Katherine Beckett (KBPOV)
Friday night I went to bed late, and yet, I woke up early on Saturday; at 7am my eyes opened and refused to close again and I didn't have to meet Mackenzie until 10am, I had 2 hours to kill and nothing to really do. Castle was still asleep and the loft was silent still.
Doing my best to no wake up Castle I got out of the bed and went to the kitchen to start the coffee machine, so I would truly wake up; I was still trying to process the conclusion that I made a few hours back: I loved Castle.
I was lost in thought when I heard the noisy from the coffee machine telling me that my coffee was ready. I started pouring when I heard the door of Castle's room opening.
"Hey baby, you woke up early." Castle said making his way towards me.
"Yeah…" I said not really sure of what to say to him. He has been saying for a month that he loved me, and when was my time to say, I wasn't sure. After I talked to Mackenzie about it, I would feel more confident and tell him about it. "Did you sleep well?" I asked and rested my hips on the kitchen counter.
"Yes, I did. What about you? In the middle of the night I am sure that I woke up and didn't find you in the bed, where were you?"
"Hum… I got hungry!" I said giving him a kiss.
"You could have woken me up; we could have made a midnight snack." Caste said putting his left hand by my right side on the kitchen counter and his right hand on my left side on the kitchen counter, trapping me in front of him. "I would have loved to give you a midnight snack." He whispered in my ear.
"After round two I wasn't sure if you have more of it in you." I whispered back.
"Oh, with you I always have it on me." He said and we started kissing, I didn't know what was different on that kiss, but something was. He put one of his hands on my neck and brought me the most closer that was humanly possible. When things started getting too heated, I heard Alexis.
"Ewwwwww guys, please stop this. It is too weird to see you guys making out on the kitchen counter!"
"Sorry Alexis." I said with a shy smile while Castle hided his face on the spot where my neck met my shoulders.
"Yeah okay, just try to control yourself, I am the teenager of the house, I am the one with the body full of hormones, not you guys."
"You are right, sorry." I said laughing.
After that, we fall in an easy conversation, until I got up of the table to start getting ready to meet Mackenzie.
At 10am, I entered Mackenzie office, with a nervous face.
"Hello Katherine, how was your week?"
"Almost great, Alexis' mother showed up yesterday out of the blue, she usually misses Alexis' birthday but this one, she showed up." I said quickly.
"Did the two of you have a problem?" Mackenzie asked.
"Yes, but this is not what I came here to talk to you about." I said looking at my hands.
"What you came here to talk about?"
"IthinkIaminlovewithCastle." I said quickly, like if I said fast enough it wouldn't be important.
"Sorry, I didn't catch it."
"I think I am in love with Castle." I almost whispered.
"And why you think that?"
So I told her about the quotes and the others stuff I read on the internet, about what I felt when Meredith appeared out of the blue, I told her about my decision to change the way I lived my life and then when I had told her about all the things I thought was important for her to make an opinion on the subject, to finish our conversation on the subject, I asked her:
"After all that stuff I told you, do you think I am in love with Castle?"
"Well Katherine, do you think you are in love with Castle?" She asked with a smirk on her face.
"Argh, I hate when you ask my questions back to me without answering it." I said with an angry voice. "I think I am… I really believe I am in love with Castle."
"So… What are you waiting to tell him? Didn't he tell you that he loves you a month ago?"
"I don't know, I never said 'I love you' to a boy since I am like sixteen, that I meant of course, I always said 'I love you' to Peter but I didn't mean it."
"How do you know that you didn't mean when you said it to Peter?"
"Because I never thought if I loved him or not, I just said I loved him back when he said he loved me. It was an automatically response for what he said but with Castle, he knew that I didn't love him back yet, and he said he would wait for me to love, so…. Even if I didn't want to think about the subject, I had to think, plus, with Castle, it was always different."
"How different Katherine?"
"I don't know how to explain…It was like…with Peter, he knew that I was fucked up but didn't know how much and he didn't accepted it, he wanted to fix me, change me and Castle, he knew my real self, he knew how much fucked up I was and he accepted it, he loved every bit of it and didn't try to change me, he hoped that I would change a few things, but he only hoped, he didn't know if I would and yet, he loved me anyway. Also, the few things that he wanted to change, was the parts of me that needed changing so we could have a chance of a real, stable and long relationship."
"So… You know the difference. Now, that you realized that you know that difference, what you think about you loving Castle. Do you or do you not love Castle?"
I stopped to think about it for a few seconds, I know that the day before I was almost sure that I was in love with Castle but at that moment, I was completely sure I was in love and loved him. He wanting, or not, changed me since the first time we met at that coffee shop, the black cloud that seen to live above my head making me always so dark with the time starting disappearing and that day was that day that it indeed was gone. That day, I was sure that for the first time in a long time I loved someone that wasn't me. I loved Richard Castle. I had to tell him. I fucking loved Richard Castle.
I said a rushed goodbye to Mackenzie, entered my car and rushed to the loft, the ride of twenty minutes that usually for me was like a blink of an eye that day appeared to take a month, when I arrived at the loft building I pressed the bottom of the elevator a thousand times as it would make the elevator gets there faster, when it stopped at Castle's floor, I opened the door of the loft and called for Castle:
"Castle, Rick, Castle, where the fuck are you?" I almost screamed at the living room. He left his bedroom with a worried face and rushed towards me taking my head on his hands, checking my face to see if it would give a clue of what was happening.
"Did something happen? Are you alright?" He said with a worried voice.
"Yes, something happened." I said with a big smile.
"Well, must be good if you have such a big smile." He said putting his hands on my hips.
"Well… it is." I said putting my hands behind his neck and bringing his face near to mine. "I fell in love with this fellow, and I rushed here to tell him…" I put my mouth close to his ear and whispered "Castle, I love you."
"What?" He said looking into my eyes with a big smile.
"You heard me mister, I love you." I said giving his a small kiss on the lips.
"Did you just say that you love me?"
"Yes, I just said it."
"Katherine Beckett, the Katherine Beckett, loves me?"
"Yeah, she loves you, very much."
Castle gave me hug and started kissing my face. "Please say again… I waited for so long to hear these words out of your mouth."
"I love you Richard Castle, you made the girl of stone heart and broke soul love you…, I love you."
"Wow, I am so happy… I love you so much Kate, so fucking much. It's good to hear it back."
"I love you fucking much too Rick." I said kissing him again, but this time we only stopped when we reached his room and for the first time made love, not just sex, we really made love.
Hi, this was the last chapter now just the epilogue. Tomorrow I will write the first chapter of the pre-sequel, it will have only 8 or 10 chapters.
In this chapter I put that Kate was in love and loved Castle, for me, each expression has it own meaning, so I wanted you guys to be sure that she was in love and also loved Castle.
Also, I wish you a good Christmas and New Year's eve.
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