I'll Defend You If You'll Defend Me?
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Summary: Becky Jackson is trying to survive high school the best that she can. While Santana Lopez is struggling to accept herself and be proud of the person she has become. Can these two people become friends and help each other succeed?
Pairings: Santana Lopez and Becky Jackson. Other pairings: Rachel Berry and Santana Lopez. Brittany Pierce and Santana Lopez. Quinn Fabray and Brittany Pierce. Also other characters have small parts.
It's important to note, that I do not have Down syndrome, but I am "different". I know what it feels like to feel unworthy at time and like no matter what I try to do it's useless.
I hope you enjoy!
~ Quinn ~
The day of the much anticipated dinner with my parents was upon us.
I drove Britt to school that morning and we sat in the car like we did most days when I drove her.
"Are you excited," Britt asked me. That's the type of girl she was…always thinking about other people. This is what attracted me, hell, attracted everyone to her.
"I am, but…." I said.
"But what?"
"I'm nervous," I said honestly.
She caressed my face with her hand and said, "Quinn you have nothing to be nervous about. They're your parents. If anyone should be nervous, it's me," she said as she looked at me.
"Are you?" I asked as I grabbed at her hand that was on my face, pulled it off, and kissed her palm. She watched me do it and a big smile spread across her face.
"Nope!" she said and shook her head to the left and to the right.
"Why not," I asked.
"Because we're already together and I've talked to them. Quinn, we've known each other for such a long time. They know me…they like me, I hope!"
"Yes, they do," I said and patted her thigh which was bent on the car seat between us.
"I do know that they only know me as your friend so I want to take this opportunity for them to know me as your girlfriend," she said.
"Ok, you might get a little resistance from my father, but if you're willing to try…" I said.
"I'll always be willing to try for you, Quinn," Brittany said as she leaned forward and kissed me passionately. I pulled myself forward and she opened her arms for me. I nuzzled into her body. The warmth of her whole being will stay with me for a very long time.
As we were kissing, she lustfully said, "Quinn."
"Brittany," I moaned back.
I felt her hands as they began to wander over my body. They landed on my chest and she squeezed both of my breasts not physically hard, but sensually hard. My hands began to massage her back and went as low as they could. Had things been not so cramped, I would have been able to touch more of her.
"Britt, not that I want this closeness to stop, but we are at school and we have to actually go in sometime," I said sadly after I broke the kiss.
"Invite me over," she asked as she looked lovingly into my eyes.
"What?"
"Invite me to stay over tonight," she repeated.
"Oh, Brittany, would you like to stay over after dinner tonight," I asked.
"Oh, geez, I don't know…this is all so sudden," she joked.
I poked her in her ribs with my nails. I coyly smiled at her. "C'mon, please say, 'yes'!"
"Yesssss!" she screamed. As she was screaming, I couldn't help but wonder is that how she's going scream when I make her orgasm for the first time. This thought excited me.
"Quinn, you're blushing. What were you thinking?" she asked as she looked at me peculiarly.
"Nothing," I said too fast.
She just smiled.
Then we got out of the car and got our bags from the back seat. I had put her present at the top of my book bag and I noticed the plastic handle was showing, but, for some reason, she didn't see it. Thank God.
I walked around to her and grabbed her hand and pulled her into the building. We saw Becky and Puck first so we walked over to them.
"Good morning, all," I sang out.
"Geez, somebody's chipper," Puck said. Becky poked him in his side.
"Good morning, Q," Becky said as she extended her arms out for a hug which I happily gave her.
"Good morning, Little B," I replied and hugged her.
"Little B, huh," Britt asked as she brought her pinkie up to face much like Dr. Evil from the "Austin Powers" movies.
"Yeah, well you're tall B!" Becky said and gave Britt a high five.
"You're, like, my Mini Me!" Brittany said and laughed which made Becky laugh.
"This is so cute," Puck said sarcastically.
We all faced him and cheekily smiled.
After Becky asked, "Q, walk me to my first class?"
"Sure," I said.
I watched as she kissed Puck good-bye. "Bye, Baby," she said as the kiss ended. Puck was just standing there like he was expecting something.
"Yes, Puck, what is it?"
It was then that Becky realized what he was waiting for. She slapped him on the butt and then he sauntered away. We all laughed at him.
"When the day's over come find me?"
"Absolutely…Bye, 'Mini Me'!" Brittany said and gave Becky a high five.
Then I kissed Britt good-bye.
As Becky and I walked away she asked, "So did you think about what your present to Britt will mean?"
"I believe so," I said and smiled.
"Great," she said.
"If you don't mind, I'm going to work on it more in my head and I will be ready by tonight. I'm thinking of throwing a song into the mix, but I have to figure that part out yet," I said.
"Coolbeans!" she said and held up her thumb.
We arrived at her classroom and she said, "Good luck, I'm rooting for you two. You make a cute couple!"
"Thanks, Becky, we all need to hang out. Maybe this weekend," I said.
She smiled and then walked into her classroom.
~ Brittany ~
As I was sitting in another boring class I realized that I hadn't talked to Santana in awhile. I took out my phone when the teacher's back was turned and texted her.
TO SANTANA: Hi, I'm so sorry for being MIA lately. How are things?
I sent it. Then I put the phone down on my seat and picked up my pen. I don't know what made me to do it, but I started to write a letter to Quinn. I was writing furiously when my cell phone buzzed.
TO BRITT: I'm sorry too. Been hella busy. Rach and I are in love, like totes, and I luv every min of it. Becky and Noah r good. How r u and Quinn?
I read the text and smiled. Then I replied.
TO SANTANA: Aww. Congrats to you and Mazel to Rachel. I saw "Little B" and Puck this morning! They are 2 cute! 2night, I'm having din at Q's house with her parents. Then I'm spendin' the nite there. yay!
I put the phone down and continued to write.
My phone buzzed again.
TO BRITT: that's great. U nervous? U shouldn't b at all. Is this a serious thing for u 2?
I texted back.
TO SANTANA: Yup, I have a lot of feelings for her which I am trying to get down on paper. Would you have time to read it? I kno I'm asking a lot, but maybe sometime today. I want it to be perfect.
I kept writing after I put the phone down. I finished the last sentence and then put the pen down. Just then my phone buzzed.
TO BRITT: I gots to get outta this freakin' boring class like right now. Bathroom in 5!
I immediately raised my hand and asked for permission to leave the class. I told the teacher I needed to go to Nurse's office this way I wouldn't have to come back. He granted me permission and I gathered my things and left.
~ Santana ~
I ran out of class and to the bathroom so fast. I went in first to see if anyone was using the stalls. After I banged on them all, I figured out that no one was there. In a few seconds, Britt came bouncing in and smiled.
"Hi!" she said shyly.
"Hey," I said and smiled. I hugged her and she hugged back.
"So," she said as she whipped out the notebook that had Quinn's letter in it.
I sat down on the floor. I knew that it wasn't the best thing to do, but I wanted to get off my feet. She sat down next to me and we leaned against the radiator.
She watched me as I read the letter. She watched me as I took deep breaths and let them out. She watched me dab my eyes if a tear fell. She watched me smile where she hoped I would. Then I handed her the notebook back and said, "Wow! That was amazing!"
"You liked it," she asked not convinced.
"Britt, absolutely," I replied.
"Will she like it?"
"If she doesn't, she's a moron!" I said.
She laughed and I smiled.
"Should I add anything?"
"Um, I don't think so. Unless there's something else that is significance to your relationship. Other than that don't change it!"
"Should I recite it to her or have her have some privacy to read it," she asked.
"I'd do whatever you feel the most comfortable with cuz I know how you feel about 'public speaking'…" I said.
"It's only Quinn. But these are the deepest feelings I've ever had for someone. So…" she said.
"You take your time to decide," I said.
Then the bell rang in the hallway.
We both got up and hugged each other tightly.
"I'm very proud of you, Britt! Love you," I said and smiled.
"Thank you. Tell Rachel hi for me," she said then she left the room.
~ Quinn ~
I had a study period so I went to the library to use their computer and do some homework so I didn't have to worry about that later.
I sat down in front of the computer and opened the Internet browser I did a search for popular romantic songs and a whole list popped up onto the screen. I started the search and didn't really think that the few that I clicked on were appropriate for us.
I got to the end of the page, and then I saw a song that seemed perfect. I clicked on the link and was re-directed to the lyrics. I read the lyrics and I started to cry. It was perfect for her and for us. I immediately printed them out and folded them in half. I then started my homework which wasn't a lot. With the remainder of my study period I memorized the lyrics and thought about incorporating my guitar into the performance. Just before the bell rang, my phone vibrated and I picked it up and found a text message from her.
TO QUINN: I have a surprise for you! Can't wait for later.
I smiled and blushed at the same time. Then I feverishly texted back.
TO BRITT: well I have a surprise for you.
~ Brittany ~
Before we knew it, we were getting back into Quinn's car and driving to her house. We made the trip in silence. I held her free hand and she drove us safely there. Once we arrived in front of it, she turned in her seat and faced me.
"You ready?"
"Yes, I am, Quinn," I said simply.
"You know what, Britt? You make me feel like anything is possible when we're together," she said.
"That's cuz it is, my dear," I replied with a smile.
I watched her as she watched me. I saw her smile.
She then leaned forward. She gently, sweetly, and quickly kissed me. I had enough time to put my hand on the back of her head so that we could intensify the kiss and it lasted a few more blissful seconds.
After we got out of the car and got all of our things. She walked around to me and extended her hand which I took. This time she pulled me to the house.
She opened the door and yelled, "Mom, Dad?" as we walked in.
Her Mom and Dad walked over to Quinn and hugged her.
"It's great to see you, Britt," her Mom said with a genuine smile as she hugged me.
"Hi, Mrs. F," I said and smiled.
"Hello, Brittany," her father said. I thought about how to greet him and decided to go in for the hug. I opened my arms wide and walked up to him. I threw my arms around him and squeezed. I didn't expect him to return the hug so it was okay that he didn't. We did get stares from Quinn and her Mom.
"Nice to see you, Mr. F," I said as I let go of him.
He smiled at me.
"Ah, Britt, why don't we put your stuff up in my room," she said and then pulled me upstairs.
"Dinner's in ten," my Mom called out to us.
Once we were alone in her room Quinn slammed the door and began to uncontrollably laugh.
"That had to be the funniest thing I've seen in a while," she said through bouts of laughter.
"That's why I did it…I knew he wouldn't hug back, but I did break the ice," I said and smiled.
She walked over to me, looked up at me, and said, "You cracked it in half, baby!"
Then I picked her up and kissed her passionately. We stumbled around during the kiss and knocked into the standing lamp, but it didn't topple over. Somehow I led us to her bed and automatically climbed onto it with her still in my arms. I lowered her all the way down onto the mattress. She didn't let go out her grip on me until she felt the mattress against her back. Her lips remained on mine, though.
"Quinn," I tried to say while still in the kiss.
"Hmm," she muttered.
"Oh, baby," I moaned as I let my guard down further.
"Britt, we should stop now," she said as she let go of my lips. They suddenly felt cold. Before I got off of her, she managed to smack my butt.
"Oh," I said shocked.
"Haha!" she laughed.
Then I got up and off of the bed. I went over to my book bag and found the notebook that had my letter for her. I ripped it gently out of the notebook and folded it in half and stuffed it in my pocket.
~ Quinn ~
While Britt was doing something with her notebook, I took the time to go to my bag and get out my song and her present. I put each item in both of my pockets. I then grabbed my guitar.
Before she had the chance to ask about the guitar, my Mom yelled, "Dinner's ready!"
She held the door open for me and I grabbed her hand and led her downstairs. Once we were on the first floor, I put the guitar against the couch and followed her into the dining room. We all sat down and my Mom passed around the food.
"Everything looks great, Mrs. F," Brittany replied.
"Yes, Mom, thank you," I seconded.
"You're welcome," my Mom said and smiled.
After we had begun to eat, my father began the conversation, "So Brittany, I have some questions for you."
"Dad!" I yelled at him.
"No, Quinn, it's alright. Fire away, Mr. F," she said not afraid of anything.
"What are your intentions with our daughter," he asked.
"Well, sir, besides from making her feel happy, safe, and eventually loved, I want to be there for her. By this I mean, not only physically, but emotionally as well. I want her to take comfort in knowing that I am with her despite what may or may not happen between us," she said.
I just looked at her. Brittany was not only in my house answering my parents' questions, but she was here because she wanted to be. Not because of any outside pressure.
"Do you think it'll be like a forever thing," my Mom asked before she bit off another piece of chicken from her fork.
"I believe and hope so. Listen I don't know what's in store for us. No one knows definitely. What I do know is that I am not going anywhere any time soon," she said, looked at me and smiled. "I also know that I'm not going to sit around and question it either. I'm gonna take each new day that has been granted to me and live it to the fullest with your amazing daughter."
I felt myself get hot on my cheeks so I guess I was blushing.
My parents looked at each other with amazed expressions on their faces. They knew Britt was considered "dumb" to those around her and in Lima, but only I and maybe, Santana knew that Britt is a very smart and thoughtful person when she wants to be. And I guess she wanted to be that night.
"Why me?" I asked meekly.
"Why you?" she asked me.
"Yea," I responded.
"Quinn, you've always been my best friend. I feel safe and comfortable around you. You protect me from the crap that I would have to endure if you weren't by my side. My life is happier and fuller just by knowing you. Who wouldn't want to have that in their life? Like really!" she said and then went back to eating.
When dinner was finished we all helped to clean up and were finished with that task in a little while. After we all went into the living room.
My Mother noticed the guitar sitting next to the couch. "What's up with the guitar," she asked.
"Well, Mom, I have a surprise for Brittany," I said excitedly and nervously.
"Are you going to sing to me, Quinnie," Britt asked. She jumped up and down.
"You're just going to have to sit here and find out," I insisted and pointed to where I wanted her to sit.
She immediately stopped jumping and sat where I had pointed.
My parents quietly moved over to the couch that was opposite the chair Brittany sat on.
I decided to kneel down in front of her. I sat back on my thighs. I tried to nonchalantly pull out the box that held her present. She was preoccupied for a second, so I did it without any interruption.
She turned her focus back to me and I strummed my guitar to make sure it was tuned properly. When I decided that it was, I started the song in a low whisper. It was loud enough for her to hear it and almost loud enough for my parents.
It's amazing how you
Can speak right to my heart.
Without saying a word
You can light up the dark.
My voice got louder by the beginning of the second verse.
Try as I may, I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing.
The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me.
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me.
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall.
You say it best when you say nothing at all.
I kept my eyes locked on her throughout most of the song. Miraculously my guitar playing improved greatly.
All day long I can hear
People talking out loud (oooh). I smiled and continued to sing.
But when you hold me near (you hold me near)
You drown out the crowd (the crowd, the crowd).
Try as they may, they can never define
What's been said between your heart and mine.
The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me.
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me.
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall.
'Cause you say it best (you say it best) when you say nothing at all.
I smiled at her brightly and I could see the tears that streamed down her face.
The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me.
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me.
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall.
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall.
Brittany, 'Cause you say it best when you say nothing at all.
(You say it best when you say nothing at all.
You say it best when you say nothing at all.)
That smile on your face,
The truth in your eyes,
The look in your eyes,
The touch of your hand
Lets me know that you need me.
(You say it best when you say nothing at all.
You say it best when you say nothing at all.)
I put the guitar down, but kept singing.
The smile on your face,
The look in your eyes,
I kept looking at her as my hand felt behind me. I found the box and brought it in front of me.
The touch of your hand
Lets me know that you need me.
Brittany's eyes were still fixated on me so I decided to raise the box higher. But before I could, I saw out of the corner of my eye, my Dad attempt to interject. My Mom placed her hand on his thigh and this made him stop. He sighed and they looked at each other and smiled.
After the longest three seconds ever, Britt finally looked at what I was holding.
"Oh my God, Quinn…" was all she could say.
"Brittany, I'd like to tell you a few things…" I started, took a deep breath, and continued, "What I hold in my hands right now isn't an engagement ring…"
"It's not," she asked and tilted her head to the side.
I let what she had said register in my mind.
Did she think this is an engagement ring? Would have said, 'yes' if I asked her to marry me? I thought and smiled.
"No baby, it's not cuz we're too young to be thinking about that now," I said and looked up at her.
She smiled.
"But it is a promise ring. With this ring, I promise you that I will always be there for you. I will love you forever. I will protect you and shelter you. I will give you my heart without hesitation or worry. I am so in love with you right now and we've just begun," I said and started to get emotional.
She dried my cheeks with her thumbs. I smiled at her.
"So will you make me the same promise by wearing this ring?" I asked and held my breath. I opened the box and raised it higher for her to see it better.
She took a second or two. I watched her think and I only could smile at her.
"Yes, I will," she said and I let go of the breath that I was holding.
I took the ring out of the box and she extended her left hand to me. I slid the ring on and it fit perfectly. I then leaned forward and kissed her passionately. When I broke the kiss all I could see was Brittany's smile and that's all I ever want to see.
Second Author's Note: As I wrote this chapter I was intending it to be a longer chapter. But when I finished it and looked at it as a whole chapter, I decided to split it up into two chapters. Didn't want you to be mad at me or lose interest in this story.
The song that Quinn sang to Brittany is Ronan Keating's "When You Say Nothing At All". I first heard the song when it was used in a Julia Roberts' movie called, "Notting Hill". I love that movie and I love that song. I knew it would be a perfect fit in this story.
Also during the texting between Brittany and Santana some of the words are either misspelled or incomplete. I did this intentionally.
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