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Chapter 5 : Memorizing; First..

The Party last night was great so far. It wasn't like what Kendall thought, we had so much fun last night. It filled with laughs and the happiness.

Kendall was smiling as he wrote something on his note. From now and then he's going to write anything or everything into it, hoping that those memories will be here and never be fading away when he wasn't here anymore.

To be honest, he still remember about Jo and yeah he couldn't get his mind off of her.

He sighed while closing his note after He has finished it. He thought it was enough for last night; August, 10th 2013.

He decided to take a quickly shower and get to downstairs to breakfast with his family like the another days. Oh really, he's gonna miss it someday to having a breakfast with his family and his friends actually they're like his family tough.

He hopes he's gonna meet them again after this life.

Kendall loves them so much...

August, 11th 2013

"Carlos, please stop it!"

But it was just like Carlos, he didn't want to hear that and kept playing with his food. He struggled his shoulders and made a mocked face to James who already burned because of it while Logan, like you know the only one person who still normal, has his book on his hands without take any attention to his friends. Katie and Mama Knight were eating in the table while watching the fight between James and Carlos. It's a normal activities like the other days, and Kendall feel so happy for seeing it. He loves his family, he loves his brothers, he loves all of his life except for that diseases but he was hoping that all of this it was his dreams but he knew that it wasn't, damn.

He walked through the dinner room and took a sit beside of Logan. He didn't want to eat, yet. Logan realized Kendall' presence and facing Kendall then gave him a small smile, tired smile he guessed. He thought that everybody was tired because the party last night even Carlos and James still had those fight things with the food but he didn't even matter it because he knew he will miss it so much.

He will miss James' and Carlos' yells.

He will miss Logan' normal things.

He will miss his mom' love and hug.

He will miss Katie' cares and of course his babysitter things.

He will miss all people in Palm Woods, swim pool, park, pranks and Jo.

He couldn't deny it, he still loves Jo. How couldn't ? It was to hard to forget her, but he had to besides it will be fade away then gone along with his body.

"Hey sweetheart.." Kendall turned his vision to his mom who standing behind him then gave him a hug and kiss, oh the sweetest ones.

Kendall closed his eyes for a while to feel that feelings then opened it again for gave a smile for his mom.

"You look tired, sweetheart." she swept Kendall's hair softly hoped it'd make him feel better. She knows Kendall as well.

"Yeah, sort of mom.." once again he gave her a small smile.

"Let's join us for breakfast?" James gave a shot for Kendall and Logan as raising his eyebrow at them still putting higher the chicken nugget in the air.

"James give it back to me," Carlos alerted to James while giving him a dead look.

"N.e.v.e.r." James answered it not even mind to look at Carlos's.

Logan just shrugged but came over to James's and Carlos's followed by Kendall.

Katie and Mrs. Knight took a sit between them and they started to eat.

Kendall scanning all of them, he memorizing all those moments and he will keep it like forever. He looked up at Katie, his babysitter who has a beautiful smile and the soft eye; then turned at his lovely mom who has the shady smile the smile who fills with love and it always makes Kendall feels so calm and secure; moved to his best friends, well just call them with his brothers. First of all, James who still focusing on his food and little bit calm about the fight with Carlos but even he acts like ridiculous guy but it doesn't mean a thing for Kendall because James always gives Kendall those beautiful days with his smile and his act. Logan, eating his food without any words or more act, Logan is the normal one but really cares with Kendall and knows Kendall as well as his mom. When he knows that something is wrong with his friends, he is the first person who notices it. The last but not for all, Carlos, his crazier friend for four of them. Kendall loves Carlos' laugh, his attitude and all his crazier things even more of people hated it but really they didn't notice that Carlos is the special friend. He can act like a child but when something's happen with his friends Carlos always puts the smile on their faces again, like just now he still playing with his food and make some noise but Kendall loves it. A smile crossing at Kendall' month.

One by one he scanning at them, they look so happy one each other no matter what happens so Kendall hopes that it'll be just like this forever even with or without him by their side.

Breakfast things...

"Come to the pool?" Carlos asked.

"Are you nuts?" James answered while crossing his hands on his chest.

Carlos gave him a strange look. Noticed it James continue his words, "are you not tired or something after last night, hah?"

"Are. You. Nuts?" this time Carlos gave those words for James back.

"Since when you feel tired of play and have fun?" Carlos added.

James looked at nowhere as opened his mouth but no words come out of there.

Carlos sighed and rolled his eyes.

"Guys, stop, please just stop.." Logan took a spot between James and Carlos with what's wrong with you two look. Finally..

"Have you guys noticed you two already fighting about the whole day?" Logan raised his eyebrows and Kendall couldn't hide his giggle because of it. Yeah maybe they always get a fight the whole life but they never mean it and everybody knows it.

About a minutes they finally stop with the argument without Kendall take a part of them, yeah he has to try with it, to not take a part with his friends or even his family. He has to make them feel nothing but happy without him.

It was like a slow motion when he standing in front of them, laughed softly as he watching his friends do their normally activities like this. They hitting each other with pillow or something, trying to hid their stuff, grab their hairs or just war of words.

This day he'd spend his time with those memories..

He'd memorized it; their scream, their laugh even their voice. A small smile came out from Kendall' month.

I will really miss you guys, my brothers..

So ..

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