Sasuke couldn't sleep the night before, he just stared at the ceiling and listened to Naruto's even breaths. It calmed him, Naruto calmed him, and he was scared of that. Sasuke glanced at the clock, it read 7:05 AM. He hadn't slept at all and Itachi would be there after breakfast. He pushed the covers back and tiptoed into the bathroom, trying to let Naruto sleep. He splashed his face with cold water, he had dark circles under his eyes, his stomach hurt, he wasn't sure he was ready for this. He slipped on a pair of baggy blue jeans, a grey v-neck shirt, and a solid black hoodie. He rolled the sleeves up to his elbows so his tattoo could show. He looked out of the small caged window in his bathroom, it was going to rain today.
Sasuke sat on the side of his bed, staring at the floor and tapping his foot to the music playing on his iPod. Naruto blinked his eyes open around 7:45. He stretched and then stared at Sasuke. Sasuke had told Naruto about Sai, and he knew today would be hard for him. So he did what he did best, he stayed silent. When Naruto's feet hit the floor, Sasuke looked up at him, his eyes dull. Naruto managed a small smile and walked to the bathroom. Sasuke continued to stare at the floor, his stomach was getting more upset by the minute. He waited for Naruto to get ready for the day and they walked to the dining room together in silence. Both of them were quiet the entire time. Naruto ate most of his breakfast because he knew Sasuke wasn't going to take his eye off of him. Sasuke played with his food and the nurses were getting stern with him, he was starting to shake so they left him alone. A nurse tapped on his shoulder and told him that Itachi was there to take him out. Sasuke swallowed hard, his stomach was turning. Naruto placed his hand on top of Sasuke's. Sasuke looked at him and was a lot calmer than before. He squeezed Naruto's hand and got up. Itachi hugged him tight and Sasuke did in return. Naruto was going to worry all day.
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Sasuke stayed quiet the whole ride to the cemetery. "Sasuke, I know how hard this is going to be for you." Itachi whispered. "Don't…don't…please." Sasuke started to tear up. Itachi sighed. They pulled into the cemetery parking lot. Sasuke took a shaky hand and opened the door. The walk to his grave seemed to take forever, but then he stood right in front of it. Sasuke stared for what seemed like forever. The wind was beginning to blow and Sasuke kneeled in front of his friends' headstone. "Sai…" he whispered. And at that moment, he thought he heard Sai's voice and he lost it. He broke down completely. "Man, I miss you so fucking much, I fucking need you man, come back!" he screamed. He began to claw at the ground beneath him. Itachi ran over to him and embraced his brother. "Sasuke, Sasuke, stop! It's okay, it's okay!" Itachi said. Sasuke struggled against him and started hitting him as hard as he could, but Itachi didn't let go. Sasuke was shaking so hard, that he couldn't continue the struggle. "I wanna be with him! I can't go on like this! I need my fix!" he cried. Itachi took Sasuke's face in his hands. "Sasuke, no, you are doing so well in therapy! Sai wouldn't want you to end up the way he did. He wants you to get better!" Itachi was starting to get teary-eyed. Sasuke buried his head in his brothers' chest and let him hold him. Then it started to rain.
Itachi walked Sasuke back to the car and wrapped a blanket around his shoulders. He stopped at a gas station and picked him up a coffee and a pack of cigarettes. Sasuke didn't speak the rest of the time. Itachi walked him to his room and set him up in bed and went to talk to the nurse. Sasuke needed a cigarette. He walked outside, in the pouring rain, and dragged from his cigarette. He shook vigorously. He sat in the rain and let the rain wash away his tears.
He sat in the lounge by himself, sipping his coffee, soaking wet. The janitor came up to him. "Hey kid, looks like you need an escape." He smirked. "What's it to you?" Sasuke spat. "Oh, nothing for me, but something in store for you." The janitor reached into his pocket. "I like you man, so I'm gonna give you a sample of this fine blow." The janitor handed Sasuke a baggy with enough cocaine to get him high. Sasuke didn't think, he grabbed it and ran. He snuck into the kitchen and grabbed some tinfoil. He asked the janitor if he could use the closet. He smirked and let him in.
Sasuke prepared his cocaine and lit it up. He inhaled and for the first time in months, he was in a pure state of euphoria. He lied down and he finished his cocaine. "Sai…I will be with you soon bro." he whispered.
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Sasuke woke up in the infirmary. They caught him. Sasuke was twitching. He immediately wanted another hit of blow, but now he knew he would be in here forever. His mother was outside crying, his father was holding her, and his brother was sitting in a chair with his head in his hands. Sasuke punched the wall next to him. "God fucking damnit." He screamed. Kakashi walked in after that and sat down next to Sasuke. Sasuke couldn't look at him. "We're back to day one Sasuke, I had a feeling your relapse was imminent. The janitor has been fired, the facility has had a full drug search, and you will return to your room after the cocaine is out of your system. You will be on a fifteen minute check schedule, you will be escorted by a staff member for the first week off of isolation." He said. All Sasuke could say was "Does Naruto know?" Kakashi looked at him and sighed. "Word travels fast around here Sasuke, he will find out soon enough. Don't worry about him, he is also on fifteen minute checks, you were keeping him clean. Believe it or not, he needs you." Sasuke's heart sank at that moment. "I need him more than he will ever need me." He admitted. "What you just said is an amazing start to your recovery Sasuke." Kakashi smiled and left the room. He needed to see Naruto, he needed to apologize, and he needed a cigarette.
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Naruto curled up in his bed and cried. He had just found out that Sasuke relapsed. He scratched vigorously at his arms and they were beginning to bleed. He clutched his head with his hands and bit down on his pillow to stop from screaming. The nurse walked in to give him a mild tranquilizer and a pill to put him to sleep. She wrapped up his arms tight so he couldn't dig at them and checked on him every fifteen minutes. Naruto slept for over fourteen hours and missed his first meal. He managed to eat a muffin leftover from breakfast. He took tiny sips of water and lied around most of the day. He didn't speak at all. He was lost in his own mind. His arms were swollen and tender from the night before and he was drowsy all day. He went in and out of sleep. He ate half of a sandwich at lunch and no dinner. Later on that evening, he collapsed in the hallway. His blood sugar was 55 and his blood pressure was low. They forced him to drink a nutrition shake and drink a ginger ale. "I feel dead. And I should be." He whispered to himself, letting the slow drip of his IV put him back to sleep.