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Two days later

Sitting at the window, Reid watched as Morgan's neighbours went about their daily business. He saw a father picking up his son and hugging him. Hotch walked into the room and put Reid's medication on the table with some water. "Hotch, does my dad know I went missing?"

"He does but we haven't told him that we found you. He'll want to see you and we aren't sure if you are ready for that yet."

"He only seems to give a damn when something happens. I look around outside and it feels so strange to do so. I've just seen a forest for the last year. My only human contact being the monster, Brandon and the others. All of who, at some point, violated me. I'm not used to this, to being able to do what I want or say what I want. Any time that I said something he didn't like, he'd really let me have it. He made me sleep in his bed with him a few times. Strapped me down and laid on top of me all night."

Hotch came and sat on the window sill. He looked over to Reid. "Does talking about it help?"

"It does," Reid nodded. "Hotch, I don't know how to be me anymore."

"What do you mean?"

"After months, I lost my identity. I held on and I kept some of who I am but not all of myself. I did things to make him happy so he wouldn't beat me. Look, I told the doctor not to tell you something. I didn't want you to see."

"Reid, I need to know."

Turning around, he lifted up his shirt to show his back. Hotch shuffled forward and touched Reid's back. He brought his hand away when Reid tensed up. "Why didn't you want me to know about these?"

"I was afraid. I already looked weaker in all your eyes, this would have just added to that."

Reid brought down his shirt and turned around, he leaned against the window frame again. "I asked the doctor not to tell you. It's the reason I get changed alone. He used to beat me with a belt and Brandon used to hit me with a tv aerial just because I fell down. The monster broke my arm with a crowbar during one session with his tools. Brandon broke the other arm. He broke my leg with a sledge hammer . He didn't care. He just went on with what he liked. Beat me and then used me. Hotch, I went through so pain and I'm struggling. They are both still alive and I'm afraid."

Hotch came forward and brought his arms around Reid. "They may still be alive but they can't hurt you. I'm so sorry that we didn't see what Brandon was sooner. It makes my skin crawl knowing he was so close to us all, so close to Jack and Henry."

"When Brandon came once a month, I felt so scared. At least with the monster, I knew what to expect. With Brandon, he liked to do different things. I never saw his face, that made everything worse. I only had a voice. He'd drug me and make me more docile. Sometimes, he'd put a dog lead on me and take me for a walk outside. He would also make me drink from a bowl like an animal. He did horrible things. When I heard his voice that night he came to the house, I just had to hit him."

"You protected yourself and you revealed his evil."

"Do you think I could see my mom soon?"

"I think we should give it some more time. You need to get used to doing things again. I visited your mother and she doesn't react well when she can tell things are seriously wrong. I think you should take a little more time."

"She's going to want to know what happened. She always senses when something is wrong. How can I tell her? Hey, mom. I got brutalised and violated for a year while the rest of the world went on as normal," Reid said sarcastically. "I got hurt and the world never heard me scream."

Hotch stayed silent as he watched Reid shake and close his eyes. "Hotch, I don't know how to do this. I can't forget and the memories never stop. He took my innocence and he tore me apart. I screamed and he laughed, he got off on it. I missed a year of my life and I'll never get it back. Call my dad, he at least deserves to know that I'm not dead."

Morgan and Rossi sat at table, they were going through the evidence. Rossi, who usually handled everything well, had thrown up in the bin once. Morgan had stabbed his pen into the table out of anger.

They were now watching the footage from the last time Lincoln had got hold of Reid. The time in the car.

Morgan gritted his teeth as he watched Lincoln begin to use Reid in the back of the car. Part of Morgan had wished Reid had stayed unconscious through it all. After a few minutes, a small groan came from the television as Reid woke up.

"STOP! STOP!"

"Shhh...Spencer. I'm gonna enjoy our last time together."

"NOOOOO!" Reid screeched as Lincoln went faster. They watched as he cried and pulled against the rope around his wrists.

"You always enjoy it, you little slut," Lincoln laughed before slapping Reid across the face. Morgan watched his best friend scream and plea.

"MORGAN! HELP ME!" he sobbed hysterically. "HOTCH! ANYONE! MAKE HIM STOP!"

Lincoln made a face as he finished a few minutes later. Reid cringed and whimpered as the man collapsed on top of him. Lincoln kissed down his neck and ran his hands down his body.

"I'm going to miss those sounds," Lincoln moaned. He got off Reid and pulled the young man's trousers up. He got out of the car while holding a cigarette.

"I'm so sorry, kid," Morgan shook his head.

"Help!" Reid screamed. "LET ME GO! AHHHHHH!"

Reid awoke to hear voices shouting downstairs, he got out of bed and slowly made his way to the top of the stairs.

"Why can't I see him? He's my son."

He tensed up when he heard his father's voice.

"I just don't think it is a good idea, Mr Reid. He's gone through a horrible time and I don't want to risk his state of mind."

"He's been gone for a whole year," William Reid argued. "You won't tell me what happened to him or what he has gone through. I want to see my son. I have a right."

"I don't think you should talk about your rights as a father," Hotch argued.

"Excuse me," William said.

"You only care about him when something happens to him. A good father would stay around and support his son. We are his family. We took over Diana's care when he got taken and we have always been there for him. He wanted you to know he was safe but he didn't want you to come here."

"You weren't there for him when got taken. Don't act all high and mighty. You told me a year ago that you'd find my son. You didn't."

"Stop it," Reid snapped as he came down the stairs slowly. William looked at him carefully. Reid winced as he made the last step down.

"Spencer, what happened to you?"

"What are you doing here?" he asked.

"I came to see you, Spencer. I got the first flight here after Agent Hotchner called me. You look so different. I've missed you."

"I look different because I got subjected to hell," Reid said angrily. "You missed me? You never spoke to me before I got taken."

"Reid," Hotch said. "Go back to bed and rest. I'll deal with this."

"You'll deal with nothing. I have a right to speak with my son. Spencer, things have never been easy between us. After the Riley incident being brought back to light, it made things more difficult. I have missed you and the day they told me you were missing, my world fell apart."

"What did you do to help find me?" Reid said stoically.

"I got promised by Agent Hotchner that he would find you. He never did though till now."

"My friends looked for me. Morgan drove around, he asked questions, he checked places where my body may have gotten dumped and he called stations around the country. My entire team looked for me. Did you do anything? Did you even visit mom?"

"Spencer, you have to understand-" William tried to say.

"NO!" Reid shouted. "I don't have to understand anything! I thought you deserved to know that I wasn't dead, I didn't want you here. You want to know what happened to me?"

"Reid, don't."

Reid ignored Hotch and stared at his father. "I was held against my will by a monster. He beat me, starved me and raped me. For a year, I was his whore. He forced me to do things and I felt so much pain. He forced other men on me. I did things to survive that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I went through that and I'll tell you something. I didn't think of you once. I thought about mom and worried about who was taking care of her. I thought about my team and how much I missed them. I missed my godson all that time. You should have done something, you selfish bastard. I don't want to see you. Ever again! My team looked after my mother, you ignored her. You left your schizophrenic wife all those years ago, I'm sure it isn't hard to walk away from your whore son."

"You heard him," Hotch said to William. "He doesn't want you here."

William turned around and left the house, slamming the door behind him. Hotch looked to Reid and saw him shaking and on the verge of breaking down. He walked over and Reid leaned against him as he put an arm around him. He guided him back up the stairs and back to the bedroom. He put Reid back to bed and carefully put the covers back over him. "You aren't a whore, Reid. Don't ever think that."

"What else am I supposed to be?" Reid whispered before bringing the cover over his head. It broke Hotch's heart as he heard small sobs come from beneath it.

JJ rocked her baby son in her arms, she stared at him and couldn't get the moment that Reid had met him out of her mind. She felt split between two responsibilities. She wanted to spend time with Spence and help him during his recovery but she also needed and wanted to spend time with her baby and bond with him. She loved her new baby unconditionally. Little Spencer moved in her arms, she giggled as she watched him yawn and change place in her arms. He woke up and stared at her.

"Hi, there," she laughed gently. "How's my little boy?"

Reid laid tied on the bed, the monster had brought another man to hurt him. Vincent was the last man to use him, this man, he knew was the next. Oliver climbed on top as the monster pointed the gun. All three of them froze as they heard a car come up to the house. The gun got placed to his forehead before he could call for help.

"Little warning, Spencer. You call for help, I'll kill the person outside, kill oliver and I'll make you bathe in their blood. I'll be back in a minute. Either of you try anything and I'll make you regret it."

The monster walked out of the room, leaving the two alone.

"Oliver, listen to me. If you untie me, we got a chance to get out of here. He can't take two of us. Please, this is our only chance."

Reid felt his trousers disappear. He struggled. "No! What are you doing?" he panicked.

A hand clamped over his mouth and he screamed into it.

He opened his eyes and leaned over his bed. He gagged and vomited on the floor, he coughed and slowly sat up. Making his way out of the bed, he slowly went to the bathroom. He grabbed a spray bottle of cleaner he found and lots of tissues. A whimper escaped his lips as he lowered himself to the floor. Reid grabbed a nearby bin and began to clean it up. He wiped tears with the back of hand. Oliver had actually want to hurt him. The monster had walked in and found Oliver using him. He froze as the door opened.

"Spencer, are you okay?"

He turned around to see Will looking down at him. Will come and knelt beside him. "Did you get sick?"

"I'm sorry. I just had a nightmare and it happened. I'm cleaning it up," Reid said before he wiped up some sick and put it in the bin. Will stopped him from grabbing some tissue.

"I can do that. Don't apologise for being sick. I just came up to tell you that the food is ready. JJ wanted me to come over for a while and see how you were doing. She wants to be here but little Spencer likes his mommy a lot. Why did you apologise for being sick?"

"He got mad when I got sick."

"No-one will get mad here. It's nice to see you again, Spencer. We missed you a lot. JJ wasn't the same over the last year. The moment we found out we were having a boy, she knew she was naming him Spencer."

"I missed you all too," Reid said before bringing his shaking hands up to his face. Will rubbed Reid's shoulder.

"Things will get better, Spencer. Why don't we go and get you some food? Garcia is here and she has cupcakes."

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