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CHAPTER 3 : Just Getting Started

For the last time Kendall sighed and said softly for himself, "Guys, I have a disease... "

Before he could continue it, the door of elevator was opened. He slowly walked towards the pool and looking at for Jo. He scanned all the direction of the pool then eventually found Jo was sitting under the tree with a phone in her hands.

As he was walking towards Jo, suddenly he felt the dizziness came to him was like hitting his head and he could feel his body trembling slightly. He almost collapse in the ground but quickly he grabbed a chair in near him to balance his weight. His heart was pounding rapidly and his breath puffed and he could feel his chest very sore to breathe, he tried to breathe regularly but it was too painful. He grabbed his chest with his right hand then squeezed it. He groaned in silence tried to hide his pain. He waited a few minutes until that pain is gone.

"Kendall, are you okey?"

The voice came from behind him that made kendall jumped a little and looking at for the owner of that voice.

"H-Hey.. oh, Jo. Y-yeah I'm good." He tried to stand up and hid the pain from his face. He could see the puzzlement and fear in the face Jo.

"Huh, I just stumble. I'm fine, see?" kendall convincing.

"I believe you." She gave Kendall with her beautiful smile.

"Ok that's it. Her smile, I can't see this.."

"So, you're just back from the another planet huh?" she smiled at Kendall while hit her bottom lips.

Kendall gave his small smile for his response and look deeper in her eyes. Eyes fills with joy, love, affection and attention. Jo is the perfect girlfriend for Kendall. His heart hurts when he saw Jo with her smile, the innocent smile. He couldn't do this any longer. So, he turned his eyes towards the pool.

"Kendall? Are you still there?" Knowing it Jo made a sign to Kendall by swinging her hand in front of Kendall's face.

"Yeah.." he took a deep breath and sighed, "Jo, I-I need to talk to you. There's something I wanted to t-tell you.."

"Ye-yeah.. You can tell me everything, Kendall. Just spell it.." with that Jo raised her eyebrows.

"I-I want t..." Kendall cut it for a while as he closed his eyes then exhaled, "Huh, I want to break up with you."

With that Jo dropped her jaw and her eyes widened. "What? H-how c-could you.." she still paralyzed.

"Jo, I-Im so sorry.. But this.."

"Why are you doing this to me, Kendall? What was my fault? Why are you too rush with this?" Jo covered her mouth with her hands with the same time she bowed her head and began to cry.

"No. It wasn't your fault not at all. It all has nothing to do with you, the reason why i want to break up with you because.. huh I-I don't have t-that feel again for you. I try so hard to own your heart but it's meaningless, because we've had no chemistry anymore. I couldn't take it any longer so I thought that will be better if we break. But we can still be friend, can we? Just like Logan and Camille did."

Slowly Jo raised her head and looked at Kendall. Her tears fell quickly in her cheeks. Her eyes was red and Kendall could see the pain in her eyes.

"Jo please.. stop to cry, i can't see you like this. I can't see all your pain. I loved you so much. You're mean a lot for me. I know I can't do this to you. But i had no choice, before it was too late.. " Kendall said to himself.

"Jo, please give me a little space. I know this is hard for you, but if i can honestly.." Kendall stopped. He was trying to find the right words.

"I-I've found another girl a few weeks ago. It just feels.. I-i don't know it's different. When I'm with her i can feel the same way when I was with you. Even more. She's too kind for me, when something was wrong and you weren't here she came to me and made me calm. She's so lovely, Jo. And I was thinking about this, I'm so confuse what do I feel. Is it right or no but then I realized that..I'm falling in love with her." Kendall's heart was in so much pain. His body just dead. He never lie like this before. He knew that it will be hard and made a scar for Jo.

He saw the tears falling more and more as she started to sob.

"This is the best for our intermission, Jo. Please i hope you can accept it."

"Absolutely No" He added it on his thought.

She tried to control her sob then she took a deep breath to fill her lungs for some air, "Kendall.. I-I don't know, This can't be like this and this can't be as easy as your imagine.. Kendall I love you, but i couldn't help it. You've just pick someone else, it's really hard for me and i dont know what i have to do with this. I don't want to be friend with you either, maybe yet. I just need some time.." she finished what she said then she turned around and ran with her hands still covered her mouth, leaving Kendall without the last 'Goodbye Kiss'.

"I-Im so sorry, Jo... " this time Kendall couldn't held his tears to come out.

"This is so stupid! This jerk! Life is SUCKS! T-thi... " before he could finished his sentences something that he didn't even expect to come is appear. He felt his stomach became worse. He bowed his body . He was holding his belly with his right hand and his left hand to covered his mouth. That stupid dizziness.

He let small groaned from his weakness voice but it was bad step, his throat was burning like a hell.

After a several minutes he can't held it so he let it out. He was throwing up. It wasn't easy for him when his vomit with the weakness body. The bad news was that he hadn't eaten from the morning but the good news was there was no one saw him like this so he was little relieved.

After he finished it he sat in the chair to calm himself down and controlling his breath.

10 PM

At 2J Apartment

"Guys, i cannot believe this! This would be an AWESOME PARTY! And i think that everyone are enjoying this. Look at the Guitar dude he looks great and his guitar is so beautiful with t-the.. tie... Oh whatever, and the Jennifers.. hhoo AWESOME! I cannot wait to ask them!" like usual, Carlos looked at the Jennifers for a seconds with his lovely face and put his helmet on his head then hit it.

"And hey look over there!" James said while pointing his finger toward the Jennifers.

Not wait for long, Carlos looked at jennifers .

"Aaaayyyeee..! I GOT IT!"

When Carlos turned back towards James his helmet was gone and now already moved into James's hand.

Within horror face Carlos bluffs to James, "Give. me. back. James.." with that Carlos raised his eyebrows slowly.

"N.O.P.E" James said it with a deeper pressure voice.

"James Dylan Diamond.. GIVE. IT. BACK. TO. ME. RIGHT. NOW." Carlos's eyes caught James's eyes like a prey.

"Never! Hey dude it isn't funny when we throw a party and your stupid helmet still in your head even it isn't cool at all! Pppssff.." James said with putted his mock face.

"Y-y-o-o-u-u..." Carlos tried to grab his helmet back from James, that led into a fight between Carlos and James.

"Guys stop it!" this time Logan was spoken. But Carlos and James didn't respont what Logan said. This time Carlos touched James's hair who made James mad and then for attack it back James licked Carlos's helmet .

"GUYS YOU TWO NEED TO STOP IT RIGHT NOW!" Logan yelled at his friends.

Carlos and James stared at logan still on their 'Goofy' position.

"Don't you remember? This is a Party, no fighting, no screaming each other, no yelling and no.. licking the stuff anyway.." he cut it for a while. "That was disgusting.."

"But Logan, you did it."

"Did what?"

"YELLED TO US." James said with widened eyes.

"D-did I?"

"YES YOU DID!" James and Carlos both cried out to Logan.

"Oh, i think i don't remember it heheheheh.."

"Stupid!" then Carlos hit Logan's head.

"Aauuww..." Logan screamed in the shock.

"Ops sorry, i don't remember that I've hit your head.." Carlos and James started to laugh.

"Hey where's Kendall? I didn't see him around." James asked.

"Well, I don't know I didn't see him too since this afternoon."

"Hey, Logan.."

"Oh, hey Camille.." Logan smiled at Camille who walked over him and with Jo in her side.

"Oh, and hey Jo.. Can't find Kendall huh?" Logan also gave his smile to Jo.

Jo smiled back at Logan but kept silence.

"Oh don't worry I can find Kendall for you. Just wait a minutes."

"Carlos don't! It's okey.. I-I'm not looking for him." She sighed.

"Are you alright?" James asked her.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry I just want to spend tonight with all of you, guys."

Logan, Carlos, James and Camille seeing each other.

"Okey, but I'm still looking for him. He couldn't skip this party.."

Carlos, James, Camille and Jo nodded.

Logan was searching at every rooms. The first place which Logan head was TV room. With his struggle hard enough, he shoved all the people who were in Apartment 2J. Music playing loudly, people passing, laughing even glasses and plates are everywhere who wasn't help anything. He tried to focus to find Kendall.

After he didn't find Kendall in the TV room and then he moved into the kitchen. With the same result Kendall wasn't there. Then he went to his and Kendall's share room. Logan opened the door of their room and he found emptyness. Continued in Carlos and James's room.

"Huh .. now he is becoming a reliable person in hide thing. " Logan obviously for himself.

He went back downstairs and through the bathroom. That was when he noticed a familiar voice by his ears. With little curious Logan approached the bathroom and tried to pull the knob of the door. But when he wanted to push the door, he found that the door was locked.

Everything felt like an old before he could hear the voice on there. He knows that something is wrong on there.

PPLLAANNGG

The voice came from the bathroom and at the same time Logan heard a gasp or more like someone is groaning.

"Ke-kendall?"

"Kendall!"

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