The feeling of having a 'crush' was so WEIRD but a good weird. It made your heart flutter has you thought about him and it was wonderfully embrassing to think about as you smashed your face into a pillow to hide your blushing face. Then you thought of kissing the angry cancer, which made you tightly grip the edges of your pillow and scream into it. It was just the weirdest thing since you met equius but that was only weird. Because at the age of 6 he was freaking out and you came up to him and touched his cheek which you now refer to as 'papping' and you two became pale. It's just so confusing who do you even tell someone about this, maybe meulin but she and your mother are out picking up a cat from the airport.
Dangit equius would probably smash karkitty's face in if you tried to have a feelings smash with him right now but who then? What about... Your thinking this is hard.
Who'd help you out? Maybe Sollux captor? Um, maybe that'd actaully work. But what if he's with feferi or aradia right now. Or what if he's fucking eridan right now and i'd be interupting them. Oh god that'd be rude. You let your imagantion wonder for a period of time before you finally decide to call terezi pyrope. She's well half blind and meaning half blind is that she can 'see' but she's legally blind (or legally blonde.) but at a close enough distance she can see someone. You pick your head off your pillow and stretch your hand towards your nightstand by your bed, you grab your phone and dial terezi. She is your roleplaying partner she would help!
The phone rings 1. 2. 3. 4. 5- "Hello?" The voice is terezi's and you sigh. "Teeeeeeeeeeeeeerezi help me! pleeeease?~" You ask with as well 'sweet' as you can. "Oh dear nepeta this chick can help you with anything but- with what?" She now sounds interested, good. You flip onto your back and stare at the ceiling before taking a deep breath and closing your eyes. She asks the same question again maybe thinking you didn't hear it before but at least putting it in a different way. "Love purrblems!" You squeal the answer. You hear her laugh from the other line and a shifting noise like she walking around while talking to you.
"Who have you gotten a crush on this time?" She laughs again and you groan out 'i nefur even had a crush befur shut up' and she laughs again but longer now. "But with whooooo miss I've-never-wanted-to-kiss-a-person-before." She asks. "Well I don't really wanna say WHO but-" "I'll tell you my crush if you tell me yours! Deeeeeeal?" She sounds stern now, and you say 'yeah' back to her. "Karkat vantas." She says dramatically, and you gasp but you actaully did it out of being suprised instead of saracactally doing it. "Now yours!" She whines.
"Uh... Um.. No-one I just wanted to know who you liked haha! Got cha!" You laughed at her then hung up after she finshs saying 'I will get you for this miss huntress!'. That's when you bolt up and almost throw your phone out your 2nd story window but end up just dropping it on the floor and flopping onto your bed. Terezi's pretty, she has a good figure, she's funny any guy or girl would love to be with her. She could have anybody, even karkitty. And he'd not even like you anyways, your way to hyper you tease him to much, and lastly your ugly (no she isn't god damn what is with girls and thinking there ugly when there pretty as hell?). He won't want someone like you, he'd want someone like terezi and she likes him she deserves someone like that so does he. They belong together and it just hurts even more to know that. You didn't even realize you were crying... The feeling makes you want to cletch your heart it hurts alot. The fluttering is gone and it feels likes it being stabbed instead.
Maybe.. Maybe- he'd like you if you looked like terezi, your HAIR your hair that's it if you cutt your hair like her then maybe just MAYBE he'll like you. That's when you hear your front door open, there's meowing and meulin's cooing to something, mom's giggling. You bolt off your bed, slam open your door and run down stairs and when you see your mom she asks 'Oh sweetie! What's wrong' and she hugs you while meulin's asking what was wrong. "M-mom can I go to kanaya's house?" You ask the qeustion quickly and it sounded choked and quiet. You feel something rubbing against your leg and it's fluffly you look down and see a cat, it's a grey british shorthair (the only cat that i think about when i see nepeta's lusus sorry) and it's adorable. You mother says 'okay.' and it's questioning almost , you look back up to her and smile then run back upstairs to your room and you hear meulin scream 'Its a school night make sure to get to school tommorrow!'.
[Author's note: Sorry wanted to insert a headcanon or two. Well if this was confusing nepeta had long hair before and now she's gonna cut it short like tz's. Thanks for reading this crappy fanfic shippy thingy?!]