"Something is definitely going on with her, but what exactly is beyond me" Ianto reported as he stepped closer to Jack out on the Plass. Jack was facing the water, elbows resting on the railing. Ianto leaned his side against the rail when he approached.
"It's beyond me too." Jack continued to gaze out towards the water. "I can't tell if she's doing this on purpose, or being used, or being affected by something alien or not." Jack slammed his hand on the cold railing, "It's aggravating" he growled.
Ianto leaned his back against the rail facing the opposite way while he contemplated what to do next about Tosh. It was hard to focus as his shoulder brushed against Jack's, he could feel the older man's body heat and felt like a fool for not putting on his own coat before stepping outside.
"You could have her followed" he offered after a few moments silence.
"I'd rather not go behind her back about anything." Jack said honestly. "That type of behavior doesn't usually condone trust" he added sadly.
Ianto looked into the distance, suddenly feeling very uncomfortable. A fresh stab of guilt passed through him as he thought about the incident with the cyberman. Rather, Lisa. Well, the incident with the cyberman that took over Lisa and ripped her from him.
"We'll just have to hope she comes to us for help with whatever it is" Jack wished.
"And if she doesn't?" Ianto asked, then turned to look Jack in the eyes and added "If it blows up in her face?"
Jack gazed into Ianto's eyes and said quietly and truthfully "Then we forgive her."
Ianto's heart started racing, he felt his palms start to sweat despite the cold air, and he felt a familiar feeling in his stomach whenever he was nervously excited. He was aware of how very close his face was to Jack's. Ianto tore his gaze away after what felt like an eternity staring into Jack's eyes. He swallowed a lump that appeared in his throat and tensed his arms in an effort to keep from shivering.
He wanted Jack to do something just then, but it was crazy. Wasn't it? I was never attracted to him, not really. He is quite handsome but that's not the same as being attracted to him. Although, there was that moment when we met, in the warehouse lying on top of him, I felt…. No, he was always attracted to me, not me to him. Right?
He resisted the urge to roll his eyes at himself. What about the way you felt when you were looking into his eyes as you laid there? The way you continued to wear suits because he liked them. Don't forget all the times he's made you smile when he's flirted with you. About all the times you've gone out our way to help him with something. All the times he looked at you and without saying a word you could have a complete conversation, and the way those moments made you feel; as though all your troubles melted away.
Admit it, you are attracted to him, you like him, and you want him. But...
It was too soon. Wasn't it?
And do I really want this? I mean really? I wanted a kiss just now; kissing can lead to other things. Maybe it's just a kiss I want and don't want anything more. Maybe I'm just starved of human contact. What if I want something and once I get it, I realize I really don't want it after all? And, it's too soon. Isn't it? No, it's not too soon. Right? He let out a sigh. I need to think.
"Cold?" Jack asked noticing how Ianto's shoulders seemed tense and how the younger man's hands were shoved into his trouser pockets. Jack placed a hand on Ianto's shoulder and was about to pull the younger man closer in order to warm him up.
"A bit. I'll head back in." Ianto practically ran back into the hub, partly because the cold was starting to make his teeth chatter and partly because he didn't trust himself to stay any longer. Jack's body heat and warm coat were too tempting. Far too tempting. He wanted to think some more.
The sky was darkening over the Plass as Jack glanced at Ianto's retreating form. All lewd thoughts were swept away as a fresh wave of worry for Tosh washed over him. Deciding he was getting no ideas here, he left for one of his favorite rooftops. He let out a sigh I need to think.