The Melancholy Schmaltz

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CHAPTER EIGHTEEN: THE GAMBLE

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She was confused on how and why, but she had said her yes to him. Everything went so fast that she acted right-away without thinking. She was confused. Perhaps she loved him still… no; she never loved him, because she still loves him.

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Kahoko was leaning on the balcony's railings when she felt two strong arms embracing her from behind. He pressed his body to her own and gave her a kiss in her head.

"I love you." He whispered.

"You do?" She questioned.

"I mean it and don't ever question me again." He leaned his head on hers.

Kahoko weakly smiled. "How can I not? When everything is still blurry about us?"

"Blurry you say? How can it be blurry?" He moved back.

She silently sighed. "Len… we are still together and—"

"I don't care about him." He sternly replied.

Her brows curled. "Well I care about him!" She paused to gaze at his calm yet provoking face. "He was with me when the world collapsed. He was always there for me and that's the only thing that you can say?"

"And what do you want me to say?" The calmness in his voice was irking.

She does not know what she wanted him to say. She cannot tell him to thank Len nor can she tell him to leave her, but worst of all she was not ready to leave Len. She cannot just abandon the man whom she learned to love?

"Let's stop this. We will only argue. You would never understand." She walked past by him but Azuma held her arm. "Let's just be friends."

"Friends? No." He walked near her.

"I love Len. I may have answered you a yes but that doesn't mean that I am giving Len up." She pulled her arm.

"Then what's the point of answering me?" He question, obviously annoyed.

"I don't know…"

"Remember this, I won't give up." He pulled her closer to him, lips only inches apart. He gave her a smirk. "Good night my love." He then left her alone.

Kahoko went to her bed and sighed. She had to calm down. Seeing him that close to her makes her want to be with him. She was confused. She doesn't know what to do. She was torn between two lovers. The two differ from one another. If only she could, she would not choose, but she has to. She cannot gamble their feelings for her own selfishness?

"Oh God, Help me." She laid down and closed her eyes.

But she did not know that by giving Azuma an answer, she already had gambled.

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Len sat on his chair and stared at the bright noon. He felt something. A hollow feeling and he recognize it. He missed her. He wouldn't deny that to himself. He closed his eyes and reached out to his phone. He wanted to call her. To hear her voice but he doesn't want to disturb her.

He stood up and went to his table. He took a look at his albums and scanned them. He gazed at their pictures together.

'Perhaps it time for me to make a move.' He thought to himself.

He had decided to… propose to her and make her his bride.

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'I am not going to loose her again.' Azuma thought to himself.

And he is determined to make things happen.

Author's note: This is really getting complicated so please let me know what you think. I am so sleepy while writing this so I am sorry if there are errors. My eyes are going to break-down. But anyway… What do you think of the Three? Kahoko? Len? Azuma?