I DO NOT OWN SON
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How to Love – Lil Wayne
Chapter 5
Spencer POV
There were times in my life where I had gotten bad news, some worst then others. Like the time I found out Glen broke is leg, or when my dad told us my mother was cheating on him. Broken leg I knew would heal; eventually Glen would be 100% again. My mother cheating would leave my family broken even if we tried to fix it together. Depending on the bad news, the results are different.
You had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart
Never really had luck, couldn't ever figure out
How to love
How to love
It was Monday morning and I was dreading to go to school, this weekend was very peaceful and relaxing. After Friday night with Ashley, I never did speak to her or see her. I was in Aiden's truck riding to school, this morning he seemed different. Maybe he finally found someone who could love him more then I could. I will never understand how he can love me, when he knows I can never love him, nor can I be with him fully.
You had a lot of moments that didn't last forever
Now you're in a corner tryna put it together
How to love
How to love
We pulled up to the school, and I noticed Ashley wasn't at the table. Her motorcycle wasn't even here. She must have gone to another party and was hung over; I knew I should have called her last night. I grabbed my bag and got out of the truck, Aiden was right there ready to hold my hand. I smiled and took it.
For a second you were here
Now you over there
It's hard not to stare, the way you moving your body
Like you never had a love
Never had a love
"Spencer, do you want to get some ice cream tonight after school?" I looked up to him and smiled, he was so sweet.
"Sure Aiden, I would love to"
"Okay well I have practice, but I will pick you up after okay?" I stopped and gave him a kiss on the chin.
"Sounds perfect" he smiled.
We turned to walk over to the table and I noticed Kyla was sitting on the top of it, she also playing with her hands. Kyla was only here for the one night, when she moved she got her mother to agree to allow her to come here once every week to visit me. Even know she was Ashley sister, Kyla and I were closer. I stopped and look towards Aiden, he didn't seem surprise to see her here.
When you was just a youngin' your looks were so precious
But now your grown up
So fly it's like a blessing but you can't have a man look at you for five seconds
Without you being insecure
You never credit yourself, so when you got older
It's seems like you came back ten times over
Now you're sitting here in this damn corner
Looking through all your thoughts and looking over your shoulders
"Kyla, what are you doing here" She wasn't looking me in the eyes; she was hiding behind her sunglasses. Something that Ashley would also do with me, when she was upset. I reached up and grabbed her sunglasses off her face; she had tears in her eyes.
"Its Ashley" My heart stopped, this was never a good thing.
"What happen?" Kyla could sense the coldness in my voice; I was use to Ashley making stupid choices.
"She went out Saturday and she…"I stopped her right there; I just didn't need to hear it.
"Where is she kyla, and don't lie to me" I felt Aiden tense up beside me, I looked at him and I shook my head.
"You knew, didn't you?" He let go of my hand, and slid them into his pockets.
"Spencer I ran into her at the …" I put my hand up to quiet him.
"Don't. Kyla where is Ashley" I was getting mad, first they both knew she was going out this weekend, and they didn't tell me.
"The hospital" I grabbed Aiden's keys and headed towards his truck, this was going to be a long day.
See you had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart
Never really had luck, couldn't ever figure out
How to love
How to love
I was never the one for hospitals', even if my mother worked at one. She was the surgeon in the E.R; I don't know how she even sleeps at night. When my brother clay died, we saw his dead body. I didn't sleep for weeks, even glen couldn't. I didn't like the smell of the building, how patience's were always walking around with tubes in there arms and body. If I had to come here, I would hold my breathe and walk really fast towards the room I wanted to be at.
I went up to the desk and got them to page my mother, she was the one that could tell me what I really wanted to know. When Ashley and I first started dating my mother and father loved her, then they hated her for breaking my heart. Still they both are ready to help her when she needs it, my father wants her to attend an addictions meeting. I told her I would go with her. My mother is always there to give her the mother's advice since Ashley's mother is never around. Even know my parents hate Ashley for breaking my heart, they love her because I love her.
For a second you were here
Now you over there
It's hard not to stare the way you moving your body
Like you never had a love
Had a love
"Spencer, you paged" I got up from my chair and gave my mother a hug; she was just a few inches taller then me.
"You know why I'm here mom"
"You should be in school Spencer, it just…"
"Mom! Tell me now!" What is with people and not wanting me to know things?
"Overdose, she came in Saturday night"
"What! And no one told me! You knew!"
"Ashley made us all promise not to tell you Spencer, she doesn't want you to see her like this"
"Then she should be like this, what room is she in" She let out breathe of air and shoved her hands in her pockets.
"ICU"
I bit my bottom lip and shooked my head, this was all getting worst by the second.
Oh, you had a lot of dreams that transformed to visions
The fact that you saw the world affected all your decisions
But it wasn't your fault
Wasn't in your intentions
To be the one here talking to me
Be the one listenin'
But I admire your popping bottles and dippin'
Just as much as you admire bartending and stripping
Baby, so don't be mad
Nobody else tripping
You see a lot of crooks and the crooks still crook
I walked down the hall where I would find the ICU room, my mom called them already to let them know I was alright to go in. As I got to the big door I washed my hands and hit the little red button to open the door. There were patience's everywhere, some worst then the last.
"Spencer what are you…" she didn't need to finish the sentence; we both knew why I was here.
"You weren't at school, but Kyla was. She doesn't even go to are school Ashley, so I knew something was up"
"I told them not to tell you, just go Spencer" I walked over to her bed and sat down beside her, I grabbed her hand and intertwine are fingers,
"This is why we can't be together, as much as you pull me towards you and love me. You also push me away soon as you do something wrong, or your not well. I love you Ashley and I'm tired of seeing you waste your life away."
"Then why not just leave, I never asked you to be in the messed up relationship we call us" she was looking away from me, I could see the tears starting to form in her eyes.
"I love you baby, and I rather go through this shit and pain, then never having you in my life Ashley. I just want you to finally pick me over this" as I pointed to her in the hospital bed.
"It's not that easy Spencer" I felt her squeeze my hand tighter and the tears finally fell from her eyes.
See you had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart
Never really had luck, couldn't ever figure out
How to love
How to love
"No, you're just too afraid to fight for something you love"
A/N: R&R please