Nomen est omen

The Doctor held the last page of the book pressed to his chest when he returned to the TARDIS. He has read Amy's afterword and knew what to do now. A little girl was waiting for him.

He knew he couldn't see Amy and Rory again and he got so tired of losing his friends. He wanted to be alone for a while now, the pain of losing Amy and Rory was still too fresh but Amy and also River had told him more than once not to travel alone. River could be with him for some of the time but not always because of their reversed timelines.

There was another thing that was now troubling him. He hadn't much time left to sort everything out he wanted.

While River was gone writing the book he remembered a conversation he had with Amy some time ago.

"Doctor?" A voice called him and the Doctor jumped up from his seat.

Amy laughed. "What are you thinking about this time?"

The Doctor shook his head. "Nothing special," he said.

Amy raised an eyebrow. "The last time you said that you were thinking about River. "

He looked away owing her an answer.

"So it is about her again. What is bothering you? You are married. Oh wait! Is this the problem? Have you ever been married before?"

Again the Doctor left her answerless, fumbling with switches and levers on the console.

"Ok, no need to talk." Amy pouted.

"I'm sorry," he said simply.

"Oh come on." Amy punched his arm.

"It's complicated you know."

Amy looked very expectant and tried with puppy eyes.

"Right then," the Doctor gave in.

Amy smiled. "Good boy."

"Hey!"

"So?" she said curiously.

"It's just that…when I met her the first time she knew my name. And I haven't told her yet."

"Why is that a problem?"

He hesitated.

"The only time when I would ever tell anyone my name is…my wedding. As you know I haven't told her my name that day when we married."

Amy's eyes went wide. "Oh, I got it. It means you will marry her again for real. You got cold feet, that's it."

"Perhaps," he muttered.

"Come on, what's the matter? You love her, don't you? You should do it and you should do it properly. I mean with a proposal and everything. She deserves it, don't you think?"

The thoughts were spinning around in his head. It was ridiculous. Now even Amy could read him so well. Apparently River had to get it from someone.

"I have to think about it." With that the discussion was over.

The thought of Amy still hurt and he was traveling around very carefully not to get involved in anything, just watching. He was waiting for getting over it but without interfering, without the running he had too much time to think and he kept thinking about Amy and River.

After his talk with River he felt better because she wasn't mad at him but the guilt of what happened to her and her parents because of him was still there beneath the grief and pain of the loss, of all the losses he had experienced.

He didn't want to lose River, too. However she would be gone soon. He knew it when they met in New York and she told him she got pardoned and was professor now. So the day she would go to the Library would come soon and so had the day that she learns his name.

He was alone for a while now and made his mind up. He was already involved too much. There was no other way. His last day with River would come and his hearts would break again anyway, so he could make one last wonderful memory with her. He owed her that much at least. Also, he wanted it for himself. He had realized that he wanted to marry her not only because she needed to know his name, against all his Time lord pride, against all what being a time lord stands for, he was the last one left and could tell her whenever he wanted to, the wedding thing wasn't necessary he decided. No, he wanted to marry her for real this time because he wanted her to be his wife, because she was River Song, Melody, Pond, the daughter of his friends, the Ponds and, most of all, he loved her.

tbc~

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