A/N: Merry Christmas!

A good man and the bad woman

"Demons run when a good man goes to war

Night will fall and drown the sun,

When a good man goes to war.

Friendship dies and true love lies,

When a good man goes to war.

Demons run but count the cost

The battle's won but the child is lost."

The battle of Demons Run had just ended and the Doctor was on his search for Amy and Rory's daughter. When he looked back on those recent events he still couldn't believe it completely. The truth who River Song was. The one truth about her at least. He still hasn't found out who she was to him.

However, she came in the right moment and now he knew he could trust her. She was the daughter of his best friends and he would find her whatever it takes.

The Doctor knew or at least suspected for a while that Amy wasn't really with him in the TARDIS and something had happened to her.

When he found out that she had been kidnapped and brought to Demons Run he claimed the depth of creatures all over the universe he had met before and called old friends for help (except for Jack, he was probably busy with his own nasty aliens that want to destroy the world). He also sent Rory to get River. Without success. He was pretty angry at her. All the time he came to her call. Whenever she felt like jumping from a spaceship or a skyscraper he was there to catch her. Now this one time he could really need her she wasn't there.

But he had not the time to be angry about her. Madam Kovarian had taken Amy's daughter to turn her into a weapon against him. It was quite a bit of a shock for him when he found out that Melody Pond had human plus time lord DNA.

Then at the end of the battle when everything seemed lost, Amy and Rory despaired about their lost baby, the Doctor sad and angry about the deaths of his friends who had fought with and for him. At this dark hour she made her appearance at last. River turned up out of nowhere and the Doctor threw all his rage against her.

"Where the hell have you been, River?!" he shouted.

"I couldn't have prevented this," she said and it made him even more furious.

"You could have tried!"

"And so, my love, could you."

How could she show up like this when everything was already over and lost and tell him that all was his fault. He felt so disappointed. He really had wished that he could trust her because he liked her. But then she accused him not to be worth of the word doctor and that he is called mighty warrior and deep in his heart he knew that she was right but he would never ever show that to her, he was way too angry. Who gave her the right to judge him like this? Yes, she knew his future but this was no excuse. She was in prison because she killed a man. She wasn't in the position to judge him.

He wanted to know who she was.

"Who are you, River?"

Suddenly her serious features changed and a cocky smile appeared on her lips. She grabbed his hand and dragged him over to the cot he had brought for the baby.

"Tell me who you are," he pleaded again.

She touched his hand and moved it over the edge of the cot.

"I am telling you."

He looked confused in her still smiling face.

What the hell is going on, he thought. What was all this about? Will he ever understand that woman?

He had a strange feeling. It wasn't only confusion. His anger had calmed down; her hand on his was warm and gentle.

"Can't you read?" she said in a low voice. He followed her gaze down to the cot. Inside there was the leaf of green fabric with the name of Amy's daughter stitched on it. Melody Pond. In the language of the forest: River Song.

The information needed a while to sick in. This couldn't be. This was impossible, crazy…wonderful. As he finally understood what that meant all the worries, the rage and confusion was gone and he was full with joy. There was hope again. River gave it back to him.

The fact that she was Melody and that she was standing all well and gorgeous right before him made him happy and hopeful. He was so thankful to her. Now he could promise to Amy and Rory that their daughter will be alright and that he'll find her. Now he knew that he could trust River. It could've been fatal if she had come earlier but she came in the right moment and set things right.

He entrusted her to take care of Amy and Rory and left because it was now on him to find her and save her. And he would do so whatever it would take.

While he was looking for Melody he thought a lot about River. When he found her at last it was much unexpected. She got nearly killed and regenerated into the River they knew. Then she tried to kill him. And she almost succeeded. There it was again, this hopeless feeling that he had lost her again, that he had failed his friends again, when he was lying there dying by Rivers poisoned kiss. He had to make her the River he knew and admired. He knew she had to be there somewhere.

"Find River Song," he told Melody and she did. There she was. His River. Giving him all her remaining regeneration energy to save his life. His impossible, amazing River, giving him hope again. So he gave her the tardis blue diary that she possessed since he had met her the first time. Now she was complete. But was he ready for the next step yet?

It had been a while since the Doctor found Melody and she became River. He hadn't found the courage yet to visit her since then. He knew his time was upon him and he knew that it was her who would be the death of him. It was time for him to go and he would see her then anyway. He had accepted it but it still made him sad.

Tbc~