A/N: Short chapter, cry's POV of the previous chapter. (It's not necessary to read this chapter. I just wanted to share cry's reaction to pewds speech. Nothing new happens)

It was around eleven fifty Pewdie was sleeping in our bed in a still matter. It wasn't like him. Usually he would thrash around and grab onto whatever was closest to himself; which used to be me.

I was bored out of my mind but there was nothing I could do. With a sigh I stood from my seated position and thought about what to do. My gaze lingered on the sleeping figure in the bed. He looked so sad even when sleeping; it was disheartening. Pewds was always smiling and laughing while cracking stupid yet funny jokes. But after the incident he changed so much; I broke him. Guilt gnawed at my insides. I felt so bad.

Before I knew it the clock turned to 12: 00 AM. Officially it was our anniversary.

"Fuck...," My voice wavered a bit but I quickly controlled and steadied it. It was just another day...

"I should wish Pewds a happy anniversary... Yeah," Quickly, I looked back at pewds one last time then headed down the stairs and into the decent sized kitchen. Soon the tip of a pen was touching a smooth sheet of paper. I thought about what to say. It had to be something sweet but brief so Pewds doesn't feel any worse then he would. I began writing:

Mornin Felix! Do you remember? September? Haha. I certainty do. Happy anniversary, love! This is not at all how I thought I would spend it. But hey at least I still get to see you.

I heard you set my funeral and to be today. If you don't mind could I come? I know it sounds weird; attending my own funeral but... I just want to.

Love you Pewdie

-Cry

I put the pen away and made set the paper nicely on the kitchen table for Felix to see whenever he did. I hoped the joke in the beginning of the letter set him a ease if only just a bit. The line "do you remember... September" was from a video we did a while ago. Pewds cracked the joke and my character jumped off whatever it was standing on. It was funny but hopefully Pewdie doesn't get upset if he remembered the death of my character... Maybe that wasn't the best thing to put.

For the rest of the night all I did was think(mostly about Felix) , look at the portraits of us that hung on the wall or on shelves. The memories of the pictures were both happy and sad.

Morning soon came and I heard movement upstairs; most likely Pewdie waking up and getting changed. The probability of him getting changed made me decide to stay downstairs.

Almost twenty minutes had passed when I heard the sound of Felix trudging down the stairs. I stood by the letter I wrote as he entered the room. His attire was almost completely black. His blazer, pants, and shoes were pure black. I noticed he was wearing a tie; my tie. I remembered it from when I wore it to dinner on our last anniversary. And then the shirt... It made me smile. An actual smile. I guessed he had remembered that I loved that shirt; it brought out the beautiful blue of his eyes. Pewdie was wearing that shirt for me.

"Thank you... You look handsome," Although Felix couldn't hear me talking as he put his toast in the toaster I still said it,it had to be said. The blond turned around as if to face me but I knew that wasn't his intention. It took him a minute or so to notice the white paper on the table but once he took noticed it was already in his hands.

Pewdie bit his lip with a harsh force. Was he counting up like he usually did when stressed or sad? Most likely... I guess the joke wasn't a good ice breaker.

"Y-Yes cry... You can come if you really want to," Felix stuttered when responding to my question.

"Thank you, friend," Just then Pewdie's toast was finished. He soon consumed his breakfast and wiped his face, making his way back upstairs. I sat on one of the chairs at the table, resting my chin on my hand which was propped up by my elbow.

"Going to my own funeral... I wonder what will happen," I'd never been to a funeral before; only once when I was really young and I didn't remember a thing. I knew that at funerals a priest says blessings to the body and speeches are made... That's practically all my brain would remember for me.

I though for a long while but the sound of keys clanging together brought me back to reality. Pewdie opened the door and I quickly followed behind him just before he closed it. He walked to the car and opened it's door. I dove into the passenger seat as Felix got in and started the car.

After I don't even know amount of time we arrived at the church. I noticed a black limo parked in front of the entrance. I must've been in there...

I never let pewdie out of my sight as he walked in; myself following behind. Everybody was seat except for me so I awkwardly stood to the side, making sure I had a good view.

Church music began to play as the coffin which most likely contained me was rolled down the isle. As it stopped moving I looked to Pewdie and he was sobbing.

"P-Pewd's...," Felix sobbed all throughout the ceremony up until the speeches came. He wiped his eyes and listened. The first speech was from one of my friends. The second one my mother said. They were both nice.

"Felix Arvid Ulf Kjellberg," I raised an eyebrow while watched said person walk up to the podium; I could already tell he was trying not to break down. I held my non existent breath, awaiting to see what he would say.

"W-We all know of this amazing person, cry. He was and is such an important person in all of our lives... In different ways for each of us. For some; he was a great son. For others; he was an amazing friend. But for me... For me cry was everything. He was and most definitely is my everything. I don't even know where I would be if I never met him. I am certainty glad I did. Our first encounter was over the internet, most of you know we were gamers on youtube. We played video games together and even though we never even met in person, we instantly became best friends. Cry would always be the one to cheer me up over Skype when I was down even if it was four AM in the morning for him," Felix stopped and chuckled for a moment but I knew it was just a distraction so he wouldn't break down in front of everyone. I had brought a hand to my mouth while I was listening. There was a pained feeling where my heart should have been beating if I were alive. Pewdie's words... They had gotten to me.

"Then that amazing day when we met in person. That's when I fell in love with him. His laugh, his smile, his everything and entire being. I couldn't point out a single thing I didn't love. A few months passed and I moved in with cry. I was the most happy I've ever been. A person couldn't ever make another happy more than cry made me. He was perfect. He means the world to me. That awful day when he passed... I have to say that I blame myself. I wasn't there to protect him from the dangers of this world. I wasn't able to do that for him. I regret it more than anything. I love cry so much and ever so dearly. If I could I would trade my life fore his. Even after he has passed I still feel his presents,"

"Pewdie It wasn't your fault! Please don't blame yourself... It was my fault I'm sorry...,"

"I have a question for all of you. How differently would your lives be if you never met cry? It would be a sad difference. Whenever Cry was around he brought a smile to all of our faces," I smiled a bit. Pewds words were sweet.

"He was a good man. A great one. He cared and was kind to all. We send our regards to you Cry; we all love you," He bowed his head slightly then walked back to assigned seat. I could tell that about half way through his speech tears threatened his eyes. I was pretty sure everyone was tearing up or crying. The Priest did something too...

The rest of the ceremony went on; the Priest blessing my body and other shit but I kept my attention on Felix. He was my main focus.

Everyone was then standing up and grabbing their jackets so I guessed that the funeral was over. I followed Felix into the limo. The question of "where were we going" was buzzing through my head. Maybe the burial. I didn't know.

My assumption was proven correct as my dad had to get Felix out of the car. I followed him. All around us were tombstones. That was were I was going to be laid.

Everyone walked over to a hole in the ground, making sure there was enough room for the coffin to get through. I stayed next to Pewds and while waiting for myself to be buried I read my tombstone but before long I tore my eyes off of it because the coffin came through and was set in the hole.

"N-No! Cry no! P-Please C-Cry please don't leave!," I started to wail "CRY! COME BACK CRY I LOVE YOU NO PLEASE!" I looked to Pewdie who was sobbing and looking at the coffin.

"Pewds I'm here dude! S-Stop crying it's okay!"

"Cry goddammit w-why? Why!" People were trying to calm him down. It was hard to watch Pewdie like that. I hated it. I looked away for a little until I heard talking inside of my head.

"May You rest in piece., Cry I love you, bye. Just for now," His lips were unmoving so I wondered how I was hearing him. Pewds placed a rose gently on my coffin as everyone else did previously.

My dad knelt down next to Felix who was on the ground and tried comforting him by telling him it was alright. That I was alright. That it wasn't his fault. He didn't believe it.

It was late as my dad had said when I followed pewdie inside our home. He stopped for a minute probably in deep thought then walked over to the extras drawer and took something from it which I didn't see. Felix collapsed on the couch.

When I looked over at him my jaw dropped.

The sight, it made my heart stop. It made my body freeze up. Seeing my boyfriend holding a gun up to his head... I didn't know how to respond. Goddamn it brain process! I really needed to stop him. But how? I was invisible to him. He cannot see me anymore, fear and hatred shielded his sight so he couldn't see.

"Felix!" I tried to yell, my voice not reaching him "Felix no please!" My knees began to wobble, it was hard to stand but I did more than that. I got myself to step forward then made my way into a full out sprint, trying to reach the one with the gun. But it was too late.

With a quiet shaky voice he said "I'll be with you soon, cry," Then Felix pulled the trigger and he was gone. A gush of blood spat from the spot the bullet went through his head as Felix was knocked to his side from the impact.

"FELIX NO!" I couldn't stand any longer, my knees grew weak then I fell. I fell and sobbed in front of the man I loved, the one whom killed himself for me. It wasn't fair! He had such a life to live... So much a head of him that he will never get to do. It was all my fault. If I hadn't been so useless I would've saved both of us.

He was gone. I was gone. We were gone. Did that mean we would be together?

A/N: yep. Nothing really new. If you read up until now then brofist to you -brofist- congratulations you survived a really boring repeat chapter! Next chapter will be out late today or sometime tomorrow after school.