It took Lita almost eleven hours to get to Atlanta the day before via the bus. Because the bus left from the station in Tampa at nine he morning before, it arrived in Atlanta around eight the same night. That was late for her to go to the house to talk to the tenants so they could get whatever was the problem solved before she went back home. She had work Saturday night and since it was Friday, she went to the house first thing that morning. Thankfully it was something she got solved so she wouldn't have to either call out of work or make another trip up there because both would be a hassle.

She was so irritated when she found out what exactly was the problem. When the tenants called her, she asked them if it was something she could handle from Tampa since it was a long drive to Atlanta, but they said no. There was roof damage that was discovered by the recent rain storms in Atlanta when some leaking occurred. All she did when she was there was call the insurance company who said they would handle it and thankfully it was one hundred percent covered under the coverage and she wouldn't have to pay anything out of her own pocket. She was beyond annoyed the tenants wouldn't tell her about the problem over the phone because she wouldn't have had to spent eleven long hours on the bus to make one phone call that could have been made from her apartment in Tampa. She made sure to tell them that next time they have a problem, they need to tell her over the phone because almost everything can be handled over the phone.

But there was one good thing that came out of the unnecessary trip: she visited her mother's grave after what felt like forever. The last time she was there was two years ago. She was in much need of a mother-daughter talk even though there was no way her mom could respond to her.

"Hi mom," Lita said while standing in front of her moms grave. "I know its been a while since I've been here and I'm sorry for that. I wish I could come more often to visit, but life's pretty hectic with Ethan and now..." She trailed off for a moment before she continued. "There's just so much going on."

"Let's start with the easiest topic first, which is Ethan. I'm sorry I didn't bring him with me, but I think I'm going to wait another year or so before he comes here because I'm a little worried how he's going to handle being in a cemetery. He's five now. His birthday was a couple of days ago. He's growing so fast. I wish I could stop time and he could be my little boy forever but I know that's not possible. I know he has to grow and get older, but I don't want him to. He even started school. He's going to be in kindergarten in the fall. I never really noticed how fast time actually flies by until I had Ethan."

She took a brief pause before she got to the hardest subject to talk about.

"Guess who's back. Adam. Yup, he's back. I was so shocked when I opened the door after he knocked on it and saw him on the other side. I was feeling so many different kinds of emotions. I felt like such a mess. I wanted to slap him, but hug him at the same time. I wanted to tell him I hate him, but also tell him how much I love him. I wanted to tell him to leave, but also tell him I missed him so much. But all I could do at that time was ask him why he showed up after so long. I told him to leave me alone but that didn't happen. Ethan actually showed up behind me and that's basically how he found out he has a son. He was pretty shocked and then he was angry as well."

"He's a great father though. He's so good with Ethan. Ethan was upset when he found out Adam is his father because I didn't tell him when the two first saw each other and even a couple of times after that. He actually found out when he over heard me and Adam talk to another. He was pretty upset but got over it pretty quickly. He's so happy with his dad which obviously makes me happy but kind of also makes me sad because he did miss out a lot of time with his dad. I'm glad he warmed up to Adam pretty quickly. He actually warmed up to him before he even knew Adams true identity which was kind of surprising. I mean, yes, he's a pretty friendly kid but he can be shy when he first meets someone. He looks more and more like Adam everyday which used to annoy me so much, but I think I'm over that now."

"You were right. Adam actually had a pretty good reason to leave unlike that poor excuse of a dad of mine. Long story short, there were a couple of people that were after him. Case of mistaken identity. They were pretty dangerous and he had to leave, but he didn't tell me because he didn't want me to go with him and he wanted to protect me. That's sweet and all, but I'm still finding it hard to forgive him. I don't know, but maybe deep down inside there is a part of me that forgives him, but I don't know if I can ever forget what happened. He should have told me what was going on, but he chose not to. He hurt me so much and he could have avoided this if he told me but was going on with him in the first place."

"But mom, I still love him so much. I don't think I can ever stop loving him and I hate that. I won't ever be able to get over him because that's not possible. There's just way too many good things about him that outweigh him leaving me without saying a word. It sucked but he did leave to protect me which is sweet. But I hate how he did it. He didn't tell me or give me a chance to be there with him. He's been great help for me these last couple of months when I was going through some health problems which I really don't want to relive right now. But anyways, I don't think I can start that relationship again. I don't want to set myself up to get hurt again."

"But I really hate the idea of him with another woman. He was basically flirting with someone else the other day right in front of me and I hated that so much. It was sucky." She shook her head when she thought about what she was about to say next. She couldn't even believe she actually told Adam to move on. "I'm so stupid. I told him he should ask her out if he thought she was nice and had a good time with her during their little talk. That itself feels like I'm setting myself up for hurt as well. I just don't want him to do that. I don't want him to move on. I don't want to see him with someone else. I don't want him to be happy with someone else. He should be with me. He should be happy with me." She groaned. "Ugh. I'm selfish. But that's okay, I'm allowed to be. Right?"

"I miss you so much. Especially right now. I really want and need to talk to you. I know I'm talking to you right now, but I really need you to respond to me. I don't know what to do and I need you to tell me what to do. I know if you were here and could actually talk to me, you wouldn't even tell me what to do even then, but I just wish you were here. Just seeing your face and hearing your voice would be able to help me. I miss you so much."

"You were right when you said you always think about your child when you have one before anything you do. You think about your child even more than you think about yourself. And this concerns Ethan a lot. I don't know what to do. What am I supposed to do? I love Adam so much and I know he feels the same way by the way he acts and the fact that he told me so."

"But, like I said, this concerns Ethan a lot. What if Adam and I get back together and Ethan gets really happy but we find out we aren't really that much in love with each other as much as we think?" She rolled her eyes at herself. "Okay, even I don't believe that will happen, but I can't do that to Ethan if it doesn't work out between us. I don't want to upset him even more than he already is by everything. While Adam was helping me out, we stayed with him for a little over a month. That gave Ethan false hope and I guess it kind of did that same to me. I think I got way too comfortable staying with him. But I think I want that, I don't know."

"I honestly think this is my last and only chance at love. It's either Adam or no one at all. I don't see myself falling in love with someone else, but I don't know if I can just do that again. Is it worth the risk? I don't know. I just don't know what to do. I thought a lot about this on the way here and I guess I have much more time to think about this on the way back home which I need to get going now since I have an hour to get to the bus station until the bus pulls off. I promise I won't wait another two years to come back. I love you so much and I miss you just as much. Hopefully I'll come back soon."

Lita went off to the rental car so she could go to the bus station and back home. It was going to be a long eleven hours on the bus once again. She was hoping she would be able to decide what she was going to do and it would be the best decision for all involved. Especially Ethan.

Adam was at home by himself that Sunday afternoon because Ethan was with Christian who claimed he hadn't really spent much time with Ethan ever since Adam came back around and he wanted to and apparently the feeling was mutual on Ethan's behalf.

He decided to organize his closet because he thought it would help him get his mind off of everything that was going on, but that didn't help. He couldn't stop thinking about Lita and how everything was a mess between the two. Even she was trying to get him to move on which was really weird. Dawn was so pissed off when she heard about what Lita was trying to do and that only made Christian encourage him even more which just angered Dawn more than she already was. But he knew that wasn't what he wanted.

He looked up from what he was doing when he heard the doorbell. He wasn't expecting anyone so he didn't know who it could be. He didn't think it would be Christian because he wasn't going to drop off Ethan for another hour or so. He walked down the stairs and to the door so he could answer it and see who it was. Whoever it was seemed to be impatient since they rang the doorbell not too long after the first time.

"Hold on. I'm coming."

He opened the door and was surprised to see Lita on the other end. He knew she was back home because she called and talked to Ethan right before she went to work the previous night. But he was still surprised to see her because knew she had the late night shift the night before.

"Hi," he said after he got over the fact that she was standing in front of him. "Ethan isn't here."

She nodded. "I know."

He waited for her to continue, but she said nothing. "Okay. Did you need something?"

"Yup," was all she said. He waited for her to say more, but she didn't. She looked really tired, distressed, and upset. She looked like she hadn't gotten any sleep the past couple of days. She looked like something was bothering her.

"Are you okay?"

"Not really." He was about to ask her what was wrong, but she didn't give him a chance. "I'm so tired."

"Do you want to come inside first?" He asked, which she ignored.

"I just did a twelve hour shift at work after spending about a whole day altogether on the bus the past couple of days. I'm really tired. I tried to sleep, but it's not possible right now. I haven't been sleeping the past couple of days. That's a lie, I actually haven't been sleeping for a while now. I haven't been able to because I can't stop thinking... about a lot of things. I don't like thinking. It's bad. It's never a good thing." She paused for a moment before she continued. "I visited my moms grave and talked to her and it made me think even more but it was a good thing because it made everything clear to me and now I know what I want to do."

"What are you talking about?"

"You mainly." Well then, it looked like she was finally ready to talk about it. "Can I come inside? I need to talk to you."

"Yea, of course. Come on in," he said as he moved out from in front of the doorway and allowed her in. So now she was finally ready to talk about everything. He just wondered if this would be a good talk or if she would end up getting angry and yelling like usual. Looked like he was about to find out.

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