"I'm almost positive I'm going to not have a voice after tonight." Kelly laughs. She takes a long pull off the drink in front of her and I shake my head. Kelly was a screamer, or more of a 'whooer' anything you said she'll let out a loud ass 'whoooo!' too.
"So stop with your yellin." I laugh at her. We had slightly paired off after a while of being at the club. It seemed that Arieanne got along with Kelly really well and Trinity and I got along as well, it was like two personalities paired off... Calm, and crazy.
"Lets go dance!" Arieanna shouts over the music taking another sip of her drink. She then links an arm around Kelly's and drags her down the steps towards the dance floor leaving Trin and I upstairs to shake our heads at them.
"She's crazy, where'd you find her?" I tease Trinity.
"Me?! Where'd you find Kelly?" She laughs back.
"Kelly and I met in school... She was quite and reserved. Long story short I created a monster and her parents hate me!" I explain. "No not really, her parents actually love me, but they weren't very fond of me at first." I shrug.
"How'd she find Colby?" She asks curiously.
"Oh he rear ended us when we were in my truck." I chuckle, remembering the day. It was also the same day I'd met Joe. "It was the same day I met Joe, he was riding with Colby. We were at a stop light and he smashed into the back end of my truck. Totally totaled his Mustang, not a scratch on my truck." I grin.
"I bet he went right under it." She laughs.
"Yep, all the way up to the windshield." I nod with amusement. I pull out my phone to look at the text I'd gotten earlier and ignored.
"I don't suppose you would want to talk to me?" Text from Jon.
Not really.
"Do you want to work things out?" Trin asks, glancing at my text message.
"I don't know anymore." I shrug honestly. "This isn't the first time he's been douchey. I mean, it's definitely the most extreme case though and I just can't handle it. I love him, but I don't want don't deal with this junk anymore."
"I know that I was all up on the Joe bandwagon earlier, but it really is your choice. If you love him you should talk to him." She smiles.
"I don't want to talk to him right now." I tell her with a shake of my head.
"Then don't. Why don't you have another drink?" She suggests, motioning to the bar. I just turn and look at it, and look back at her.
"You know, I still hurt Trin. Like I know it's been a few weeks now, but when I saw him earlier it felt fresh again." I admit with a small shrug.
"And it's going to hurt for a while… Girl you lost a baby, and your boyfriend was a total Dbag about it." She chuckles, making me laugh with her. "Look at this rachet bitch." She adds laughing harder and pointing to Arieanne on the floor. She was twerking on the floor with Kelly behind her, looking all too clueless.
"She's so funny." I tell her. "I freaking love you guys, you've been my saving grace since all this happened." I say honestly.
"We're your friends girl, it's what we do for each other." She smiles. We both glare at my phone, her more in annoyance than me and I read the message.
"Come on sweet pea, I only want a few minutes." Text from Jon.
"I'm out, busy tonight." Text to Jon.
"Good girl, make him work for it!" She nods triumphantly.
"So…. Let's go get some tweaking lessons from Ari!" I laugh, grabbing her by the elbow and pulling her along down the steps behind me. She was protesting, but the music was so loud that I couldn't hear her anyway. "It'll be fun!" I add once we got to the other two girls.
"Hey girl, hey!" Ari greets us, still moving her hips with the beat.
"Teach me how you do that thing with your butt!" I laugh to her, trying to imitate the move.
"Oh… no, girl no!" She dies laughing. "You gotta do it like this. Pretend you're holding a string that contacts to your crotch. Don't do like an in out movement, do more of an up down movement. It'll look sexier and bring all the boys from the block." She assures me.
"I've got this." I grin doing it how she showed me. Honestly I was more of a belly dancer. Moving my hips sexy was a lot easier for me than twerking. "How I look?" I tease her.
"Like you're having a seizure!" Trinity laughs. "Stick to your Shakira moves." She adds holding her hands over her head and moving back and forth.
"I need another drink!" I shout at the girls, fanning myself. I'd made it through an hour worth of music before I started to get thirsty and my legs started hurting. "I"ll be upstairs!" I tell them.
"I"ll be up in a minute." Trinity calls back. I throw myself down in a chair and kick my feet up with my drink before grabbing my cell phone.
"I can wait until you're done." Text from Jon.
"You know me well enough to know I"m not just going to give up." Text from Jon.
"Having fun Banana?" Text from Joe.
That was all followed by 3 missed calls from Jon.
"We're having a lot of fun. See you later :)" Text to Joe.
I tossed the phone back up onto the table and sucked down half my drink.
"Want a shot sweetheart?" A young blonde waitress asks me on her way by the table. She was holding a plate full of colorful tube shots.
"Why yes I would." I murmur, taking a purple one and throwing it back. I hand her a ten and take another. No, I didn't need another because I was already hammered as I was but I threw the pink one back too.
"Jeez, slow down!" Ari chuckles, walking up to the table with Kelly and Trinity. We must have all looked like a hot mess at this point. When we left we looked sexy as hell, but now… I'm thinking not so much with our make up running and our hair sticking to our forehead.
"How ya feelin?" Kelly asks, sitting down behind me and throwing her arms around my shoulders.
"I'm feeling pretty fucking good." I laugh. I was ripped. And you know what happens when I get trashed like this? No, I don't forget I just don't give a shit anymore.
"Good, then we got what we came here for." She grins. I watch her pull her long blonde hair up on a pony tail right on top of her head like Bam Bam and couldn't help but laugh at her a little. "It's hot!" She explains.
"It's fucking hot as hell in here!" I agree.
"Girls we are about to close down the bar!" Trinity whoops.
"Good, cause I'm tired." I admit with a yawn. "We could totally go get Dennys…" I suggest with a shit eating grin.
"Girl, I could totally do some pancakes." Trinity agrees.
"Lets go then!" Ari shouts jumping up from the chair.
"We're going to get some Denny's, I'll be later than I thought." Text to Joe.
"Alright :)" Text from Joe.
***…***…***…***
""Who's car is that?" Trinity yawns. I take in a deep breath, I knew who's white Blazer that was. "Uh oh…" She murmurs noticing the mood shift in the Range Rover. "He's a fucking stalker." She mutters unimpressed. I had thoughts about driving right on by but I pulled into the driveway against better judgement. "Are you going to talk to him?" She questions.
"He isn't giving me much of a choice." I shrug. "If I don't he'll cause a scene in the middle of the road." I add sliding out of the Rover. The headlights on the Blazer flash and I let out a nervous sigh. "I"ll be inside in a few minutes." I assure her, walking off towards Jon's truck. I chew on my bottom lip, and pull the passenger door open but don't get inside. "What do you want?" I ask him in frustration.
"Talk to me for a minute sweet pea, get in. Please?" He asks, patting the passenger seat. He looked terrible right now, and as much as it made me a horrible person the fact that he looked awful made me feel a little bit better.
"You've got 5 minutes." I mutter, pulling myself up into the Blazer. "I'm tired and I want to go to bed." I add, crossing my arms over my chest.
"I know that there is no amount of apologizing that will make the situation any fuckin' better, alright I get that." He starts out. "I'm an asshole sweet pea. Since I've met you, I'm a lot less of one, but it's still down there." He admits.
"Yeah, I know." I scoff. I couldn't look at him, I knew that if I did I'd break down and cry. The last thing I wanted was for any kind of crying to go down.
"I know that it wasn't your fault, and I was such a horrible fucking boyfriend to say something like that. I'm so sorry sweet pea. I just needed you to hear from me, how sorry I am and how much of an ass I feel like." He sighs.
"Well, thank you for apologizing." I say, looking out the window.
"Annabelle, I miss you…" He murmurs.
"Good." I mutter, trying to seem unimpressed.
"You have to tell me. You have to tell me if you don't want to be with me ever again." He says. He was trying to hide it, but his tone was laced with sadness, and it made me hurt inside.
"I can't say that right now." I tell him softly. "But I know I need time, I'm still mad at you." I admit.
"I'll give you as much time as you want, but please don't move out." He pleads. "The past couple weeks have been fuckin awful. Feels like I"m watching a fuckin movie play around me." He murmurs.
"I won't move out…" I agree.
"Come back home tonight. I'll sleep on the fuckin couch, but come home at least." He offers.
"No. I'm not coming back tonight." I say firmly. My eyes were still glued to the Range Rover, not really looking at it but I needed something to focus on but him.
"Sweet pea… You haven't even looked at me since you got in here." He states, noticing. "Let me see them bright green eyes." He says softly. He reaches out and takes my chin in his hands and brings my head over to look at him.
"I hate that I love you." I admit. I know I had to look like I was in pain, but there wasn't any way I could hide that right now. "I just want to be mad at you. Jon this shit can't keep happening. I just want to be with you, and not fight or argue… Just be with you." I say, letting a few tears fall down my cheek.
"I'm sorry doll face…" He says, using his thumb to wipe away the tears that stained my face. "We can start over. I know we can't just forget this all happened but I know we can get past this."
"How do you know? I look at you and seethe Jon." I tell him with a roll of my eyes.
"Because! Because I fucking love you, and I think that if we truly want to be together that we can get past this. Sweet pea, you've helped me find what I wanted out of life and you're apart of it." He says.
"Then we'll work it out." I sigh. "Can I go to bed now?" I ask him, making a small wave towards the house. I'd seen the blinds move a few times and I knew that Joe and everyone else was hiding behind them, trying to see anything they could. Nosey ass mother fuckers.
"You sure you won't come home?" He sighs. "Have you fucked Joe yet?" He grumbles. I glower at him and I'm about to give him a piece of my mind when he cuts me off. "I'm kidding! I'm actually not, but I won't make a fuckin scene over it." He shrugs.
"I haven't slept with Joe." I answer honestly. "And yes, I'm sure that I won't come home. I can't pretend that I'm not pissed off and hurt. It literally hurts to look at you." I wasn't aiming on making him feel like shit, I just wanted him to know how I was seriously feeling right now.
"God sweet pea, I'm sorry. Jeez, I sound like a broken record." He says with a shake of his head. "Will you text me tomorrow?" He asks.
"Yeah, I'll talk to you tomorrow." I agree. "I"m going to bed alright?" I ask him and he offers a short nod. I palm his face and lean in, kissing his cheek. "I love you Jon." I assure him. I allow him to lean his face into my hand for a few seconds before pulling away.
"I love you too. Night doll." He says watching me slide out of the Blazer and shut the door. He waits until I'm fulling inside before taking off down the road. Everyone inside gives me exactly until I reach the kitchen before the hound in on me.
"What did he want?" Joe was the first to ask.
"To talk. And honestly, it's 4 in the fucking morning, I don't want to talk anymore tonight. I"m going to bed." I say sternly. "Are you going to come cuddle with me?" I ask him with pleading eyes.
"Yeah, I'll be in there in a couple minutes." He sighs. I offer Trinity a small smile before walking down the hall and into the bedroom. "Did you guys make up? That's all I want to know." He says sitting on the edge of the bed.
"We're not back together yet if that's your underlying question. I don't know Joe." I say throwing my hands in the air. "I love him, so much. It still hurts me to even look at him, but I want to think this is something we can get past and make our relationship stronger." I tell him honestly.
"Whatever makes you happy darlin." He smiles. It was a sad smile thought. I hated to hurt Joe, and part of me really wishes he'd have kept his feelings for me a secret. I wrap my arm around his stomach and rest my head on his chest. "Night." He murmurs, draping his arm lazily over my hip.
"Good night." I yawn.
***…***…***…***
"Good morning sweet pea." Text from Jon.
"Mornin Jon." Text to Jon.
"Feel like the beach? Just us?" Text from Jon.
"I could do the beach." Text to Jon.
I was texting him from bed, lazy. It was almost noon and I was still lying here. Joe was lazy too, his ass was still snoring next to me. I decide against waking him up and slide out of bed, wandering to the closet.
"I'm at the training center. Be there in an hour." Text from Jon.
"I'll be ready." Text to Jon.
I throw on my pink and neon green bikini that I'd gotten the other day at the store while I was shopping with Trinity and pull my cut off shorts on over that. Trinity and Jay were in the kitchen, making lunch when I come walking out.
"Where you goin?" Jay asks, raising his eyebrows at me. "Hungry?" He offers. They'd made up a cold salad and some turkey wraps.
"I'm going to the beach with Jon." I answer. "And yeah, I'll eat." I nod, sliding up onto a kitchen stool.
"The beach huh?" Trin asks skeptically.
"The beach." I nod, taking a bite of the wrap that Jay had set in front of me. "What'd ya put in this? It's freaking good." I mumble through a full mouth.
"Food." He chuckles.
"If you need a ride back or something call." She says.
"If I need a ride back, there's going to be a problem." I tell her honestly. "He'd better have his lips glued to my ass the whole afternoon." I add. We chat in the kitchen for a while longer before there was a knock at the door. "I never woke Joe, he's sleeping hard in there. When he wakes up tell him I went to the beach?" I ask Jay.
"Yeah girl, I'll tell him." He nods. I hop off the stool and make my way to the front door, pulling it open. Jon was there on the other side, in his black and neon green swim shorts and a black tank top.
"Ready sweet pea?" He questions, giving me the once over. I nod and bounce down the steps after him. I was healing, seeing him this morning was a lot less painful that it was last night.
"We'll take my truck." I say, pointing to it. It was only a five minute drive to the beach from our house, if you wanted to be super technical we lived on the beach but I didn't feel comfortable staying at the house with Joe and everyone there to be nosey and up in my business.
"It's like a piece of fuckin glass over here." He states as we walked along the beach. We were walking way down the strip, trying to stay away from anyone else that was there. The ocean was still today, there was no wind at all and you could see the sandy bottom even from where we were laying down the blankets.
"The gulf is like this. It's nice, and the water is usually warmer. Our side is better for surfing though." I mumble, smoothing out my towel on the sand.
"Come on sweet pea." He grins, grabbing my hand and pulling me behind him towards the water. "It's super warm and I can still see my fuckin toes." He chuckles. He was about chest deep still touching bottom and I was treading water next to him. Though it wasn't a diamond blue to look at you could still see right down to the bottom, which was kind of cool. At least when the sharks came to eat your face you could at least see them coming.
"What time did you make it home last night?" I ask him. He didn't leave my house until at least 4 in the morning and it was a two hour drive back to the Titusville house.
"Like 6. Took a shower and went to the training center." He shrugs.
"You haven't slept. Jon that's not good." I scold him.
"I haven't really slept since you left that day." He murmurs.
"Since that day you told me to leave?" I correct him, raising my eyebrows.
"Yeah… That one." He nods curtly. I'd had about enough of treading water and I grab his shoulder, pulling myself against him. His hand comes around and rests on the small of my back when I throw an arm around his shoulder. "So… Will you come home tonight?" He smirks.
"Jon…" I groan.
"Will you ever come home?" He asks, bumping his forehead against mine.
"Yes." I answer. "Maybe I will come home tonight, I miss those fucking horses." I shrug. "And you're sleeping on the couch." I tell him.
"I'll sleep on the couch." He agrees. "So I see you've made new friends." He states smirking at me.
"I really love Trinity." I grin at him.
"She's pretty fuckin fond of you too." He says. "Gave me death glares all fuckin night at the show." He chuckles.
"Good, you earned it." I say to him.
"You thought of leaving me for Joe." He states, not bringing his eyes up to look at me.
"I can't leave you for Joe, when we're not together." I correct him. "And to be honest, I haven't actually put much thought into it. I love Joe, he's one of my best friends but I love you different. I need you." I tell him.
"Why do you need me? I'm a jerk." He mutters.
"Yeah you are, but you're my jerk." I agree. "You know what though? I've seen you improve through the couple years we've been together. Joe said it just the other day that you're almost a totally different guy then when you first came to CZW."
"It's you. You bring out the best in me." He tells me.
A/N: I'm sorry it took me so long to update :/ I've been seriously busy with work lately. Anyway, enjoy this chapter and review :)