It's Cold

[Akihiko's POV]

I'm such an idiot! I should've stopped him! He didn't know an off-season snow storm was coming! I then looked at the skies, the said storm was approaching and have really come close, I panted and looked around Misaki is usually so predictable, but here I am looking for him, with no clue whereas he might be! I gripped my hand tighter, my hand that held his scarf, the scarf he threw at me, the scarf I had given to him, the scarf he REJECTED, why in the hell didn't I stop him when I can?! I knew something bad was going to happen, but I didn't expect it to be bad as THIS! I clenched my fist tighter than ever making my knuckles white,

'Where are you Misaki?' was the only four words that kept me busy as I ran around, towards the storm, some civilians had told me to go back home and it's dangerous, but no, I don't and wouldn't want me to enjoy the warmth of my house snuggling to it, while Misaki is out there freezing to death, just the thought of it made me shiver, I had to find him, and I won't rest nor seek a shelter until I do so, until I have him safe in my arms, I would apologize as many times as I would, I would tell him I love you until he says it back, I have to find him, I MUST find him, I ran whilst looking around every alley was, every hiding spots, he has got to be here somewhere, then a gush of wind suddenly blew, it was strong, strong enough to make me shiver, my eyes widened, then what about Misaki? 'Misaki…' then an image of him popped in my head, what he was wearing earlier, the fact that he didn't bring his jacket with him, I gritted my teeth for my stupidity, why in fucking hell didn't I brought his coat along?! He was so easily predictable, why did he have to be so hard to find now?! I had tried calling him on his phone, but there was no signal! Fucking weather had just to storm in now, then another gush of wind blew, much more stronger than last time that I have to grip Misaki's scarf harder to prevent it from flying away, I shivered again, I am wearing my clothes and snugged in my scarf, but if those to gush of wind were able to make me shiver as hell, then what about Misaki? He only had on him his sweat shirt, pants and shoes, and, and, his life, his life was in danger, in grave danger, then again I ran still looking around every corner, when I suddenly bumped into someone, that had too much force that I had to land on my butt on the ground,

"Oi, watch where you're going! Er—Akihiko?" a familiar voice said, my head snapped up and looked at Hiroki, "What are you doing here? You should be at home! Go back it's dangerous!" he said, I glanced at the man behind him, it was the blue-black haired man, the same man who said that he claimed Hiroki, and interrupted our talk, but now I don't care,

"Misaki…" I muttered, Hiroki raised a confused brow,

"Huh?"

"Misaki, where's Misaki, have you seen him?!" I asked as I grabbed his coat's collar, Hiroki jolted at my sudden actions as the man behind him looked like he wanted to shove me away, but probably stopped himself when I asked,

"Misaki? Who?" Hiroki asked,

"He's your student, Kamijou!" I yelled, his eyes widened,

"Takahashi?" he questioned I nodded, he then shoved my hand away, I let him go, "I saw him running towards that dire—" he pointed the path behind him, which was just straight down, without letting him finish I immediately dashed towards it after a muttering a small thanks, that he probably didn't hear, "Oi! Did something happened?!" he yelled after, but I no longer listened and made my way, though he did sound worried, but I didn't let it bother me, I was more worried about Misaki, then it became colder, I could see tiny fogs escaped my breaths, this wasn't good, Misaki was…my eyes widened, it started snowing! No probably the snowing had reached here! It was still smooth, and slowly pilling up, looked around the place is tinted with a small moist of foggy white, it was still thin, but I know that it will get thicker sometime soon, and that the snow will get stronger, the wind was now making whistling sounds, "hiko…" I could hear Hiroki calling me from a distance, but I didn't pay them any attention and ran deeper down the path, the mist thickening as every step I take, getting colder as every second ticked, this wasn't a good sign, I looked around, there were more piles of snows now, which meant, it had been snowing here for a while, the wind frequently blew, but it was still gentle but there's no telling if it'll stay like that, it won't be long till a blizzard starts to blow through, more snowflakes fell, I could hear Hiroki still calling for me, but it grew fainter as I ran down the path, I could now hear my own breathing, my throat had become hoarse and dry,

"Mi-Misaki!" I called, no response, "Misaki! Answer me!" I looked around looking around, despite the fog had almost blocked the view, but I could make out figures, I only needed a curled up human, with his chin rest on his knees that is brought up to his chest hugged by both of his arms, figure hiding in an alley to know, I pursed my eyes to see better, to adjust to the not blinding whiteness, but it was consuming, I looked around panting, my heart clenched, the weather was getting worse, and I still have yet to find him, I ran further in the fog, I don't know where he is, the temperature was dropping rapidly now, I looked around, "Misaki!" I yelled louder this time, now from the sight of the streets, the fog was now thicker, the snow had piled up that would brush against my ankles, this wasn't any better, it was getting worse than worse! I then ran further in the mist, "Misaki!" I called again, my voice slightly cracking, "Misaki, answer me!" I tried again, and again no response, I looked around, I could feel my heart sink, tears blurring my sight, which I quickly wiped away, 'Please…don't take him away…Please…I…I…I can't live without him…' I then felt tears form again on my eyes, then when I looked at my far left, there in a very small alley, was a human figure hiding, curled up into a ball, I squinted my eyes for a better looked, my eyes widened, it was…

Misaki…

He was there…hugging himself, I felt my heart clenched as two emotions punctured me, the emotion of guilt, and the other of relief, the guilt to have let him go through this pain, and I broke him just earlier, and relief that I have found him, but now he was cold and needed warmth, I felt my cheeks numb a bit, wait, I'm smiling? I looked at my hand that held his scarf before looking up, and running towards him, "Misaki!" I called inaudibly though he should've heard it, but he didn't budge, or maybe he didn't hear me, as I got closer I took note of his shoulder tensing up and cooling down, which is when I finally took note of the glistening trail on his pale cheeks, my heart clenched harder this time, his crying, my smile dropped, he's crying…because of me, he's crying, I approached closer, my eyes widend, he wasn't seeing in this world anymore, his eyes were already dull and jaded, it had no light, nor the bright color of its shade, as if someone mixed a pile of gray strappings to it, and that someone would be me, "Misaki…" I whispered, he didn't react, my tears streamed down, "Misaki!" I called louder this time, I ran next to him and pulled him to me, ignoring the snow the fell from him or on me, his chin over my shoulder, I hugged him, trying to give him warmth that he needs right now, then I felt my heart stop, my eyes widened, I clenched my hand in his soft brown locks, I can't believe it, I couldn't believe it, I don't WANT to believe it, I gripped him tighter, as my tears streamed down and soaking his sweater, he wasn't…

Breathing…

I pulled him away to look at him, his eyes were now distant, half lidded and tired, he looked lifeless as he took no record of my actions, my voice, my warmth, nor the fact that I am HERE, I shook him slightly, "Misaki…" I whimpered, no reaction, no sign of him returning, I shook him again harder this time, "Misaki? Misaki!" I called, he still wasn't breathing, his lips had now blue-ish tint, his color had drain from him, he was so pale, as if his blood was taken from him, my tears dripped on him, but he didn't feel it, he wasn't responding, I didn't care of my surroundings, if he could've respond he would've shoved me away saying that he was fine, he would've tried to get away from me, he would've complained, argued, protested, but none of it were heard nor brought up, he stayed silent this time, lifeless, unfeeling, unnerving, not jerking when he should, why? Why? I didn't care anymore, all I wanted was him to come back, all I wanted was for Misaki to come back, to come back to me, I could hear myself whimper, but I didn't care anymore, he's my love, my true love, I'm not…no…I DON'T WANT TO LOSE HIM! I shook him again, now my tears dropped on his cheeks, mixing with his own, I wiped his tears away, if only he would've reacted when I did that, but then nothing, he didn't, and the last thing I ever did was hurt him, I then pressed my hand on his chest, my heart clenched as every second ticked, and every snow had piled,

*thump* My eyes widened, I pressed further,

*Thump…Thump…* It was weak but, he's alive, I shook him again,

"Misaki…Misaki…please…I know you can hear…please…" there was no reaction in his eyes, I whimpered, "Please…Misaki…please, breathe!" I said whilst shaking him, his body was ice cold, he had gone paler, "Misaki…please…" I called again, no reaction, "Misaki…please don't leave me…" I said gripping him tighter, before holding him close to me, "I'm sorry…" I whispered to his ear, he didn't twitch nor even the slightest bit react, but just stayed like that, I pulled him away to look at him, he didn't know, he seemed unaware, unaware of his surroundings, unaware, he didn't know that he wasn't breathing, he didn't know that he wasn't seeing, he didn't know that he was being hugged, called, and…and…

I choked, before I took note, his half lidded, tired, dull, lifeless eyes were starting to close, my eyes widened, his heartbeat was going slower, quieter, fainter,

"No…no…no…no, no, no…" I shook my head, "Misaki…don't…die…please…" I begged, but it wasn't working, my breath hitched, before hugging him close, my lips touching his cold numb ear, "Misaki…please…don't go…Misaki, I-I love you…" I said, now my tears freely streamed down, soaking his shoulder, it felt him twitch for a second,

"…Hm…I love you too…Usagi-san…" he answered, my eyes widened, I then pulled him away, to look at him, he now somehow had a small smile on his face,

'No…' his eyes closed, 'No! No, no, no, no, no, NO!' "Mi—saki…" I called my voice cracking as I swallowed a lump, 'Please don't do this to me…Please…' "Misaki," I called again, I shook him, "MISAKI!" I screamed, it was the loudest of all, but he didn't move, he didn't budge, he didn't react, I then buried my face to his shoulder, "Misaki… please…I-I can't…" I gripped his brown locks tighter, his chest was touching my own, but no thumping, his heartbeat had stopped, I then laid him on the ground before I started pressing both hands on his chest right on top of his heart and started pumping, also reminding myself to not to push so hard, so to not to bruise him or possibly break some of his ribs, 'Misaki…Misaki…Misaki…' I then parted his lips open before pushing my own to his, and breathed to him, but he wasn't showing any reaction, 'Please…Misaki…' I then pumped on his chest again, but then still no reaction, I then repeated the methods, "Misaki…" I called, 'Please…Misaki…come back…' "PLEASE LIVE!" I yelled, more tears formed on my eyes that immediately fell on him, some on the ground, I then again continued the method, "MISAKI!" I called again, it wasn't working…Misaki…I then buried my face to his shoulder, I could tell that it was horribly soaked wet with my tears, but then I didn't want to move away, I just wanted to hold him tight, I want to hold him close, closer than anything, if he was going somewhere, I would follow him, even if he finds someone he'll love and deserve…no, I can't let him go…I know I am being selfish but I don't want to let him go, I held him tighter, I didn't want to let him go, I want to be next to him, if he's going somewhere far away, a place no one could pin point then let me come with him, living a life without him would be useless, it would be meaningless, "Misaki…" I cried, if he'll die right here, then let me be with him, if I'll have to live, then take away my voice and give it to him, in exchange for his life, bring him back, bring him back, to me…I sobbed as fogs escaped my breaths they were thicker this time, it had gotten colder, my breath hitched, blocking out everything, my fingers had become numb from the cold, I wanted the cold to actually freeze my heart, and make the stabbing, clenching pain to go away, "Please don't leave me…I love you…" I whispered, my voice was now dry, and hoarse it hurt to speak, now more tears streamed down my cheeks, "I love you…" I whispered again, I then rocked both of us back and forth, though I only managed to rock his upper half, "I love you…" I said again, my throat hurt, it was sore, dumb and it was now stinging, "I love you… I love you… I love you… I love you… I love you…" I chanted over and over again, my ears started ringing, my heart clenched, stronger than ever, it had begun hard to breathe, my eyes started to blur, I was losing my vision as a black fog tried to consume me, darkness was creeping up to me now, but I didn't mind as long as he was with me, as long as he is in my arms, when a faint but clear voice went through me,

"AKIHIKO!"

(A/N: Okay, I know this sounds all…somehow confusing, so before anyone complains, I'll explain; when Usagi found Misaki, Misaki was never breathing since, he was just convincing himself, re-read the chapter one to know, if you still can't understand it just feel free to drop your review about it or PM me for explanation, I can't explain it here, and I don't wanna, I know that I didn't put this on the previous chap, but I don't own Junjou Romantica, it belongs to Shungiku-sensei… also, I don't know why I somehow make it end the same way I did before, I'm sorry for the slow update I was actually planning on updating on the day after I posted the first chap, but then exams had just to drop in that I had been busy studying so sorry, this is DakrAlchemistAssassin, at your service…also for those who are wondering, I don't know if I'll put up some heavy themed yaoi on this…So if I can't sorry in advance…Also before I forget, Thank you very much for those who reviewed; hiyokocchi, , Mara911, and Guest, also for those who followed; , thunderpants009, hiyokocchi, dragneellover269, Misaki789, Mara911, Lovely Bunny-chan, and Emery Loves Emeralds, for those who have favorite; , thunderpants009, hiyokocchi, dragneellover269, and Misaki789, this story, Thank you so much! Until then...CHAO~!)