For some reason
After years of feeling insecure
I actually felt safe
As if it was the first time I was actually in peace.
I saw him holding the book, the book I was looking forward to reading, but I guess I had to wait now, I found it ironic, that the book I was looking for all this time was practically in front of me this whole time. I took a closer look at him as he read, it looks like he's in the middle of the book. The expression on his face, is what caught my curiosity, what caught my eye. His eyes were as gold as a twinkie, I think that has to be the most worst comparison, I have ever come up with, really what kind of idiot would compare a pair of eyes to a silly twinkie. Aside from the twinkie, his hair was amazing it was like it was able to defiy gravity, he had a mysterious vibe to him, The clothes he wore, he had a leather jacket, it suited him well. And yet, behind that serious look I can see the sadness inside of them. I didnt know what to think of that expression of his, as if I wanted to know what the reason for hiding so much pain inside.
I guess since I never bothered to get involved with other people was probably the reason why I never got to notice these types of things but I don't think that is the case here. He, he was different. I could just tell.
It was obvious that he was skipping class, but I wonder why. He wasn't wearing the required uniform, he didn't look like he gave any interest into school what so ever. He wore the most beautiful visual kei accessories I have ever seen. It's like just add eyeliner and make him wear more of it and he could be a guy fangirls would sqweel over! Or he could be part of some kind of BL (BoysLove) manga as he could take interest into a petite uke that is so sweet and innocent while he is the devilish bad boy and ,and I think I am getting a tad bit over board. But really the more I look at him the more that I can not help but be drawn into it. Something most of the girls would like, but for some reason I never paid attention to. Not like it mattered to me.
I noticed him doze off a bit, he did look kinda sleepy, right before my eyes he fell asleep. He just sort of dropped well, his head hit the table. After seeing that, I had the sudden urge to laugh. That was the first time I have ever seen anyone just drop like that and make it look like they didn't feel a thing.
Before I came to my senses, I was laughing, I was actually laughing, I can't remember the last time I laughed or if I have actually laughed before. I realized that the library was going to close soon, but by the time I looked around the librarian had already left, and the guy sleetping a few tables away, I couldn't just leave while he stays here sleeping, that would be rude, in away, I'm not sure how but all I know is that it would be very rude of me.
I decided to look around for more books, since I figured it would take him a while to even wake up. The way he just feel asleep, makes it seem like he hasn't slept in days.
It's not like I'm worried about him or anything, I just need some time to kill as all, no more no less. Right?
It was starting to get to dark, and it was making it harder for me to see any of the book titles, so I went back down stairs and sat back down with all my stuff. And of course he was still sleeping there.
The moment I sat down, I felt so tired, all the days of waking up really early, and going to bed late where starting to catch up to me more than they should, and before I Knew it, I also fell asleep.
I realized that I fell asleep, was the only thing on my mind right now, then voices, voices, and more voices, of all the people, people that have lied, and cheated on each other, I could hear yelling and screaming. The room was so dark, no windows or curtains, not even a door, The noise started to get louder.
And
louder.
It was getting to much to handle, that I felt like I was over flowing, and I had no idea what to do.
I just keeled down and covered my ears, Hoping it would go away, that I would wake up soon, and that this would stop. I was getting scared, why would I hear all these voices, all these people, the dark room wasn't making them any better.
"There is nothing to be scared of."
The voices, the noise, it stopped right after I heard a boys voice. I placed my hands down, and turned around, I saw a glimpse of the boys face, it was him. And in an instant he was gone, I had no idea what could have happened of rather I had no idea what had happened at all. I felt so safe when I heard his voice. It felt cold in the room but suddenly, it grew warmer. It took me some time but I was able to manage to wake myself up.
And when I awoke I found a jacked over my shoulders and the boy across the room staring at me.
It's like we were both connected somehow,
In a way that I was unable to explain,
Like we were both the same.