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Sam

I couldn't make sense of the words coming out of the doctors mouth, but that didn't stop her from going on.

"Respiratory arrest... cardiac arrest.. very severe... I'm so sorry for your loss..."

I'm so sorry for your loss.

the words rung in the back of my mind on a loop that wouldn't stop playing.
I still wasn't exactly sure what was being said but I was sure of one thing.

Kenzie was dead, and she wasn't coming back.

I didn't even try to stop the tears from rolling down my face, and neither did Dean, we just let them roll.
It wasn't even like we had only known Kenzie for a little more then two years, it was like we grew up with her and. Aside from hunting, she was our whole lives now.

I couldn't stand there anymore, I HAD to get away, and fast, because our little sister was dead. Dean saw the look on my face, he pulled the keys to the Impala out of his coat pocket and pushed them into my hand.

"Go get out of here." he said, I nodded my thanks.
I was thankful that my brother knew me so well.

When I got to the car, I ran a shaking hand through my hair, I put the keys into the ignition and turned them. The engine roared to life and for once I was thankful for the too loud of an engine.

When I got out of the hospital parking lot, I floored it, for the first time ever I broke every speed limit that I passed. I'm not one for speeding but the way I was feeling I had to get as far away from the hospital as I possibly could.

Because Kenzie was dead.

I couldn't believe it, she was gone.

I thought about the crossroads, and the crossroads demons.

But I knew Kenz would hate it if I made a deal with the devil to sell my soul so that she could live.

Kenz would hate me for the rest of her life If I did that.
I had just passed the crossroads a couple of miles back.

If Dean or I sold our souls for her, she would kill herself just on principle.

No she wouldn't want to be saved, she wouldn't want to live knowing one of us had sold our soul.

I was so deep in thought that I didn't notice the deer in my head lights in front of me, about twenty feet away. I slammed on the breaks and swerved to the side of the road, the car jerked to a stop.

As I was sitting there it started to rain. I could hear my heart beating in my ears and the rush of blood coursing through my body.

I had only been driving for about ten minutes, but I was about twenty minutes away from the hospital.
I knew I couldn't save her and that just drove my head crazy!
I needed her back, but if she were alive she would never approve of using a crossroads demon to bring anyone back.

At some point I had started crying again while I was sitting there, on the side of the road. I pulled out my phone and called Dean.

"Hey, man where are you?" he asked. He picked up on the first ring, he had been waiting for my call. He wasn't at the hospital anymore, I could here the engine of a car in the background, and thats when I knew what he was planning on doing.

"Dean don't do it!" I yelled, in the small space of the car my voice was over powering, and bounced off the walls.

"Why the hell not?!" he yelled.

"Because Dean! She wouldn't want that! She would hate us both forever if either of us sold our soul! She would hate us forever. Come on man think about it." I could practically hear the wheels turning in his head.
"Where are you right now?" I asked, my voice returning to normal.

"I'm at the crossroads, a few miles right out of town just past the-"

"I know where you are, I'll be there in a couple of minutes. Sit tight and don't do anything stupid." He was at the crossroads that I had just passed, a few miles back.

I hung up and turned the car back on, she roared back to life and I did a u-turn, heading back to the crossroads.

Dean was sitting on the trunk of a stolen car, beer in hand.
I was slightly curious where he got the car, or the beer but I knew better then to ask a question for a answer I knew I didn't want to hear.

The crossroads had already had a hole dug up in it.

The hole was still empty.

"You're right Sammy." he said and I could hear tears in his voice still.
"She wouldn't want us to save her. But I cant let her die man, not this way."
Tears started to fall down his face again and the rain started pouring down harder.
Dean laid his head in his right had that, elbow on his knee.

I walked to the car and pulled out a little box and filled it with everything we needed for the crossroads deal. I put two pictures in the box, one of me and one of Deans, that way it was both of our deal.

I sat the box between us and I sat down on the car next to him. We sat there for a minute and then he asked a question that could change everything.

"So do we bury it and make the deal?"

The end

I will continue this in the next story but that's all for this one. I know your dying to see if they bring her back or not. But yall might have to wait till after finals week to find out! XOXOX