Here's chapter four ! Sorry it's been so long! The song is Ed Sheeran - Give Me Love. I'm so addicted to this song right now.
Give a little time to me or burn this out,
We'll play hide and seek to turn this around,
All I want is the taste that your lips allow,
My, my, my, my oh give me love.
By the time me and Caroline had gone back inside to the restaurant and sat in our registered seats, everyone else had already ordered. Stefan had took the pleasure in ordering my food for me, he had ordered me the Lasagne with the salad. Elena had ordered the sea food for Caroline who muttered a 'thanks' to her before her gaze returned to me, her eyes sharp and piercing waiting for me to do something stupid.
"Where did you two get to?" Matt asked, his voice failing to hide the anger and jealousy behind his words.
"This woman walked past me and her scent was intoxicating. I really wanted to drink from her but Damon stopped me, he helped me." Caroline smiled and nodded at me.
I put a fake smile on my lips and nodded in agreement to her. I could feel the stares of bewilderment coming across from all around the room towards me. No one here believed that I was capable of good, capable of helping someone and actually showing kindness to another being whether they would be human or not. I glanced at Elena who was sat opposite me, she shared a sneaky glance my way and smiled, a genuine smile. Her eyes held mine and for a moment, I think she actually believed the story that Caroline had come up with. Elena's eyes held something that no one else did, they held knowing. She had always believed that I had been capable of good, kindness and actual feelings and she had faith in me. Elena believed in me and she was the only one that did.
"Well done, Damon." Stefan whispered, his lips in a tight line as he glanced at me quickly to show his approval.
"Thanks." I muttered quietly so only he could hear but I didn't look at him directly in the eye. Maybe it had something with the fact that soon I would be telling his girlfriend that I was actually the love of her life and that we had been together in every way possible before she had even met my brother.
The rest of the meal was done with hardly any talking or communication from me at all as I was constantly being watched by Caroline. She glared at me when I made sneaky glances at Elena when she was either smiling or laughing whilst she was talking to someone. It was impossible not to look at her when she was making them perfect sounds, it was beautiful. After the third time I looked over at Elena, Caroline kicked me under the table with a vampire's force and I didn't even try to glance at Elena for the rest of the night, scared of what Caroline would do to me otherwise.
Nobody made an effort to talk to me. Stefan talked to Matt about football, school and other boring human things which seemed to fascinate them both. Tyler tried many attempts to flirt and chat up Caroline but she was too busy watching me to notice him which infuriated him even more. Jeremy just gazed down at his empty plate and twirled his fork In his hands, the desire to leave wrote all over his face. Bonnie talked to Elena about all the new spells she had learnt and how much power she could now master before they went on to talk about boyfriends and how amazing Stefan was. I sighed, if only they knew how much my brother was like me, a monster.
Dessert was soon delivered to our table. Matt, Tyler, Jeremy and myself didn't order anything but Bonnie ordered a banana split with ice cream and sprinkles which didn't look appealing to me at all. Caroline ordered a chocolate fudge sundae and Stefan and Elena shared chocolate fudge cake with ice cream much to my annoyance. I looked around the restaurant to see if there was anyone who could be a distraction for me, someone I could take home and do whatever I wanted with until I was done. I needed a distraction.
I scanned the room and saw the table with the familiar table cloths and black ribbon around the chairs not so far from where we were currently seated and my heart plummeted in my chest. A distraction was pointless because no one could ever compare to her, I needed her not a distraction.
Caroline's plan re-entered my mind, I had to make Elena remember and after the realisation that nothing would stop the pain or take her place, I knew I just had to go through with this plan. I had to make Elena remember me and I wouldn't stop until she knew. I would see the plan through until the very end.
"I have to go, my shift at the Grill starts in an hour." Matt said.
"I'll come with you, I have to study for my math test tomorrow." Bonnie said already out of her seat.
"Me too." Tyler said, a sad look on his face as he stood up out of his chair next to Caroline.
Stefan threw Matt his car keys and insisted Matt take them rather than Matt walking all the way back to Mystic Falls and that Stefan and the rest of them who remained would catch a ride home with me. I plastered a fake smile on my face, pretending to be overly happy that I had to take Stefan and the love of my life back home just so they could be spend the rest of the night together. Jeremy jumped up quickly and followed Matt and the others out of Pierre's and I could almost see the relief in his face as he walked through the glass doors.
"Excuse me, I'll go pay the bill." Stefan whispered to Elena as he gently kissed her forehead before standing. The jealousy rushed through me and I gripped the table to try and stop me from hitting Stefan. I couldn't hit Stefan, it would just make Elena hate me. I couldn't risk her hating me.
When Stefan moved away from Elena, I could see she had a small piece of cake on her upper lip and it took everything I had not to kiss her lips to get it off. I bit my lip and I heard Caroline mutter something as she stood up and followed Stefan. All I cared about right now was how perfectly made Elena's lips were and how the chocolate cake made her look innocent and beautiful.
"Damon? Do I have something on my face or something?" She asked snapping me back into reality and I could see the red spread around her face, embarrassed by staring at her.
"Huh, yeah…you have a bit of cake on your lip."
Elena wiped her mouth with her serviette but still the cake remained on her lip much to her discomfort. She wiped her mouth again yet the cake stayed there on her lip, refusing to move. The cake stayed there taunting me, telling me to kiss it away, to kiss her. My body responded to the taunting and I had no control left over my body as I scooted over to Stefan's seat. Hesitantly, I lifted my hand to her mouth and slowly brushed away the cake with my finger. Elena's lips trembled at my touch and I could feel the electricity coursing through me as I touched her. I placed my thumb on Elena's bottom lip and stroked gently, unsure of what I was doing. Her breathing caught in her chest and her eyes burned with something I thought had died months ago, it burned with lust and love.
"It's gone." I whispered but my hand didn't move from her face. My hand crawled it's way around her face to her cheek and I gently tugged her face closer to me and to my surprise she didn't move away, she remained under my touch, under my love. I leaned into her slowly, completely aware of the consequences if I kissed her but it didn't matter, I just wanted to kiss her, to feel her lips on mine.
But before my lips reached hers, I heard Stefan and Caroline coming back from paying the bill and I immediately jumped back in my seat. Elena stared at me, her eyes angry and completely confused to why I had just left her there wanting more. I shook my head and placed a finger to my lips as she was about to speak and as soon as I did, she understood why I had stopped.
When Stefan and Caroline returned, Elena's eyes turned back to the ones that I had seen for so long now. The one where you could see the adoration and love she felt for Stefan, just by her eyes. Caroline glanced at me but I couldn't look at her, I just couldn't believe how close I had been to kissing Elena.
On the way home, I dropped Stefan and Elena off at Elena's house and I smiled at least I didn't have to put up with them two telling each other how much they loved each other tonight. When I dropped Caroline off she told me to meet her in the morning as early as possible so we could come up with a reasonable way to make Elena remember and everything else that was needed for the plan. I drove away from Caroline's house and noticed that Liz was stood in the window waiting for her daughter to come home. Liz nodded towards me as form of acknowledgement and I waved my hand in the air before driving away into the darkness of the night.
The boarding house welcomed me home alone as it had done for the last seven months. I closed the door behind me and locked it, not really knowing why as I had never locked it before. I guessed it was a way of shutting out the rest of the world, it was a way for me to stay in this house tonight by myself with only thoughts to keep company. I picked a bottle of bourbon and a shot glass before walking up the wooden stairs to my bedroom.
I opened my bedroom door and seen the necklace glistening in the darkness of the room. I placed the bottle of bourbon and glass next to it, not really seeing the need to drink as it would probably only heighten my pain right now, heighten the loss, something that I couldn't afford to face tonight. I was already feeling vulnerable, I couldn't add to that.
Slowly, I opened the first drawer underneath where the necklace rested and saw the photo that I hadn't let myself to see for a while. The photo was torn, faded and covered in dust like it was years old but it was only a few months old. The photo was the only one of me and Elena, the only one where we looked blissfully happy and in love. I had my right arm around her waist in the photo and my left hand holding her hand. She was looking at me smiling and her eyes were lit with happiness and love. My eyes returned her gaze and was lit up with the same expression.
I run my hands over the photo wishing that I could go back in time and change my actions. If only I hadn't been so stupid and careless, she would still be here with me. I loved her then and I loved her now, if only I told her that. If I told her that my life would have turned out completely different to what it was now, she wouldn't be with Stefan, she would be with me. The picture had been taken so long ago and yet I still loved her, I still felt the same. Nothing could change my love for Elena and one day soon I would tell her exactly that, I would tell her everything.
Give me love like never before,
'cause lately I've been craving more.
And it's been a while but I still feel the same.