I'll Defend You If You'll Defend Me?
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Summary: Becky Jackson is trying to survive high school the best that she can. While Santana Lopez is struggling to accept herself and be proud of the person she has become. Can these two people become friends and help each other succeed?
Pairings: Santana Lopez and Becky Jackson. Other pairings: Rachel Berry and Santana Lopez. Brittany Pierce and Santana Lopez. Quinn Fabray and Brittany Pierce. Also other characters have small parts.
It's important to note, that I do not have Down syndrome, but I am "different". I know what it feels like to feel unworthy at time and like no matter what I try to do it's useless.
I hope you enjoy!
~ Santana ~
Two weeks later, I was standing at my locker when I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and I was pulled into the person.
"Guess who?" the mystery person tried to say in a manly voice.
"Becky…"
"Nope," she said.
"Britt?" I asked. I knew who it was, but I was playing along.
"Um, nope," she said again. She sounded like she was growing impatient.
"The love of my life?" I answered.
"BINGO!" she yelled. I spun around and wrapped my arms around her.
I kissed her passionately on her lips.
"Hey, Baby," she said after the kiss ended.
"Hey, Gorgeous," I replied.
"Do you know what today is?" she asked.
"Um, it's our two month anniversary," I said happily. I knew not to tease her now. I turned back to my locker and pulled her teddy bear out.
"This is for you," I said lovingly.
"Aww, Santana, she's so cute," Rachel said and hugged it.
"I know right? I bought it the night that I bought you the star jewelry box and the card," I said with a smile.
"Why didn't you give it to me then," she asked.
"I didn't want to overwhelm you with like stuff," I said honestly.
"Oh, well thank you," she said and kissed my cheek.
I looked at her and saw that Rachel Berry smile I loved so much.
"Um, my present will have to wait, if that's alright?" she asked with a little hesitation.
"Of course, don't worry," I assured her.
"Whew! My fathers have a weekend retreat this weekend. You'll be staying the entire weekend," she informed me.
"Oh, Rachel, I can't!"
She looked disappointed, but said, "Oh, well, I can rearrange…"
"Honey, I'm kidding!" I said and smiled.
She poked me in the stomach, but then kissed me sweetly.
"So you'll stay," she asked.
"I'll stay for as long as you want me to," I replied.
"Great!"
Then the bell rang. We had to leave each other for class, I said, "After school we'll stop at my house so I can get clothes and then go to yours."
"Oh, Santana, you won't need a lot," she whispered into my ear.
I froze. She noticed this and smiled brightly.
Then she walked away swaying her perfect hips.
The bell sounded again and brought me out of my trance. I bolted to my classroom and plopped into my seat.
I pulled out my cell phone and wrote a text.
TO BECKY: OMG…I'm nervous!
In a few minutes, Becky texted back.
TO SANTANA: Whazzup?
I typed.
TO BECKY: Today's Rachel and my 2-month anniversary.
I sent that part and immediately she responded with "Mazel!"
Then I continued the text.
TO BECKY: she wants me to stay over. She said I didn't need a lot of clothes.
I sent the text and took a big breath.
TO SANTANA: You're gonna get lucky…
I smiled and texted back.
TO BECKY: I already am. I'm nervous.
Immediately, Becky replied, "Get bathroom pass and meet me in girls' bathroom in like five mins. K?"
I typed back, "ok."
Then I raised my hand and asked for the pass which was granted to me without an explanation needed. I walked into the hallway and saw Becky walking out of her class. We spotted each other and walked into the bathroom together. She immediately checked each stall to see if they were empty. Happy to know that they were she said, "Wow! You must be nervous."
"Yeah, I am," I revealed and hung my head down.
"Santana," Becky said. I looked up and saw her smiling.
"You have nothing to worry about, Rachel loves you greatly. She wants to make you happy so let her. Why are you scared?"
"I don't want to hurt or disappoint her, ya know?"
"How could you possibly do that?" she asked me.
I thought about it for a good minute before I said, "What if we don't click?"
"My friend, you already click with Rachel. You started to click with her the second after you sang her that song. C'mon you're Santana Lopez," Becky said to psych me up.
"She's Rachel Berry! Someone who I've thought about so much before this whole thing began. Now that she's with me I fear almost every day that she'll leave even though she's said she wouldn't."
"Do you love her?"
"More than anything else in this world," I replied.
"Then allow yourself to fully love her and for her to do the same with you," Becky said and patted me on my back.
Then I got it. I hugged Becky tightly and simply said, "Thank you."
"You're welcome, Santana. Go love Rachel, ya hear?"
"I hear," I replied.
Then Becky stunned me as she slapped my butt on the way out of the bathroom.
I giggled and she looked up at me and smiled.
~ Rachel ~
I've never been more excited for the final bell to ring than I was this particular Friday afternoon. I was going to finally make love to the woman of my dreams…my Santana. I couldn't wait to feel her under me. To have her scream my name out in ecstasy. To kiss her lips as we fully explored each other. Was I afraid? Of course, it was our first time together and my first time, ever! I took comfort in knowing that I was giving myself to Santana. I could never imagine giving myself to any other person.
When the bell rang, I bolted out of class and to her locker. She was already there and smiled as she turned around to greet me.
"You ready?" I asked her.
"Lead the way," she said and extended her hand. I grabbed it and pulled her out of the school and into her car.
We stopped briefly at her house, she collected her things for the weekend, and then we headed to my house.
Once there, I opened the door and walked in. Like planned my fathers had already left for the weekend. There was a note and some money out on the table for us. I turned around and saw her still standing in the doorway.
"Santana, come in," I said and grabbed her hand. I gently pulled her inside and pushed the door shut. The loud noise made her jump in the air.
"Hey, what's the matter," I asked concerned.
"I-I-don't know…I'm sorry," she said as her lowered her head to look at the floor.
"San…" I asked nervously.
"Rachel, I love you…"
"And I love you…what's wrong, please tell me," I encouraged. I walked up to her.
"I'm excited to be here, don't get me wrong. And I'm excited for what this will mean for us, but I'm so scared. I'm sorry," Santana said honestly as she lifted her head and looked me in my eyes.
"Baby," I said as I enveloped her into a hug, "Don't worry. Don't you think I'm scared?"
"Are you?" she asked meekly.
"Absolutely, but I know that you are the person who I want to experience my first time with," I said honestly.
"Are you sure?"
"110%. Are you?"
"Yes, I am," she said without any hesitation. She broke the hug.
"Santana, I'm not going to jump your bones the moment I shut my bedroom door, ya know?" I said and laughed. Then I continued, "We don't have to do anything tonight except hold each other, if you want…"
"I want so much to feel you…but I'm afraid I'll hurt or disappoint you," Santana said.
"You could never," I said to ease her worry. I rubbed her shoulders with my two hands.
"You sound so certain," she said.
"That's because I am certain. I love you so, so very much and I want you," I said as I looked into her beautiful brown eyes.
My last statement seemed to ignite something in her because she took my cheeks in her hands and kissed me passionately on my lips. The kiss was fast at first, but then we found our rhythm and the kiss progressed from there. She broke the kiss to bend at her knees and scoop me off of the ground and into her arms. I wrapped one arm around her neck so I wouldn't fall. Then she carried me up the staircase and straight to my room. Once inside I slammed the door shut even though there wasn't any one else at home.
She walked up to my bed and gently laid me on it. From her standing position she smiled that gorgeous Santana Lopez smile and my heart melted.
"So what do you want to do," I asked.
"I want to make love to you right now," she said in a lust filled tone.
I shivered as she said it. I swear there was just something about how she said it that made me very excited for what was to come.
I suddenly knelt on the bed so that we'd be the same height. I pulled her closer to the mattress.
"Come here," I said.
She walked up to it and I immediately began to unbutton her shirt. This was vastly difference than the time before when I undressed her. It was more hurried than the previous time.
"Do you mind that I'm quickly undressing you? I could go slower," I said.
"No, Rachel, this is totally okay," she said and smiled. "But we're alternating…"
I just nodded my head.
Once I was finished with unbuttoning her shirt, I tossed it over her shoulders and it fell all the way to the floor. Then I raised my arms over my head so that she could raise my shirt over my head.
During this time, there was complete silence except for our breathing. Our eyesight almost never left each other unless it was necessary.
Before we knew it most of our clothes were thrown on the floor. The only remaining articles were our bras and underwear.
My hands went up to her behind her back and I unclasped her bra rather easily. As the material began to fall off of Santana I looked directly at her chest. I didn't want to miss a minute of the wonder that was her. When her bra was completely off, my breath hitched.
"Are you okay," she whispered.
"You're the most beautiful thing I've ever seen," I said as I breathed a little sigh.
She kissed me quickly. She pulled away from my lips so that her hand could go to my back. She fiddled with the clasp, but after a few seconds she got it to unclasp. She smiled at me.
Then she pulled the material off quickly.
Once she had done that, she traced with her finger from my collarbone down to my belly button. I swear she could hear my heartbeat as it intensified with each lingering touch she left.
As her finger reached my belly button, she pulled at my waist a little. I fell into her and as soon as I got closer to her, her lips attacked mine. I loved all of her kisses, but this one was special because it described how much she loved me.
As we kissed I felt her hands around the waistband of my panties. I felt her pull them down my thighs. I felt the coolness that made and I absolutely loved it!
I stopped the kiss and sat back down on the mattress and took them off. I shyly handed them to Santana and she held them for a few seconds. She looked at them and sighed. She smiled at me and then tossed them over her shoulder.
In the time that she was, I guess, admiring my panties, I was back kneeling on the mattress. My hands were now at her waistband. I was about to pull them down when she yelled.
"Wait!"
"What's wrong, gorgeous? You okay?"
"I just…" she started.
I got nervous for a second so I sat back on my thighs. She looked at me and pulled me back up to her.
"Wanted to say that I love you so much, Rachel Barbra Berry!"
I smiled and said, "Make love to me, San!"
With that she pulled her own panties down and off of her. Then she threw them aside.
She gently pushed me backward and I fell onto the mattress with a little bounce. I smiled as she went to lie on top of me. Her black hair fell over us as she devoured my lips with her own. As soon as we connected our lips, she began to grind on top of me. In a matter of seconds, we were both grinding back and forth and I had begun to lightly sweat. The electricity between us was palpable. We had only just begun, but it felt so erotic and wonderful. I never wanted it to stop.
"Santana," I moaned after I broke the kiss. I opened my eyes. I looked up at her and saw her eyes were still shut.
"Rachel," she moaned back. Then I flipped us over.
"Allow me to make love to you," I begged.
She opened her eyes and saw me. Truly saw me.
She didn't respond with words, but her actions told me, "Yes!" She grabbed my behind with both hands and pulled me closer to her, if that was even possible. I squealed at the new position we were in.
"You okay?" she asked and then laughed.
"Yep, all so new," I replied and then connected our lips again. I kissed her with as much passion and desire as I could muster. She squeezed my behind tighter and tighter.
I broke the kiss and immediately went down to her collarbone. I bit, sucked, licked, and kissed it as much as I could. Her body jolted up with every bite I made on it. She moaned loudly so I continued doing that for a few extra minutes.
Then I decided to go further down. I moved my body lower so I wouldn't hurt myself. Then I kneaded her perky breasts with both of my hands. Then I massaged them with my hands and almost immediately felt her nipples become harder. I wanted to taste salty skin, so I put my mouth on one of her breast first. I used my tongue to massage her breast and made sure I paid special attention to her nipple.
She moaned, "Rachel" as she arched her back up so I had more access to her breast. Then I peppered it with little kisses. Then I explore the valley in between her breasts. I bit down and she arched her back in higher than before.
"Ahhh!" she screamed.
I picked my head up nervously to ask, "Was that okay?"
"Oh God yes…do it again," she insisted.
I immediately went back to what I had done before to elicit that reaction. This time I bit down a little harder.
"Rachel," she screamed out in ecstasy. "Suck my other boob!"
I didn't need to ask any questions. I did as I was asked to do. I managed to get her entire breast in my mouth and used my tongue once again to massage her. This time I decided to put my hand down by her center. She was soaking wet down there and I wasn't expecting that.
I removed her breast from my mouth to say, "You're so wet for me, baby!"
"Only you," she whimpered.
"Do you want me to attend to that?"
"Yes, Rachel, I want to feel you inside me," she demanded sensually.
With that I kissed down the remainder of body until I got to her center. I decided not to immediately go to her center, but to play with her for a while. So I kissed, sucked, and licked her upper thigh. I bit each one hungrily like I hadn't eaten in a year.
She moaned loudly. I smiled.
I did the exact same thing to her other thigh, but this time I began at her knee and worked my way up until I was mere inches away from the one spot that was my final destination. I could feel the heat that radiated from it. I saw her wetness that was trickling down her beautiful thighs at this point so I licked them both clean.
"You taste so sweet," I said after I swallowed the wetness.
She sighed happily.
"You ready?"
"Yea, Rachel, please put your tongue inside me," she demanded softly.
With that I started to lick from the bottom of her folds and I gently and passionately licked all the way up. She squirmed from the hotness of my tongue on her most sensitive organ. Then my tongue ventured inside and found her clit. I licked and sucked the little nub. She began to unravel from this action. I had a wonderful idea. While I was paying attention to her clit, I inserted a finger inside her.
"Rachel-l-l-l," she yelled out, "oh my God…oh my God…oh my God…"
Santana was sweating profusely and was undone at my mere touch. I loved this feeling of having the power of making someone I loved go weak and wild from my touch.
"I love you," I said as I entered her a little more deeply.
"I lo-love you too," she said and grabbed at my hair which was on her stomach. She gently combed it with her fingers as I was stroking her clit.
"Baby, I am so close," she said.
I picked my head up, looked her deep in her eyes, and asked, "What can I do to make you feel special?"
"You always make me feel special," she said quickly.
"Tell me what you need," I asked sincerely.
"Your…your tongue inside me again. I promise I'll come," she said.
I lowered my head quickly and put my mouth on her core. Then I slowly inserted my tongue again into her hot and wet folds. Within seconds, she yelled, "I love you!" as she came hard against my tongue and mouth. I drank all of her up and made sure to lick her clean.
"Oh my sweet God," she said as she rode her orgasm out fully.
I did it! I made my love orgasm! I thought.
As soon as she got a little more of her composure back she pulled me up by my underarms back to face her. I assisted in this and when we were face to face, she kissed me hard.
After we broke the kiss, she had tears in her eyes.
"Oh my God, Santana, was that too much?" I asked and felt afraid that I might have hurt her.
"Rachel, no it was beyond anything I could have ever imagined," she revealed as she wiped a falling tear off her face.
"Then why are you crying?"
"It's just…no, it's nothing," she said as she tried to avoid my question.
"Santana, tell me," I said nervously.
"Do you know what we just did?"
"We had sex…"
"Rachel, honey, it was more than just sex. We made passionate love," she said excitedly.
"Um, duh!" I said and smiled at her. Then I asked, "So why are you crying?"
"Because I've wanted that and wanted you for such a long time. And now that I have you, I feel so freakin' lucky. With that feeling of luckiness comes the responsibility of not screwin' this up," she said as her gaze penetrated mine.
"Santana, listen to me…" I said as I rested my chin on her stomach and looked up into her eyes. I continued, "Before you came into my life and before you sang that song to me, I was lost. I was lonely and I yearned for someone to want to be with me and tell me that they love and they could care for me," I started as I massaged her stomach with my fingers that I was lying on. I continued, "When you told me that you had a crush on me, I was happy. I felt like I could live with just knowing that you liked me in that way. But now that I have you, the real you, there's no way that I'm going to willingly let you leave."
"I am beyond lucky to have you. Hell I'm beyond lucky that you chose me and that you chose to experience this with me. Oh, we'll get to lovin' you in a sec. I just want to stop crying," she said as she took a big breath and wiped the rest of her tears away.
"Santana, please stop crying. We're celebrating our two month anniversary and the fact that we love each other so, so much," I said and smiled at her.
She smiled brightly at me. "So," she said as she looked around my room.
"So…" I repeated.
Then she shot up and threw herself atop of me. It was one swift movement and I gasped as she laid herself on top of me.
"So, Miss Berry, are you ready?"
"Yes, Miss Lopez, I've been ready for you for my entire life. I was made for you…and you were made for me."
I watched as that realization sunk into her mind. She smiled at me and kissed me gently.
I broke the kiss and asked, "Um, you haven't said anything about my berries yet?"
I watched as a huge smile graced her lips. She looked down at my breasts, took of them in her hands and squeezed gently.
~ Santana ~
"They are beautiful!" I said. Then I moved down her body and sucked on one of them. When I came up for air I said, "My new favorite fruit!"
Rachel made a funny noise. It was a laugh and a hum of satisfaction all rolled up into one. I smirked.
"I love you, Santana, but please continue your journey…"
With that I sucked on her other breast and then paid some attention to the valley between them.
I could tell that Rachel had started to get aroused with my warm mouth and tongue. She gently pushed my head down. I understood what she meant so I moved down until I stopped at her perfect, little belly button. I licked it a couple of times. I sensed again that this excited Rachel more and more. So I massaged one of her breasts and tweaked her hardened nipples as I licked her belly button.
"Ah, Santana, I need you," Rachel said in a whisper.
"I love you, Rach," I said as I finally reached my hand down and cupped Rachel's center. I massaged the outside of it for several minutes. Then I put a finger inside. As soon as my finger moved passed her folds and made contact inside, Rachel's hips moved so that I could go deeper. While my one finger was inside her, my other hand still massaged her breasts. I alternated between the two of them. Despite this being my first time, I felt like I was very talented at making love to another person.
"How do you know what to do?" she whimpered loudly.
"I've envisioned this moment for a very long time," I said lustfully.
"You're amazing," she said and then suddenly. I guess her orgasm began to build.
"That's what I keep hearing," I joked and laughed. She smiled.
To excite her more, I dipped my head down and licked the outside of her center. She hummed her approval.
"Santana, please," she urged.
I didn't answer because there was nothing to say. I knew what she wanted. I spread open her two folds and my tongue darted in quickly. I removed my fingers and she fit perfectly around my tongue. I moved it up and down. I gently flicked my tongue against her clit and she yelled, "That's it! Do that again!"
I repeated my action again and again and again.
She found the rhythm with my tongue and moved her hips with my tongue.
"Santana!" she screamed.
She threw her legs onto my shoulders. This gave me better access so I plunged my tongue in a few more glorious times.
"San….Santana….SANTANA!" she kept repeating my name over and over again. I absolutely loved hearing my name being yelled.
I could feel her walls as they tightened around my tongue and I knew she was seconds away from having her orgasm.
"I love you!" she exclaimed as she had her orgasm in my mouth. Seconds after, I licked the remaining wetness from her inner thighs and then smiled.
"Baby, you taste absolutely delicious," I said and made sure she watched as I licked my lips.
"Thank you, Santana," she said.
"For what," I asked as I climbed back up the mattress to look her in her eyes.
"For loving me completely and without any hesitation," she said quietly.
"Forever, baby, forever," I said as I crawled into Rachel's opened arms.
Second Author's Note: I hope you enjoyed reading this chapter. When I write "smut" I'm never sure what's good or what is too much. Anyway I hope you enjoy it and let me know what you thought. Thanks for reading!