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Warning : Some talk of suicide at the end of the chapter
John woke up first, he just sat there watching Sherlock sleep. He didn't want to wake him up, he hadn't sen him this peaceful in ages so he just watched. He sat there for 30 minutes before Sherlock woke up.
"Hi... Sherlock" John spoke softly to him, not knowing how he would react.
"Umm Hi. How long was I asleep, Mycroft said he would come round"
"WHAT, Sherlock when is he coming ?" John panicked. Sherlock looked at the clock.
"Half an hour" Sherlock gulped, he didn't normally care about his brothers little visits but he looked weak and Mycroft would ask questions. Questions Sherlock didn't want to answer.
Mycroft stormed in. he didn't tend to knock. He stood in front of his brother, looked him up and down trying to decide what to say. Sherlock was lying on the sofa with John this looked completely wrong. But, they couldn't tell the truth because that was worse.
"Sherlock, care to explain what is going on" Mycroft's voice boomed.
"Well by the looks of things, you had a fun night. With Lestrade i think" Sherlock said quickly trying avert the subject. Mycroft went red, but stayed persistent.
"NO. Sherlock with you. Why are you lying on your sofa hugging John ?"
"It isn't what it looks like, but i'm not going to explain it to you" Sherlock was angry but also upset, John could see this and told Mycroft to leave well he made him leave.
Sherlock just sat there, what was happening to him. The Great Sherlock Holmes could barely contain his emotions, this was something to do with John. He sighed this was going to be a log day.
Sherlock I need your help. It's a 9 ! -GL
"who was that" John asked.
"Lestrade, he needs my help again. He says the case is a 9" Sherlock clearly didn't believe this, he is getting me to Scotland yard for his little boyfriend.
Even so they got a taxi to Scotland yard. As he thought Lestrade was waiting for them with his boyfriend. He could have some fun with this. He burst through the door.
"I knew you couldn't keep out of my business. I didn't pry into your escapade with Lestrade." Sherlock shouted he was angry at his brother.
Mycroft turned round, had this actually happened. He got off Lestrade's lap, covered his neck (it was covered in bruises) and licked his bright red swollen lips. It was obvious what was going on. Sherlock whipped out his phone and took a picture. He wasn't one for blackmailing people but this was his brother. As soon as they realized what was happening they tried to reason with Sherlock, but Sherlock true to himself stayed stubborn. He was going to put it on his blog and on John's too, if Mycroft kept bothering him about this morning.
"may I ask what the hell happened this morning" Lestrade whispered to Mycroft.
"I caught them together, they were lying on the sofa cuddling" Mycroft sniggered
"That is not what you saw, in what world would i cuddle with Dr. Watson" Sherlock shouted, about to go into one of his rants.
That was it. He told his brother that the picture would go up tonight, he was not going to stand for that type of foolish behavior. Why should he. He was not interested in women or men anyone in fact ! But John was different, he was so much more than just a person.
"Sherlock you have to stop this !"
"John, stop what ? I don't understand" Sherlock knew exactly what he was talking about but thought playing dumb would get John to change the subject.
"You know what I mean. The drugs. I can't help you anymore Sherlock, I'm done" John walked out of the door down the stairs, bidding farewell to Mrs Hudson.
He was gone. John was gone ! He had pushed him away. Just like he did with everyone else but this time he cared, he cared more than he ever had before. Why didn't he say anything. Sherlock felt tears fall, hard and fast. He cried and cried until his tear ducts dried up. Why did he have to be so stupid ? John was his best friend. His companion. Mycroft at that moment walked in.
"Sherlock, I wanted to apologize for my childish behavior" Mycroft grumbled.
"It's too late. You ruined it. You ruined us. John left because of you, it's your fault ! I wouldn't have taken it if it wasn't for you" Sherlock sniffed, he felt so useless he had never acted like this before.
What was wrong with him. Normally he was the great detective he didn't care if people died. It was his job why would he care. He didn't care when people left him, they often did. But John was something special and now he was gone.
"Sherlock, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean..." before he could continue he was cut off.
"Just leave, Mycroft. I want to be on my own. I need to think"
Sherlock brought out his violin and started playing. He played for hours and hours, until Mrs Hudson told him to be quiet before he woke the whole neighborhood.
John I'm sorry. Please come back. Mrs Hudson is driving me crazy -SH
I can't Sherlock. I can't deal with you whilst I'm still sick -JW
I don't know if i can survive on my own -SH
Mycroft just text me saying that you told him this was his fault -JW
I was angry and upset, I just wanted him to leave -SH
Please come back -SH
Sherlock were you crying -JW
No definitely not -SH
Why did Mycroft say you had -JW
OK, I'm sorry I care. I care alot. Happy now. The great Sherlock Holmes actually cares about something, someone -SH
I didn't mean it like that -JW
It's fine, I knew trusting someone would be stupid. I'm stupid -SH
Sherlock would just have to get over him. He didn't eat for a week and a half. He had slept less than an hour during this time. He was weak and frail. Mycroft came round every second day to check up on him. It got to a point where Sherlock was so weak he couldn't get off his sofa at all. He was ready to give up. He was ready to slip away in the night. No-one would care if he did. He wanted to die so badly he had nothing to live for. He was so tired he fell into a deep sleep. He slept for ages. He had no idea how long he would sleep for or if he would ever wake up.
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