"Oh Rose." He said, taking his hands away from her temples, snapping back into his body. Rose smiled as her eyes opened.
"Now I know how Reinette feels…." Rose said quietly. "She told me about some of the things she'd seen but….There's so much more to you then she realized"
The Doctor shook his head, "Reinette didnt know half of what you know. What she did, she did with out permission. Thats close to mind rape. I let you in. I wanted you to see and one day, I might be strong enough to show you Gallifrey. But not yet. I cant." He told her, offering a hand to help her stand. He cracked his back, complaining that they should have gone someplace more comfortable before doing that.
Rose frowned apologetically. Now that she stood up, feeling stiff, she nodded. "Yeah, didn't think about that...Sorry." She apologized before cracking her own back. "I wonder what else I can do..." Rose whispered looking at the console...
The Doctor stood back, watching Rose. She had an unnatural glow about her, but he wouldnt have her any other way. Rose's fingers grazed over the many buttons and knobs on the console. There were so many places she and the Doctor could go. New planets to discover. Lives to save. Rose looked over at him and smiled before making her way to the monitor, the sphere's that were usually there, were just words..
"Hang on...I thought the TARDIS couldn't translate Gallifrayan?"
The Doctor shook his head, "She doesnt. Your reading it. Your reading and understanding Gallifreyan." He nodded to the console, watching the words rearrange, sort of the like a game for Rose. "She will change the word. Right now, it is an English word written in Gallifreyan but she might write a Gallifreyan word that you have to translate into English. Understand?" He asked, ready for the game.
Rose nodded slowly, trying to understand. "Yeah...I think so..." She nodded. Rose watched as the TARDIS took her through each of the letters, and was re arranging them for her. Once she got an idea for things, Rose thought of something she could try and translate. Rose ran over to the memory room and found an old Cot that had gallifrayan writing on it. She smiled when she understood the name on it and muttered it to herself... "Theta Sigma..."
The Doctor nodded, glaring at the TARDIS. He knew what those words meant, but did Rose. "Yup. Do you know the significance of those words?" He asked, knowing thats what the TARDIS wanted. Rose thought for a moment, it was a name of some kind, but whos name was it? After thinking for a moment she turned and looked at him.
"Its your name isn't it...?" She asked him quietly
"Weeeeelllllll, its the academy nickname I was given." He explained, tugging his ear. In English, it loosly translated to death. But Theta Sigma sounded nice coming from Rose. Rose nodded, she had to think for a minute which name she preferred better. Did she like calling him Theta or Doctor? Looking over at him, she walked over and wrapped her arms around his waist.
"I think I like Theta better than Doctor. It's more fun to say." Rose grinned
The Doctor screwed his nose up, "Only in private. A time lord's true name, even a nickname is sarcred. Call me it if you want, in fact, id love you too, but only when we are alone." He begged, breaking nearly every Gallifreyan rule. Rose nodded, something told her his name was special. Rose then looked up at him.
"Okay, how about this...I'll only call you Theta when its just you and me in the TARDIS...That way, no one else will know except you and me."The Doctor nodded, glad she understood how important this was to him.
"I would like that. I like how it sounds when you say it." He told her. Rose smiled and walked over to him, a small smile formed on her face. A smile she knew he liked
"Is that so," Rose paused, still getting used to his nickname. "Theta?" As she said his name, she felt a blush form on her cheeks. She loved saying his name, but deep down she wished he'd have a special name for her too when it was just them in the TARDIS. A shiver went down his spine, hearing his name, or part of his name, from her lips.
"My speical Rose." He said kissing her cheek. Rose looked down and felt her cheeks grow warmer from another burst of blush that must have formed on her cheeks. With a glint of adventure in her eyes, Rose looked up at him,
"Where should we go this time eh?"
The Doctor took her hand, smiling down at her. "Anywhere you want." The Doctor said to her.
Rose raised an eyebrow. "Anywhere? Anytime?" Rose paused thinking. "What about the Renaissance?" The Doctor nodded, telling her to get changed as he set the coordinates. Rose grinned like a little kid at Christmas, running down to the wardrobe and trying on all sorts off dresses. She had to find a dress that was perfect, but something the Doctor would like. After finding a pink gown, she walked back out into the Console room, and cleared her throat trying to get the Doctor's attention The Doctor looked up, speechless.
"Rose, pretty." He spat out, eyes wide. Rose laughed at his reaction and walked over kissing his cheek.
"Got you speechless have I? That's the second time I've gone and done that to you. The first time I did that was our second trip together remember?"
"You look good all dressed up." He defended, throwing down the TARDIS lever, sending them to the Middle Ages, Italy for the vRose laughed as they walked. "You always babble too much...but I like it. It makes me seem smart"Renaissance period. Rose held onto the TARDIS as she smiled over at him. This thrill of the TARDIS traveling never became boring for her. It was an adventure of its own. Feeling the TARDIS settle, Rose grinned running towards the door laughing.
"This one's mine!"
"You had 1860 Cardiff." He whined, racing after her, picking up his coat as he passed the coral."Whadda think?" He asked, pulling on his coat.
Rose laughed at him. "You've gotten more first times than me anyway" She teased then looked around. "Its beautiful here..." She said smilimg
"Just be careful," HE warned, "It may look pretty but there are so many human illness's around." Rose turned and looked at him before walking up to him and whispered quietly.
"Your meaning to tell me you brought me into the plague!?" She whispered. "Are you kidding?"
"Your the one the suggested it! And not the plague. But some illnesses. And it probably wont affect you or me." He said, scratching his head. Rose sighed then looked at him she smiled at him then took his hand.
"Okay, how about you lead us then?" Rose didn't mean a time where there was illnesses, but then again, there was illness anywhere really.
The Doctor took her hand, leading her down the streets of Italy, giving her the usual babble about the streets, the buildings and the people.
Rose laughed as they walked. "You always babble too much...but I like it. It makes me seem smart"
"What is wrong with my technobable?" The Doctor asked with mock outrage. before continuing his babble, but this time about the origins of babble. Rose laughed again and decided not to interrupt him again. She looked around the county side and smiled at their surroundings. It was beautiful, unlike anything she'd seen before.
"It's beautiful." The Doctor said, catching onto what she was looking at, "Makes you yearn for a simpler time." He said, biting his lip, holding back the question he didnnt dare to ask. Rose turned and looked at him, looking slightly confused at his comment.
"Simpler? What do you mean? You wish things were like this all the time?" Rose asked and could tell there was something he wanted to say. "What's wrong? You know you can ask me anything."
"Do you regret it? Regret me? Do you want to stop one day. You and me on a planet somewhere. Kids? A house with a white picket fence? The dog? The whole nine yards?" He asked, not meeting her eye. Rose just looked at him, speechless for a moment. Where'd this come from all of a sudden? Sure when they were on that ship with the Ood they'd joked about setteling down when they thought he'd lost the TARDIS but...Did he really want that?
"No..." Rose started, "No I don't regret meeting you...I've never regretted any time I've had with you. I mean, I love running with you. Its an adventure every day. Its way better than what my life was before I met you." Rose said being honest with him.
"But don't you want to settle down, kids, dogs, fence, apple pie life?" The Doctor asked, thinking she would be a good wanted to give her everything, but he could never give her that life.
Rose thought for a moment. "Maybe, one day...I've got my whole life ahead of me...Besides, I'm not leaving you for anything in the world. I promised you forever and I'm never leaving you...Remember?" The Doctor sighed, wishing that were true. They all left him in the end. Even Rose would go. She promised forever, but he knew she wouldnt keep her promise. Instead, he sighed, pulling her close.
"Yeah." He muttered.
Rose held onto him wrapping her arms around his waist. "What about you? If you had the choice, would you want to settle down and start a family with me?" He'd asked her but now she wanted to see how he felt. Rose looked up at him with tears in her eyes. Did he really feel that way? No, he couldn't feel that way. Rose really wanted to smack him, but she fought the urge.
"You said that with Sarah Jane. I thought things had changed. Yes, you may be a Time Lord, but that doesn't mean you have to be a Stupid Ape!" Rose shouted at him and ran off towards her room with tears falling down her cheeks
"Rose?!" The Doctor called, chasing after her, "I want to have a family with you, but it is not medically possible." Catching up to her, he pulled her close, "After Gallifrey, I never thought it possible. I still dont. But if it could, with anyone, I wish it were with you." Rose tried to pull away from him as he hugged her. He wanted a family, but with his time lord genes and her human ones, he was right. It wasn't possible, but then she heard something that made her just cling to him. If he could pick anyone in the universe to have a family with...it would be her. Rose slowly pulled away and looked at him.
"Are you at least willing to try?"
The Doctor fought the urge to scratch his head. Try? Like sex? But.. he knew that they would never be compatible? Did she mean clinical treatments? "Yes. I want to try. With you. For you. But, dont get your hopes up, please. I dont want to see you disappointed." He muttered, holding onto her. Rose looked at him and kissed him softly before pulling away. He was willing to try..and that's all she'd ever ask for.
"Okay..." She nodded looking up at him. "I know things won't work but...maybe we'll have a miracle right? There's always a chance. I know there is a big chance nothing won't happen but...if there was anyone I'd want to be with...its you." She smiled and smirked pulling away from him and walked towards the wardrobe, looking or something that he'd like, The Doctor nodded, watching her go. He tried to calculate the chances of conception. If she was fully human, it would have been 5%, but now, it was closer to 35%. Time Lord conception was always difficult, the species having chosen to use Looms instead.
Rose scrambled through the wardrobe. There had to be something. After smiling to herself, after finding what she hoped was a suitable outfit, Rose slipped on the purple top and underwear and then, covered herself with a purple covering. She was nervous, she'd never been with anyone before. Not even Mickey. This moment was special for her, and she had butterflies in her stomach as she slowly made her way through the halls and towards her room. "Doctor? I'm in my room when your all set..." She called out before walking into her bedroom on the TARDIS