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"Hey." Deeks said softly, walking up to Kensi. She looked lost as she stared out into the ocean. It was as if she was looking for guidance from the waves crashing against the shore.

"Hey." Kensi replied softly, not bothering to ask him how he had found her. She quickly wiped the stray tear from her cheek as he sat beside her.

The cool wind gently spread loose particles of sand down the beach as they sat in silence for a few minutes. The temperature was quickly plummeting as the remaining sunlight rapidly disappeared. Goosebumps swept across Deeks' arm, the brisk breeze penetrating through the light jacket he was wearing. Looking over at his partner he noticed her shivering slightly, wearing only a tank top from earlier in the day.

Deeks didn't hesitate in taking his jacket off and wrapping it around her shoulders, pulling her close to him. He rubbed his hands up and down her arms trying to warm her up.

"It's over Kens, it's all over." Deeks said softly, leaning his head against her own.

She sobbed in his arms, the reality of the situation hitting her like a tonne of bricks.

"He's going to spend... the rest of his life... in prison... thanks to me Deeks." Kensi replied in between sobs.

What do you say to that?

"Kens..."

"No. It's true. I should have tried harder..." Kensi replied, cutting him off before he could speak.

"Kensi."

"No." She removed herself from Deeks' grasp, taking off down the beach.

Deeks knew what it was like coming down from undercover assignments, he contemplated whether he should go after her. He knew what it was like to carry around the guilt of deceiving people. It was something he had done with Nicole all those years ago. The more he thought about it the less content he was to sit back and watch her deal with it alone.

"Hey." Deeks called out to Kensi, trying to get her to slow down as he ran to catch up with her. "Hey" Deeks said reaching out for her arm, stopping her retreat.

"Please Deeks, just let me be alone right now." Kensi said, pulling her arm away from his grasp.

"I can't do that Kens." He replied. "I know what you're going through right now and I want you to know that you don't have to go through it alone. Come back to my place." Deeks pleaded, his eyes full of concern for her as he put forward the offer.

"I have to be alone right now." Kensi replied a few seconds later.

"Okay, that's okay." Deeks replied understanding and accepting of her decision, knowing that he had reacted similarly under the same circumstances in the past. "Just promise me that you'll text me or call me... just let me know that you're okay?" Deeks replied, stumbling over his words as he tried to communicate his concern to her.

"I will." Kensi replied, brushing past him as she walked off.

Kensi hadn't texted or called Deeks for three days despite the multiple messages he had left her. Hetty had understandably given her time off after the case yet she was clearly avoiding all forms of communication with Deeks which left him no other option.

"Deeks, what are you doing here?" Kensi sighed, opening her door only slightly.

"It's Monty's fault, he was missing you, he insisted that I come over here." Deeks said, watching as Monty nudged the door open, licking Kensi's hand, gently coaxing her into patting him.

"Look, I'll go if you don't want me here but can Monty stay?" Deeks asked, the thought of her being alone through all of this was upsetting to him. "He keeps moping around my apartment, he's barely eating anything, he's starting to howl..." Deeks babbled on with a ridiculous story.

"Fine, enough, the dog can stay." Kensi said mainly to get Deeks to stop talking.

"And me? I come bearing gifts." He held up a six-pack of beer and planted a cheesy smile on his face. He watched her contemplate letting him in for a good few seconds.

"Fine, but I'm not talking to you." Kensi replied stubbornly.

Deeks' response is on the tip of his tongue but she keeps talking.

"And you can't ask if I'm alright."

"Okay."

"Or when I'm coming back."

"Got it."

"And you can't comment on what we watch."

"So we're just going to be talking about the weather then?" Deeks asked sarcastically, yet changed his tone when Kensi attempted to shut the door on him. "I love talking about the weather, the weather in L.A. is amazing." Deeks said, pushing against the door, forcing her to re-open it. "Okay, okay, I got it, we won't talk about any of that, just let me in already." Deeks pleaded.

"Fine."

He took a seat on her couch, looking up at her, wondering why she hadn't joined him. "What?"

"No food?" She gestured towards the table in front of them, the usual greasy delights that Deeks would bring over were missing.

"It's 9 o'clock, I thought you would have already eaten." Deeks replied, when Kensi shrugged her shoulders he laughed. "I should have known, you have terrible eating patterns."

"I did not invite you in so you could insult me."

"I wasn't, look, gimme your phone, I'll order some pizza."

"Good, and make sure you get..."

"Stuffed crust, I got it." Deeks said, a little insulted that she felt the need to remind him. He knew exactly what she liked on her pizza, how she had her coffee... The list was endless.

Several beers and pizza slices later they were collapsed on the couch watching another episode of America's Next Top Model. While Deeks had been on his best behavior avoiding asking her anything from her banned list, she could feel his eyes watching her instead of the screen. Although he was being very subtle, steeling glances every now and then hoping that she wouldn't notice, she did.

"What?" She asked, turning to face him suddenly.

"H... how did you even know I was looking?" Deeks asked.

"Who do you think came top in their surveillance and tracking class, Deeks?" Kensi asked angrily. "Besides, you are so obvious." Her tone lightened up some as she punched him in the arm.

"Yeah well maybe I wanted it to be obvious." Deeks threw back, trying his best to sound serious. He lasted all of five seconds before busting out with a telling smile.

"You're an idiot, you know that right?" Kensi replied, a smile of her own spreading across her face.

"Well my partner tends to remind me of that fact everyday so I can't forget."

"Your partner sounds smart."

"My partner is a smart ass." Deeks corrected.

Kensi just shook her head, taking another swig from her bottle.

She absent-mindedly petted Monty as they continued to watch the tv in silence. It was getting late, Deeks could tell that she was getting tired yet he still didn't want to leave her.

As she yawned loudly Deeks finally broached the subject. "You're not going to kick me out are you?" Deeks said, breaking the silence.

"Yep." Kensi replied, with no hint of guilt.

"Even after I bought beers over, got you dinner, watched three hours of reality tv, even after all of that you're going to kick me out?"

Kensi shrugged.

"Fine, come on Monty." Deeks said calling his mutt who refused to move, simply looking up at him sleepily. "Really?"

"Monty can stay." Kensi scratched the dog behind the ears, smiling at Deeks.

"Okay fine, but I need to say something before I go..."

"Deeks, no, you promised."

"I know but, I'll go as soon as I've said it, okay?" Deeks said, taking Kensi's silence as a sign to continue.

"Kens, there were narcotics found at the scene, Jack was using again..." Deeks confessed. "It wouldn't have mattered what you said Kens, he wouldn't have listened to you anyway."

"You don't know that, Deeks." Kensi said, opening the door up for him to leave.

"Yes I do, you remember that time I got my gun taken from me by a junkie?" Deeks said, walking over to stand right in front of her. "I was a rookie cop, believed him when he told me that he didn't want to hurt me, it nearly cost me my life. Kens, Jack was a drug addict, nothing you could've said would have changed anything." Deeks said. Staying true to his word he left as soon as he had said it, hoping that sometime in the future she would forgive him.