Chapter 15

Will felt the desperation in Sonny's kiss and his touch as he allowed himself to be backed up to the couch. Hearing the sadness in his voice as he begged him not to doubt his love made his heart ache. Tightening his arms around Sonny he slowly broke the kiss and leaning his forehead against Sonny's he whispered "I am so sorry."

"Sorry? What are you sorry for babe?"

"I don't know… I don't want you to think that I doubt that you love me, I don't. I know you do. I wish I could explain to you the thoughts that I get in my head sometimes."

"Can you try? I think I know most of it babe. But I can't make it all better if I don't know what's wrong."

"I think sometimes that your mom was right about me, that I'm not good enough for you."

"Will, are you…"

"Please just listen to me Son. I really don't know if I'll have the courage to say all this again."

"Ok, but I'm already not liking this at all. And I want to hold you while we talk so come here." Sonny settled down on the couch and pulled Will down so he rested against his chest, but where he could still look down into those eyes that had so much emotion in them they told a story all on their own. Holding him in the circle of his arms he said, "Ok, go on."

"Son, you're so sure of yourself. You've done things in your life I could only dream of. I mean really, think about it. Private schools, trips all over the world, exploring Europe, climbing mountains for God's sake! I mean look at my life. Bounced from Mom's place to Dad's, to Grandma's to whoever. You own your own business. I'm still in school. And Ari…"

"Ok babe, stop right there. As much as this is killing me to hear, I want to listen… to put this behind us. But please, do not bring Arianna into this. She is such a precious gift to me, to us. No, I didn't think about being a dad at this age or what that would mean. But Will, the instant I touched her, looked at her… I don't know if I can explain exactly babe. It was like this part of me I didn't even know was missing… was right there in front of me. She looked at me with those eyes so much like yours that I swear, she just captured my heart just as much and as easily as you did. When you were in surgery, and I didn't know what was going to happen, she was a part of you I could hold. I love her Will. Just as much as you do. I meant what I said to Brent, she is ours. So as much as I know that growing up you didn't always know where you belonged, know this… Arianna will never question that. She will always know where she belongs. Right here with us… both of us. And babe… no matter what it takes, how long it takes… you will learn that right here in my arms, next to my heart is where you belong. As long as I live, you belong with me."

Will felt his heart warm at the emotion filled words coming from Sonny's mouth. Sometimes he was just amazed at how much this man loved him. And he was telling Sonny the truth when he told him that he never doubted it. "I just don't know what is so special about me." Will blurted out. "I mean, you are so amazing Son. Brian wanted you… he's going to be a doctor! Brent, I know you said has always been just a friend but come on… and he's an architect! They both come from great families that fit right in with your family. I guess bottom line is…" Will broke eye contact and looked down even as he felt the heat rush and warm his cheeks.

"Bottom line babe. Say it please… because then it's my turn."

Will drew in a deep breath and raised his eyes to look into Sonny's. Seeing the tenderness and love radiating from them gave him the courage to speak his biggest fears. "What if someday you wish you had more. Someone who was more your equal. Someone that was better than me."

Sonny took a deep shuddering breath and broke in, "Ok Will, my turn because I don't think my heart can take much more. I love your Mom and Dad… I do. But I swear there are some days I could hate them too, for what they put you through whether they meant to or not. For you to question how special you are… Will, you are such an incredible man. You are one of the most kindhearted people I know. You would do absolutely anything for anyone. You are generous to a fault. If you found someone who was cold I have no doubt you would give them the shirt off your back without thinking twice. You have such a sweet, caring heart. You are so loving to everyone you come in contact with. You take your responsibilities very seriously. You're so smart babe… if I had one wish… I swear it would be that you could see yourself through my eyes. Because in my eyes, I'm nowhere near good enough for you Will Horton."

"What? Sonny, come on, "

"I'm serious babe. I have a temper, I lose my patience. My mom is such a meddler. Look at my families past. Uncle Vic… yeah… we all know the stuff he used to be into. But Will, it doesn't matter to me if I think I'm not good enough for you. So I guess add selfish to the list because you are mine. I love you. Insecurities, self-doubts and all .You are mine; you belong to me and with me. I don't want any other man, I don't even see them. You own my heart babe. My soul. Forever." Sonny leaned down and captured Will's lips in a passionate kiss. He knew all Will's feelings of not being good enough wouldn't go away overnight. Not even close. But he knew that their love was strong enough to overcome them with time. And, thank God, they had a lifetime to work on it, together.

"I love you Sonny. So much. I need you… please make love to me? "

Sonny's eyes darkened with desire. "Oh yeah babe, my pleasure, you never have to ask." Reclaiming Will's lips he pushed him forward and over so that Will was laying on the couch, Sonny's body flush on top of him. He raked his hand thru Will's hair, holding him still, as he deepened the kiss. Feeling Will's tongue entering his mouth, Sonny let out a whimper even as he shuddered with need. Running his free hand down he began to unbutton Will's shirt as fast as he could. The desperation from earlier, to prove to Will that he belonged, that he was loved beyond words returned. He needed skin and he needed it now. "Clothes babe, off please." Sonny said huskily. Sitting up he pulled his polo shirt over his head and tossed it to the floor as Will pulled his arms out of his shirt and threw it onto the pile. Both guys removed shoes, socks and began tugging down their jeans and briefs while closely watching the other, eyes following every bare patch of skin that was revealed. Breaths panting in excitement, hands shaking with excitement they reached out to each other to draw the other closer. Will laid back down bringing Sonny over and on him, both moaning at the exquisite feel of skin on skin.

Will pulled Sonny's head down and to the side, placing his lips on his neck he gently bit down before sucking up a bit of skin. He ran his hands down Sonny's back down to the swell of his ass. Grabbing and squeezing as he felt Sonny buck his hips forward, rubbing his hard cock in the crease where hip meets leg. Feeling the wetness from Sonny's arousal, Will tipped his head back and latched onto those luscious lips once more. Thrusting his tongue inside that warm mouth, feeling Sonny's tongue greedily stroking inside his own mouth, as if trying to taste every surface possible, Will let out a loud groan. Both sets of hips thrusting towards the other as wetness gathered in small puddles between them from the high level of raw need and excitement. Will arched his back sharply as he felt Sonny lean back a little and reach between them grasping both hard cocks in one hand and slowly begin to stroke them together. Gasps and moans echoed throughout the room as both guys were moving together, whispering words of love and looking into the eyes of the other as they drew closer to that moment of release.

Sonny looked at Will as he moaned at the feeling of their slick cocks rubbing against each other. As fantastic as that felt though, that was not how he wanted to finish. Slowing the strokes down, he gasped, "Babe, gotta be inside you. Need to show you, right here is where you belong."

Will felt his hole flutter at the thought of Sonny inside him. He never felt as close to his man as he did when he was deep inside him, when Sonny was so close not even air could get between them. "Yes, Please Son, inside… hurry…"

Letting go of his own cock because he was close and prepping Will always excited him further, Sonny reached under the cushion where they kept a small bottle of lube because hey, obviously they might need it sometime. Opening it and squeezing out a small amount on his fingers he also squirted a small amount along the crease and over his hole. Feeling Will shudder, he grinned as he traced a line from the tip of Will's cock down to the base, down over his balls, stopping to tug on them gently because he knows it drives Will insane. Letting his fingers trace back slowly, closer and closer to the place where he longed to be, he reached out with his other hand and grasped Will's hand entwining their fingers tightly. He needed that connection right then. Taking a finger and rubbing the lube around the entrance he felt Will jump and moan. "Oh yeah babe, I want you so much." Sliding the tip of his finger inside he made short gentle thrusts slowly relaxing Will, making it easier to insert his finger deeper and deeper with each in and out motion. Feeling Will thrust up and then back impaling his finger deeper he slowly added a second finger making scissoring motions to stretch him. There was never any pain allowed in making love to Will. No matter how hot he himself was, how desperate for relief he was, he would wait and take as much time as Will needed to be ready. He found out early on that his greatest pleasure was obtained only when Will was feeling the same pleasure. Letting go of Will's hand he reached down to tug on Will's cock, which had been bouncing around tapping his stomach from the force of his thrusts. Seeing Will cover his mouth in an attempt to muffle his shout of pleasure Sonny inserted three fingers, thrusting deep as Will used his hips to thrust forward into the hand stroking him even as he reared back impaling himself over and over on those fingers. Head tossing back and forth in mindless pleasure Will begged Sonny "Now, please! So close Son, need you inside, please…"

Sonny gave a low groan as he heard these words. "Oh yeah babe, going to be so deep inside you." Grabbing his cock he pumped it a few times and then spread more lube over his length. Rubbing the head around Will's hole, he slowly pushed in stopping every little bit letting Will get used to the stretch.

Will was in heaven feeling the slight burn of entry, knowing that soon he would feel the greatest pleasure. Feeling Sonny push deeper and deeper he finally felt him as he was all the way inside. Feeling the heavy fullness, Will begged "Move Son, please move"

Sonny slowly began thrusting in and out. Groaning at the tight heat surrounding him he pulled Will closer to him thrusting faster and deeper. Reaching over and grabbing a pillow he shoved it under Will's hips changing the entry angle. Hearing Will's gasped "Right there, oh Son don't stop!" Sonny knew he found the right spot. Thrusting even faster, pegging Will's gland each time, he knew it wouldn't be long for either of them. Watching as Will reached down and began to jack himself to the rhythm of his strokes Sonny threw his head back, biting his lips trying to control the growls he was making. Nothing ever felt as good as when he and Will were one. Pounding faster still he felt that imminent tingle that indicated release. "Babe, I'm there, cum with me Will!" Sonny gasped out as he felt his cock pulse deep inside Will.

Will, feeling Sonny flood him with his hot cum, lost it. Stroking faster and tighter he began to shoot cum all over his stomach and chest, groaning Sonny's name.

Feeling Will slowly relax Sonny leaned down to softly kiss him. Slowly inching away he stared directly into Will's eyes. "Will, please try to always remember that you are it for me. You are everything. If it's one goal I have in my life… it's to get you to believe with no hesitation or doubts… that I'm never going away. There is nothing on this Earth that could ever take me away from you or Ari. No man, no trips, no damn mountain. I know your past; I know your hurts, your secrets, your fears. Everything that I know about you just reinforces to me one thing… you belong to me. I belong to you." Reaching for Will's left hand he brings it up so Will can see the ring. You have my heart forever Will. Beyond forever… infinity Will. And I don't mind in the least reminding you of this as many times as I need to. I love you Will." Sonny breathed out as he shared a slow tender kiss.

Feeling Sonny start to slowly slip out as he started to get up Will stopped him with a touch to his cheek. Looking into Sonny's eyes he whispered, "You show me every day in so many ways that I belong to you. That you love me. I promise Son, I'm trying to get past all these fears. I don't doubt your love. Thank you for being so patient and understanding. I love you so much Sonny. Infinity… that's how long we'll love each other." Sharing another soft kiss they finally got up and after cleaning up got dressed.

Just as they started walking towards the door to leave the office, giggling and whispering about how they hoped no one had heard them, Will felt his phone vibrate. Pulling it out he started and exclaimed "Hey, it's Gabi." Answering his phone with a smile, he felt Sonny come up and stand next to him.

Sonny could see the smile slowly die away even as he saw Will pale a little. Frowning he put his hand on Will's lower back rubbing circles just to let him know he was there. Growing more worried by the second he stepped in front of Will with an eyebrow raised in inquiry. Hearing Will tell her that they should be home in an hour or so he wondered what put the look of almost fear on his face. Watching Will hang up and lock his screen before sliding the phone back in his pocket he couldn't wait any more. "Will? What's wrong? What did she say?"

Will looked at Sonny, seeing the concern in his eyes, hearing it in his voice, and murmured "She wanted to know when we would be home. She said she wanted to Skype with us, that she needed to talk to us about Ari. Oh God Son, what if she wants to take her away? What if…?"

Sonny broke in, "Over my dead body babe. That is soo never gonna happen I can promise you that. Come on, we need to call my dad and EJ."

To be continued…