This is Chapter 3, so hope you enjoy, and thanks to those who have reviewed.
Chapter 3: 2 months part 2
I swear my heart stopped beating as I looked at her frightened face,
"I'm pregnant" she whispered again
"Er… How?" I managed to say
"Well when two people love each other very much they go to a bedroom and they do stuff" she muttered embarrassed.
"I know that Ayano, but when?" I shouted
"About 3 months ago" she said placing her hand protectively on her stomach and stepping back slightly out of my reach.
"For 3 months you never told me" I said shaking with anger.
"I'm sorry alright" Ayano said wiping some tears away from eyes and cheeks.
"For what? BLOODY WELL NOT TELLING ME!"
"Kazuma calm down" she pleaded me
Ayano shook my shoulders trying to get me to look into her eyes "Kazuma listen to me…Please" she tried again.
'No, I can't do this, I don't want this, I don't want it, I never did, I'm so sorry Ayano I never meant to do this to you, please forgive me'
"Get rid of it" I said my voice void of any emotion.
"W-what?" she said shocked and I pushed her up against the wall.
"You heard me" I growled.
"Get rid of it" she repeated.
SLAP
I backed away, my left cheek stinging after she'd slapped me.
"You bastard" she cried falling to the floor and pulling her legs up against her body to give her and the baby more protection. "I hate you"
Her words were like arrows and they just tore my heart to pieces. Without even realising what I was saying I whispered "And I hate you to" walking out the door I slowly walked to the elevator trying to adjust to the situation.
Ayano POV:
'And I hate you to' Kazuma's words ran through my head for the millionth time as I lay in a pool of my own tears, curling up tighter but not so tight that I hurt the baby I continued to cry.
"I'm so sorry" I murmured rubbing my stomach in what I imagined was a comforting way "Daddy just gets angry sometimes, he's probably just worried daddy worries a lot so mummy doesn't have to be worried, he loves us really… I hope. He he he, it feels funny calling Kazuma daddy" I spoke running my fingers along my bump.
"Ah, it's really warm in here I think I might take my jumper off" I said pulling the thick heavy woollen jumper off and placing it neatly on the sofa. Underneath I was wearing a simple purple long sleeved top that if I stood sideways you could see the small baby bump. I sniffled as I wiped away some tears I 'despite being so sad I can't do anything about wanting to squeal and dance in delight... bloody hormones'
Knock knock
'Who on earth would be going round at this time of night- oh it's only 8 o' clock' I thought as I left the bathroom mirror, I walked to the door quickly, opening it a tiny bit so I could peek out.
"REN!" I screeched when I saw his face throwing my-self at my 15 year old cousin I began to cry… again.
"Hey nee-sama what's wrong?" Ren asked hugging me back.
"Oh nothing" I lied pulling away from him.
"Oh ok if you're alri-"he stopped half-way through his sentence his eyes widening he seemed to be staring at something, I followed his gaze to my stomach.
"EEK" I screamed attempting to cover my-self up. 'Shit I forgot to where my jumper, how on earth am I supposed to get out of this now'
"Y-your p-pregnant n-n-nee-s-sama" he spluttered
"Surprise" I said removing my hands from my stomach
"Who's the father?" Ren asked outraged
"Who'd you think? He's the only person I've ever had any of those…um… type… relations with" I said watching as Ren turned bright red.
"You do that type of stuff with Kazuma?" he asked steadily going brighter red with each word.
"Yes Ren that is what married couples do… hmph you're still so innocent, unlike your bloody brother"
"Huh, speaking of nii-sama do you know where he is?" Ren asked scratching his head and ruffling his blonde hair.
"H-he l-l-left m-me" I cried breaking down in tears.
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"So nii-sama actually thought you'd cheat on him and then he said those hurtful things to you?" Ren asked after I explained what had happened that evening, I cried even harder when he started to rub my back reassuringly "Ayano maybe you should go to bed" I heard him say, nodding my head I slowly got up and walked to mine and Kazuma's bedroom.
"Ok, thanks for dropping by Ren" I called slipping in between the bed covers, curling up in a ball I fell asleep crying fresh tears 'Tomorrow I'll pack and get out of the city'
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Kazuma POV:
The wind blew through my hair as I sat on the roof of 6 storey building. 'I'm pregnant' I could hear her words running through my head; I could see her terrified face. 'Why did I ever say those things to her? Why did I just walk out on her? Why did I say to get rid of it? Why am I so bloody angry… with my-self?'
'How didn't I guess that she was pregnant? All those times it should have been obvious; she's been sick a lot more lately, she's worn baggy clothes more in the past few weeks, we didn't doperverted things with each other anymore, she's had mood swings, and she's been eating and requesting strange foods for weeks now'.
'Why did I act like that?' I thought as I stood up touching my cheek where she'd slapped me 'Ayano I'm so sorry, why did I ever do that to you?' using the wind to guide me I flew off.
Ayano POV:
Shoving the last of my clothes in the suitcase I zipped the pink case up.
"Right that's me done packing" I said to my-self patting my stomach. "I couldn't sleep so I decided to pack, its obvious Kazuma doesn't want me around anymore, so I'll be leaving" I said to my-self trying to justify my actions
Sniffling I looked around our apartment where we'd been living together for the last 2 and half years, sighing happily I trailed a finger along one of the walls "You know little baby your daddy told me he loved me for the first time on top of this building, then on the night that I moved in with him we both watched a scary movie and I fell asleep in Kazuma's arms, and 2 Christmas's ago daddy got down on one knee and proposed to mummy, 10 months later he carried me inside this apartment as his wife Ayano Yagami, I'd hoped that we… no I wished that we could of carried you through these doors as our own little family"
Turning around I headed back into the bedroom "Ugh, I'm exhausted now, I really need a nap" I said tugging my day clothes off and then pulling on a small silk night dress that barely fit me in my current pregnant state 'Note to self: buy maternity clothing pretty soon' shuffling within the warm folds of the bed I fell asleep quickly.
Kazuma POV:
I hovered above the park where 3 years ago me, Ayano and Ren had fought benilal where I'd lost my way and Ayano had bought me back. 'There's a reason I wouldn't be a good father I would end up hurting them, or I wouldn't be able to protect them just like Tsui ling'
"I'm sorry Ayano I wouldn't be a good person for your baby to be around and wouldn't be able to protect her/him or I'll end up like the old man" I said to the sky digging my hands in my pockets.
"How do you know that? You don't. You don't know till you try" I heard Ren's voice from below me, looking down I saw my younger brother scrutinizing me.
"Ren!...Ren you don't understand so don't get involved" I said calmly
"Yeah I do, first of all; your worried and scared so your running away from your problems. Second; do you have any idea how Ayano feels. Third; you're a great person nii-sama and I'm sure you'd be a great father."
Huh, Ren has a point I'm basically just running away from it and I've upset her enough as it is, I never once thought about how she must really be feeling.
"Go back home Ren" I said running my hands through my hair
"Not until you do!" he shouted
"I am"
"Yay go nii-sama" he sang
"Ren stop dancing" I said observing Ren as he danced for joy or whatever.
"Ok" he said skipping off into the park "Apologize to nee-sama" he called into the night
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After watching to see whether or not Ren had gotten on the right train I headed back home to my wife, flying through the permanently open window of the top floor I headed down a flight of stairs and walked up to the front door opening it gently I found that most of the lamps were still on.
Making my way to our bedroom I pushed the door open, Ayano lay asleep on our bed, within the bed covers even in the hazy darkness I could see her fine facial features and the rise and fall of chest as she breathed.
"Ayano" I breathed sitting down beside her, brushing the stray strands of crimson hair out of her face I kissed her nose. "No matter what you do I'll always love you" trailing my hand down from her shoulder to her stomach I felt her small bump and caressed it gently "and our baby"
A/N: I'm really sorry that Kazuma's been out of character a lot and that this chapter is very depressing. Seriously I cried whilst writing this. :)
But I hope you enjoyed :) sorry if it doesn't always make sense or something.