So once again sorry about the delay in updates. This chapter took a long time to write and was draining for me. Its fluffy in the beginning and ends in a death. Welcome to the first chapter of what is dubbed as the "Russian Roulette Chapter." I renamed it for something due to some changes I made.
I hope you all will enjoy the chapter sadness and all. The first part is Beta'd but the second half isn't due to a time crunch to get it out.
crowned queen of bitchland: Can I crawl into my story and strangle Jamie? We both can, that sounds like fun. I hate that little shit. You'll hate him even more later.
Sofia Michelle: I learned a lot time ago teachers are never around where you need them. It's not all their fault, the boys aren't exactly running to them to ask for help. Trying to solve things themselves will just end in heartache. And for the link to Nathan's funeral: www. Facebook No1schizo you'll have to take out the spaces. It's my facebook page, just look under the notes and you'll find it. If you can't let me know and I'll try to send you the document itself.
gleekgurrl: For your questions: I can't tell you who all dies as much as it pains me to say. You'll see a little more what happened to Nathan in this chapter hopefully I did it right so everyone understand if not there's another side story I wrote to understand Jamie's character better that I could post I suppose. As for your last two questions you'll learn in this chapter what Gabriel will do to Jamie. I have to admit it's not nearly enough for all the heartache Jamie will cause in this story.
Well I'll have second part up as soon as I'm able; I'm currently writing it. For previews and other news on this story visit my facebook. I don't think you have to like the page to be able to read the side stories I have written but I'll check into that to make sure. This chapter will make a bit more sense to those who read Nathan's Funeral but it's not necessary. I explained throughout this story the main points of Nathan's Funeral. If enough people want to read it and don't want to bother with facebook I might post it on here (Not in this story but as a different story) along with a few others.
Well I'll leave you all to your reading. Enjoy and please nobody shoot me. This has been planned since chapter 1. The scenarios changed but the end result was the same.
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee or the song 'I'd lie' by Taylor Swift.
Kurt clicked the print button without even looking at the email. They all pretty much said the same thing anyways. Horrible words about killing himself or leaving before something bad happened to him. All from Bentley216. It was now the beginning of March and the number of emails he received from this person totaled 15. Getting about two a week he stopped reading them after the 3rd one. He got nervous every time he opened his email and saw one of those emails sitting there waiting for him and he knew the others were worried about him.
The boys rarely left him alone, even Gabriel tried to hang out with him at least once a week, but they didn't know about the emails. They thought it was leftover trauma from being attacked by Karofsky. He didn't want to tell them, they were worried enough about him and he couldn't be sure it was Jamie sending them.
Getting up he grabbed the piece of paper, folded it without looking at the inked words and put it with the rest in his desk drawer. Any one of the boys will be in soon to hang out with him; keep him from being alone.
He barely laid down on his bed when there was a knock on the door. He groaned, "Come in."
He cracked open an eye to see Blaine walking in and closed them again. He felt the bed dip before Blaine's arms wound around him. He was getting better about physical contact. He knew Blaine and the other boys here wouldn't hurt him. Now, he only flinched at really loud noises or if he managed to catch the eye of Jamie. His ribs didn't hurt too badly anymore and the bruises on his neck had long since healed. Besides the awful emails he was receiving Kurt was finally feeling like a normal person again.
"How was your R.A meeting?" Kurt asked leaning his head on Blaine's shoulder.
"Fine, with only a few more months of school there's a lot to go over to prepare for next year. We have to start finding sophomores to take over Junior R.A duties for next year. It's a pain. At least I don't have to worry about mandatory Warbler practices any more…though it would've been nice to win. Wes says they're having a little get together tomorrow to sing, though, for anyone who wants to come."
They lost Regionals to New Directions last week and the Warblers were still pretty sour about it. Since they didn't have any more competitions for the year they cut the meetings back to just once a month and some impromptu meeting just to sing together. Though Kurt was sad to lose he was happy for his friends; he knew they needed a big win so they wouldn't be on the bottom of the food chain anymore at McKinley.
"There's always next year for us. The good thing about being juniors, I suppose." Kurt replied, snuggling closer to Blaine.
He felt Blaine's lips press to the side of his head for a brief second before he spoke, "So how are you feeling today?"
"Fine, like I told you this morning. Between you and Zach I'm surprised I can go the bathroom without being followed." He paused, "Oh wait, scratch that Zach tried to follow me yesterday and I slammed the door in his face."
Blaine snorted and buried his face in Kurt's hair to keep from laughing. That did sound like something Zach would do. The doctors switched his medication around so he had more energy but they made him loopy at times…well more loopy than he already was.
Kurt sat up, moving so he was straddling Blaine and glared at him, "Are you laughing at me?"
Blaine grabbed him gently by the neck and moved his down so he could give him a quick kiss on the lips, "Never."
"Liar." Kurt mumbled, moving to kiss Blaine again. This one was longer and the boys broke apart to breathe.
"Well if this is how you're going to punish me for laughing then I'll have to do it more often."
"Stop talking or I'll leave." Kurt grumbled catching the other boy's lips again.
"My eyes, they burn!" Groaning the two boys broke apart to look over at Zach in the doorway his eyes being covered by his arm.
"Can I look now? Is everyone decent?"
Kurt moved so he was no longer on top of Blaine and leveled a glare at Zach, "You are the worse roommate ever."
Zach slowly moved his arm away from his eyes and ventured into the room, "I am an awesome roommate. I am also a cockblock." He plopped down the bed and moved so Kurt was in between him and Blaine, "This is cozy. What are we doing tonight?"
Kurt turned his head to glare at Zach only to see he looked like a kicked puppy. With a sigh, he moved his hand down to grab Blaine's then moved his head so it leaned on Zach's shoulder. "I don't know Zach, what are we doing tonight?"
"Well I thought we'd have a lovely dinner by candlelight, follow by some soothing music, maybe-"
"I already don't like where this is going." Blaine butted in, "Is there a Plan B?"
"I don't like Plan B. That one's Nikel approved. Watch a movie and do homework. Boring!"
"Zach?"
"Yeah Kurt?"
"We're going to watch a movie and do homework."
"Damn."
"Homework won't kill you, Zach." Nikel stated, walking into the room only to stop dead, "Well sorry to interrupt…whatever this is."
"I love Kurt and Blaine; I'm sorry you had to find out this way." Zach deadpanned before getting up and making his way over to Nikel, "I'll finally agree that you don't want to date me out of pity if you don't make me do homework."
"Wow, you're really desperate what kind of homework do you have?"
"Physics," He made a face, "I don't brain well."
"You don't brain well…yeah that's pretty obvious." Kurt grumbled sitting up pulling Blaine with him.
"Sorry, Zach, I'll just have to take my chances that you'll change your mind eventually."
"You all suck."
"Oh come on Grumpy, you have a brain it can't be that hard to use it."
"You're mean Nikel, has anyone ever told you that?" Zach pouted.
"Come on lets go get dinner." Blaine announced getting up and holding out his hand to help Kurt up, "I have a feeling this could take a while." He kept his grip on Kurt's hand as he led him out of the room knowing the other two boys would follow.
"Come on, Zach."
"No, you're mean!" Zach whined stomping his foot like a child.
"Real mature, Zach."
"See you're mean."
"Will you come with if I let you hold my hand?" Nikel sighed, holding out his hand.
"Yea!" Zach ran forward and latched onto Nikel's hand, "Let's go!" He pulled on Nikel and led him out of the room, swinging their hands between them like a little child.
"You're a dork, Zach."
"Yep! Now come on, we have to beat Kurt and Blaine to the cafeteria and they got a head start."
They took off running down the hall to catch up with Kurt and Blaine. Together the four entered the cafeteria and took a seat at the closest table. Blaine and Nikel got up to go get food for the four of them. As soon as they were out of earshot Kurt looked at Zach.
"So why aren't you two dating yet?"
"Because Nikel has this misplaced guilt going on and once I'm better he'll realize he's straight and won't want me. I'd rather not ruin what we have."
"You're an idiot, Zach."
He just shrugged and looked where the boys were waiting in line, "This is enough for me. I have my friends, Nikel cares about me and isn't pushing me aside every other day, and hell even Gabriel is tolerable."
"Thanks, I tolerate you too," A voice to the right of them said. Zach grimaced as Gabriel took a seat next to Kurt.
"I tolerate you, but that doesn't mean I want you around. Don't you have a little minion to be sitting with and annoying."
"You are an uncultured swine, Zach, but Kurt makes up for that and I can put up with your presence so I'm able talk to him."
"I'm sorry Gabriel did you say something? I can't hear you over the sound of your ego inflating."
"I'm not going to engage you in pointless banter. I'm not Loretta."
"Now that girl's a bitch."
"Something we can agree on and if you must know Jamie is out with her so I thought I'd sit with Kurt who's my friend."
"Oh goody, Gabriel," Nikel griped, sitting next to Zach while Blaine sat on the other side of Kurt.
"Be nice you guys, please." Kurt begged. He looked at each boy until they nodded their consent before turning to Gabriel, "You too."
"Of course," He held up his hands in a pacifying gesture.
"Good." Kurt nodded, "Where's Sammy?"
"It's getting close to the anniversary of Nathan's…passing." Gabriel said carefully.
"He tends to withdraw for a while around this time." Nikel added, "I'll check up on him later and make sure he eats."
"I see he hasn't changed." Gabriel grumbled.
"Don't you and Jamie have poor people to talk down to?" Nikel asked with an eyebrow raised in Gabriel's direction. Everybody noticed Kurt stiffen at the question. Nikel turned his gaze to him, "He isn't harassing you again, is he?"
"Excuse me, Jamie did what?"
"You didn't tell him?" Nikel turned his astonished gaze from Kurt to Gabriel, "Jamie told Kurt he should stay in the closet and insinuated he was a whore hanging out with Blaine, Zach and you."
"Nikel…don't."
"No, Kurt." Gabriel interrupted, "What did Jamie say to you? Tell me."
"I don't know it was a couple of months ago after we came back from visiting Nathan at the cemetery. It's nothing."
"Tell. Me."
Gabriel's eyes bore into Kurt's as if he could see the truth in them. After a few tense seconds of staring Kurt realized Gabriel wasn't going to drop it and sighed.
"He told me to stay away from you, that you didn't need my problems dragging you down. That I was better in the closet." Kurt was shaking faintly and Blaine brought his arm up to wrap around his boyfriend's shoulders in support.
"What else?"
"Gabriel, it's fine. He hasn't spoken a word to me since."
"But he's done other things." At Kurt's surprised look he continued, "You wouldn't have specified spoken to you unless he was bothering you another way. Well?"
Kurt couldn't meet Gabriel's eyes or anybody else's. He had to tell them. This was his one chance. He couldn't keep lying. He found the truth tumbling out before he could have another thought about it.
"I've been getting emails from someone right after he talked to me. I don't know if it's him though."
"You didn't tell me that!" Blaine scolded, pulling Kurt so he could wrap his arms around him more securely.
"I don't read them, I just print them so I have -I don't know- proof, then get rid of them. I'm fine; it's fine."
"You'll show us these emails as soon as we're done eating." Nikel said firmly, returning to his dinner in silence. Everyone else followed his example with the tension hanging in the air.
Too soon dinner ended and they all trekked back to Kurt's room to look at the emails. Even Gabriel. Quietly, he handed them the pieces of paper then laid down on the bed; his head buried in his pillow. He could hear the shuffling of papers as the boys read the emails and passed them around.
He soon felt another weight on the bed and Blaine's soft voice near his ear, "I wish you didn't hide things from us, buts it's okay. We'll figure this out. I love you."
Kurt sat up and curled up next to Blaine who moved his so he was practically in his lap. He snuggled closer to his boyfriend. Blaine always had a way of making him feel safe.
"We'll find out who sent you these emails, Kurt," Nikel promised, "They'll pay. I won't let this be like last time." They all thought about the emails Nathan had received those years ago.
Kurt shivered as Jamie's words came back to him 'I'll take care of you like I took care of my brother and like I took care Nathan'
"What did you just say?" Blaine asked, moving so he could see Kurt's face. Kurt didn't even realize he had spoken out loud.
He swallowed thickly, already feeling tears in his eyes, "The last thing Jamie told me before Loretta showed up to get him to leave me alone. I've been thinking about it weeks now, I just can't image he meant it how I took it. It isn't possible."
With all eyes on him, he looked at his bed and repeated the words that haunted him for the last 5 weeks, "If you don't butt out, I'll ruin you. I'll take care of you like I took care of my brother and like I took care of Nathan." He looked up them his lips trembling, "He couldn't mean it like that. He couldn't have, right?"
Gabriel looked at the piece of paper in his hand then at the group, "I'll be right back." Dropping the paper like it burned him he took off running out of the room, slamming the door behind him.
Zach sat down on his bed, suddenly exhausted. He didn't even make a comment when Nikel sat down next to him wrapping an arm around him and leaned them so they were both laying down, Nikel spooning Zach. Blaine mimicked the movement with Kurt.
"I thought we were done with all this." Zach whispered, allowing Nikel to comfort him.
On the other side of the room, Kurt was doing the same.
"It's going to be okay," Blaine whispered over and over again, rubbing Kurt's arm. He wasn't sure who was comforting who at this point.
A knock jarred them out of their thoughts. Nikel got up and opened the door allowing Gabriel back in. Kurt and Blaine sat up as well as Zach. In Gabriel's hands was a box. He sat on the ground and put the box out in front of him the others followed suit.
"I was going to burn them to symbolize their words couldn't hurt anymore, but I never did." He opened the box to reveal a bunch of pictures of him and Nathan as well as little gifts and some notes, "I printed out the emails they found on Nathan's computer before they could erase them. I wanted to see what people said that drove Nathan so far." He pulled one of the notes out and opened it, "Sender Bentley216…I'm going to kill him."
"Can you be sure its Jamie though," Nikel asked wanting to be sure.
"Jamie's dad always talks about Bentley cars. He's a car fanatic. It's too much of a consequence to ignore." Gabriel practically growled. He grabbed the box and stood up. "Jamie and I are going to have a little chat next time I see him. I'm so sorry, Kurt."
"It's not your fault. You're allowed to have other friends," He replied weakly.
"I'm taking these," Gabriel said as he grabbed the stack of emails then took his leave. They sat in silence for a minute before Nikel broke it, "I hope Gabriel doesn't kill Jamie…because I want my chance with that little shit. I always knew he was trouble."
"Calm down." Zach mumbled rubbing his temple with his hand.
"Are you okay?"
"Fine, just a headache."
"The stress probably isn't good for you. Come on lay down."
Grumbling Zach let Nikel usher him back to his bed, "I'm fine, Nikel, no need to freak out."
"Yeah you're fine like Kurt's fine. Between the two of you we never know the truth."
Nikel was fussing over Zach for a minute before he became fed up and grabbed Nikel dragging him onto the bed. Moving he rested his head on Nikel's chest and let out a content sigh.
"You stay there; I'll sleep."
"Whatever, dork."
Kurt and Blaine looked at each other and rolled their eyes. Those two were impossible.
"Will you stay tonight?" Kurt asked, getting up to change out of his day clothes.
"Wouldn't dream of being anywhere else," They got ready and climbed into bed. It was still really early barely seven, but everyone was emotionally exhausted. Blaine wrapped his arms around Kurt and drew him close. Together they drifted off to sleep.
Meanwhile, Gabriel marched back to Maxstoke. Jamie sat in their common room with Loretta and a few other house mates. Gabriel walked just inside the room and snapped at everybody, "Everybody out. I need to talk to Jamie. Now!"
Quickly the people of their house fled from the room. While Damien was the R.A of Maxstoke, Gabriel was their king. His dad had a lot of pull at Dalton and nobody wanted to get in his way. As soon as the last person fled back up to their dorm room he turned his furious gaze back to Loretta and Jamie.
"Loretta, leave."
"You don't control me, Gabriel.
"Get the fuck out, Loretta. This is between Jamie and me." Gabriel grounded out.
She looked at Jamie for a moment then Gabriel. Finally she nodded and gracefully stood up. "Fine, I'll leave this time. Jamie, I'll see you later." With that she made her way out of the room slamming the doors shut behind her.
"Well thank you for ruining my evening. How can I help you?" Jamie snapped, raising an eyebrow in Gabriel's direction, "Did spending your day with the likes of those peasants so horrible you had to ruin my day as well."
"I just came from hanging out with Kurt and the rest; we found something interesting."
Gabriel strolled forward and threw the stack of papers in his lap. He paced the room as Jamie flipped through the pages set before him. His face didn't change from its polite boredom look.
"Fascinating, I see they're having a bad day over at Warwick." Jamie drawled, "So what exactly am I supposed to be looking at?"
Gabriel kept silent instead he watched as Jamie finally flipped to a page from Nathan, this time his face paled slightly. Interesting, just what he was looking for.
"Why are you showing these to me?" Jamie's face smoothed back to a neutral look.
"You're not stupid, Jamie. Funny these emails started popping up right after you threaten Kurt, huh?"
"I don't like your tone. Almost sounded like you were accusing me of something," He scrunched his nose up as he looked at the solo email again, "I thought you burned all the emails you saved from Nathan."
"I am accusing you of something, Jamie. What the hell do you think you're doing? Have you no soul?"
"You think I send these emails. You've been spending too much time with those idiots over at Warwick. They're destroying your intelligence."
"Really? Because, funny enough, I never showed you the emails Nathan received nor were the details of them talked about. How did you know there were some to Nathan as well as Kurt?"
Jamie regarded him for a moment, caught off guard before regaining his composure, "The date. Wasn't hard to figure out."
"Don't lie. Those could've been for Kurt as well from years ago, there is no name of them. Don't you fucking lie to me! How could you, Jamie! Can you really not stand being the center of attention that you need to drive someone to suicide? You are a sick twisted person and I can't believe I ever called you my friend. It makes me physically ill just to look at you."
Gabriel turned to walk out. He couldn't trust himself to stay any longer.
"He was ruining you. Little weakling, couldn't even stand a couple of taunts before breaking down. He wasn't worth your time. Our time. It was disgusting watching you follow him around like a little puppy. You are a leader, Gabriel, not a follower and he was ruining you. Don't you see; I had to save you. It's the same with Kurt. He would ruin you."
Gabriel whipped around and drew his hand back. Before he could even register what was happening his fist slammed into Jamie's face. Jamie fell back gripping the left side of his face, glaring at Gabriel.
"Stay the fuck away from me, Jamie. Stay away from Kurt as well." He turned to leave again.
"Where will you go? You can't go home. Your parents can't stand the sight of you. I'm all you have."
Gabriel kept walking. He had until the end of the school year to figure something out, because Jamie was right about one thing. He couldn't go home.
Kurt groaned as he woke up to the sound of feet running across the floor then the door of the bathroom closing.
"Waz goin' on?" Blaine mumbled his face buried in Kurt's hair. Groaning again, Kurt drew away from Blaine and made his way over to the bathroom, Nikel right behind him.
"Zach, you okay?" Kurt questioned, gently tapping against the bathroom door. The sound of retching was his reply, "Can we come in?"
He heard a hum of affirmative and opened the door. Zach sat with his arms wrapped around the toilet, his wig sitting beside him it probably had fallen off while he was getting sick.
Nikel ran past Kurt and fell to his knees next to Zach. Carefully he wrapped his arms around the weak boy and drew him to his chest. He began to comfort Zach, who just laid limp in his arms. Slowly, Kurt backed out of the room and returned to Blaine who was sitting up giving Kurt a questioning look.
"He's fine, I think. The medication is making him sick." He whispered, getting back into bed and cuddling up with Blaine, "Its working though, his last test results came back with quite a bit of improvement."
They could both hear Nikel's voice drift from the bathroom with words of comfort for Zach.
"I love you, Kurt." Blaine whispered, lightly kissing him on lips.
"I love you so much, Blaine." He replied, deepening the kiss.
They pulled apart a little while later when they heard Nikel come back carrying an exhausted Zach.
"You okay, Zach?" Kurt asked again once they were settled back in bed.
"Yeah. You know they have to destroy you in order to fix you. Getting better all the time." Zach yawned, "I just want my hair back…really, really bad. And I'm going to be so pissed if it comes back curly. I just can't pull that off."
"Only you would be worried about something like that." Blaine teased, "Well you and Kurt. Oof."
Kurt smiled innocently while Blaine rubbed his stomach where Kurt smacked him. He gave Kurt a hurt look; who, in return, rolled his eyes. When Blaine continued to give him the puppy dog look, he grumbled and leaned forward to give him a kiss. The smile on Blaine's face afterward made Kurt roll his eyes again. Dork.
Morning came with dark clouds covering the sky and thunder heard off in the distance which strangely put Zach in a good mood.
"Zach loves rain." Nikel explained as they headed to breakfast, Zach running ahead to look out all the windows as if expected it to rain any second now.
"No, Zach likes running around in the rain like a madman." Wes said, catching up with the boys, shaking his head in Zach's direction, "We had this huge storm our freshman year. Two teachers chased Zach down when he refused to come inside. He was given three weeks of detention."
"He won't be doing that this time. He's sick." Nikel growled, in that overprotective way of his.
"Yeah, you try telling him that." David patted Nikel's arm, "Good luck."
"So he's running around because he likes rain. Here I thought he was just really excited it was Friday." Kurt muttered, shaking his head at the eager blonde.
They all took their seats to eat breakfast when Gabriel came in and took a seat with them. While they were used Kurt and Gabriel talking a lot of the group wasn't used to Gabriel sitting with them at breakfast. Their stunned looks were almost comical. Jamie came in next, the bruise on his cheek very obvious.
Kurt looked at Gabriel.
"He told Damien he was messing around in his room and had an accident. He was too embarrassed to talk about it. Damien believed him. Lucky for me."
"You punched him?" Zach snickered, obviously amused, "Wow, Prissy, I didn't know you had it in you."
"Thank you for the insult wrapped in that compliment, how very kind of you."
"Yep, it's what I do."
"Do you ever get that feeling you missed something, David?"
"All the time, Wes, all the time," David sighed dramatically. The two continued to bemoan their lack of knowledge until Blaine interrupted them.
"Are you two done?" Blaine asked.
"Yep! Now remember we have a warbler get together this evening."
"Oh boy."
"Try to sound enthusiastic about this, Kurt."
"Sorry Wes."
Breakfast passed continuous banter. They knew Gabriel didn't want to talk about what happened with Jamie. The fact he punched him gave them the answer they needed. He was guilty. They went to their classes and managed through them without incident. As they grouped in front of the school to meet to figure out their afterschool activity, they heard an excited gasp. Zach came running past them and opened the doors. Rain lightly fell from the sky.
"Come on Nikel! Rain!" He laughed about to run out.
"Zach freeze." Zach stopped and turned to look at Nikel, "You are sick you can't go out to…play in the rain."
"Nikel," Zach said plainly, "I am going to out to play in the rain. You can either watch me or join me. You are not stopping me." With that he turned around and ran outside. Nikel followed him and stood under the safety of the overhang while yelling at Zach to come back. Kurt, Blaine, Wes and David joined Nikel under the roof.
"Come on, Nikel, everybody, you know you want to join me!" Zach laughed, spinning around in a circle, the rain lightly falling on his head, soaking him, "And don't tell me you don't want to ruin your uniform, schools done 'til Monday! Enjoy life!"
"Zach, you're crazy!" David laughed.
"Zach, get back here!" Nikel yelled again.
Nikel finally seemed to have enough and ran out into the rain to physical grab Zach and drag him back in where it was warm and safe. Zach seemed to anticipate this and quickly dodged away from him.
The rest of boys looked at each other while Nikel chased Zach down. Shrugging, they ran out into the rain as well. Blaine grabbed Kurt's hand and drew him to him to dance with him to whatever music he had in going in his head. After a few turns, Wes ran into Blaine attempting to knock him off balance. Laughing, Blaine let go of Kurt in order to chase Wes around. David and Kurt stood side by side and snickered.
Zach came running then and right before he could get in between Blaine and Wes, Nikel tackled him to the ground.
"Caught you! You need to get inside, Zach; it's not healthy for you to be out here in the rain." Nikel scowled, holding Zach's arms above his head on the wet grass. "Your immune system is shit .You never think!"
"Don't need to. That's your job."
Nikel opened his mouth to answer when Wes cried out, "Hog pile!" and jumped on the two boys. David quickly joined him. Rolling his eyes, Blaine joined as well pulling Kurt with him. Soon they were all lying in the grass, laughing, even Nikel. Blaine reached out and grabbed Kurt's hand again. Zach sat up for a moment and smiled at their clasped hands. His gaze then turned to Nikel and the look on his face became thoughtful.
"We're insane." Wes commented first, staring at the sky as the rain fell down upon them.
"Yeah, but what a life," Zach smiled.
They sat there in the rain for a bit longer. It was a surprisingly warm rain and nobody was in too big of hurry to move. Well, maybe Nikel but that was just to protect Zach, who wouldn't budge. Eventually, the rain stopped but the clouds remained.
"Don't you guys have a glee meeting?" A voice shouted from the doorway.
"Oh shit!" Wes yelling, jumping up and full out ran past Gabriel to get ready for the meeting. Slowly the rest got up and headed inside.
"You guys are soaked, stay away from me."
"Come on, Gabriel, we should hug this out." Zach teased taking a step towards the other boy.
"Hug Nikel I'm staying out of this." Gabriel turned to walk back to Maxstoke dormitory.
"Coming to the glee meeting? It's open to anyone who wants to sing." Kurt asked to the retreating back.
"We'll see." Was all Gabriel said before disappearing.
"Come on we need to change." Blaine said, tugging Kurt towards Warwick.
They quickly changed their clothes and ran back down to the main building where they had their Glee meetings. Most of the boys were already there since Kurt took a while to blow dry his hair. No way was he going anywhere public looking like a drowned rat. Plus, Blaine needed to re-gel his hair much to Kurt's disappointment.
As they headed towards the glee room, Kurt glanced over and saw Sammy, who was heading back up to the dorms. He looked so pale and tired, deep circled sat under his eyes. The way he walked told Kurt he was probably drunk or at least getting there. Kurt nudged Blaine and nodded in that direction.
"Should we follow him?" Kurt asked, watching him leave.
"I'll stop in and talk to him tonight. He's not the most approachable person right now." Nikel responded watching as well. They stood there until he was out of sight. Kurt bit his lip for a moment before following the rest who started walking again. He didn't like leaving Sammy alone but Nikel knew him better. Maybe he really just wanted to be left alone.
"About time you showed up." Wes said as soon as they entered the room.
"What are you talking about? You just came bolting in here like 15 seconds ago." Jonathon piped up before shrinking back at the harsh glare Wes sent his way, "Uh lets…sing."
The group took turns on who would go up. Zach jumped up and skipped to the front.
"My turn, my turn!"
"Okay, Zach, calm down. What are you singing?"
"I shall never be calm, David! You can't stop me. Ha ha ha. This song is for Nikel and it's called 'I'd lie' by Taylor Swift."
"He really likes Taylor Swift, doesn't he?" Kurt whispered to Blaine, who nodded.
Zach cleared his throat as he grabbed the guitar they always kept in the room to help get the background music right in their harmonies and then sat down.
"I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He'll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing cause I hope he's wrong
I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs
And.."
He threw a smile at Nikel as he sang the chorus.
"I could tell you his favorite color's green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him,
I'd lie.
"He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine.
"I could tell you his favorite color's green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him,
I'd lie."
He motioned with his head for Nikel to come over to him. Feeling a little awkward Nikel obeyed. Zach played a bit without singing, winking at Nikel when he took a seat on the stool next to him.
"He stands there then walks away
My god if I could only say
I'm holding every breath for you...
"He'd never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he's beautiful
So I put on my makeup
And pray for a miracle
"Yes I could tell you his favorite color's green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you asked me if I love him
I'd lie"
Zach stood up and gently put the guitar back in the corner where he got it. He, then, approached the still sitting Nikel. He stopped when he was right in front of him and stared down at him with a slight smirk playing on his features.
"What?" Nikel asked, raising an eyebrow.
"You win."
"What?" He sounded more confused this time.
"You win." He repeated before leaning down and capturing Nikel's lips in a kiss. It only lasted a few seconds but they pulled apart smiling, their foreheads touching. A resounding applause from the rest of the boys in the hall broke them apart, both bright red.
"Can't you do anything normal?" Nikel groaned, moving to sit back in the sea of boys hoping the earth would swallow him whole. Zach followed him and plopped down on his lap.
"Can you image me normal? Just the thought of it is horrifying." Zach replied, leaning against his chest, "Seriously try to image it. Doesn't it just make you shudder?"
"Idiot," Nikel teased, looping his arms loosely around Zach's waist.
"Oh great," David moaned, "You two are going to be all disgustingly cute like Blaine and Kurt, aren't you?"
"Aren't they already?" Wes interjected.
"I don't know have we caught them making out in a janitor's closet yet?" Jonathon asked, his head tilted in thought.
"No? Are you saying you've caught Kurt and Blaine-"
"I would never stoop as low as to actually go into a janitor closet." Kurt interrupted Wes with a glare.
"He has a point."
"Are you guys really debating the personal lives of Kurt and me?" Blaine questioned, rubbing his forehead.
"Yes." Was the response from a few different individuals.
Kurt opened his mouth to shut them up when the door was slammed open, bouncing off the wall from the force. The boys jumped; Blaine grabbing Kurt's hand to calm him down and they all turned their gazes towards the door.
There stood a boy breathing heavy his face drained of all color, Kurt vaguely recognized him as a resident of Maxstoke, Lance, Lucius, something that started with an 'L' at least.
"Luke what's wrong?" Wes asked, immediately jumping into his professional Warbler leader mode.
"There was an accident." He started…
-Earlier during the Warbler Meeting-
Gabriel walked out of Maxstoke and headed across the campus to the main building. Maybe he would go to the warbler meeting after all. If anything, then just to listen to some good music. He hasn't gone to a meeting since Nathan died.
"Where do you think you're going?" Gabriel stopped and spun on his heel to face Jamie. At least it wasn't raining anymore, Gabriel thought as he faced down someone he thought was his best friend.
"I don't see why it's any of your business, James."
"I'm 'James' now? We're best friends, Gabriel-"
"Correction we were best friends." Gabriel snapped, "You lost that title when you started threatening my friends. You should've lost that title two years ago when you aided in Nathan's suicide."
"He couldn't take a few mean words, poor him. What are you going to do, turn me in to the cops?" Gabriel wanted to smack the smirk off of Jamie's smug face.
"No, we both your daddy will just throw some money around to make it go away. Plus, I don't want to put the Atra's through that." He advanced towards Jamie, "Like I said before you will stay away from Kurt. You will stay away from the Warwick boys; you will stay the hell away from me. I don't want to see you or hear you anywhere near me. You will apologize to Kurt and then you will fade into the background. Understand?"
"Or what? Like you said my father will make everything disappear. You have no ground to be making demands."
Gabriel mirrored Jamie's smirk with one of his own, "You apologize and fall back or I'll call Drew and explain to him exactly why he was kicked out of your parent's house. Once he talks to your parents you'll be the one out on your ass." He scoffed disgusted, "I should've known it was you years ago. You got rid of your own brother because you couldn't stand the fact he was better than you, he had even just a little bit of the attention you thought was entitled to you."
Jamie snarled, "You'll ruin me and for what? Some little peasant boy who isn't worth enough to shine our shoes. How the mighty have fallen."
"For Kurt who doesn't deserve the shit the world throws at him but mostly for Nathan. He was a beautiful soul and you destroyed him. I'll ruin you for love. To avenge my love."
"How sentimental. " Jamie spat.
"I feel sorry for you Jamie. You're a bitter person who will never know happiness as long as you continue to hurt those around you."
"You are weak, Gabriel."
Gabriel turned to walk away from Jamie, as he turned he caught a glimpse of movement on top of Warwick Dorms. He stopped and looked in that direction. Another movement before it disappeared around the bend and he swore.
"Shit." He took off running towards Warwick, leaving Jamie behind as a memory from years before nagged at his head.
"LET GO!"
"No, Nathan would never forgive me if I let you do this."
"Fuck him! He can't be hypocrite about this. Let go of me, Gabriel. Please. Please, let go."
"No."
He ran through Warwick and up the stairs ignoring all the people he came across in his rush to get to the roof. Sammy was never in his right frame of mind during this time of the year. Why was nobody watching him?
He threw open the door to the roof and froze. Like a flashback to the day of Nathan's funeral there sat Sammy, sitting on the ledge with beer cans scattered around him. At least this time he wasn't singing.
"Sammy." Gabriel said cautiously, hoping not to startle him.
Sammy leaned his head back and to the side regarding Gabriel. He snorted and looked away, his gaze to the ground below him.
"Go away, Gabriel."
"Now why would I do something like that?" He responded, strolling over to the other boy. He was almost in arm reach when Sammy's voice made him stop.
"Freeze, stay away from me, Gabriel." He sighed, "Please. Please just…let me go now. I'm tired; I'm just so tired."
"You know I can't."
"It isn't your decision." Was his reply. It was almost déjà vu for Gabriel. He saw Sammy's muscle flex and ran forward, grabbing him just as he jump. Only there was no Nikel or Zach to grab ahold of him like last time. Gabriel realized too late as he felt himself pitch over the edge with Sammy. He did the only thing he could think of. He grabbed Sammy and held him. He was heavier; he knew he was going to land first. As he closed his eyes, he thought, 'Nathan I don't regret this' and then he felt nothing.
The boys that were at the Warblers meeting flew out of the room and towards the doors leading to Warwick. Before they could get too close they were stopped by teachers, who were blocking all the exits.
"Please," their science teacher, Ms. Rabb, was speaking calmly, "stay inside. We need the area clear and you boys wandering about will only cause chaos."
"What happened?" one boy yelled out, Kurt couldn't tell from where.
She pursed her lips before sighing, "Two boys fell off the roof on Warwick."
"Oh god, Sammy," Zach whispered, grabbing Nikel tightly. Kurt remembered their story about Sammy trying to jump from the roof before. He really hoped it wasn't him but he knew. Sammy loved going up on the roof he told Kurt that himself. He went up there all the time.
"We don't know that, Zach. Keep calm." Nikel whispered. They could hear sirens off in the distances approaching the school.
"Want everybody to go the auditorium. We need the medics to be able to do their job without the hindrance of students. Now move."
Slowly all the boys made their way to the auditorium. More and more boys flooded in after them. Kurt bit his lip when he noticed Sammy wasn't part of the crowd. He managed to catch the eye of Jamie who just glared at him.
"He's not here." Zach said, "Sammy's not here."
"He may have already been forced in here. We weren't the first ones to arrive by any means." Nikel soothed his boyfriend.
It felt like forever before the Dean of Dalton walked into the room. He moved up to the podium with a few teachers following him. They looked very solemn.
"Settle down, boys. Settle down." The Dean spoke, waiting for all the boys to quiet, "As most of you know there was an incident not long ago today involving two of our students. We don't have full details yet but the parents have been notified so we can share with you now.
"Earlier today two boys fell off the roof of Warwick dormitory. While we don't know the circumstances of this there looks to be no foul play involved. Samuel Atra was taken to Westerville's Hospital where he is in critical condition." He waited for the gasps and a murmuring to stop before continuing, "With a heavy heart I have to add that Gabriel Johnston who landed first and under Samuel, did not make it. He was pronounced dead at the scene."
This time the boys erupted into a fury of talking. Kurt fell back into Blaine and allowed his boyfriend to hold him up as he started to cry. Zach and Nikel stood, shocked, with the realization that Gabriel once again may have saved their friend but this time with his own life.
"Silence, silence please." The Dean looked out at all the boys of Dalton's school, "I'd like for everyone to remain respective of the Johnston family's privacy. Classes will be cancelled for tomorrow in light of this tragedy and your families will be receiving a call informing them of what happened. We will let you know when funeral arrangements are decided and everyone will be free to attend. We will also be giving updates on Samuel via email as we learn them. You may all return to your dorms."
The Dean left the room as the students looked to one another. Kurt was a sobbing mess with Blaine holding onto him dearly. Zach fell to his knees and wrapped his arms around Kurt as well followed by Nikel who had his arms around Zach and Blaine's shoulders. They cried for Sammy and they cried for Gabriel. They cried for the fact they were stupid enough to think they could handle everything themselves instead of getting help from the staff.
They knew what happened. Sammy tried to jump before and Gabriel saved him with the help of Nikel and Zach. This time nobody could help they may have lost not one but two people because of it. Sammy just had to pull through, he had to. Nikel hummed softly the song he heard Gabriel sing at Nathan's funeral when he thought everyone left. He, now, understood the meaning.
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
"But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
"I'll be loving you
Love, Me."
They all held on to each other, wishing that was enough.
And so Death has claimed its first -but not its only- victim.
Well that was depressing. Part 1 is done; part 2 is in the process of being written. Check my facebook for previews and other such details.
Let me know what you think and please don't shoot me. This is actually the lighter of the two chapters. Things get real dark next chapter. Jamie hasn't even reach the peak of his maliciousness. Now that Gabriel's dead there's nothing holding him back.