After the… interesting car ride home, I was thankful that there will be more people. Reid takes me out of the car gently, treating me like porcelain. His hand accidently brushes against the small of my back, making my knees go weak. I blush slightly and look down, hoping that no one noticed and of course with me being blind, I couldn't check and see. Well, I could, but I chose not to. You see, when I Use, I can see sometimes. To me, it's a catch twenty two. Yes, I get to see but if I rely on that too much, then when I ascend I will be fucked. I sigh, thinking of the last time that I Used.
It was dark out and Reid left. It was the summer of 2003, so I was thirteen.
Reid had to go home. His dad Used too much and started to age. At that time, none of us even knew about the Power. As I sit alone in silence, I feel something strange. I feel everything around me shimmer and something deep inside telling me that something was wrong. I close my eyes, willing for the feelings to leave, willing for it all to stop. Then I hear Caleb, Pogue and Tyler walk into the room. I open my eyes and I see them! I mean that I actually see them! With my own two eyes! I run and jump into their arms, but they look at me in shock.
"What's wrong?" I ask. "Don't you see? I actually have vision!" I exclaim, hopping around in circles. Tyler then points to a mirror, looking like he was in a daze. I stop hopping and slowly look into the mirror. What I see scares me. Staring back at me is a girl. A girl with beautiful pitch black hair, high cheekbones and a full set of lips… But that's not what scares me. It's the eyes. They were pitch black. I scream, terrified. I bury my head into my hands, scratching at my eyes. Tyler runs up to me and grabs my hands, forcing me to look at him, forcing me to stop.
"Baie, you can change this. Do what you did before, you need to stop the Power. Close your eyes." He orders. I nod my head and do as he asks. "Okay, now concentrate. Make the Power stop." He whispers. My eyes burst open, but I can still see.
"But then I'll be blind again." I complain. Caleb walks over and takes my face into his hands.
"And we will love you the exact same. You are our Baby B. There is nothing in this world that can change that. Not blindness, immorality nothing, okay? But, if you don't discipline yourself into not Using then when you ascend at eighteen, each time you Use, you age." Caleb explains. Pogue kneels beside him and takes me into a hug.
"Babe, you need to stop this." Pogue whispers, kissing me head. I nod and close my eyes, wishing that I never wanted to make anything stop. As I feel everything around me fade, I open my eyes, but I can't see. I start to cry, only for Reid to walk in and freak out.
"What the hell happen while I was gone?!" He basically yells running towards me. Caleb explains and Reid only becomes more upset. He holds me in his arms and I finally stop crying. That night, I didn't sleep at all. I just looked up, trying to remember the little things that I saw. The way that the light came through the windows, the way that the rug looked slightly worn and old, the way that the boys stood, the way that the floor looked scratched. And then one thing kept coming to mind: How the fuck did that just happen?
"Baie? Are you okay?" Reid asks, sounding like he did that horrible day. I then notice that tears are coming to my eyes. I smile up at him and shake my head, blinking back my unshed tears.
"I'm as good as I'll ever be." I whisper, burying my head into his arm, letting a few tears fall and stain his sweater. I guess Reid kept acting weird because I heard Pogue and Caleb ask multiple 'what's wrongs' only to get blew off by a slight shrug. I sniffle slightly and smile broadly.
"So," I ask. "what is the agenda for today?" I get a shrug from Reid and I look up at him, stunned. "What the fuck is wrong with you?" I ask waiting for an explanation. Instead of an explanation, I get an angry Reid Garwin.
"Oh, you mean that I can't be a little upset that my best fucking friend is pissed and fucking depressed and she won't talk to me about it? Sorry I didn't get that damn memo, I'll try to be better." He spits venomously. I drop his arm and turn my body towards him, stunned.
"What? Just because I do not feeling like spilling my heart out right now doesn't mean that I never will! If you really want to know that damn bad I'll just fucking say it! I was thinking about the first and only god blessed time that I saw! So you know what, I'm so fucking sorry that I kinda got depressed, I'm sorry that I got pissed and I'm sorry that I didn't tell you what the fuck is wrong with me every second of every fucking day!" I yell, livid. Who the fuck does he think he is?! My boyfriend?! I storm passed him and feel my way up the stairs and into my room. I slam the door behind me and sink to the ground, head in hands. As I calm down, I feel that huge lump in the back of your throat that you get right before you cry your heart out. I fight the tears and sit there, making weird choking noises. I then hear multiple some ones walk up the stairs and knock on my door.
"Baie? Miss. Baie Simms? Can we talk?" Reid asks, sinking to the floor. I quiet my choking and shake my head.
"No." I whisper out. I hear a muffled sigh and can hear Reid's hands run over his face and through his hair.
"Please?" He begs.
"No." I say, more authority in my voice. Then I hear Caleb pipe up.
"Baby B, when has Reid ever chased after a girl?" He asks. I hear Reid scoff and kick Caleb's leg.
"Shut the hell up!" He hisses. I giggle slightly and shake my head.
"My answer is still no." I persist. Then I hear the unexpected. I hear Reid get up and shoo the rest of the guys away.
"Fine, if you won't talk to me, you'll listen. Baie Loraine Simms, I am so sorry that I over-reacted. You are my best friend and when I see you like that, it tears me up inside. You are my go-to person for everything and, like I said, when I see you like that, crying and depressed, I don't know what to do with myself. Then, to make matters worse, you don't talk when you're like that, making me go over the edge. Baie, I don't even know why I am saying this, I mean now I'm just rambling and I sound like an idiot and… Baie… I just… Ugh, I don't know." He concludes, sinking back down. I know that he has more to say, but I don't push the subject. I slowly stand up and open the door, giving him time to stand. As the door swings fully open, I feel myself get pulled into yet another hug. I bury my head into his chest and wrap my arms around his toned torso. His head is buried into the top of my hair as he mumbles something that I couldn't hear.
"What did you just say?" I ask cautiously. But he just chuckles and shakes his head.
"Nothing my sweet. Nothing that you need to be worried about for just a little while longer." He responds, burying his face into my hair once more.
Okay, so this weird filler was well, weird lol so next chapter you will know if there is a love triangle or not. I'm still trying to count up all of the PM's lol. okay, so tell me what you think! Thank you all again!