Oh God, I can't feel his hand on my leg….

Chapter 5

"Dr. Jonas what's going on?" Sonny asks even as he tightens his arm around Will pulling him as close as he can to him.

"Guys..." Daniel said bringing his hands up in a calm down gesture. "Wait a minute here. Let's calm down, let me do my examination. Sonny you can stay since Will wants you too. That's fine."

Sonny and Will stared into each other eyes as the Dr. began the exam. "It's going to be ok Will. I'm here, not going anywhere ok? Right here beside you. Always." Sonny whispered.

Will laid there trembling, thinking about what this meant to him… to them. How could he be a dad to little Ari? Never to teach her how to ice skate? Never to dance with her at father/daughter dances? Never run around just playing? And Sonny… he thought looking into his lover's eyes, how can I be what he needs? Never stand in his arms again? Never walk through the square, arms around each other again? What about making love?! How long before I would begin to be a burden and he would start resenting me? Please God…

"Hey, hey, hey now, you think I can't see all those thoughts running around in that gorgeous head? All those fears in those beautiful blue eyes? I can you know" Sonny said with a little smile. "Babe, stop. We know nothing yet. I can tell you what we do know though. WE know that I love you more than anything in this world Will Horton. WE know that our love is stronger than it's ever been. And WE better know that together… we can face anything!"

Will nodded his head. "Ok Son, I love you too… so much." With a trace of fear and trepidation in his eyes he turns to look at Daniel. "Well? What do you think?"

"I think that I'm going to order another CT scan, just to make sure there are no changes since the last one. I know that you've suffered a serious wound here Will. The bullet was removed. It was intact and there were no fragments. However, it was lodged against the spinal column and there was a little tissue damage that caused swelling and bruising to that area. If the CT scan comes back like I suspect it will, and that are no changes, then we are looking at just a little time to heal. Once the swelling goes down I expect full feeling will return."

Feeling a shudder go through Will, Sonny leaned over and kissed his brow. Mumbling in a low voice, "No matter what Will, we're in this together."

"Ok then, let's get this test done Dr. J. I just, I just need to know there's some hope you know?"

"I do know Will. I'll go put the order in and someone will be in shortly." Daniel smiled and left the room.

Sonny continued to just sit on the bed next to Will, snuggling into him. He wanted Will to feel him, to know that right beside him is where he would always be. Hearing the door open again he glanced over as Sami and Lucas walked in with smiles on their faces.

Sami took one look at Sonny holding Will close and the look on Will's face and her smile fell away. "What's wrong?" She asked coming over to the other side of the bed. "What happened since we've been gone? Will?" she said reaching out to grasp his hand.

Will looked from his mother's face, to his fathers concerned expression and then back to Sami. "I-I can't seem to feel…" he broke off as he felt a sob welling up. Squeezing Sonny's hand he looked up and pleaded with his eyes to tell them.

Sonny filled them in as he held Will's hand and brought it up to his chest. He looked down into his eyes as he said "So, we are just waiting for them to come take him down for the test and find out the results. But the Dr. sounded optimistic. And Will knows," he said gazing deep in his eyes, "that it's all going to be ok, cuz as long as we're together… anything is possible."

Will took a deep breath and looked at his parents, at the love and fear shining in their eyes. He knew this was hard on them too. "It's ok Mom, Sonny's right. One thing at a time. I'm worrying enough for all of us, trust me." Just then a nurse and an orderly walked in telling everyone they were taking Will to get the CT scan and they would be back soon.

As soon as they left the room Sonny released a huge breath and leaning against the wall slid down till he was sitting on the floor, knees to his chest and buried his face in his arms. "Oh Sonny," Sami said as she knelt next to him and laid her arm around his shoulders. "He's going to be ok. I just know it. He has you and that beautiful baby… he's going to be fine."

"Yeah" Lucas said standing next to them. "He's a fighter. He can do anything he sets out to do. You wait and see."

Sonny tipped his head back looking up at the ceiling. "You guys aren't telling me anything I don't already know. He's the strongest man I've ever known. But I love him… so much. And it's killing me to see him in such fear, and pain… and there's nothing I can do."

"You're here Sonny. Never underestimate how much that means to Will. He's here… because of you. I heard a few of the nurses talking. They said he had lost so much blood before he arrived here it's a miracle he was still alive. Well, his miracle is you. Never doubt that." Sami said softly.

Looking at them Sonny gave them a weary smile and said "Thank you. He's my miracle too. His love amazes me every day. And I promise both of you… whatever happens, whatever we find out here today… I will stand by him. I will be there every step of the way. Together… we can do anything."

Sami smiled in understanding, feeling a love in her heart for this young man who loved her son with his whole heart. She remembered when Will first told them that he was gay how upset she was. Not that she didn't love him, but upset at the thinking of future hardships for him, a sadness at the 'ideal' life she had always pictured for him in her mind was now gone. Now, she realized it was never gone… just different. Her son was in love with a man that loved him back… completely, wholeheartedly. Their happiness when they were together was unlike anything she had ever seen or experienced. If there was a definition of soul mates in the dictionary it should read... Will and Sonny. And she couldn't have been happier about that.

After talking a little longer, Will returned to the room and the nurses got him resettled with an assurance that the Dr. would be in as soon as he received the results. Now it was just a waiting game. The four of them sat there talking about the baby, and how utterly gorgeous she was, that led to Sami telling Sonny a few of Will's baby stories. Anything to keep their minds occupied and spirits up.

Sonny sat beside Will, holding his hand, thumb slowly making circles against his wrist. Just loving the fact that he was here, that he had the ability to reach and to touch. It had been an exhausting day and now the night was almost over.

They all looked up as Daniel walked into the room. Seeing the smile on his face they all let out a loud sigh of relief. "Your CT scan is good Will. It's as I suspected, you just need to rest and to heal. There is no reason you shouldn't regain total feeling in your legs!"

"How long?" Will asked with an eager smile on his face.

"That we have no idea of knowing unfortunately. Could be an hour from now, could be a few days we just don't know. It's all up to your body and how fast it heals. You're young, and healthy… all good factors."

"Ok then," Will said with a big sigh of relief. As the Dr. left the room, his parents following close behind with God knows how many questions, Will looked at Sonny. He felt so much happiness in that moment. Reaching out and bringing a smiling Sonny to him he softly kissed him, teeth catching his bottom lip and softly sucking on it. Feeling Sonny's breath catch he slowly released him, giving that lip a little lick with the tip of his tongue.

Feeling Will slowly nuzzle up and whisper in his ear, "I can't wait to get better. I want to make love to you so much Sonny Kiriakis" Sonny shuddered. "I'm counting the days babe." Sonny whispered." I need to feel you... all of you. I need you all around me, and so deep inside me I can't tell where you end and I begin. I never want to be apart again. Never want to feel again like I did today." Feeling the emotions start to overwhelm him again he closed his eyes for a moment.

Will, looking at Sonny, seeing the dark circles under his eyes, hearing the exhaustion in his voice said softly "Come here babe. Lay down beside me, just for a little bit" he coaxed. "I need to rest too Son." He said as he saw the hesitation in Sonny. "You won't hurt me. I need to feel your arms around me to sleep. And I think you need the same."

Knowing that as truth, Sonny carefully lay down beside Will, laying his head on his chest, draping his left arm around his waist and wiggling as close as he could get. Feeling Will's left arm come around his back and pull him tightly to him in a hug, then slowly running his hand up and down his back, soothing him. Will was right; this is what they both needed. Feeling himself truly and totally relax in Will's arms. He just feels himself start to drift when he hears Will whisper "Hey Sonny?"

"Mm-hmm" he murmurs, too tired to really answer.

"We need to go house hunting soon. Ari's going to need that big yard before we know it, and I really want to go find our dog. He's beautiful, and 'Jack'… just fits him perfectly." Will said in a sleepy voice.

Sonny lay there, only half listening as he is so comfortable in his loves' arms. Suddenly it dawns on him what Will said. Eyes popped wide open, he lifts his head to look down in amazement at him. Seeing that he has already drifted off, he lays his back down on his chest. Smiling, he thinks back to when Will was in surgery and all the dreams and hopes he had sent Will in a desperate attempt to show him all he had to live for. He really never had any doubt Will would see them… that's just what soul mates can do. They can see into the soul of their mate. And there was no doubt Will was his. With a contented sigh he too drifted off in a peaceful slumber.

Sonny awoke with a jerk. Eyes opening he sees the early rays of daybreak streaming in the window. Feeling lethargic he realizes that they have only gotten a few hours of sleep. Looking down he sees Will is still sleeping though he has a frown on his face. Looking around the room he sees nothing out of order. Wondering what woke him up he was just laying back down when he hears a whimper from Will. Reaching out to brush his hand against his face to sooth him he feels Will's whole body jerk at the same time he hears "No Nick don't!" Reaching for him calling his name to wake him, Sonny realizes… He's moving his legs! Will is moving his legs apparently trying to escape the Nick in his dreams. "Will!" he shouts, bringing him awake abruptly. Looking into those sleepy eyes he excitedly said "Babe... you were dreaming… and you moved your legs! Try again!"

Suddenly wide awake he looked down with eyes full of hope and excitement. Reaching and grasping Sonny's hand he felt a laugh escape as he saw in fact he could move again! Both legs, no problem at all, well ok, there was pain involved but he could move! Thank you God…

Both men laughing, hugging and talking at the same time barely hear the door open. Seeing Maxine standing there Will told her what they had just discovered.

"Oh honey that's great news! I'm so happy for you. I'll have the Dr. in to check you out in no time." She said.

Seeing that the worried expression in her eyes didn't quite reach the smile on her face, both guys spoke at once… "What's wrong?"

"Is it the baby? Is Ari ok?" Will asked worriedly.

"The baby is just fine Will. It's Gabi. She just woke up and her brother just told her about her husband. She's not taking it well at all I'm afraid." She said shaking her head.

Will and Sonny looked at each other... each wondering… What next…