Wesson

May contain some language and scary thoughts/subjects!

AN: This one is kinda short, but don't let that stop you! Read and review!

It was early morning when Ashley felt Sam move her and get up. "Where are you going?" Ashley mumbled, rolling herself over slowly and carefully to her stomach.

"Just go get food Ash, want anything?" Sam replied almost whispering.

"Yeah, I want to go with you to find Dean" she said, reading the lie in his words.

"Wait, how did you know?" Sam said, his voice raising just enough to be noticed. "Are you crazy?" Sam asked finally realizing what she said.

"No, I just don't think staying alone and broken would be the smartest thing right now" she said trying to sit up.

"You're right" Sam said turning around. "Get dressed, and I am not helping you with that" Sam said trying not to laugh at the spectacle of Ashley trying got bend over to get her clothes.

"Shut up perv" she shot over her shoulder "where are we heading to first?"

The two Winchesters had been driving around for hours and still he had no idea where Dean could be.

"Wanna hit the bar from last night?"

"Yeah, might as well" Sam said with his head in the clouds. "After the bar, we can try the frat house".

"Uh, sure I guess" she hesitated trying Dean's cell again.

"Look, I'm sorry" he said realizing what he said. It just seemed weird to Sam that Dean left like he did, and it had put Sam in a confused haze. Yeah Ashley got hurt, but it wasn't that bad; she didn't need stitches, her ribs weren't broken, nor did she have a concussion.

"I think Dean blames himself" Sam murmured half to himself.

"Yeah probably" Ashley sighed "I just wish he would stop."

"Not going to happen. Ever since he carried me out, he felt guilty that he couldn't do the same for you."

"Bullshit"

"He uh, told me last night before we went to bed."

"What did he say?" Ashley asked feeling more surprised than she ever had been.

"He was pissed that he left you and couldn't ever forgive himself for that. He also wanted to get you out of the life because you are stronger than him. Plus" Sam chuckled "he said he wanted to finally be Uncle Dean" Sam said with a softness in his voice Ashley could only imagine was saved for Jess.

"But he was never there for me" Ashley shook her head in denial. "Wait- I know where to find him" she said with a little too much enthusiasm for her fragile body. "Call the first motel in the yellow pages and ask for Ben Wesson" she said sucking in a shaky breath.

"Ben Wesson?"

"Yeah" she chuckled "Lisa's kid."

"So where is he?" she inquired as she walked out of the bathroom after an overdue shower.

"Astral Motel currently passed out in the lobby drunk."

"Let's go then."

When they got to the motel the manager told them he was in his room again because of the noise complaints flooding in. The room was dark and rock music was blaring from the radio.

"Dean" Ashley rushed passed Sam and flung herself on Dean and wrapped her arms around his neck even though her whole body protested the sudden movements. Only Sam could see the look on his brother's face- it was a mixture of tears and relief. Sam only gave Dean a nod before Ashley drew back.

"You were going to leave me again weren't you De" she said with a steady voice even though tears were flowing down her cheeks and she used her childhood name for him.

"You don't need me, you got Sam" Dean chocked. "I guess I'm not the man either one of my Dad's wanted me to be. Find someone else."

"No, I need you! You pulled me out of the pond when Sammy died a-a-and you stitched up my leg when I sliced it cuz Sam went to hell!"

"You did what?" Sam directed the question to Ashley.

"You saw what happened to me when Dean left too" she said turning to Sam. "You talked me off the ledge and made me put my anger to good use instead of sleeping around. Dean" she said turning back to him "you aren't going to leave me alone again, cuz if you do I swear I will stab you in the face!" she shouted, losing control of the battle to control the pain coming from her ribs. That pain dropped her to the ground and with the fall came a splintering pain in her side, causing her to black out again.