind thing?" Rose asked, trying to change the subject. She'd never seen the Doctor do it but Madame De Pompadour did mention him touching her forehead with his fingertips...and entered her mind. The Doctor turned to her, sitting up on his knees. He rested his fingers on her temples.
"Open your mind and imagine a door for anything you dont want me to see." He instructed gently, pushing forward with his mind. Rose nodded slowly and took a deep breath before slowly relaxing, letting her own mind wander. Her eyes drifted closed as she left almost everything open for him. She had nothing to hide...not from the Doctor...not one thing... The Doctor smiled, seeing her mind so open. He gave a small laugh, seeing little Rose running around her mind.
'See the door I came through, try walking through.' He instructed gently. If Reinette could do it, his brilliant Rose could do it. Rose nodded very lightly as the Doctor still wandered through her mind. He was in her memories, just like Reinette had told her. It was a weird feeling, that was for sure, Seeing the door the Doctor had just gone through, Rose carefully made her way through. Rose had always wondered what went on in the Doctor's mind...What she actually saw...She hadn't expected. She gasped quietly seeing a memory of a beautiful planet...The Twin Suns...the wonderful orange sky...
"Is that...Gallifrey?" Rose asked him quietly as she watched a young boy run around into the grass. That had to be the Doctor, but Rose wasn't sure yet...The Doctor stiffened, slamming the door shut, blocking those memories from Rose.
"Please dont look there. Thats the start of the time war. I forgot about that door. Its my penance to have it open." He begged, not wanting her to see the pain and the destruction he caused during the war.
Rose nodded and frowned. "Sorry...That little boy running around...was that you?" Rose asked as she wandered through other memories. Smiling when she saw a younger Sarah Jane and K-9. The Doctor gave her a small smile and a mental affirmative.
"Look around the TARDIS blue door, ts unlocked. You might find a familiar face." He suggested, knowing that's where his previous regenerations were hiding.
Rose nodded and wandered around looking for the famous blue door. As she pushed the door open, Rose was greeted with a familiar face. Just like the Doctor said. There in front of her, stood a man in the familiar leather jacket and jumper. Their song was playing. The song that they danced to after the Blitz..Rose covered her mouth in surprise. The Doctor stood in the door way of his mind, nodding to his previous self.
"Ello again Rose." His ninth form said, stepping closer to her. While the Doctor, the tenth to be exact, knew that they were the same man, he thought that Rose might like to say good bye and too see the failed dress attempts from his previous selves. The Tenth stepped forward, nudging Rose, "He is me and I am him, but we are different. Dance with him, have a proper goodbye." He suggested, smiling.
Tears fell down Roses' eyes as she walked over to the 9th Doctor and hugged him tightly. She didn't mean to stain his shirt with her tears, but she couldn't help it. He had saved her life. Rose looked up at him. "See? The world didn't end just because the Doctor danced..." She said as a half sob, half laugh came out of her.
No," The ninth Doctor agreed, looking to his future self, "But I think the pretty boy is getting a little jealous. He was made for you. He was made becasue I wanted to stay with you. That man was made for your every need. Remember me, but love him. He is me." The ninth Doctor said, giving Rose a nudge to go to the Tenth Doctor.
The Doctor opened his arms, ready to take a hold of Rose.
Rose smiled and kissed the 9th Doctor's cheek, "You realize your saying your jealous of yourself?" Rose teased then walked over to the Tenth. "How could I forget you? You saved my life with only one word...'Run.' " Rose then looked around at all the other versions of the Doctor himself. There was one that caught her eye that made her smile. First, she saw the one with the long colorful scarf with K-9 next to him, and next to him was a blonde with a celery on his lapel. Rose laughed leaning into the Doctor. "I'm guessing the one with K-9 is the one you traveled with Sarah Jane in?"
The Doctor poked her side, "Oi, leave me past selves alone, but seriously, look at my six form." He pointed to the blond wearing the technicolor coat. He collapsed on himself, laughing at his own dress sense. Rose heard his sixth self mutter something in protest but Rose just shook her head. "Don't be too hard on him. He's a child at heart..."
"Look at him! What was I on?" He asked, poking his tongue out at his former self, "Have you had enough snoop time around my head or is there anything else you want to see?" He asked, ready to show her almost everything.
Rose nodded. "I'm good here...Is there anything else you wish to show me?" Rose asked looking up at him. She knew he'd probably want to see things in her mind too, but they would get to that later. The Doctor thought trying to see if there was anything else he would want Rose to see before shaking his head.
"Nothing important here. Anything you want me to see before I let go?" He asked. Rose paused thinking for a minute...She wanted him to see how she acted after he'd sent her home before she absorbed the Time Vortex. She nodded, deciding to let him see. "I think its behind a gold door...Its already open, so go ahead and look..." Rose whispered. The Doctor returned to her mind, opening the door. The golden light poured out. The Doctor watched as Rose fought with the TARDIS, trying to get back to him.
"Oh Rose." He said, turning back to her. Rose just stood in the doorway. Tears brimmed her eyes as the memory came back to her.
"I couldn't leave you there. Knowing you were dying. You had told me to have a good life...but I couldn't. I couldn't have a good life where you weren't a part of it..." Rose whispered quietly, as the scene then changed to where she was arguing with Mickey and her mother about leaving the Doctor. The Doctor turned back to her memories, watching her argue with her mum. He never thought he was miss Jackie, but seeing her through Rose's eyes.
He continued watching, moving back to take her hand, letting her know that he was there for her. He watched as Mickey forced open the TARDIS with a big yellow truck and he heard the song of the TARDIS in Rose's head. Rose winced quietly, hearing the song in her head again. She'd had very small memories of that day. After she looked into the heart of the TARDIS, everything had gone blank…All she'd heard was the music, and Daleks taking to her…Rose slowly backed up and closed that door.
"Sorry….my head started to hurt a little…" she apologized and turned hearing Pete's voice and her younger self giggle behind another door. "A door filled of things I wish I could have had…." Rose whispered The Doctor shut the Bad Wolf door, not wanting to cause her pain. He pulled her close, kissing her hair.
"I dont think you need that life. You grew up brilliantly." He told her, grasping the time lines, not liking the idea of not meeting Rose is Pete survived. He was selfish, but he needed Rose. Rose nodded slowly and wrapped her arms around the Doctor's waist and smiled up at him.
"You want to see my favorite door?" Rose asked, walking towards a pink and yellow door. She was excited to show him what was inside...Her favorite memories shared between her and the Doctor. Both past and present.
The Doctor ducked his head, hiding his face in her hair. "Thats not your favorite door Rose. Cant be." He said, opening the door, hearing her cockney laughter mixed with his gruff northern tones, or mixed with his young Estuary vowels. He kissed her hair, closing the door. Rose smiled over at him.
"Believe me now? Its my favorite door because it has you and me in it together...Just as things should be."
