Fighting a Door

WARNING: May contain heavy dark thoughts/ideas/images!

Sam had spoken too son because next thing the hunters knew, all they had to figure put was how to help Ashley through the tough time ahead of her. Ashley's morning sickness had gotten worse and one morning, she noticed the blood. After rushing her to another clinic, the two Winchesters in the waiting room where informed Ashley had had a miscarriage for "unknown reasons". Castiel had stopped by to comfort Sam and Dean by telling them it was honestly for the best.

"How the hell is it for the best Cas?" Dean said feeling his anger well up inside of him and threaten to boil over here and now.

"Because it wasn't fully human, Dean. It was the product of a relationship between a human and a demon."

"Wait, are you sure?" Sam asked with his confused puppy look plastered across his face.

"Very sure" Cas responded as he looked up to see Ashley coming out to the lobby.

"Cas" she said, slowly making her way to her family. She was wearing her baggy sweatpants and white tank top, her uncontrollable hair was gathered on top of her head in a messy bun. Despite her attire, Sam and Dean could tell she was having a hard time walking and keeping herself together-she looked like a disaster and everyone knew she felt it too.

"I can help" Cas said extending his hand towards her belly.

"Thanks Cas" she whispered, "you ready guys?"

"Yeah, let's get you out of here" Sam said putting his hand on her back and ushering her out of the door in front of him, like he was protecting her from someone looking to kill her.

As soon as the family of hunters walked into the motel, Ashley curled up on the closest beds and fell into a fitful sleep. She wasn't easy to be a mom, plus her whole life would be uprooted without warning and she would have been forced to walk away from her brothers. Rolling over from the wet spot on her pillow, she felt eyes on her and woke her up.

"What?" she said propping herself up on her elbows.

"Nothing" Sam said looking back down at whatever was laying in front of him.

"Bullshit" she sighed "why won't you just tell me instead of tiptoeing around me."

"Cuz Cas told us about the uh, baby."

"What about it?"

"It was half demon Ash."

"You sure?" She said sitting up, tears running down her cheeks.

"Yeah, sorry-"

"No" she sniffled, "this is good news. If I had that baby we would have to hunt down my own kid, our own family."

"Ash, it wasn't your kid."

"Yeah it was Sam. And I would have pushed out a damn antichrist!" she said, realizing how much worse it stung when said out loud.

"She's right Sammy" Dean said leaning against the door way as he threw the car keys on the bed Ashley had occupied. "It was for the best, unfortunately." Dean sat down on the bed still occupied and slightly damp from salty tears. He had a certain softness in his eyes that Ashley couldn't quiet place or figure out how it made here feel; but what did it make her feel?

"Come on, screw this town" Dean said standing up and pulling his sister up to her knees in front of him on the bed without asking for permission. "Sammy found a case, so he's driving while we have a nice chat."

"Uh, alright...?" Ashley said stepping down off the bed and gathering all her things as she followed Dean out the door, barefoot.

Dean had talked to Ashley for hours about what he had wanted her to do. Apparently he wasn't going to let a baby tear the family business apart and was going to suggest she put the baby up for open adoption, and it honestly confused the hell out of Ashley. Yeah, she knew Dean wanted her to have a normal life, but now he's saying he wanted to have the baby, his own blood, out of the picture. Her head was still running when she went to bed that night in Dean's bed, but she couldn't be mad at him because that is what she was secretly thinking too.

Ashley went out on another run with Sam in the morning, followed by some fight training to get the rest of her aggression out. Throwing punches at someone built like a door was always a challenge for her. It's also hard on Sam because of the major size and flexibility difference-it thought Sam how to stay on his toes. When Ashley had finally maneuvered around Sam and set him up in a bad position, Sam called "uncle".

"So you seem better" Sam said throwing water over to Ashley says she towered off the sweat pooling in the small of her back.

"Well Dean was right, adoption would have been best" she said after taking a long drink from the water bottle.

"Well I guess, but dammit Ashley it was your baby and you just lost it."

"One I wasn't even ready to have" she pointed out.

"Ha, you really are exactly like Dean" Sam said before taking off in the direction of the motel.

"You know it" Ashley said catching up to Sam with ease.

"De" she said bouncing back into the motel.

"What?" he asked surprised at the fact Ashley had used his childhood name for his two younger siblings.

"When are we leaving? I wanna get going and something down."

"Jeez you are annoying" he said chucking and leaning back in his chair so he could get a better look at her.

"Whatever, I'm ready. Come on lazy ass."

"Alright" he threw up his hands on surrender "10 minutes" he grumbled.

"Good!"

AN:Sorry to anyone/everyone that wanted this baby to happen, I just saw Ashley as really wanting to stay in the life and had a couple holes in my mind to fill about this! Please don't hate me! Tell me what you thought!