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Chapter 5 - It's like gravity

Alec led Clary out of the place and away from everyone else. He didn't even know where he was bringing her or why he was doing this, but he was like under a spell and his body moved without his permission. The cold breeze of the upcoming winter seemed to pierce his skin like thousands of thin needles, yet he kept on walking along the outside walls of the once incredibly beautiful building, that now looked more like a ruin.

"Okay...," Alec said "I think that's far enough."

"What do you mean?", Clary couldn't hide the nervousness in her voice.

"If you want to ask me any questions, then now would be a good time for that.", he said looking down into her sea green eyes "I want to know what you think about me."

Clary realised how close he was, and it sent shivers down her back uncontrollably, but she couldn't back away, because she could already feel the cold wall against her spine. She took a breath and prepared to let out all her thoughts, she had the last few days "Look, Alec. I don't really know what to think anymore. I thought you hated me by the way you used to treat me. You made me feel like a worthless bug that you would like to kill so it won't bother you anymore. Then, after all of this, you came to me and told me about your feelings about Max' death.", her voice seemed to crumble and she continued more silently "The way you talked to me gave me this weird comfortable feeling as if you were someone I had known my whole life."

Alec watched her carefully through his blue eyes and a small smile spread across his lips. He wanted to reach out and touch her rosy cheeks and run his fingers through her hair, but he had to keep his 'calm cool', like Isabelle would say.

"But," Clary then continued and escaped his stare to face the ground instead "Then you kissed me and... It confused me. No. It was stuck in my mind and kept me up all night. I questioned why. Why would you, the cold oh-so-cool Mr Alec Lightwood, do something like that. And why me? Those things made me more confident and gave me the feeling of wanting to know every side of you. And then, the next day, ... There he was again! The cold and silently suffering loner who wouldn't even give me the chance to have a proper conversation with him, like adults would."

Alec tried to get her to look at him again "Does that mean.."

"No, I don't hate you. Even though there were enough times I wanted to, but I just couldn't. Everytime I tell myself what a fool you are there is a voice in my head telling me that you're not. Maybe I'm crazy but sometimes..", her voice broke and she looked back at him. She noticed that he had moved even further towards her and their knees and thighs were slightly touching.

"Go on," he said. Clary thought she saw a light in his eyes, which encouraged her. "Please."

But the words wouldn't leave her lips. Maybe because she wasn't even sure yet, if that what she wanted to say was really the truth. Alec, I think I'm falling for you! - Nothing but a silent whimper escaped her red lips. Clary had that kind of lips, which didn't need make up. They were red like blood, red like Snow White's in the story, the young shadowhunter noticed.

The distance between them faded and so did his self control. He cupped her face softly with his hands and moved closer.

Was he...going to kiss her?! Clary's eyes widened as she watched him close his eyes and break the distance completely. She closed her eyes, waiting for his lips to cover hers.

But he didn't kiss her.

Not yet, he thought.

Instead he leaned his forehead against hers and looked her in the eyes once more. He realised that he could do this all day long and never get tired of getting lost in this pure sea of green. Alec then grabbed her hands and intertwined their fingers.

Both of them knew, how wrong this was. They both had somneone else, waiting on them inside.

Jace had been Alec's best friend since they were little. They shared everything. They even cut the hair off all of Isabelle's dolls. He was more important to him that a brother... He was his Parabatai. And now he was about to put all of that on the line because of the little mundane, who appeared to be a shadowhunter, too.

And Alec?, Clary thought. Wasn't he interested in Magnus since she knew them? Wasn't he gay? Didn't he hate her? Wasn't he as cold hearted as she thought?

All, of this didn't matter right now. "What truly matters is, what the heart wants. What the brain thinks, is worthless.", Alec whispered as his nose tip touched Clary's and he placed a kiss there the next moment. All his doubts had faded away in one second.

Clary flushed bright red and closed her eyes, as Alec placed other kisses on her forehead...or better said on her bangs. Yes, she had bangs. Why? Because Amatis tried to cut her hair once and accidentally cut off too much, so she had to get the pony haircut. However, her heart was beating at it's limits. The last thought about pushing him away from her disappeared and she remembered her favorite scene in the Breaking Dawn movie of the twilight series. When Jacob said:"It's like gravity. Your whole center shifts. Suddenly, it's not the Earth holding you here. You would do anything, be anything he needs. A friend, a sister, a lover, a protector."

The next moment she was woken up by the feeling of Alec's lips against hers. He held her hands, fingers still interwined, and pressed her against the wall. Even though she felt the cold stones agains her back and the cold grass under her feet, she felt like falling. The state she was in felt like ecstasy. Her whole body was shivering and covered in goosebumps and Alec's demanding kiss didn't make it easier for her. She was more than relieved when he wrapped his hands around her small waiste and took away the feeling of being in a free fall.

In this moment everything seemed to make sense for Alec. The reason he couldn't love Magnus the way he tried to, the reason he had never fallen for anyone... Because it was her. It has always been her. Clarissa Morgenstern. Clary.