Summer of Love and Loss Chapter 12, an austin & ally fanfic

I don't own Austin and Ally...I just watch it on tv and on my computer.

Summer of Love and Loss

Chapter Twelve: Confronting Already Established Insecurities and Shouting Old Feelings

Everyone but her was still asleep and she couldn't blame them after she recovered from her mini panic attack they watched movies into the early morning. Her brows furrowed at the sight of Dez lying facedown on the air hockey table she couldn't fathom how on earth he ended up there. Sprawled the entire length of the couch was her gentleman of a boyfriend, he was the reason she was up well his dangling arm was. In retrospect sleeping at the base of the may not have been her best idea but she hadn't even planned on falling asleep there. She had moved away from Austin's embrace to the floor so he would not see her cry, which she silently did despite the comfort that she felt when Austin was absentmindedly running his hands through her hair. Ally Dawson cried easily and she didn't want to burden others when she cried over petty things or when she cried in general. All she could think of the night before were her flaws and cowardice, while she felt safe and secure with Austin she also felt insecure and unworthy. Confidence was something that she had been born without and it was her lack of it that held her back.

"What are you thinking about?" Austin asked startling her out of her thoughts. She found that she loved the husky sound to his voice, it was something she would love waking up to. "Ally-cat?"

"What do you see in me?" Ally asked dropping her face him her hands. Her next words came out muffled and laced with tears, "There are other girls who are prettier, more confident, and less dorky than me. You could easily have gotten any girl but you chose me, why? What is special about me?"

Gently Austin took her hands from her face, he looked her straight in the eyes. She could see the seriousness in his kind brown eyes just as clearly as he could see the lack of confidence in hers. "Allyson Dawson you are the most amazing person I have ever met. There isn't a single thing about you that isn't special. I see all the good things about you that you seem to overlook and you know what, there maybe prettier girls with more confidence and less dorkiness but they're all generic and not at all original like the awesome, quirky, insanely beautiful Ally Dawson."

Before she could speak and rebuttal his statement he took her small hand in his calloused one and effortlessly pulled her to her feet. Numbly she followed him into his bedroom, where he picked up the acoustic guitar, and out into the backyard. Thinking that they were going to stop in the backyard was wishful thinking, he led her down the small stone stairs on the side of the cliff to the beach. He sat down on a rather large rock and she took a seat in the sand.

"I'm going to play a song for you." Austin said softly.

"Why?"

"Because I want to make you feel special." Austin said. "Kelsey helped me write it as a surprise for you."

There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I've said it a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away

Well expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're OK when I'm not around
Asking "if you love me"
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile

I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me

I thought that the world had lost it's sway
It's so hard sometimes
Then I fell in love with you
Then came you
And you took that away
It's not so difficult
The world is not so difficult
You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I'll take the words you gave me and send them back to you

Her heart swelled at the sound of Austin singing his feelings for her. He looked at her as his fingers expertly danced along the guitar, his gaze holding her and telling her that he meant every word he sang. If making her feel special was his mission he was succeeding, she hadn't felt this special in her entire life. Austin Monica Moon, three weeks ago she hadn't even met him and now she couldn't imagine her life without him, she couldn't imagine herself with anyone other than him.

I only want to see
If you're OK when I'm not around
Asking "if you love me"
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile

I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me

He finished the song and set the guitar down on the sand. This bleach blond haired boy was nothing like the Prince Charming she had envisioned herself with. He was the bad boy that broke hearts, had a violent side she had yet to see, and drank until he was beyond wasted, the very opposite of her ideal guy. Yet she found that she never felt more secure or cared for then when his arms were circled around her. The blood in her veins sang every time he pressed his lips against her forehead, her heart wanted to burst every time he called her awesome or beautiful, her heart raced with every wink and cocky smile he sent her way, and every kiss he gave her left her in a daze and in a state of pure bliss. She loved the feel of his calloused hands on her cheeks and the way he brushed her cheeks and chuckled every time she blushed. He was the only guy that she truly felt comfortable around. So he may not be Prince Charming, in many ways he was better.

His arms circled around her and the soft brush of his lips against her forehead caused her cheeks to tint a light shade of red. He chuckled and since she was pressed against his chest she felt the vibrations of his laugh. There was no way she could live without this boy now that he had snuck his way into her heart, he was anchored there.

"You succeeded." Ally said quietly.

"I'll spend everyday of our time together making you feel like the most special girl in the world." Austin said sealing his promise with a slow deep kiss, their most intimate one yet. "Believe me Ally Dawson you're it for me and I'm yours if you'll have me."

"You want me as I am now?" Ally whispered.

"Yes." Austin said. He smiled at her and started humming a familiar tune.

Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are(yeah)

"I love hearing you sing." Ally said when he finished.

"I love your laugh." He admitted making her laugh.

"Do you want me to go with you?" Austin asked as they stared at her front door where Trish was waiting impatiently for Ally.

"No, I got this. Like you said last night there is no way that party could be pinned on me so I have nothing to worry about." Ally said smiling brightly at him.

"That's my girl." Austin said proudly.

Boldly she leaned over and kissed him full on the lips. She smiled at his disappointed pout after she pulled away and kissed his cheek before saying, "I'll call you later to tell you how it all went down."

Her mother taking Scarlett's side wasn't a surprise to her, it stung more than she thought it would but it wasn't surprising. Erik believed her and to her that said how much he cared for her, enough to pick her over his own daughter and to stand up for her against his wife. The more her mom tried to convince Erik that Scarlett was innocent and that it was all Ally's fault the house was trashed the angrier Ally got. Why couldn't her own mother believe her? Why didn't she love her the way a mother should love their daughter? Was she not good enough for her? What had she done to make her mother resent giving birth to her? Why was it that it hurt so much when this was all she had known?

"I hate you." Ally mumbled as her mother picked up the phone to dial Mrs. Moon. "I wish you weren't my mom."

"What did you say to me Allyson?"

"I hate you." She said clearly. "I wish you weren't my mom."

"Ally." Erik said. "You don't mean that."

"Yes I do! She doesn't love me in fact she wishes she never gave birth to me! Never was she a mother to me but she jumps at the chance to be Scarlett's mom! She left me in Miami and ran away here! If she wasn't legally forced to spend time with me she wouldn't!" Ally screamed tears streaming down her face. "That's why I'm here because it's court mandated!"

"Ally, your mother—" Erik started.

"Don't try to defend her Erik!" Ally said starting toward the door.

"Where are you going Allyson?"

"Like you care?" Ally said running out the door and starting toward the Sea Venture Resort where he dad was staying.

"Allyson Olivia Dawson get back here now!" She ignored her mother and kept running ignoring the looks people were giving her.

Austin: Where are you now?

Ally: With my dad.

Austin: Are you going to go home?

Ally: No, I have things keeping me here.

Austin: You mean me ;)

Ally: The level of your arrogance amazes me :P

Austin: But it's true you're only staying for me.

Ally: You're number one on the list.

Austin: Alright! Okay so I'll see you tomorrow then.

Ally: See you.

After putting her phone away she returned her attention to the movie they were watching. Trish had followed her and the three of them were deciding on what to do after the movie. Ally decided that they should all go to the aquarium, she assured them that it would be worth the trip. Throughout the day she ignored the messages and calls from her mother, she was having a good day with two people that really loved her, she had the rest of the summer to spend with the guy who chose her over everyone else and she was looking forward to it.

So there it is chapter twelve. What did you guys think? Did you love it? Did you hate it? You guys are all amazing for reading and reviewing. The song Austin sang to Ally is called Calling You and I in no way own that song that honor belongs to Blue October. Just the Way You Are is property of Mr. Bruno Mars and I just thought it fit the scene and well they both love Bruno Mars so why not. I hope you enjoyed this chapter please feel free to tell me what your favorite part of the story is so far.

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