Locking herself in the neatly cleaned room that was once Levi's, Petra has herself curled up in a ball with her face hidden inside the last known object Levi had put on that day. He nose filled with the stiff smell of the expensive french cologne that he bought specifically for Petra for their first date.

Oh that first date. Levi walked up to Petra one day while she were sweeping and bluntly told her that he was taking her out that night. Without a fight and a bit of shock and excitement she agreed eagerly. After a few hours of cleaning Petra had finally gotten to her room, taking a long shower and doing her hair, she thought considerably about doing her make up but decided against it. Her hair in loose curls and wearing just a plain black long sleeve shirt and jeans she waited anxiously for Levi to make his appearance. Sitting on her bed watching the sun begin to fall behind the wall she heard a soft knock at the door, jumping up and almost running to get it. She mentally prepared herself before finally opening the door wide to be faced with him.

His hair in the usually style but his clothes were nice. He wore a white button up shirt with his coat resting on his shoulders, his arms crossed with that annoyed look in his eye he always had, he cleared his throat and took her hand pulling her close to him. Petra smiled and told him he had looked nice and he just shook it off, replying that she was as beautiful as ever, locking his arm around hers.

That first night they were ever together they just went to a small restaurant and talked about everything other than work. Family, friends, relationships, hobbies, books. Just usual stuff. It felt great for her to finally open up to someone about anything other than the great terror that shadowed the human race every day of their lives. Petra remembered Levi walking her home and the weather getting chilly, she walked with him, her fingers intertwined with his trying to hide the shivers her body couldn't hold back. She continued on with her eyes resting on the ground watching as their feet stepped in unison till she felt Levi stop and tug her toward his direction. He placed his hands on her shoulders and smiled a weak smile, making Petra giggle. Levi smiling was a rare occasion, she didn't even think he could smile for that matter. Seeing him attempt was down right adorable in her eyes.

He let go and whirled his coat around off his shoulders and placed it neatly on hers. With a sigh he took her hand once more without another word and took her home. Before saying goodbyes Petra noticed Levi was a bit distant. Well more so than usual. His eyes were scanning the floor as she faced him and his cheeks taking a subtle shade of pink. Petra smiled a wide smile and said his name. "levi… are you going to kiss me or not?"

Levi looked up at her in a bit of shock and a smirk forming on the side of his lips. Petra was shorter than Levi and he quite enjoyed that. He bent down slightly and planted his hard chapped lips on hers. The scent of that expensive french cologne was the last thing she smelled of him that night. His coat reeking of it as she flung it on the bed after saying their good nights. She didn't bother to change for bed, instead just climbing under the covers taking Levi's coat into her arms as she dozed off to sleep with a smile wide on her face. Petra could never be so happy.

Petras eyes sprang open as the thought ran through her head in an instant. Tears beginning to weld up in her eyes making her sight blurry. The sun began to set leaving a orange light spilling through cracks of the closed blinds. Laying under the covers in sadness the only noise she could hear are the faint footsteps of fellow soldiers walking past the other side of the door. Listening silently to every little creak the floor boards made till she heard a steady knock at the door.

"go away."

"Petra.. it's me.. Eren."

With a sigh she threw the covers off of on top of her on to the ground and flung her legs to the side of the bed. Petra had a massive headache and didn't care to see anyone at the moment. But one of the last people to have worked with Levi was Eren. With a deep sigh and a quick wipe of the tears sitting on her cheeks she opened the door.

"what is it that you want." He words harsh as she looked on to Erens face that held concern and sadness.

"I came to check up on you… Hanji's a mess and I figured you would be just as bad if not worse." His steady voice in a whisper not wanting to raise suspicion around the other soldiers in the scouting legion. Eren only knew of Petra and Levi because he was Levi's underling that had to be around him at all times. Eren never hated the mane, he did resent him a couple of times for how he would act, but thinking about it now was silly. Levi was never a bad person, just someone that wanted everything to be done right and so that no one close to him would get hurt, Eren included.

"I'm fine."

"Petra… If you need to talk I'm always here. I worked closely with Levi everyday, I unders-"

"You don't understand a damn thing." Her voice was jarring, letting the words seep out through her teeth as her hand clutched the doorknob.

"eren, you will never understand… just go away and leave me alone."

Eren watched as tears began to stream down her face, the sight was heartbreaking. Without a second thought he threw her arms around her and held her tightly in his strong embrace. Petra didn't fight it but tried to keep the waterworks at bay. All she had done the past 24 hours was cry and she wanted to be strong for the trainees. She's been at this job for five years now, she's watched countless men die and not once shed a single tear. So when it came to Levi, she had to try to fight it like all the other times when she were around fellow men.

Petra felt Eren place his hand on the small of her back and his chin resting on top of her head. "if you need to cry.. cry." He sighed as his voice shook. Petra closed her eyes letting a few tears fall on Erens shoulder.

"why… didn't you protect him.."

"what?"

"WHY DIDN'T YOU PROTECT HIM!" she screamed, now soaking Erens uniform.

"Petra, there was literally nothing we could do! I'm sorry, We're all sorry. We had to.. We couldn't save him. But I regret it. I wish I could go back and not leave him to fight the titan by himself. I wish we all came back, but shit happens and sometimes its hard to swallow but we have to deal with it." Eren could feel her short breaths between sobs on his chest. He not dare say another word, What he said was blunt but it was the truth. Petra knew she had to deal with it and she knew if she wanted to continue fighting along side everyone without Levi by her side, she had to be strong.

She let out a loud sniffle and wiped her face. She broke free from Eren and held him at arms length. Her facial expression holding sadness and frustration but with an obvious try of strength. "I loved him Eren."

"I know." His voice in a whisper.

Petra hugged Eren once more and said thank you. The cruel words that Eren had said made her come to realisation. She was going to continue fighting, and she was going to continue being as strong as she could be, She was ready to take down the female titan if she had to do it alone. She was willing to put her life on the line to get rid of the monster that killed the only man she could ever love. With or without Levi by her side, She was going to become Humanity's strongest.