Chapter 4
Away For A Little While

"Have you ever felt the pain of running away from those you love?"

The next day...

Michelangelo woke up, finding himself clutching Luis.

Silently, he took out his diary and wrote:

Dear diary,

I don't know what to do anymore. These thoughts...these nightmares...the living nightmare...the anger...the pain...the suffering...the cruetly...the hatred...the ignorance they're giving me...the heart that stung each horrible thought...the stinging tears on my face...the thought that no one would put my smile up...the feeling that Sensei might get mad at me once he's recovered...the swearing...the cursing...the abuse...the love they forgot.

I can't take this anymore.

All I just want to do is to have a happy life: a life where troubles are free, a place where anger is gone , a place when happiness is immortal, a place where everyone will accept me for who I am, a place where everyone loves me...a place where my brothers will love me again.

They don't love me...

...Do you think?

I just...can't take this any longer. It's like I was fading away. Hell, I wish I could get out of here to a place where happiness is immortal in our lives and sadness, anger and paranoia is just a pest in our body. I just want...I just want...to live in a perfect world where sins are only dead and morals are in our heart?

Why is the world so cruel?

Hell, why is reality harsh?

WHY DOES THE WORLD HATE ME?!

I don't know...

...do you?

Mikey.

Michelangelo closed the diary and felt the hot tears on his cheeks. No matter how many times Michelangelo tried to wipe off the tears from his face, more tears reproduced.

It was four hours when the tears finally stopped. Michelangelo stood up and looked at the time.

10:30 AM.

Oh shoot, I'm late for-why do I even care? The world hates me. It's like they always say: the nicest people gets treated like sh**. I don't know why. I...I don't know why...?! Once again, Michelangelo felt the tears on his face, his eyes getting redder than ever.

Getting up, he got a tissue. He blew his nose and wiped his tears.

After two minutes, it stopped.

Finally.

He finally got out of his room and looked at Leonardo, watching Space Heroes.

Leo...I'm sorry if I failed you. You were right. I had to grow up. But it's just so hard. My heart said that you guys were just growing up too fast. I, too, would grow up...but I'm not like you guys. My heart said this is where I should stop because a better future will come if I stay like this. But you really wanted me to grow up. Now, you're practically ignoring me. You always treated me like I'm only a piece of mother f***ing sh**. Well no more. I'll be gone...just what you want. If I do, I'm sure we'll both be happy. Sayonara, Leo. No matter, even though you hate me, I still love you as a brother. Take care.

Michelangelo now went to look for Raphael. Turns out that he was just feeding Spike in his room. From the very moment Raphael found Spike, he felt like as if he was just a ghost. All gentleness for him was gone, replacing with hatred and anger. Everytime he would find Raphael playing with Spike, he would feel the sting in his heart and would always think that Raphael loves Spike better than him. But he's not saying that he will take the blame on Spike. He never wouldn't do such a thing. Michelangelo would just blame himself for being born.

I'm sorry, Raph. I never knew you were always pissed off...especially on me. You never loved me ever since you found Spike. You think i just need to move on. No. I'm just 15 and is always living in isolation like you guys. But I'm the youngest and I'm supposed to always be the first one to protect. No. You always think I was just a figure of your imagination when you never know I'm real. If you wanted me to leave, fine by me. Don't come running into me one day when you regret. Your imagination might be gone...and it will be too late to get it back.

Lastly, he went to Donatello. His favorite brother...hated him too. Though complete opposites, they were also a team. They weren't only brothers...but more like best friends who would always stick together no matter what. Even though they're close, they would argue the most. Donatello would criticize his idiocy and Michelangelo would tease him a lot of things like Donatello having a crush on April O'Neil such as.

He sure will miss him the most.

Donnie...you were always my favorite brother. You would comfort me whenever Leo and Raph would argue. You would help me up whenever I fall. Though we're complete opposites, we were like the best team ever. But now...it seemed like the team broke already. You were really mad at me, saying that I should grow up. But if I'm gone, will you be happy? In this way, we can both he happy...all of us. I just hope this isn't the answer. Bye Donnie. Tell Master Splinter that I'm sorry that I was the worst son anyone could ask for. Have a nice dream. I'm...sorry.

Going back to his room, he made a duffel bag out of Donatello's broken bo staff and his blanket. He packed his bandanna, his weapon, his family photo and Luis.

Goodbye, brothers. No matter where the wind will take us, we'll still be brothers...no matter what.

Then, he left without at single trace.

What I pass through is the road we always part at.

What I run through is a dark street corner.

What I struggle onto is a trap which leads to destruction.

REPLACED

First arc (1-4): Family Arc

Next arc: First Found

Chapter 5: Traces Unknown

Can you believe?

Traces Unknown Game Question:

Is April around here? Does she even play a role in this tale?

I don't know...do you?

-Meisaki Hasaki

Sorry if I wrote this chapter angsty or something. Don't worry. I won't rush. Promise. There'll be a lot of stuff coming. Also...the first chapter until here is the Family Arc. I had too much stress on adding the trailer yesterday morning (well, it was 6 in the morning, get on with it.) that I don't want to edit anymore.

Two more things.

This chapter is related to Mikey's Dear You song. His trial is about how he feels useless. I'll try to think of the lyrics when school starts.

One more thing.

The ending of the story will depend on your choice. Some of the chapters are more of games...especially the ending. I'll give small clues on how the ending will be your decision, readers. There are three things you need to choose extra carefully. One will lead to a bad ending, one will be half good (that'll make a sequel) and one is the best ending. I'll give you the right time to answer on a cliffhanger I've been thinking of. But when I give you the chance...choose wisely. If you make a mistake, this will lead to a bad ending.

My OC, Meisaki Hasaki will give you the game questions.

Try to tell your answer to the first question in the reviews. Don't be shy. Go on. Just...go on.

So, what do you think?