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The next day

Reid laid in the bed. JJ had gone to check how Will was doing and had allowed him to keep holding the baby, she had stayed with him all morning. Garcia was in the corner, talking with one of the techs at the BAU. He slowly rocked the baby and laughed as the little one kept hold of his finger.

"Henry and you keep me from losing control," he said to the baby. He made sure that Garcia couldn't hear him. "I've felt incredibly bad over the last year. I didn't know you were to arrive in this world but I'm glad you did. Your mother and father are so strong, they saved my life. During some bad times over the year, I began to lose hope but your big brother kept me from doing something. I made a promise when I became his godfather, that promise was to protect him and help him in his life, any way he needed. I had a chance to end the pain but your big brother gave me hope so I didn't do it. I wasn't about to break a promise I made to him. I made the same promise to you when you were born and I don't intend to break that either. You give me hope that I can have a normal life, so I promise that I will make sure you have a normal life. A normal life or an extraordinary one."

He watched as the baby moved and a small smile came on his little face.

"That wasn't a smile," Reid laughed gently. "That was gas, wasn't it?"

Garcia closed her phone and came over. "Don't think I didn't hear what you just said. I have good ears."

"It's true," he said as he looked at her. "I've seen so much over this last year, been through too much. Seeing Henry and holding little Spencer, it gives me hope, that after some time, I might be able to have a normal life. I know that is a long time away and that I'm not ready to do a lot of things yet. I'm still frightened of the world."

"What did you mean when you said about the chance to end the pain?" Garcia asked.

"I'll tell you later but I don't want the baby around to hear."

"Reid, he won't remember it."

"I know," Reid nodded. "I just want him to stay surrounded by good things. I don't want either of my god-children to hear the monster's name."

"You're stronger around them," Garcia said as she sat on the edge of the bed and tickled the baby's feet.

"I have to stay strong around them," he said. "Henry knows you are all lying about me being undercover. He doesn't know the truth but he knows something bad happened to me. He told me not to feel sad because he would protect me. I almost broke down that day. I stayed strong though and he only saw a few tears. Being around them, it makes dealing with the past year easier. Holding Spencer now, makes things better. Makes what just happened to me disappear for a while. I'm pretty sure that he might need a change though. He's a little smelly."

Garcia sniffed before nodding. "I second that. I'll go and get him a new diaper. Reid, things will get better. It'll take time though."

"I have time now, thanks to Will and JJ bringing me back."

Will and Reid got released at the same time. Reid was going back to Morgan's house while, JJ and her family were going home. Putting his arms around Will, he gave him a hug before coming away. "Thank you for saving my life."

"I wasn't about to let my sons grow up without their godfather. We'll come visit when we both don't have headaches."

"Will, I'm sorry about putting your family at risk."

"Hey, don't start that. We had no idea what he was going to do. We're alive and so are you. He's dead and you can start to move on with your life. Thank JJ for Brandon no longer being here. She's got a mean swing when it comes to tyre jacks."

They both let out a small laugh. "Seriously, Reid. I mean it. Don't think what happened was your fault. Just focus on getting better."

"I will," Reid nodded. "You focus on your kids. They are the best kids in the world."

Morgan sat on the sofa with Reid as they watched television. Reid was finally eating his soup after Morgan had tasted it in front of him. Morgan found it strange, looking at Reid, he saw a man who still had secrets. He turned down the volume on the television and turned to Reid.

"Garcia told me about what you said. When did you get a chance to end the pain? I want the truth."

Reid finished his soup, he passed it to Morgan, who put it on the table.

"I got a chance to kill myself," Reid admitted. "I had the rope and I was going to hang myself."

"Why didn't you tell us?"

"I have my reasons," Reid sighed. "He had shoved me in the bathroom to get clean. My hands were free and there was rope under the sink. There was a fan in there and it would have held my weight. I even tied the noose. This was about ten months into everything. Henry came into my mind though. He came into my head and I pictured you all as well. I thought about if you ever found my body. He never killed his victims like that so I knew you would know I did it. Henry would have found out when he was older and you would all think I was a coward. Henry saved my life. I didn't want him knowing that I killed myself so, I dropped the noose. I spent the next two months after that enduring the rapes, beatings and pain and I never regretted my decision. I just kept hoping for you to find me. You did and I'm so thankful you did. Henry kept me from losing hope."

"We would never see you as a coward, kid. After what you went through, it doesn't surprise me that you had thoughts like that. It's natural. You were in a situation that many people will never know. I saw what Oliver did to you. You went through a lot."

"I still don't understand why he did it. Oliver could have released me but he chose a different path. He really hurt me. The monster killed him an hour after that. He didn't make me watch or even clean it up. He just left me on the bed. That was strange that night. He cleaned me up, fed me some chicken and put me in the bed with him that night. Didn't hurt me for two days after. I didn't know how to process that night. I think he saw that. I got traumatized by that night. I knew what he was, he was a monster, always will be. Oliver seemed normal. In one hour though, he was worse than the monster. I didn't speak for a week after the night he treated me well."

He cried on the bed as Oliver finished, the hand released from his mouth. Pressing his face into the pillow, he screamed as Oliver removed himself. The monster dragged Oliver out of the room without a word. Reid sobbed on the bed. He felt blood down his legs. He had not felt that for a while, his body used to being forced upon. Oliver had ignored his screams. He laid there for an hour before he heard screaming and the sound of a body hitting the floor. The door opened and he didn't move. His hands got freed and he got rolled on his back. The monster went to the bathroom and ran a bath.

A small yelp came through his lips as the monster lifted him off the bed, his clothes slowly got removed and then lowered into the bath, on his side. It was warm. It was never warm. Expecting a hit against his body, he got a surprise when the monster began to bathe him. He closed his eyes when the monster cleaned his more private area. He whimpered and cried harder. Ten minutes later, the monster finished.

He felt numb as he was dressed into a clean t-shirt and clean pyjamas and placed on the floor. The monster changed the sheets before leaving the room. He didn't come back till fifteen minutes later. He sat next to Reid with a plate of hot, warmed up chicken and a bottle of water.

"What are you going to make me do?" he quivered.

"Just eat."

Reid ate the chicken and relished at how warm it was. He finished and drank the entire bottle of water. He began to cry as he got lifted up and placed on the bed. He waited for the monster to begin restraining him but he never did. A blanket was swiftly placed over him. The monster left for ten minutes before coming back and stripping to his boxers. The man slipped under the blanket and pulled Reid closer to him.

"Sleep, Spencer."

Reid came out of the memory. "He didn't beat me, violate me or do anything. He just washed me, fed me and let me sleep in warmth."

"I'm interviewing him at the end of the week. Do you want me to find out?"

"I want an answer."

Morgan sat across from Lincoln. "Hello, agent Morgan. What can I do for you today?"

"I have questions, you have answers. We can talk for as long as you comply. My first question. Spencer told us that you killed Oliver after forcing him to assault him."

"I didn't force anything," Lincoln chuckled. "I left the room to get rid of a dick. I come back to the room and find Oliver putting it to Spencer. He really made him scream and cry. I killed him so quickly because he was competition."

"I don't believe that," Morgan said. "Spencer described that night. You treated him with care afterwards. Gave him a warm bath afterwards, fresh clothes, warm food and water. You even let him sleep in bed with a blanket and no restraints. You didn't make him do anything for it, yet he has told us that you made him pleasure you for a cup of water before and after that night."

"He's good at it," Lincoln snorted.

"Let's not have a repeat of the forest," Morgan said stoically. "Why did you do it?"

"Honestly," Lincoln said, leaning back in his chair. "I felt like he'd been raped."

"What the hell are you talking about?"

"When I first took his virginity, he became mine. I don't consider our other sessions together, rapes. I only raped him once. When I made those men hurt him, they had my go ahead. Oliver didn't. He screwed Spencer without even a nudge of the gun. I came in and found Spencer in a hysterical state and blood all over the sheets. I killed Oliver and made sure it hurt. I gave my little bitch a few nights off. That's it."

"You raped Spencer," Morgan said angrily. "Every time you hurt him, you raped him."

"Would you like to take a ride on him?" Lincoln laughed. "You seem so eager to know about our time together."

"He's like my little brother, you sick son of a bitch! I came here for answers. You've got a long road ahead, Lincoln. We'll be at the end of it and have a front row seat to you dying. I promise you that!"

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