Why do I do this to myself?

Disclaimer: I don't own Homestuck. But I still want to.

Your name is John Egbert and you are broken. Your heart is heavy in your chest as you fight back the tears. The kiss meant... Nothing? What about the sparks? No one can tell me he didn't feel that! You fought back the tears and held your head high.

"Fuckass!" You turn around and see a head of white hair behind you. Karkat took one look at your face and asked, "What the fuck happened?" Your bottom lip starts to tremble as Dave's words echo through your head. The kiss... It meant nothing to me...

"Dave's a prick," you say, wiping at your eyes.

"Tell me something I don't know," Karkat grumbled. "What'd he do?"

You look around you to see if the cool kid was anywhere near you before pulling Karkat into an empty classroom.

"Can I tell you something?" you ask. You bit your lip nervously.

"No. I'm the last fucking person you'd confide in," the albino said sarcastically.

"I-I-"

"Spit it out."

"I'm gay," you whisper quietly.

"What?" Confusion was plastered on Karkat's face.

"I'm gay. I'm a homosexual." Karkat was gaping like a fice, trying to find something to say.

"Who-who-"

"Who am I gay for?" you say, cutting him off. You take a deep breath, trying to find the courage say the name, but you couldn't say it. "The person who's a prick."

Karkat was still staring at you. He never expected this, since you always denied the possibility that you were not straight. You kind of regret that now. You have no chance with Dave.

"You could've fucking told me that before! That's what the whole plan is about, isn't it?" You nodded shamefully, turning your gaze to the red. Your cheeks grew redder. "You should have fucking said something! I thought you were after TZ!" You stifled a chuckle. Why would you like Terezi? She was cool and all, but Dave... Dave was Dave. But he was also an ignorant prick.

"John!" You hear a voice calling for you somewhere behind you, but you didn't answer. You were mad at the voice. "John!" it calls again. You continue ignoring it. "Egderp!" A hand has a strong grip on your shoulder so you can't keep walking. Shit...

"John," Dave said, sounding kind of relieved, "why wouldn't you answer me."

You look away from the shades-wearing boy that had stomped on your heart oh-so nonchalantly. "I didn't hear you." There was a certain hardness in your voice that seemed to make Dave flinch a bit.

"Are we cool man? You're my best bro. I can't stand losing you." You nod and walk off to Chemistry.

You were best bros. That's all. You couldn't stop that single tear from rolling down your cheek.

Your name is Dave Strider and you watched John walk away in shock. Why was he mad at you? What did you do this time?

It wasn't like he was angry at you like the time you tried playing a prank on him. He was going to ask Vriska out, and you couldn't help feel a stab of hurt in your heart when he told you. So you were stupid and tried to ruin his chances.

You know how immature and not cool it is now, but that hurt you felt controlled you in that moment. You snuck up behind John as he was popping the question, and pulled down his pants. He was so mad at you, but Spiderbitch still said yes. You can't imagine why he broke up with her. They seemed so happy together.

You shrugged it off and walked to Science.

DAVE JUST REALIZE YOUR FEELINGS, GOD DAMMIT! I'm yelling at my own fanfic. *facepalms* I hope you like this chapter.

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