A.N. Because of what Katasana said ('I know that you just updated, but update!') I decided to start writing this chapter early… ^-^

But I won't stain you with the dirt I've become,

So please be good and stay away from me,

I don't wanna hurt you, I can no longer stand

The ground is shaking I'm falling down…

Law's POV

This must be the most shitty day of the year… My headache didn't just come back, it came back with a bang and brought friends, all of my head was hurting, no, not hurting, more like coming apart… There also was pain behind my eyes and from all the standing I have been doing that day my back and legs started hurting. The photoshoot was a shit too as I just couldn't get into a role of a man who could seduce even a baby.

All in all, I wasted hours and also made my headache come back and it all was for nothing… Luffy tried to cheer me up, but my irritation was going nowhere, so I just asked him to be silent. After the unsuccessful photoshoot we came back home and I simply laid on the sofa, hating the word, the pain and almost everything else with it.

Luffy gave me more medicine, but before it at least reduced my pain a little I had to wait quite a long time. I laid there for quite a long time and somehow managed to fall asleep, to say that when I woke up and understood that my head doesn't threat me in falling down in different directions, would be rude. I immediately felt relieved and my mood became a little better. But for some reason among with my improved mood came back all the thoughts I had been having before the photographers arrived.

Hatred. That's what I feel for myself - I hate every single detail about me. How I can not properly to say my feelings, how I keep drinking, how my rage takes the better of me. How during sex I become a little violent if I'm in a bad mood, I hate how my heart clenches when Luffy looks at me with those forgiving eyes. I fucking hate how easily I get manipulated by that bird, how he can make my mood change only with couple words. And he does all of that intentionally, he just loves to see me angry, he loves to see me lashing out, I know how much that freak enjoys it.

And I fucking hate myself for the one of the most fucked up sense of justice, or more like the lack of it. I hate myself for getting addicted to drugs more times than I can count, for even considering for being worthy to be with Luffy. I hear light footsteps enter living room, Luffy stops in front of me, I sit there, leaning on my hands with my face in my palms. "Are you feeling better?"

I can hear fatigue in his voice; he probably canceled the photoshoot for tomorrow, so I can rest and get myself together… He doesn't ask these kinds of things, he just does them, as my manager he has the right. He's a very talented person and if he hadn't met me, by now he would probably be at the top of the company. Because of him I have begun to be known almost all over the world and was written into 'The Most Wanted Man' list…

I stood up and looked into his brown eyes; all that love… I don't deserve any of it. Yea, it's not my place to be, I have to leave before I swallow his light completely… "Let's break up."

Shock goes through his face and I immediately notice how these three words hurt him. It's ridiculous how three words can make one the happiest person on Earth and another three can hurt you like hell. And it's almost funny how hard for me is to say the three words that would make everything alright, bit I can say the hurtful ones with poker face… "Whu… What do you mean…?"

Luffy blinked several times and I saw tears starting to dwell in the corners of his eyes; maybe I should tell that it's a joke? And then kiss him passionately and tell him how important he is to me? I got rid of those hopeful thoughts; I'm not worthy of him, he already is stained by me, but it's still not too late. He can still forget me and live his life happily while I will get so drunk I will forget my own name. And maybe after a week of hangover will come back to work with an ice cold heart and continue doing what I do best – fucking up other people's lives…

"I mean exactly that, we're through, this won't work out, we can mend our relationship as much as we like, but it still will be broken. The only steady and un-hurtful thing about it was sex and even it became fucked up." I continued staring into his teary orbs; there is no going back now… "We should end this game, I'm tired of it." I shook my head and turned around. "Sometime along our relationship I wrote this apartment to you, everything for it is paid two years ahead, so you can live in it or sell it, money is yours, I have that shit more than I need." Without turning at him I raised my hand and waved. "Goodbye."

Just as I was walking out of the living room I was talked to the ground. "Don't you think you're bailing out you asshole!" Luffy snifed and sobbed a little. "Explain yourself! Is Doflamingo making you do this?! I know you wouldn't do this out of the blue! You love me as much as I do you!"

I stood up shaking him off myself, Luffy sat on the carpet with tears streaming down his face. "I already explained. Our relationship – it isn't going to work out. And this isn't out of blue, I have mentioned this many times earlier, but then decided that maybe something could change. But it can't, we have to get over it and the best way to do it is getting away from each other. Goodbye."

I walked into the corridor and started putting my shoes on. "Promise me!" My body stiffened at Luffy's anguished voice. "Promise me that you will be able to smile even without me! Then I will let you go!"

My heart stopped; even in situation like this he wants me to smile, he wants me to be happy… I clenched my teeth and made my voice sound normal. "I promise."

Without looking at him I walked out of our apartment, I had grabbed my bag I use to keep everything in because I might need them at unexpected times. Instead of taking a lift I started walking down the stairs, with every step I took a part of my heart disappeared. I walked across the street to the hotel and registered in it, I somehow got to my room and when my face hit my bed I felt tears sliding down my cheeks. What the fuck had I done…? I gulped; I did the right thing…

A.N. I actually almost finished this yesterday, but the my mom came and told me to go sleep… :D Well today I'm leaving for my countryside… To visit my great-grandma… See ya sometime soon! ^-^