Hi, so here's another new chapter of Just A Memory. I know this one is way shorter than usual but I just wanted to show you Elena's side of things a little bit more, show you how she's dealing etc. The song used in this chapter is Skinny Love- Birdy. Guess what? I'm going to be a big sister! Ikr? Scary right? My mother is pregnant, yep I'm so excited!

And now all your love is wasted,

Then who the hell was I?

'Cause I'm breaking at the britches,

At the end of all your lines.

Elena POV

The bell echoed around the school marking the end of the school year causing students to toss their books into their air and hug each other as they all embraced the Summer. Students chanted carelessly down the corridors, their arms wrapped around each other as they continued to 'whoop' like a new breed of animals. Couples kissed by their lockers for the final time and friends hugged each other tightly making promises to see each other throughout the Summer. I sighed to myself. Everyone seemed happy, seemed thrilled at the idea of school ending for the Summer except me. For the last few days school had become a distraction from everything that was going on in my life. I hadn't seen Damon since we argued that night in my room and whenever I went to the Salvatore Boarding House to see Stefan he was never there.

"Elena? Cheer up. It's Summer! And we all know what that means…." Caroline said clapping her hands together in excitement as she waited for Bonnie to finish off her sentence.

"Parties at the lake, dancing all night and getting totally smashed." Bonnie said wiggling her hips with a grin on her face.

I sighed again. Did neither of them see it? Did neither of my best friends see that I was different? Confused and hurt? They were both too in awe of what the summer could bring and I was just to good covering up my emotions. Maybe I was spending too much time around Vampires and becoming more and more like a monster everyday. I didn't know or maybe I was just too defeated, too broken to even have the capability of feeling anymore.

"Earth to Elena." Caroline waved her hand in front of my face, a sweet smile planted on her face, one she only ever saved when she was feeling sympathetic.

"What?"

"What's wrong? You seem…distant." Bonnie spoke from beside her, the worry loud and clear in her voice.

I glanced at Caroline who looked back and fore between me and Bonnie before pushing us both towards the door, a giggle emitting from her lips. Bonnie raised her eyebrows at her curiously but Caroline just shook her head and I knew immediately that she was hiding something. Usually if there was something wrong Caroline would be forcing us to tell our problems just so she could act like Oprah and sort out our problems which in all honesty she usually did. So why was she completely avoiding my problems now? Did she know about me and Damon? No she couldn't have then why was she completely avoiding making eye contact with me?

The three of us continued to walk in the much unwelcome silence by me and my thoughts drifted to the part of my brain that I had tried to ignore all morning because after all ignorance was bliss but I had been fighting it since the fight between me and him, and now I had lost all my strength and it had won. My brain had won and my mind was completely filled with Damon and everything that happened between us, everything that had changed. I still couldn't believe what he had told me but the evidence was there, the necklace, the photo and the ache inside kept reminding me that Damon was telling the truth, that our past had happened and I had no idea about it. No idea that maybe at one point in my life I had loved Damon more than anything in the world. How much had I loved him? Did I still love him? I cared for him a lot and there was something between us, a connection that sparked whenever we were together but did that mean that I loved him? Had I always loved him? I didn't know. I didn't know about anything in my life anymore. I could handle the idea that Vampires and witches existed but my actual past erased by a fake one was way too confusing for me to handle. How could anyone deal with that?

"Come on 'Lena!" Bonnie shouted from the door to Caroline's car and it took me a moment to realise that in my thoughts

Caroline flicked her sunglasses to the top of her head and her blue eyes inspected my brown ones carefully. She nodded to herself in defeat before flicking her sunglasses back down so they were covering her face, covering her eyes that would surely give away any emotion that she was feeling, any emotion that would give away what she knew. Caroline turned her head away from me then and turned up the radio so loud that the entire school could hear it. She gave a 'whoop' before waving her hands around in the air in excitement, completely disregarding her earlier thoughts.

Bonnie opened the car door and I ran over to her, my bag swinging behind me as I clutched my textbooks tighter to my chest so they wouldn't fall. Bonnie gave me a reassuring smile before I climbed into the backseat of the car and I wondered if somehow she knew too but how would they know? Damon wouldn't have told them and no one else knew, no one else remembered everyone had been compelled to forget. Everyone except Caroline. She had just been turned into a vampire and when you turn every moment that you had been compelled to forget you would remember. You would remember all of it. Caroline knew and she had been turned a few weeks ago by Katherine so she had known longer than me yet she hadn't told me? Hadn't told me any of it? She knew but she hadn't spoken a word to me about it. How could she do this to me?

Shopping had been a complete nightmare. We all had bought our dresses for the Lockwood Party tonight but none of us had said anything to each other the entire time other than 'that looks good', 'I'd go for the black' or 'Maybe get the strapless'. Bonnie remained completely clueless to why me and Caroline were suddenly ignoring each other at all costs. Caroline would keep glancing at me but would look away as soon as she knew I had caught her staring at me. She must have guessed that I knew she knew about mine and Damon's past relationship because every now and then I would make snappy comments that clearly informed her that I was furious with her. How could she lie to me like that? Keep things from me?

I closed the door to the shower and wrapped a towel around my body. My entire body shivered missing the warm loving contact of the hot water from the shower head. On my way out I grabbed another white towel and twisted it so it was wrapped tightly around my head. I gazed at my reflection in the mirror and didn't recognise the girl who was stood before me. She looked miserable, confused and nowhere near the golden Elena Gilbert that everyone wanted to be. Sighing heavily to myself I left the bathroom and wished to be any other girl, a girl who's life didn't involve the supernatural. A normal girl's life, if only I was that lucky.

When I walked out of the bathroom and into my bedroom, my bed was covered in cosmetic and hair products along with a curling iron, all of them covering most of my bed spread but none of them belonged to me. I hugged the towel closer to my body and stepped closer to the bed, my eyes scanning the room for anybody who would have put these items onto my bed. Had Damon done it to try and make everything up to me? Was he now buying me gifts? Before I could get truly angry at my theory I saw the real culprit lurking in the corner.

"What are you doing here?" I sighed, feeling slightly awkward that I was naked underneath the towel.

Caroline emerged from the corner wearing the exact same clothes as earlier just minus the sunglasses. She smiled her guilty smile and rose her hands in the air a sign of defeat as she made her way closer to me. Caroline stopped walking towards me just as she passed the edge of the bed, her smile never leaving her face. She hopped onto the bed and folded her left leg over her right before clapping her hands together, resting them in her lap.

"I know I've been like the worst friend but I couldn't tell you, Elena. The way he looked at me, the way he spoke about what happened was heartbreaking. I'd never seen Damon like that before and he was going to tell you, he was but I told him to gain your trust to break it to you gently. He didn't want you to find out like this." Caroline's voice grew quieter with every word she told, her voice echoing the shame she felt deep down inside.

"Why didn't you tell me before? Why did you have to speak to him first? I'm your best friend Caroline." I told her sitting on my desk chair, crossing my legs tightly together.

"I'm sorry, Elena. I am but I had to speak to him first. I wanted to make sense of it before I just made assumptions. At first everything was fuzzy until the transition was complete then more and more came back." Caroline bit her lip and watched me process the latest information about my past but still none of it was truly piecing together, the jigsaw just kept growing bigger and bigger and I was running out of space to fit it onto a table.

Caroline went to speak again but I held my hand in the air, immediately cutting her off. I couldn't hear no more, I had to get back to the present and represent the Gilberts at the Lockwood's party tonight. If I heard any more of the truth I would breakdown, I couldn't handle all the confusion, all the pain right now. Tonight would be about me and tomorrow could be the day where I would try and piece more of it together but tonight was my night off. No more stories, no more pieces and definitely no more Damon.

"Sorry, Care. I just don't want to hear about it anymore." I told her, hugging my towel closer around me.

"It's okay, Elena." Caroline stood up off the bed and grabbed the spare chair before placing it in front of the mirror. She patted the seat and grinned at me. "Come on, let's get you ready for tonight."

Who will love you?

Who will fight?

Who will fall far behind?

Come on, skinny love.

I know super short but I just felt like I had to write because I wanted to write Elena's feelings and I couldn't ignore that Caroline had known before Elena, the truth had to come out. So I know it was super short but can you forgive me if I promise DE and a Lockwood Party next chapter? I hope so. Please review. I'm back on Twitter the username is FlyingFireworks again, you can tweet me a review if you want or even talk to me. Quick question; how old do you think I am? Love MidnightGirl467 xox