short chapter! but I wanted to get this up. some have remarked that this tamsin and sera is imprinty like twilight...well look at the timeline, sera was 14 when she began to crush on tamsin, then tamsin got new eyes for the kid when she was 22. Tamsin has been in and out of the girls life as she has had to deal with things. maybe it is weird to some, but the idea behind this is that sometimes souls are just drawn to each other...it doesn't matter if its age or anything. that's what I am trying to get across here. I actually have not seen all of the twilight movies because they are not my cup of tea, I apologize if you think a love story that is like this one that transcends age and explanation...sorry. but I am a hopeless romantic. but! negative reviews change my story! so I have decided to change a lot here...but enjoy and there will be more to come!

Sera asked to be dropped off at the compound, Bo and her had been snapping at each other in the cab ride home. Kenzi forced Sera to let her stay with her, knowing that Sera would need her aunt. Bo and I rode the rest of the way home in silence, partly because I was not feeling well and partly because I was upset with Bo and her reaction to what happened in the alleyway. When the cab pulled up in front of the house, I saw the Camaro was in the driveway, but there were no lights on in the crash pad. Bo stormed out of the cab, mumbling as she walked into the house. I paid the cab driver and walked into the house. I was woozy and my stomach was upset, "Bo, I am going to take a shower and then we need to talk about Sera." Bo was in the kitchen digging in the fridge, she looked at me with a frustrated stare, "fine. You know I am not happy about all of this, Tamsin is your friend." she pulled out a tub of ice cream, "you want some of this?" just the sight of the ice cream tub, made my stomach roll. I shook my head, "no, I need to wash the bar off of me, will bring up some water to the bedroom? I think I am going to lie down after, I really don't feel well."

Bo nodded as she shoveled ice cream in her mouth, "You sure you're okay?" her eyes were full of concern, she was very angry at her daughter and Tamsin, but it would be put aside for me. I smiled, "i probably drank a little more than I should have." I blew her a kiss and ran upstairs.

I had to brace myself against the shower wall as the nausea overcame me. I barely made it out of the shower before throwing up. I held onto the bathroom sink and looked in the mirror, I was pale and sweaty and it was not a result of the hot shower. Finishing up in the shower, I put on pajamas and crawled into bed. Bo came up a few minutes later, with her ice cream and my water. She frowned when she saw me, "you don't look good, Lauren." I smiled weakly, "thanks?"

her hand went to my forehead, "you aren't warm, maybe it is the booze and the five pickle backs Kenzi forced on us." she smiled and kissed my forehead, "here, drink some of this." she helped me up so I could drink the water. Bo set the ice cream down so she could change her clothes, "Lauren, what are we going to do about this." she waved her arms in a small circle, "this thing with our daughter and the Valkyrie."

I sighed, leaning my head against the headboard, "why are you so adamant against them?" it came out quietly, I was extremely tired and my voice was echoing it. Bo threw her clothes in a ball onto the floor, "because! She is my little girl! And I...I cant...I don't want her to fall into a relationship that isn't healthy for her." she turned to look at me, "Tamsin is not good for her, she can barely take care of herself. How would she ever be enough for Sera." she was getting agitated.

"you remember once, a long time ago, when I thought I would never be enough for you? And you were worried that you would hurt me, that I deserved better?" I leaned up further, "yet, you chased me down in a desert, brought me back to life. Then I chased you around the world, trying to prove that you were all that I would ever want, need, or desire in this life?" I paused as Bo looked at the floor, her mind full of memories of our successes and failures in our almost twenty five year old relationship.

"it's not the same Lauren. Tamsin...you know why I have a hard time with her sometimes."

I let out a breath, "I want the best for Sera, Bo. We both do. I know that you still linger on the bad of Tamsin. But remember, she was the one who made me fae, she was the one who sacrificed her life to protect Sera, she gave up her immortality to make me stronger in saving you, and the one who is been burdened with protecting Sera from a distance." I could feel that Bo understood all of this, but the only thing in her mind was Tamsin was the one who allowed Sera to be taken from us in the first place, it was truly my mistake, but it would have never happened if Tamsin had not told me about Seamus.

Bo moved to the dresser, grabbing one of my old medical school shirts, pulling it on angrily, "Lauren, I understand what you are telling me, and I know full well what the Valkyrie has done for our family over the years, I care for her because of that. But when it comes to my daughter, I don't know what she wants from Sera." she looked in my eyes.

I kept her gaze, "she wants nothing, Bo, nothing but to find peace in the world of chaos she keeps herself in." I held out my hand to her, motioning for her to come to bed, "I will be honest, I am not too keen on the two either, but I cannot control the hearts of others." Bo took my hand and crawled into my arms, I took a breath, "when I caught up to Tamsin in the alley, she confessed her feelings for Sera. That she is in love with her and it scares her because she has not felt anything like that in centuries." I felt bo sigh against my chest, "Tamsin is struggling because of us, because Sera is our daughter and that the family we have given her is so important too her. Her loyalty to us and what has been asked of her, will always trump her heart." I held Bo closer to me, "plus who are we to say anything about love."

I hit a nerve with Bo, she shot up and out of my arms, "I am to say who my daughter is with, especially in this case. Tamsin is not who Sera needs, she has done more damage in her life than good." Bo rolled out of bed heated, "Lauren I know you and Tamsin have some strange bond, and that clouds your thoughts and opinions of her. But I see clearly, Tamsin is not good for our daughter, she has been in her life since she was five, watching her grow up. don't you think that's odd too?"

I stared at her hard, "nothing clouds my thoughts and opinions of Tamsin, her actions have spoken volumes of the person she is and can be. You have forgotten that Tamsin has been in and out of Sera's life like a drunken dad that stops by on weekends, sometimes." I frowned at my own angry comparison of Tamsin, but she had been in and out of our lives as she dealt with her own life hang-ups. missing for months and years at time, showing up and not really knowing who Sera was becoming until she was a teenager and she found stability with Anya. By then Sera and Tamsin were strangers. "You know what I mean, you are just finding every excuse you can to justify your unfounded reasoning's of why they should not.

Bo laughed, "really, and when she took you to the Norn and you made that deal or the other times she has done something that has brought harm to our family?"

Bo hit a nerve, "the Norn was my fault and my fault alone, don't put that on her." I stared at her hard, trying to keep my voice down as she was making me angry.

Bo shook her head, "Always taking her side when it boils down, don't you? You are always her biggest defender even though you just said you don't agree with her and Sera."

I stood up suddenly, "have you forgotten, she is the one who made me fae so you and I could love forever, she found you and brought me back to you when you decided to run? That and more, she has always been there, put our family first and the one time she might want to feel something for her own or know a love like we have, you are going to shit all over that." I walked over to Bo, "i will be in the lab for the rest of the night, I think we both need to cool down." I was getting angry at my wife for the sole reason she wasn't listening to her heart for the first time in her life and was more focused on the past that, in my eyes Tamsin had more than made up for. I grabbed blankets and pillows, ignoring the petulant stare of my wife as she kept her arms crossed, pissed off at me, pissed off at Tamsin, pissed off at Sera and lastly pissed off at herself.

I walked out in the cold night air to the garage lab and made my couch bed, forgetting about how horrible my stomach hurt and the urge to throw up every three minutes.

X

Sitting on the floor of the shower, having scrubbed away the night as best as possible, I slid down the wall and sat on the floor, knees tight to my chest. I let the hot water continue to pound and sting at me, reddening my skin into a deep lobster color. My mum let me see everything, Tamsin's confession and her disappearance. I leaned my head on my knees, watching the wings swinging freely as I stared at the shower tiles, water swirling around to the drain. Even though the Valkyrie had told my mum what she felt, I wanted and needed her to tell me, face to face. I didn't care what my mom thought, she was livid and we had fought, I knew her reasons of why she was against Tamsin and I, it was clear as day. A long ago decision made by my mum, facilitated by Tamsin. It was a deep rooted pain that my mom never let go of, or deeply wanted too.

She would have to let me go, I would not let her past affect whatever came next for me. I had endured my own lengthy battle with my feelings for the old woman that seeped into every fiber of my being. I had tried for years to forget the grumpy blonde that made me feel safe, but couldn't. I had loved her with my whole heart for a very long time and now that I knew she felt the same, could feel the same, this was not a fight I would back away from. I loved my mom but she wont be the one to stop me from the same kind of love I know she found and fought for.

I was angry at her for her reaction and the fight we had in front of the bar, her unwillingness to understand or accept how I felt about Tamsin.

A soft knock on the bathroom door, drew me out of the steam, "Kiddo, you good in there or am I going to have to send in a dive team?" AK was trying to keep things light, since being caught in the middle of the yelling match between mom and I. I reached up and shut off the water, stepping out and putting on a robe, I opened the door. AK was in her skull pants, and zombie t-shirt she would always sleep in, eating handfuls of popcorn. "Hey AK, sorry you had to referee earlier."

"no worries, kiddo, I've refereed many a Bo Bo vs. whomever has pissed her off bad enough to invoke her temper fights. She has one bitching temper." I walked past her to my closet, "AK what the hell do I do?" I turned to look at her, "mum let me look in on their conversation." I paused, my heart aching at what Tamsin said, it was an ache of finally knowing something about her true feelings and a sad ache, knowing she would continue to keep me at a distance.

AK through munching mouthfuls, "it's pretty simple to me, go get her kiddo." Ak move to sit on the bed, "you told me when you were fourteen that you had a crush on Blondie. I could see through that BS when you hightailed it out of town. You were in love with her at that moment she announced her sort of engagement to Anya." She gave me a stern look, telling me not to bullshit her now. "you left because you would have done anything you could to keep lying to yourself about the connection you two have. I cant read minds, I cant fly, I most certainly cannot sexy juice people to make them do my bidding, I am still human but I know when two bitches are in love. She looks at you the way Hotpants used to look at your mom when they first started their own little dance of love." She took a breath, "life is short-ish, well maybe not for you fae faces, but you get what I am trying to throw down. Go get your girl, at least fight for her and if she loves you as much as I think, you will break through the walls she has put up for centuries and your moms will understand that love is just as blind as it can be dumb."

I smiled at the wise words of my Aunt and best friend, I sighed hard and rubbed at my face, "what about mom? I don't want to hurt her, but..." I sighed hard. AK came around and wrapped an arm around me, "if I know BoBo like I do, she will get over it or break the Valkyries arm then get over it."

I smiled again, "I don't understand why she hates Tamsin sometimes." AK jumped up on to the bed, near the headboard, "Blondie is complicated, this I know. But for the true deal on your mom's and Tam Tam's beef, you are going to have to go to the source." she pointed at my necklace, "first talk to Blondie, sort that shit out and get battle prepared. If mom sees how in love you two are and it isn't a joke, it wont take her too long to get the picture." AK blew me a kiss, "now get your ass dressed and fire up the Valkyrie bat signal, bring her to you. In the meantime, I'll be here watching zombie romance movies and sleeping in your huge ass bed." AK rolled around in the great expanse of the bed, "why aren't the beds this big in the guest rooms?"

I smiled, "because guests usually stay overnight and leave the next day, you are in and out of here like a cheap hooker."

AK's jaw dropped in mock shock, "Rude. I am more of a high end escort that doesn't kiss on the lips." she threw popcorn at me, "go, get outta here."

it was later than when we had gotten back from the bar, we had only stay at the bar for an hour and a half before the proverbial shit hit the fan. I the night was colder, forcing me to pull up the collar on my jacket as I walked through the back grounds of the compound, towards the old tree house. I stood next to the massive tree and pulled out the necklace, my fingers were shaking as I slowly pressed it over my heart, my eyes closed.

It took longer than expected, but in a few minutes of pressing the charm against my heart, I felt wind move around me and the tree branches rustle.

"i came as fast as I could, Are you alright?" Her voice was gruff but nervous and quiet. I turned to her just as her wings retracted, ending the soft golden glow I had seen cascade around me. Tamsin was wearing her old clothes, it didn't distract how beautiful she was. She was looking everywhere but at me, on alert as always. I swallowed hard, trying to find the bravery I had latched onto in the bar, "No, I'm not alright." Tamsin glanced at me, "we should get you back inside, where it is safer."

"Tamsin, I am not alright because of you and this thing hanging between us." her face flinched and she looked at a tree behind me, her voice still soft, "I'm sorry what happened, my emotions got the best of me. I promise it wont happen again." she nodded to no one but herself.

I took a deep breath and took a step to
her, "i was fourteen when I realized it. You were helping mum move her lab stuff around in the garage, I had come in to ask for help with my homework and I caught you two talking about the army and the differences in sleeping quarters higher ranks got. Your eyes lit up when you saw me, happy, excited, I don't know exactly. You were always so kind to me even when I was an asshole to you. Your smile was always genuine and maybe it was my hormones kicking in early, but after you offered to help me with my Ancient history homework." I paused, remembering that day as if it was happening in front of me. "that was when the crush started, you were bold, brave, confident and aloof to what anyone thought of you. There wasn't a thing you wouldn't do for me if I asked if of you."

I moved to the silent Valkyrie, standing still, focusing on not looking at me in the eyes, "then you gave me the helmet, what it meant to me I can never express correctly, you filled my heart in that moment. but then I realized I was too young and we both were in relationships. I tried to give up on the crush. I cant lie, the day I thought you were engaged to Anya, it broke my heart, because I knew I would never be yours, never could be yours and you would never be mine, because I was so young and stupid to the world on a whole." I took a breath, "when I saw you at the Dal, when I came home after university, everything I felt came back as if someone hit a light switch on. But stronger." I stopped, I had been rambling, Tamsin still stood silent. Not moving or saying a word, just clenching her jaw and taking even slow breaths. I felt like crying as I took the final steps to stand in front of her, "I love you Tamsin, have for a very long time and I cannot keep it anymore, all of the people I have been with, non of them ever compared to you and...oh fuck it. I love you more than I can explain with all of my education. It is not about science or logic, its about my heart and the woman standing in front of me who has it."

Tamsin finally looked at me, "Kid, my wings are meant to be used for emergencies only." She stepped back, her face tight with holding back the emotions she was keeping to herself. I shook my head, "no, don't do this, don't walk away from me. I know you feel the same."

She shook her head, "i cant, Sera, you will get hurt. It doesn't matter, I wont be around much longer after we stop whoever is coming for you. Don't waste your time on me kid."

I felt angry tears rise, "Answer me! Do you love me?" it came out as yell forcing her to look in my eyes, "Kid..."

I yelled again as I moved closer, "just say it! Listen to your heart, give it what it wants, give yourself what you want. I need to hear it from you, not from fringe thoughts and other's ideas of us." I was no fighting back tears, I reached up and pulled off the necklace, dropping it to the ground, "is it because of my mom? Is it because..."

I didn't finish. I was knocked to the ground hard and fast by a black cloud swarming between the two of us. I rolled to my side and saw two cloudsmen appear. Tamsin yelled my name and ran towards me. The cloudsmens to her left threw out his arm and struck her, sending her to the ground. I became enraged in an instant, standing up fast my eyes and hands glowing purple, I charged at the cloudsmen. Reaching out with my hand, picking him up and choking him from a distance until I was close enough to pull his life from him. Dropping him to the ground empty.

Tamsin recovered from her fall, her wings were out as she came to me, "I have to get you out of here." before she could reach me, I felt two burning hands come around my neck squeezing. I fought through the initial shock of pain and pulled him forward as Tamsin kicked the cloudsmen holding onto me, he dropped to the ground with a grunt. I dropped to my knees, in pain but even more enraged.

Tamsin fought with the one who had my neck, I stood up and went after the one walking towards us. Every time one cloudsmen was dealt with, another would appear. I raced to the one, met him half way and swung over him, grabbing him in a headlock. I pushed him towards Tamsin and the one she was fighting. When I was close I shoved him into the energy field surrounding Tamsins wings, her wings produced a dangerous bladed type of energy field that would tear away flesh like it was nothing. I held the cloudsmen there, ignoring that the energy field was also slicing my hand.

Tamsin sun as the cloudsmen screamed and fell to the ground, covering his face. I held him as I pulled the rest of his life from him, allowing some of the burns on my neck to heal.

"Sera! Run!" I looked up at Tamsin, my rage was full blown, I shook my head no and moved to the last cloudsmen standing. I used my force and pushed Tamsin way with the flick of my wrist as she tried to grab me and stop me.

She managed to get a grip on my arm, stopping me as she turned me to face her, "Sera, look at me, stop this and run...please." the look in her eyes took the edge off my rage. I closed my eyes and whispered hard, "do you love me?"

Tamsin's answer was cut off when I felt two searing hands dig into my back, pulling the breath from me, my body consumed in pain. I was being lifted up off the ground, my skin burning as the cloudsmen pushed his fist deeper into me. Tamsin screamed and drew her sword, thrusting it into the exposed stomach of the cloudsmen, pushing him off of me. I fell to the ground as soon as his hands were free from my back. I fell into a heap of pain and smoke curling up from my back. My body was beginning to shut down from shock and overwhelming pain.

I felt her strong arms pick me up and hold me close against her chest as we lifted off the ground. The soft golden glow from her wings lighting up the night. I whispered, painfully, "finally, you take me flying. I have been asking for this since I was five years old, maybe I should have chased cloudsmen back then." I opened my eyes and saw the fear in hers, in that split second I could access her thoughts, I reached up and touched her cheek with shaky bloody hands, "why cant you say it, when its the only thing you think about."

Tamsin swallowed hard and looked at me as she lowered us to the ground, she walked with me still in her arms towards the compound, "tell your grams you need her."

I already had the moment I was freed from the cloudsmen, I looked over at the stretcher that was barreling through the front gate of the compound followed by the fae hospital staff. Tamsin set me down, gently, onto the stretcher as I began to cry. I was in intense pain from the burns and could feel the cloudsmen poison begin to take hold in my body. The fae staff went to roll me away as my grams came down the hallway. Tamsin waved at them to hold for a second, she bent down to me, eyes full of tears and moved close to my ear, so only I could hear, "my heart has never known the kind of love you bring into it every moment of every day. I love you, Sera." she moved back and kissed me lightly on the lips. She stood up and nodded to the fae staff to take me and walked away. That's when I noticed she had slipped the wings back around my neck. I started to cry more and eventually passed out from the pain of everything.

Sitting straight up on the couch, "Sera." I gasped for air as I felt the intense pain my daughter felt. I rolled off the couch as my mothers thoughts hit me. I ignored my stomach pains and dizziness and ran into the house. Bo was in the basement, passed out with empty ice cream tubs around her and her favorite old movie playing on the TV. I shook her awake, "Bo wake up, it's Sera."

I ran back upstairs in a panic, looking for car keys. Bo stumbled up the stairs, sleepily, "Lauren, what's going on." I squeezed my eyes shut, "She's hurt, hurt bad. Another dark fae attack." I ran a hand over my stomach, trying to soothe its upset, "she is at the fae hospital, mom is taking care of her, but we have to go now." Bo ran out of the house, snatching the keys from the hook by the door yelling at me to hurry the fuck up.

My mother met us as we stormed in, "Sera is stabilized, she's been burned badly in a lot of places. I have her on double dose injections to get her stronger. I am hoping that when she is stronger she will be able to pull out the cloudsmen poison." she looked behind us as I heard Bo gasp when she heard it was cloudsmen again. "if it wasn't for Tamsin..."

Bo turned and saw the Valkyrie standing off to the side, she ran to her, eyes blazing blue, "What happened!"

Tamsin spoke softly, "there was four of them, Sera was distracted, I was distracted. I tried to get her out of there but her rage...it was hard to get her to calm down." I could see the hurt on Tamsins face for not being able to get Sera out sooner.

Bo screamed at Tamsin, "this is your fault! All of it, If my daughter dies. There will not be a bone in your body I leave unbroken, and when they all heal I will break them again. This is your fault, she is distracted because she thinks she is in love with you."

Tamsin looked in her the eyes, "she called me, I tried to stay away." her voice was shaky and guilt ridden.

Bo lost it, "don't blame her for this." she went to grab Tamsin when a hand shot out and grabbed Bo's wrist, Bo turned to growl at the person interrupting her rage.

"if you hit my sister, I may not be responsible for what happens to you succubus." Bryns blue eyes pierced Bo's, "so lets take a step back and calm down." Bo ripped her arm away from Bryn's. She turned and looked at my mother, "where is sera?" my mother motioned her to follow. Bo gave me a hard look as I stood trying not to shake and throw up at the same time. I looked up and saw Bryn and Tamsin talking. Tamsins face turned from sad and worried to one of pure unmitigated anger.

She met my eyes and whispered to Bryn who nodded and followed down the path Bo went. Tamsin walked to me, "I am leaving Bryn here with Sera. She just told me who is responsible for this attack, the others and Jase." she took a deep breath. "it appears one of her escorts spilled the whole plan to attack Sera again after he killed me with this last round of cloudsmen, not realizing how strong Sera is. She came here as soon as possible to tell me."

"who? Who is it? Finnegan is still gathering intelligence." I reached out for her. I was trying to control my panic.

Tamsin met my eyes, "Arden. A Loki who never forgave me for killing his son, Liam. The fiancé I never married and killed to save a mother and son." she turned to walk away, "captain, go be with your family. I need to have a talk with old Arden." she walked with a fury and I called after her, "what are you going to do?" I was stunned at the revelation she just laid down.

She looked back at me, "i am going to kill him." she turned as her wings came out, "Don't let Bryn leave Sera's side until this is done." she pushed out of the doors and disappeared in a flash of gold.

More to come! with an alteration in the storyline!