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"What do you mean a mistake, what type of mistake?" Karen wanted to reach out and caress her baby's face like she had when she'd been a little girl but she feared April would break down into a puddle of tears if she did.

April bit her lip so hard she could taste the blood against her tongue. She swallowed "I…." she trialed of and grabbed her mother's hand. "Please don't hate me." She pleaded.

"Never." Karen shook her head.

"I slept with someone I slept with Jackson."

Karen felt shook run though her body as she stared at her second born. She hadn't expected that to come out of April's mouth. "April." She whispered.

"I knew you would hate me." April sobbed shaking her head as tears poured down her face.

"No, No I don't hate you." Karen grabbed her shoulders and pulled her into a hug she held her against her shoulder running her hands through her hair. "I could never hate you." Karen pulled away and looked into April's eyes. Seeing the pain confusion and guilt residing there. "Can you tell me what happened?"

"It was during our boards I don't know why it happened but it did and I regret it on some levels but on others I don't think I could ever regret it. I know that doesn't make any sense."

"No baby I think it makes perfect sense." Karen thought of her own young adult hood. "I wasn't a virgin when I married your father." She let that piece of information go a piece of information she'd never shared with any of her daughters.

"What?" April looked at her mother shell shocked.

"It wasn't your father either. "It was a guy I met during college. I won't say who but I slept with him I cared for him but it didn't work out I don't regret it thought and your father knows the story and he still loves me I love your father but I think that I missed my chance with the other guy I could have had something amazing with him and well I don't regret my decisions now I did for a long time regret not trying with him. So April baby if you love Jackson or think for even a second you guys could work out you need to go for it. You may one day find someone else to love but Jackson could by your one. Don't let this make you leave him."

"He's going to Tulane and I'm here." April laughed bitterly.

"If it's meant to happen it will." Karen smiled at her daughter. She had a feeling call it mothers intuition that the story of Jackson and April was far from over.

"Can we keep this between just me and you?" April asked looking pleadingly at her mother. She really didn't want her father or sisters to know about the sorry state of her life.

"Sure. Now why don't you get some sleep you look exhausted."

"I am." April kissed her mother's cheek and smiled tightly. "Thanks for the talk mom."

"Any time." Karen watched her daughter walk up the stairs.

"is it safe to come inside?" Joe peaked around the door.

Karen nodded. "How much of that did you hear?"

"Nothing I swear. Is she ok?"

"She will be."

April collapsed on her childhood bed and stared at the ceiling. Memories of that night flashed through her mind. Memories of Jackson's skin under her hands his lips on hers. And she sighed rolling onto her side and hugging her pillow. Wishing it was Jackson she was holding. She thought of what her mother had told her and shook her head. She'd ruined her chance she knew that but she wished she hadn't. but like she'd told her mother she was here in Ohio and Jackson was in Seattle soon to go New Orleans even if she wanted it wouldn't work between them it couldn't work between them. She wondered what was going on In Seattle and she'd picked up her phone to text someone anyone be it Meredith or Alex Cristina or even Jackson but as she stared at the phone she couldn't bring herself to do it. Her life was in Ohio now and she'd have to learn to deal with that reality.

A/N thanks to those that reviewed next chapter we go back to Seattle Grace and see what Jackson is feeling thinking and doing. Please review.