It's Cold

[Shiel'sPOV]

I did it…phew, just in time. Soon when Misaki had started screaming and squirming on his bed. Violently shaking that is. Kun and other nurses gathered inside. I stepped aside, letting them do their work.

"Good work…" Kun whispered as he went pass me. I nodded but glared at him.

"It wasn't for you…it was for Misaki…" I whispered back before going out of the room. Misaki was still trashing about. I looked forward and was about to go someplace else. My eyes widened. Usami, Nowaki and Kamijou were in front of me. "Shit…" I muttered under my breath. The silverette looked like he had seen a ghost. Extremely pale, but not because of his condition. But because of Misaki. It wasn't long when Usmai pinned me to the wall, grabbing the collar of my shirt.

"What did you do to him?!" he yelled. Nowaki and Kamijou approached him.

"Usami-san…" Nowaki said in a soothing voice trying to stop the silverette.

"Akihiko that's enough…for what she have done it must be for Takahashi…" Kamijou backed up. I glared at him, before snapping his hands off me.

"Don't talk like your all high and almighty…what I did wasn't for anyone but for Misaki…for him to live out of the frostbite stage, is to get heat in his body. And for that to be accomplished…he needs violent movements! That drug is one of the most weakest ones. But it easily works to those who are unconscious. To stretched his muscles. Pulse his heart. This was all for him! I'm not even getting paid for it! Even I...even I, don't want to see him in pain!" I took a deep breath, I knew by then my eyes were crying. From the looks of their faces, they told me I was. "I should say the same to you!" now this was directed at the author, "Misaki wouldn't be an idiot like that to run in a mad storm like that or stay in one place, unless something happened… what were you doing?!" his eyes widened. Oh, shit…I snapped. He shadowed his eyes as Nowaki and Kamijou held his back as if he needed the support to stand. "Uh…I…" if Misaki knows about this, it would give a weigh on his chest, I don't want that.

"…s…l…y…ult…" I heard him mutter and mumble.

"Huh?" oh, how I wanted to slap myself.

"It's all my fault…" he muttered more clearly. Our eyes widened.

"What are you talking about Akihiko!" Kamijou snapped.

"If I hadn't…" I blinked. From what Misaki said, Usami Akihiko was strong, a man who held his ground, a recollected calm man. But now, the said man looked weak, that his strength had been drained, unable to stand on his own, as he was just shattered. "If I only had…" he muttered.

"Akihiko?" Kamijou called also confused and scared of his friend's expression.

"Usami-san…" Nowaki looked worry etched on his face. For the first time. For the first fucking time! Nowaki GLARED at me! His glare was telling me to say something. Looking around this place wasn't a good place to talk. Without hesitations, I pulled Akihiko starling the other two adults, but they followed anyways, so I yanked and dragged Akihiko away from the crowd to my office. Yes, I have my own office-it's actually just the storage room that they rarely use-the two men panted behind me, while Akihiko didn't seem to mind and easily recollected himself from exhaustion, but not from his gloom nor his sorrow.

"I'll hear it…" I said, blushing. He looked up confused written all over his face and his beautiful lavender eyes, 'The hell?' "I'll listen to what happen…I won't judge…" he stayed quiet. I sighed. Nowaki and Hiroki were exchanging glances with me as if uncertain. "Come on…it's okay…" I said giving more encouragement. He looked worried. 'Wait, could it be that…' I smiled at my idea. "Don't worry…Nowaki and Kamijou are going out…" with that said the two said men's heads snapped at me wearing one look.

'What the fuck?' even Akihiko mirrored their look. He looked at the two couple behind him who were blushing madly.

"So, if you're worried about this other two disgusted about you, then don't, they don't have a right to do that…" I said with an irritated tone. I know I have to be nice. And kind. But that is just me… I heard a sigh from the silverette, I smiled, a small one, he looked cute…'Wait, what?' I then looked at him closely, taking in his features. 'He's is Misaki's type…' "Before you started…I want to hear how you met…" he looked at me before nodding, at least he was opening up, even some other doctors or therapist can't do that to their patients. It wasn't long when he started talking, good thing the sto-er, my office had some chairs in stocked as the other nurses tends to take it to put it in the hospital rooms, we sat in a circle form, Me, then Nowaki, then Akihiko, then Kamijou. 'No wonder Misaki liked him…' I thought as I listened how Misaki cried for him when Takahiro introduced him to his wife, who was soon-to-be, Takahiro his unrequited love. Hiroki seemed surprised at that, Nowaki had a soft expression on him. Misaki who he only met for six months, saw through him when his dense but smart brother couldn't, tell me about it, he knew my feelings by the second he saw me. How Misaki had wanted to know more about him, and how desperate he was when Akihiko wouldn't tell him. How Misaki wanted to make a move on him during his promotion, though Misaki failed. How Misaki had stood up for him from his brother, when his brother had insulted his line of work. How Misaki had tried to escape when his brother held him captive only to return to Akihiko. How Misaki had put his claim on Akihiko when his senpai tried to take him away. How he and Misaki fought when he suggested that Misaki should try considering living all his own, ending up to this situation. Shit, how I wanted to hurt him, despite he is already shattered very well. Hiroki opened his mouth.

"Akihiko…you're such an—" but before he could finish it, despite I am trying my hardest to keep it down.

"You're such an idiot!" it slip. They all stared at me, now I took note that I had stood up and my chair had fallen back. "Baka Usagi!" I yelled, I panted. Why did it take so much air just to shout that? I have a twisted personality, yet I'm a crybaby. Ironic, isn't it?

[Akihiko's POV]

When I started talking, I don't know why, but she has this similar air around Misaki to actually make me spill it all out. When I finished, Hiroki looked like he was already on the edge to yell at me, I deserve it after all. But she, Shiel, was it? Looked like on the verge of her temper but kept it in.

"Akihiko…" Hiroki started, rubbing his temples. Clearly angry. "You're such an—" I know what he was going to say, but before he could finish his sentence. Shiel beat him to it.

"You're such an idiot!" she snapped. We all stared at her eyes wide as she stared at me, with that unreadable expression, I don't like it when I can't read their thoughts, her chair had fallen back when she violently stood up to yell. "Baka Usagi!" she yelled again, much how Misaki would do it. She panted afterwards. Her voice had cracked. As she said she wouldn't judge, and she didn't judge my thoughts whenever I said I felt jealous, angry, or anything negative, nor how I acted, but not after when I said after I and Misaki fought. Could it be that she…likes Misaki? I stared at her. She earlier was really snapping at me, and now, she's crying? Why? She sobbed trying to dry her tears with the back of her hand like how Misaki did it when Takahiro introduced me to Manami. "Baka…Misaki…" she muttered, still sniffing, "What should I do with both of you?!" I raised a brow, confused. She had her eyes covered by her hands, while she bit her lower lip. She walked towards me in a fast pace. I was actually expecting a slap across a face, until I felt a weight pressed on my forehead. I slowly looked up. "You can cry if you want…" she whispered. My eyes widened. What was she saying? Why is she trying to comfort me. She likes Misaki, and I hurt him, right? I have no right to cry. It's all my fault. As if reading my thoughts, she said. "No one's at fault here. Not Misaki…nor you…" she said, more assuring. She sounded so sure of herself. She crouched down as I have looked at the ground, forcing me to meet her red gaze. "Look… Misaki was shaken up, by his actions, he probably ran out of your condo not knowing about the storm, as the storm was sudden, the news about it only came earlier. Even Misaki didn't want this to happen." She smiled at me sadly, but there was no pity in her eyes, but determination. "I still don't know what happened when you found him though…" she said my eyes widened, 'How did she know?' "But, I'm pretty sure he cuddled himself in an alley, rocking himself, calming himself, crying silently." She added, "Usagi…" she called gently. "Stop blaming yourself…you're not the one's at fault, neither is Misaki…no one is…Misaki's alive, isn't he?" she sounded caring, like a mother. Much more caring than my actual mother. Not that I have felt it before. "Misaki's strong, be it physical or not. He is stronger than he looks, a person who have reached the almost final stage of frostbite, always dies when they arrive at the hospital, but Misaki didn't. He was and is still fighting…Akihiko…if you keep on blaming yourself, your just giving up. Lighten up…keep your hopes up…Misaki's safe…" my eyes widened.

"Why are you so kind to me?" I muttered a question.

"Why? Why are you asking me such question?" she laughed.

"we just met a few minutes ago…why are you so kind to me? A stranger…" I asked further, I couldn't tell what Hiroki and his lover's expressions right now, not that it bothered me.

"Why are you sharing your stories to a stranger?" she said back.

'Touché' she chuckled. Before patting my head.

"You're good at faking your expressions, your voice, your tone but your eyes…they're screaming the truth…" she stood up to her full level, not that she was that tall. (I think I just hurt myself…) she giggled before starring at me, straight to my eyes, her eyes screamed loneliness. "Also…why is Misaki kind to a stranger?" she smiled, squeezing her eyes shut. When we heard a knock on the door, that got all of our attention. The door slide open, revealing, Dr. Kun.

"Good thing your conversation is over…" he said in a huffing tone. Shiel was immediately pissed when he did that.

"Kun…not just because you're a doctor, you can do what you want…you're so sick…" Shiel hissed at him.

"Hm…says the freeloader…" Kun rolled his eyes. Shiel clenched her teeth at that. But managed to calm herself than beaming at him.

"How's he?" she asked. Kun took a quick glance at her as if confused before sighing.

"He's fine…his temperature went back to normal. He's safe now…" he said, despite he didn't smile his eyes and voice was. I heard everyone even myself sigh in relief at that. "But…"

'There's more?'

"He's in a temporary coma…he needs to rest…" Kun added, disappointment in his voice. But coma is fine, no its better than having Misaki in danger.

"When will he wake up?" I blinked, the question slipped from my lips, I was now on my feet, since when did I stand up? But there was too much hope in my voice, that it scared me half to death. With that Kun smiled.

"Don't worry, he'll wake up in three days, five max…"

"Isn't that great, Hiro-san?" I heard Kusama cheer.

"Why are you telling me that?" Hiroki huffed.

"Thank goodness…" Shiel sighed. I smiled.

"I see…" then his face scowled, I raised a brow, then I felt him yank my right arm.

"And you too need to rest. Usami Akihiko-san, we already tranfered your bed next to Takahashi-kun…so, off we go…" Kun said pulling me out of the room.

"Eh? But we were having so much fun~!" I heard Shiel whine in disappointment.

'Could he be…'

"I'm sorry, but did my sister do something weird?" he asked. I blinked.

'Sister?' "Uh, Sister?"

"Well, my father adopted her, when he found her in the orphanage and found out about her potential in arts. But did she say something that could and might've affected you?" he asked, concern clearly etched in his voice.

"No, more like she reassured me towards the good side…" I sighed. He nodded. He wasn't facing me, but I could feel that he was clearly worried.

"She can be like that…" he muttered, relief in his voice. But there was something more to it.

"Do you love her?" his head snapped around, facing my way, eyes wide.

"She's 10 years younger than me! Don't get the wrong idea, and she's my sister!" he exclaimed before reverting his gaze back on the way.

"But, you're not blood related. And so is the gap between me and Misaki…" I commented, despite Kun's back was facing me. I knew that he was blushing. His ears were also blushing. When we reached in Misaki's room, the blush was still fairly recognizable. "So, do you love her?" I asked. Kun reluctantly nodded.

"More than I want to. My father acutally adopted her, to not to become his daughter. But daughter in law…and she's a…"

"I'm a what? Kun?" Kun and Akihiko then gaped at Shiel who appeared out of nowhere, hand on her hips and is right behind her so-called brother. Kun flushed.

"Anyway…I should get back to work…" with that said he left. Kusama and Hiroki soon appeared. Shiel sighed before entering the room with Kusama and Hiroki following her inside.

"Anyway…Akihiko…you should rest…" Shiel said. More like commanded. I nodded, before sitting on the bed right across Misaki's. I looked at him. "If you stay up late worrying about him. Misaki will too be worried…" Shiel stated. Giving a final glance at Misaki, I sighed before laying down, staring at the dimly lit ceiling, before closing my eyes. The darkness consumed me fast. As if it was waiting for my arrival to invite me in.

Darkness was everywhere. No time. No place. Just nothing but black…then why can I see myself? I looked at my hands. I was…glowing? I looked around, this was space. I wasn't standing either. I was floating? Nothing. There was nothing, but me here… where am I? Why am I here? Where's Misaki…Misaki…

"Usagi-san…" came a faint familiar voice, I snapped looking around, desperate. The voice belonged to Misaki.

'Where are you, Misaki?' I looked around.

"Usagi-san…" he called again. Then the temperature dropped from mild warm to dead cold. I shivered. Déjà vu…where? "Usagi-san…" the voice grew fainter.

"Misaki!" I shouted back. I expected to hear the echoing of my voice, but it didn't. then I felt something, much more colder right behind me.

"Usagi-san…" the voice, his voice, Misaki's voice was near. He was right…I turned around…he was right behind me…my eyes widened. He had a sad look on his expression and eyes. He was pale blue. Around him a bliss of mist and floating snow. I walked towards him.

"Misaki…" he smiled. It clenched my heart. Why was he pale? Why was he sad? Why is it snowing around him? Or was it…was?

"Usagi-san…I…I…" he started. I walked faster…trying to reach him before he say 'it'…he tilted his head to the side. Tears trickling down his cheeks. Why was he crying? "Usagi-san…I love you…" my eyes widened. I ran towards him.

"Misaki!" but as soon as my hand reached him. He dissolved into 'snow'…I looked at my hand. In it was his dissolved part. Snow. I looked up before I heard a hissing whistling noise. I know what it was. "No…" I muttered. Then the wind blew, blowing him, Misaki…my Misaki away… I reached out my hand trying to get him back. "No…please…NO!" I screamed, but he didn't came back. He wasn't here. I could feel my tears wield up in my eyes. I looked down, on my knees. I leaned my hand, the hand that almost touched him, unto my chest. He…Misaki was…gone… "Misaki…I'm sorry…it's all my fault…if I only hadn't…it's all my fault…I'm sorry…I…I…I love you…" I chanted the three magical words over and over. The wind blew stronger but not strong enough to blow someone away. With my hand leaning to my chest. With the snow. It felt like…it felt like…Misaki was here with me…

(A/N: okay…I don't know what got me to write and to end it like this…I'm so sorry! I tried! I hate myself for doing this to them…but if ever you are wondering. I do not know if the Terrorist will show up. I have no idea, and got no slightest clue of it. I don't even know why I put the Egoist pair in this XD…I'm so stupid…hope you guys like this one! On the next one…I can't make any promises for it…anyway…sorry for the late update…I had been traveling here and there…so…yeah…this is DarkAlchemistAssassin, at your service…Review?

CHAO~!)