Richard Castle (RCPOV)

Kate and I were having an extreme interesting conversation; something rarely happened in that kind of event, the couple were old friends of mine, Ben and Susan, which helped through some difficult times. In fact, they were the ones to point out to me that Gina, my second wife, wasn't interested in Alexis, something that someone who was my wife probably should; so something was wrong with the situation. Not that Gina had to love Alexis as a daughter but she could at least pay some attention to my, at the time, little girl.

Kate were glowing of happiness, after the Peter incident I was worried that she would get in a bad mood and not enjoy the party, but thankfully I was wrong. Maybe the make out session that we had helped a little bit to boast her spirit, I hoped. I couldn't stand that guy, when Kate was with him, I didn't like for the oblivious reason, he had the girl that I wanted to be my girl, but now, I didn't have a good reason to not like him but yet, I couldn't. Since he was the past, it didn't matter anymore if I liked him or not.

While Ben went to get a drink, Kate started an animated conversation with Susan, I wasn't a participant on it so I used the time to hug Kate from behind and smell her hair that, as always, smelled like cherry. After knowing this little fact about her, I couldn't smell cherries without thinking about her perfect hair.

Kate was engaged on the conversation and I on smelling her hair, when I heard a man call Kate, her whole body tensed up; I looked around trying to find who made Kate tense like that; I looked behind me and saw a man, probably almost at his 55 with a pretty blond, probably 45, at his arms. I didn't have the time to try to discover who he was when I heard Kate's voice.

"Hello Jim, what can I do for you?" She said with her voice so cold, that I was afraid of what she could do with the person. Susan felt the same thing and looked with curiosity to that person that made Kate changed her posture so much in the matter of a few seconds.

"Hi Kate, how are you my dear?" The man tried to say with a warm voice but the happiness of his voice didn't reach his eyes, the woman by his side was smiling polite but you could feel that she preferred to be in hell than be there.

"Before we continue this conversation, do I need to remind you that I am not your dear? But answering your question, I am fine. What about you Jim, are you fine? And you Juliana?" Kate said looking with a cold stare for both of them, Susan took the opportunity to leave saying something like bye, talk to you later.

"Katie, please. Don't be like that." The man, which I discovered was called Jim said.

"I am fine." The woman whispered almost afraid of Kate, if I was her, and I was the person that Kate was looking that way, I would be afraid too.

"You came to talk to me Jim, not the way around. So I will pick the way I act." Kate stated taking a sip of her martini.

"I just miss you. I know that you think what I did was wrong, but I miss my baby girl." When he said baby girl I almost screamed "what? ". That man was her father?

"Well, I am really sorry that you miss me. But like I said 17 years ago, you lost me the day that you didn't mourn mom. I don't have anything against you Juliana, don't worry. Now we have to go, don't we Castle?" When she said my name I snapped out of whatever I had and answered:

"Yes, we have. Nice to meet you two, have a good night." Kate didn't even say goodbye, just took my hand and walked across the ball towards the door, before we could reach the exit, I stopped her.

"Hey, what just happened there?" I asked taking her on my arms.

"I can't explain now or I will fall apart. Just call our car so we can go, please?" She said looking at some point far away from me, but never at me.

"Can you at least look at me?"

"No, I can't. I am sorry, just call the car." She whispered.

"Okay, don't worry baby." I said sensing that something was indeed very wrong.

I called the car and five minutes later we were inside it heading towards the loft; since it was late, didn't have any traffic; soon we arrived at home.

Kate headed towards my bedroom without even looking behind herself or around her; she just headed towards there like a woman in a super mission. When she entered the bedroom, I was right behind her and closed the door.

She started taking her dress off and taking deep breathes like she was trying to contain herself; at this point I didn't know what to do, so I tried again to talk to her.

"Baby, can you talk with me now?"

"Yes." She whispered dropping her dress on the floor and turning towards the bathroom, she started walking towards it and when she reached the door she stopped and whispered again. "I can't." I didn't know if she was talking to me or with herself.

"What you can't Kate?" I said starting to take my clothes off to put my PJs.

"I can't do a new word. Not again, I gave him too many words. I am tired of writing words to him, he doesn't deserve." She whispered dropping into her knees and resting her head on the bathroom door. Hearing what she wanted to do, I finished taking my clothes off fast and dropped to my knees by her side.

"Hey, you don't need to make a new word Kate. I am here, you are not alone. You can talk to me. I won't judge or anything, just open up to me, I am here." I said and took her fragile body into my arms. "Don't worry Kate, I am here." I whispered in her ear again and again until her body started to shake and I felt her tears wet my shoulder.

"I have made so many words for him, you know? He thinks it was easy to say goodbye? But he wanted a new family and I was too broken, I am too broken. To be a part of it, he didn't even mourn mom right! He just went off and married someone! And I was left all alone, I just had the words. My mother loved words, she used to tell me. 'Katie princess, the words and you are my best friends, and the words are your best friend too. So you are never alone, you will always have me and the words are all around, so, they will never leave you alone.' But she left, she left me all alone and I had just the words, they kept me company for so long. Mom was right, they never left me. Everybody at some point left me; my mother, my father, Lanie for a few months left me, she got tired of rescuing me and the ones that didn't leave me, I left them. I am like some weird poison Castle, I am sorry that you fallen in love with me. You couldn't pick a worst person to fall in love to." She said between tears.

"Hey, hey, I am not going to leave you, and I am not going to let you leave me. Don't worry and the words are also my best friend but Kate, writing on yourself won't make the pain go away, it will just hurt you even more. I know it worked for a long time, but you don't need it anymore. I am here, I am here, don't worry." I picked her up and put her into the bed. "I love you way too much to see you do that to yourself, you don't have the right to hurt the object of my deep love. Do you understand? You can't hurt the person that holds my heart. Now sleep, in the morning everything appear brighter. I will be here when you wake up, don't worry. Good night baby, I love you."

"Good night." She whispered back.

Kate's sob soon stopped a few minutes after and she fell asleep on my arms, right after her, I fell asleep too.

I hope you guys like the chapter. Sorry about the delay but I spent the weekend on the farm and there didn't have internet. Have a good week :)

If you can, please review.

Also, I had an idea of a pre-sequel where the death tells about Kate's words. It would be like 15 chapters telling what happened and the meaning behind the word of the chapter. Each chapter, a word. What you guys think?