Who are you to me

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Emma and the queen meet again. No memories of each other before except Emma who had had dreams and instantly feels the queen is Regina from her dreams. henry states her name without being told leading to who are they.

Emma welcomed reaching land soon even with the information she was given, she couldn't wait. She accepted the task willingly. Neil had went on about how although the queen of the land wasn't as bad as she use to she had drank a potion to make her forget her losses, making her the person she was before the curse. He assured her and Henry that the Better of the two could be reached beneath the cold brute attitude.

Emma didn't quite understand why it was a task given to her. Knowing that she may be the Regina from her dreams, maybe even a past she was meant to forget was enough of a reason. Personally feeling like she wasn't her whole self anymore she wanted to get her memories back as well. Henry on the other hand just wanted to see the new world up close and personal.

"So how long has it been since she took the potion? been like this?" Emma asked unloading hers and Henry's luggage. She hadn't expected forest when packing.

"About 5 months, hook was messaged to come to the enchanted forest once your parents heard where he was. He had ship problems and Neverland has been hectic I hear. Anyways he was to late getting back, and when he did the queen had lost a lot of hope. Took the potion and tried to stay away." He looked at hook trying to notion he wasn't blaming him.

"So do you work for Regina or my parents?" She asked both of them.

"Neither." They both answered. "Haven't known either very long and well just not the type to be ruled, they both cared for you and we both wanted to help bring you home."

"Not home, you said I've never really been here so not home." She corrected. She kept walking behind Neil as he lead the way from the ship into the forest. "An what do you mean she cared for me?" Images of how close they always were in her dreams flashed through her mind.

"Well um you and the queen well you had..." He stopped trying to explain, the truth unable to help the situation. "You'll have to remember that on your own." Following Neil in about 20 minutes they finally reached a path where Henry and Emma placed the bags down. Taking time for a break she sat on her bag. She wanted to know more about this queen, was she Regina? Or just someone who was lost?

"Tell me more, how did I break this curse?" She looked at Neil who tensed at the question. At least that's what she thought until she saw how windy it suddenly got. "Neil, what's going on it's just wind right?!" She shouted over the whistling winds.

"No! She knows we are here, prepare yourselves you're about to meet the queen." Emma immediately grabbed Henry holding him close. A carriage rolled up almost out of nowhere and from the back she heard a voice. It was muffled but the horse man understood and yanked back on the reigns. The horses stopped the guards standing on the back of the carriage hurried down and took places by the door.

One guard opened the door, Emma held her breath, and the queen stepped out. Her legs stretched out to the step, before Emma could see her face. The legs draped in material that emma was sure she had never seen before. olive tone skin hidden behind the dress that just reached her knees. Next to exit the carriage was a delicate hand gripping the door and pulling herself into view.

Surprisingly Emma nor Henry gasped but instead stared in awe at the woman they had been hoping for. She looked exactly like the woman in their dreams did. She was skinny, brunette, beautiful, bright burning brown eyes, and more importantly the exact same scar above her upper lip. She was Regina. As if trying to clarify Emma stuttered.

"Who are you?" She intended to ask her name but that really wasn't all she wanted to know. She dreamt this woman, she dreamt of a secret passion with her, and she had lead herself to believe it was a dream but if it was memories then she had to know who she was to her. The queen smirked and the stuttering woman she didn't see fear flashing in her eyes she saw joy or amazement.

"I could ask you the same thing but fortunately I have been waiting for you. See because I hear you broke the curse I cast, one which you, the lost daughter of Snow White was suppose to be sent away from so.. How? That's my question, because I know who you are Miss Charming." She looked over to the men accompanying the woman and glared at them till they bowed. They knew their place. "You two will be returning to your little ship without the princess and her ... Son and go to Snow White tell her she is not a prisoner no need to start a second war, but she will be my guest until she explains herself."

"Now go. Of with you too slobbery mutts." She waves her hand and they begin backing away, Emma looks back at Neil and he can't leave her without last words.

"Emma, you must do this, you will come to no harm with her."

"Ok I got it just get going before you two idiots get in trouble with my parents." She had still yet to let the word princess sink in but to her it didn't matter as she looked back at the queen. A hand extended to help her in the carriage. It was her delicate hand and she took it without thought.

"My my someone is eager." The queen spoke as the little boy climbed in beside his mother. He hugged close to her, his silence also seemed not in fear. Sitting down across from the two she crossed her legs and posed like the queen she was. "As I said you are not a prisoner but I won't like it if you left before telling me everything you know."

"I'm not sure what I know is going to help." Emma admitted.

"An why is that?" The queen shifted slightly.

"That man Neil, I knew him in my world I didn't know he came from this world. He told me I lost my memories as did Henry." Emma brushed her fingers through his hair. "I wondered if there was anything to be done for that."

"It appears we have a similar problem, I too have no memory." She rung her hands nervous that she would never find her answers. She had grown some sort of fondness or forgiveness for Snow with no idea why or how. She was unable to act against it and unable to deny it but without knowing everything that happened it made her uneasy because everyone else did. In the old day she would have taken and beaten answers from people but now she just couldn't.

"From what I was told your.. Majesty I had mine wiped and altered yours was a simple potion. I was also told you did it to me so can you undo it?"

"Ms Charming-" the queen started.

"My name is Emma swan," she corrected. "Just call me Emma, I don't except that name yet."

"Ok then, Emma swan, I can not return memories. Actually I wouldn't even alter them if it was me so maybe your facts are wrong." She ponder the woman in front of her. Tall, thin, and blonde. she like what she saw. Her attitude was less than adequate but that would change soon.

"Who's to say you wasn't a different person with your memories." Emma responded but the queen gave her no answer. With that Emma remand silent the rest of the ride.

5 months ago:

"Regina, you can't stay out here, we are close I promise." Snow said giving another open ended promise. Belle stood beside her reached out her hand and touched Regina's shoulder. Regina turned away trying to push everyone away. Now standing in front of her was her mothers figure. She wore a smirk as she whispered to Regina as if anyone else could or might hear.

"They are just afraid of the strength you'll have if you let her go. They want you weak. Don't let them manipulate you."

"No! You are manipulating me." she screamed to direction of the empty side of the room. Both comforting women took a step back in shock and fear. Regina turn to her friends. "I'm sorry, I don't mean you, just go." She pulled her dress to follow her out of the room. Behind her she could hear belle chasing her so she ran faster. In her own castle until she reached her own room. She broke down before being able to lock the door. Belle cracked the door slightly.

"Regina," she entered and lead Regina to her bed. Tucking her stray hairs away. "Dear maybe you need something to take your mind off her. Or someone?" The last part was more a question that a statement. Regina looked belle in her cool comforting eyes and smiled weakly. "I've seen you tear yourself apart all this time, a month ago you almost let your memories go, I couldn't let you, I'm sorry if it hurts but.." She took a deep breath. "I am ready I want you to take me, let me comfort you the way you need." Taking Regina's hand she laced her fingers between hers. "You in all your pain helped me now let me help you because I have seen a beautiful side of you and I want to protect it."

Regina speechless and worn down let belle lean her back. She lets her wrap one arm around her waist and the other hand threading her fingers through her hair. She takes a few minutes of the soothing motion and then the hands travel to the bare skin of her shoulders Once she wouldn't care who she used and once she would have let this happen but she couldn't.

Every stroke to her flesh she felt her stomach knot forcing her to ripple through her last moments with Emma the two nights they shared. For about the hundredth time since the first night back she found herself hunching over the basin in the bathroom. She has dry heaved, she has lost meals, she has lost her entire body like this. She was too thin, too broken, and the left over bits inside only ached more.

It was then she asked herself had she let Emma take more of her and strength than she could handle living without. Was it going to be to much to keep going this way. The only answer she could muster was yes. She couldn't keep on with her memories, it was time to do one more thing that needed to be done.

As soon as her body came back down from the trauma she hurried from the bathroom. Belle still sat on her bed confused and slightly hurt. She move to apologize but Regina cut her off.

"It's ok dear if I was able if I was not so full of feeling for her.." She took her hand and pulled her closer into a hug. "I want to be happy but until she is here I can not be. Will you keep this a secret and do one thing for me." She felt the head nod into her chest.

A swirl of purple smoke transported the two women to Regina's study. Her spells, potions, and enchantments adored the room. She pulled from close distance with belle and in seconds crossed the room to a small desk. Pulled out a paper that had her seal and an enchantment aura that guarded the envelope. Meant to ensure only one person read the paper.

"Take this to Snow, make sure she leaves the castle before giving it to her, make sure... She stays away.. Safe." Belle looked at her with complete confusion. "Just go I need to take her.. and him away from me, I won't be the same after and although it's possible I won't be dreadful I still don't know."

"Regina no, listen! Emma will be here soon please I'm sorry I pushed I wanted to feel love again too. Don't do-" Regina threw dart like stares at the woman. "Look at me, I can't keep this up, all I am doing is wasting away without her because she is all I think about. Emma has more of me than I can bare to live without. She has not just Henry but my heart." She begins pushing belle out of her study. Seeing her mothers image appear, smiling, and hearing her whisper.

"Love is weakness."

"She has my heart and I can't live without it, her, and Henry. Now go! Please do as I say. I'm sorry belle dear, but I can not give that which I don't have. You'll find someone."

With that she nudged belle through the door and locked it. She waited a long time after the banging an begging faded away. Long after the steps receded from the door. She waited until her tears dried and felt the late night pulling at her. Taking the quite familiar potion from the rack she swished it in its bottle before pressing her lips to the container and throwing her head back.

At first she saw Emma appear just like her mother she wanted to touch her but knew she'd just fall through. Her heart pounding in her ears all she could see was her mouthing words. It began breaking her captive heart. So she gave in without a fight and let the image fade away. Just as her mind filled with a rich buzz her body let sleep in. She collapsed to the floor and found slumber till the coming new day broke.

Present:

The queen was lost in thought up until they reached the castle gates. Her company sat patiently and quietly just inches away. They looked like a lonely pair. The blonde meets her eyes the vibrant green stare bares a soul of a lonely girl. The boy sleeps in her arms the pair remind her of herself as a child. Innocent, peaceful, and so so lonely.

Once again the guards remove themselves from the back of the carriage. The queen from Emma's new point of view was even more stunning as she stretched and hopped out onto her castle grounds. Emma nudged Henry best she could but received nothing. Draping his small form in her arms she carried him from the carriage although with little to no elegance like the queen.

"This is amazing, he'd like to see this very much but I think he over did himself sorry your majesty." Emma said tugging the 12 year old boy over her shoulder. The small chuckle the queen gave was one Emma was sure was very rare but hoped it wouldn't be.

"Quite alright dear first place then his room." The queen placed her hand on Emma shoulder and a purple smoke starting from their feet surrounded them. When it cleared they were in a big room. The bed was a queen size a bit big for Henry but Emma still placed him down under the sheets. Tucked him in and wearily turned to the queen. "Come, I assure you he will be safe." The blonde followed her out the bedroom door. With a snap of her fingers a few guards appeared and stood attentive. "Guard this door if the little boy inside wakes bring him to his mother right away."

There was no pause as she strides away. Behind her though the could hear the blonde saying thank you before hurrying after her. Just a few steps behind her being polite the blonde then shoved her hands in her pockets and chewed at her bottom lip. Without stopping the queen spoke.

"No need to thank them it's their job." They kept down the hall to another room. Walking inside it was gorgeous. "Now this is your room, if you must change or anything before I show you around. If I may say although you look great how in the world are you comfortable in such tight pants." Emma laughed it was something she heard often except the complement which caused Emma to blush just as the queens gaze arose to her face.

"Trust me there's enough breathing room, but I will change after the long day I've had." She entered the room and the queen followed. She wasn't expecting that and her blush grew deep this time out sight. She found her bags and Henry's were sitting beside the bed and shuffling discretely in her bag till she found what she was looking for. She brought it to look good for her parents but this was more important. Hiding it in front of her on her way Behind one of the walls rich people used to changed behind, she could never remember its name. As she change she could feel the queens eyes on her. Imagining on the other side it was just a silhouette she was gazing at.

For a moment the queen had thought the blonde would choose the bathroom but it seemed she didn't mind dressing behind the shoji screen. She watched the woman slip from her pants and shirt adjusting her garments and then in little hesitation she grabbed an item she intended on wearing. her arms above her head showing the slim body it was going to shape and a with few pats she stepped out.

Regina stared at the blonde for a good minute though she hoped it was less. The blonde smiled taking her silence as approval. It was exactly what it was as her eyes hung to the shape the light green dress took. Shaking her thoughts not as marvelous as my attire.

"So if you don't mind talking with me while I show you around." She lead the way from the room taking her moment of slip with her. The blonde smirked following closely behind reading the queens expression as clear as if it was herself.

"Of course I do hope this is suitable I know it's not quite as stunning as your dress." Normally Regina wouldn't blush but something told her that the blonde meant what she said. They walked down the stairs in silence as Regina tried to prepare herself for things she might learn from her questions.

Her curiosity about the past years had grown dispute her desire to not find out what had her in such a bad condition months ago. When she woke one morning in her study she learned she had taken a forgetting potion. Her figure was beyond admiring and aside from her initial need to hate snow she found it wasn't there.

She managed to mend her health and was granted a sitting with snow and charming. They looked as though they had true compassion for her, why she had no idea. After confronting them about her memory she had only received little answers explaining their daughter was still missing, she had broken the curse and much of the rest had to be remembered.

Whatever she had forgotten was better off lost from what she could gather. She wanted at least Learn how the curse she produced was broke if nothing else. This blonde was the key and so many people kept telling her if she found her she'd remember. So here she was and Regina was holding her questions with care on the tip of her tongue.

Rounding the last of the stairs she took Emma to her court yard outside. The inside if the castle was just rooms the real beauty of the place was outside. She cared for her gardens making them flourish better than any in all the land. She didn't want her guest to see her as totally materialistic she may be a queen and with money she could obtain anything but nothing was close in value or beauty to what she had on the outside of her castle.

It gave her a great satisfaction watching amazement flood Emma's face. She actually wanted to keep impressing her leading her from one floral arrangement to the next each one more beautiful than the last. From her favorite red roses to, her best orchids, and then a shrub cut into art work. Her best work though was her apple tree and that was when she turned with a grin to Emma. Suddenly the colors and floral arrangements surrounded her as if to project her. The apple tree looked as though it bowed beside her.

"You.. You complete the beauty in my garden." She said trying to cover her almost slip with just a simple kind courtesy complement. "So ms swan? Tell me about yourself if I am to learn what I need to tell me everything." She said guiding her further into her garden.

When she expected a response and received silence instead she peeked out just the corner of her eye. The blonde was bitting her lip and her hands wringing in uneasiness. Never had she felt guilt before for asking anything because she demanded it as the queen. Yet here she was a pang of what felt like it setting in her gut.

"What is it dear?" She tried to sound demanding but failed as soon as the blonde looked up. Her eyes adjust from one emotion to another. She was trying to hide her pain with an innocent 'nothing' look.

"It's just my life wasn't great or even ok until I had Henry." She said eventually.

"Then for now tell me of you when you had Henry." Regina compromised. "Where were you when my curse broke? what were you doing if not breaking my curse?"

As Emma spoke Regina could have sworn she could see it in her head. Holding new born baby Henry, she could see herself, and she could see herself raising him. It was then she realized she was imaging things. As if following along she imagined it had been part of her life. Taking a few clearing breaths she focused back on listening.

Gradually Emma came a crossed times when she couldn't remember things and she move on quickly. While she talked she tried to rewind and remember but got just nothing.
She couldn't remember things like what school he was in cities she moved to, even though maybe the queen didn't know what she meant it still bothered her.

As she got to last year when things get perfectly clear she mentioned she just found a place to stay. Stating she was determined to keep it over the past year and return soon. This though seemed to be against what the queen wanted. She paused just a few feet behind seeing the queen disagree.

"What if I wish for you to stay?" She said to Emma claiming dominance.

"That may be impossible for me majesty but I will try to please you and see that your quest is finished before I go." Emma felt her stomach clench fearing she may cross a line. "If you wish." She adds hoping to help the situation.

"And..what if I wish," she says getting closer, her tone lowers. "to kiss you?" Regina has no idea what she is doing until her lips are hovering over Emma's. I am queen I get what I want. Her ego stated trying to convince her she didn't need a reason.

Behind them they hear excited talking before Emma can answer. Emma stumbles back from Regina's space as if she was the one who entered it. Regina grinned at the blondes hooded eyes and slightly open lips. Henry has ran up to Emma and begins squeezing her. She only corrected her looks and she was beaming like the sun in his arms. She laughed as he looked around amazed.

"Regina your castle is so big and the garden is spectacular!" He brightened his smile more as Regina's face reddened. It would have been particularly strange if he had seen how close she just was to his mother and now she felt insecure that she had slipped so easily.

"Henry you can't address her like that! I mean you know your manners." Emma panicked

"Oh no no, I feel you and him I think I'd prefer Regina with you two." She swept her delicate arm around the body and they began walking again. "but how did you know my name?" It was almost to dark as she leaned down to see his face when h. Answered. He mumbled and she asked him again

"I think I remember you know my dreams." He said louder. Emma gasped because she had not mentioned so to Regina either.

"An you too ms swan?" Her eyebrows arched standing back up.

"I wasn't sure on my way here but as soon as I saw you. Yes I have. I though it was just a dream, I didn't think it was a memory until neil mentioned your name." Regina hummed in simple understanding.

"So you remember nothing else?" she asked and both heads nodded. "So the question is who are you to me and I to you."

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Next chapter Henry and Emma have to decided if they are willing to say their dreams out loud. Regina still questions what happened in her past. Belle and someone Else?