Sorry I haven't written in forever. Life has been really tough and I haven't had time, and we're moving. Thanks for waiting though.
Chapter 19
Abort
"Cato?" I asked, turning on my side. His outline was illuminated by the lights of the capitol below.
"Yeah?" he replied, staring at the ceiling.
"Maybe Johanna's right. I mean, maybe a baby isn't the best idea right now. We could wait-"
"No." he said sternly, turning on his side, signaling the conversation was over. Still, Johanna's words rumbled in my ears like a bad song stuck in my head.
"Cato?"
"What!" he snapped with anger. He took a deep breath, turning back around so he could see me. "What?" he said softer.
"This boycotting the Hunger Games idea. Do you think it will work?" I paused. "Because if it doesn't, one of us will die. If I die, you'll be even more heartbroken with the loss of the child too-"
"That won't happen-"
"just let me finish. If you die, I'll have to raise a child on my own. It would just be best if both of us-"
He crushed his lips against mine. "No" he cupped my face. "We made it out last time, by the skin of our teeth, and we'll make it out this time. I promise."
"Don't make promises you can't keep." I whispered, a tear rolling down my cheek.
"Shhh, Clove. It's going to be okay. We'll get out of this." he pulled me closer and sighed.
"So Clove," Caesar Filckerman began. ", I hear a rumor that you are engaged, is it true?"
"Yes." I faked a laugh of surprise. "For a while now actually."
"Wow." he turned to the audience for a reply. They all oohed and ahhed. "Do you think you'll ever be Mrs. Cato?"
"I've always been Mrs. Cato. I've always belonged to him, from the moment we met and from the moment he first kissed me. We have an undeniable chemistry." I put sincerity into my voice.
"So, Clove, if by some miracle you both make it out of the Games, what will the future plans for Mr. and Mrs. Cato be?"
"Future plans are probably out of the question by now." I absentmindedly placed a hand on my stomach. "Because as soon as the Games are over, I'll have to raise the child on my own." There was a collective gasp from the audience. I looked back at the other victors. Some were shocked, some shook their head in disappointment, and others in spite.
"Wait, so you are pregnant? Clove and Cato are having a child?" Caesar asked. The crowd went wild.
"yes, Caesar, we are."
"Well that's all the time we have." Caesar kissed my hand. "Good to see you Clove, and good luck with the baby. May the odds be ever in your favor." I smiled sweetly and stood up, smoothing down my dress to cover my legs. I passed Cato and he pulled me towards him by the waist and kissed me. The crowd exploded. "Alright you two." Caesar said.
Cato sat in the chair, crossing his legs. "Fancy meeting you here Caesar."
The crowd laughed. "Nice to see you too. So Cato, if you can make it out of the games, do you think you will make a good father?"
"A good father?" Cato rubbed his chin. "It's hard to determine. I think with such a violent history, It'll take some getting used to, but Clove taught me how to love. And our son or daughter will teach me to love again."
"Well that's sweet. how do you plan to keep your fiance safe in the Games?"
"I'll do anything for her to make it out alive."
"Such bold words. Has an established career group been established yet?" Caesar asked.
"No." Cato replied. I knew it was a lie. So did everyone else. There were two obvious sides. Cato and I had gathered Johanna and Finnick and Madge as a small group. We had talked to some outlying districts about the boycotting idea, but they thought we would betray them. And the district one pair had decided to keep to themselves and plan their own bloodthirsty plan.
"Ah, I see."
"This is it." I said to Cato under my breath. "This is our last night of privacy, or comfort." we stood in the living room, Cato's arms wrapped around my waist and mine around his neck.
"I know." he whispered. "Try not to think about it." He kissed my forehead and I slid my hands down his chest, holding them there. I reached for the little box on the table and Cato looked at me with his pained expression. "Are you sure you want to do this?"
"Cato, the day I bring a child into this living hell, I won't be able to forgive myself. It's hard enough fighting for my own life, but two is just too many."
"I can't watch." he turned away.
"I'm sorry." my voice cracked. I pulled out the small yellow pill that would wipe away any evidence I had ever been pregnant. It would all go away. The baby would be lost. I swallowed the pill and took a big gulp of water. "It's done." I said under my breath. Cato nodded, walking to his bedroom and stoping before opening the door.
"Just give me some time before you come in." he opened the door and disappeared into it.
CLove u idjit.