Chapter 10

As Jenna started walking up to the stage, the door opened and she had her eye fixed on that one person. She remember what John had said earlier when he had been in the coma. She wasn't going to tell him, but she had been dating Det. Richard Paul at the time. Once she started playing the song she had her eye fixed on him the entire time

Sin for a Sin

I remember vividly what that vision did to me
You laying with her in our bed
Love can be a tradgedy
When you do what you did to me
All I'm seeing now is red

Jenna had a flashback of her cutting her arms and gasped for a second, but started to go on.

I need to repent
A sin for a sin
Bible told me to forget
All those who trespass against
Tread their feet on sacred ground
Bad things come with consequence
What feels good, hurts in the end
Don't want to think about that now

Jenna then started having more flashbacks of her cutting herself, overdosing on meds..

I need to repent
A sin for a sin

Fire and brimstone
Dirt and a headstone
Bury them, baby
Along with your sins
Hear the thunder
Six feet under
Hit your knees
Won't do it again

Guilty pleasure
Ease the pain
Whisky runnin through my veins
Too late to save you now

I need to repent
A sin for a sin
Fire and brimstone
Dirt and a headstone
Bury them deep
Along with your sins
hear the thunder
Six feet under
hit your knees
won't do it again

The flashbacks then all started coming at once and Jenna couldn't take it anymore. She didn't know that John was watching and knew that something wasn't right. She slammed the guitar to the ground and ran off in tears, clinching her side.

John tried to run after her, but the bar was so crowded it was almost impossible to get to the back of the building.

Jenna ran into the bathroom and locked the door behind her. A bottle of pills fell out her pocket. She picked it up and looked at the bottle, thinking I could take these pills now and it would all be over. The pain would just be over.

But her thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. "Jenna, come out here." said John with a stern, but worried voice.

"John...just go away."

"Look...I need to talk to you. Come out here...please?" he asked as his voice started to soften a bit. He was starting to get worried that she might overdose again.

She hesitated, but knew that he wasn't going to leave. She then opened the door and shut it behind her. She then looked at John. He was glad to see that she was ok.

"Come here." John couldn't hold it back anymore. He walked up and hugged Jenna as she started to cry. She needs me She really does need me.

"Why do you care so much about me? I'm a broken person John...why do you care so much about trying to fix me?"

He tried to figure out the answer for a second. "Because I'm just as broken as you are. We need each other. That's why I care."

Jenna stopped crying, looked up at John with a little grin on her face and said, "thank you."

He took her hand and they sat down so Jenna could catch her breath. But John was still wondering why she had run off the stage earlier. "So what happened with you and Det. Paul?"

She sighed and looked up at Kennex. "Remember when you told me earlier that you were in a coma? Well...Richard and I were dating. We may have actually started dating a couple of months before that...but anyway...everything was good up until about 6 months ago...I found him in bed with another woman after I got home. I didn't do anything...I guess I was in too much shock from seeing them in bed together."

She paused as the tears started to come out... "I started doing drugs, heroin and snorting coke mostly. Then I started cutting myself, overdosing and drinking. It was bad. And then someone found me and took me to the hospital, and I got clean."

Jenna then paused again, and took a deep breath. "But about a month later after I got clean and started playing in bars again, I guess that Richard and the woman he was seeing broke up...and he thinks it's my fault...

John couldn't believe it. "Why does he think it's your fault?"

Jenna shook her head. "I don't know. I think he does it just because seeing him brings all the memories back."

John then got up and started heading towards the bar. "Ok I need to do something."

"No, John don't!" Jenna said as she ran up and grabbed his arm. "Please don't do anything. I can try to get it to look like he started the fight and maybe have him walk out or something...but I don't want you getting hurt...or worse."

"I work with the guy. I don't think he'll shoot me."

"That's not the point John. Just don't do anything, ok?"

John took a deep breath. He knew she was right. "Ok."

"Go to the front of the bar with Dorian. I should be up there in a little bit."

John nodded and walked off to the front of the bar.