A.N. I would have started this chapter sooner but I found this one good manga where a boy crossdressed 'cause he wanted to dance ballet (he started crossdressing 'cause he was tricked into it…). The story isn't really marked as yaoi, but as the story going on the male character shows some kind of feelings for the crossdressing boy, I just hope it turns out into love *squeals*.

Well with that being said, it seems last chapter made all of you sad… (Except for katasana, she proved to be the true sadist among you, you should be ashamed! :D) I can't promise that this chapter will be any better, I mean the whole mood of the story is like that… *scratches her cheek*

The rain pours down and I think of my lose,

I want to destroy the world 'cause life without you

Got me freaking confused, I can no longer stand

And it makes no sense how I came to lose everything I've ever used…

Law's POV

I stared at the blue ceiling, I stopped crying long ago, tears simply stopped coming out, my heart hurts like hell and I feel like the worst person on Earth. The only thing that keeps me from going back and kissing his cried out eyes is that one thought 'I don't deserve him'. He can have so much more than me, he just doesn't understand what true happiness is because I stole him away before anyone could show him that.

When he first came to the agency he was only an intern at university, he was so innocent and naïve, I just wanted to corrupt him so badly, so I told the higher ups that I will let that guy become my manager. Up till then I refused to have a manager and did everything by myself, everyone agreed immediately and the next day that guy was my manager. I hoped to see a shy teenager who would blush at my gaze, but I met a grinning young man with beautiful brown eyes.

And instead of corrupting him I fell for him, it took me some time to get him in my bed, but when I did he was completely mine. When he finished university he moved in with me by the time he did that he knew everything about me – my past, my present condition, my habits, my attitude. But he still stepped to next stage, he had no doubt or fear, it was always me.

I was the factor in our relationship that destroyed it, I was the one who made things bad. I was the reason his grin would drop and he would become silent. I was the one who made him clench his teeth and silently suffer because he knew that there was nothing he could do to stop me or my actions. I was the one who left those hurtful teeth marks on his skin during sex when I tried to calm myself down.

Everything I did was just so wrong that there is no way I could ever make up to him for the pain I made him go through. I wanted to leave many times before, but I was just so selfish I couldn't, I wanted to have him all for myself, I still do. But I know that I can no longer do that, I have to let go, he has to forget me, I know I have hurt him greatly, but he's a strong man, he will get over it…

Me on the other hand, I won't be able to get over it, so I will pretend that I did… I laid like that looking at the ceiling and thinking of all those times when I hurt Luffy until I heard a loud bang on the door. "Open up Law, I know you're there!"

Ace…? What is he doing here? Oh, right, the promise that I better not hurt his little brother or else… "It isn't locked."

It will probably be better this way… The door opened and Luffy's older brother walked in, he wasn't as furious as I expected him to be; I'm sure he saw Luffy before coming here… "How did you find me?"

The freckled man started going through the stuff in the room. "You really couldn't go far and this hotel is across the street. And I think you surely know what pretty smile and a little bit of money can do to an exhausted receptionist".

I put my hand on my eyes. "It seems you're not here to kill me, so why are you here?"

"To see."

I took the hand from my eyes and sat up a little so I could see Ace's face, he didn't look smug or happy, he was serious. "To see what?"

"To see if you're as bad as him, what I'm seeing is all the proof I need. Luffy asked not to hurt you, so I won't do anything, but you know that you're an idiot, right?"

I laid back on the bed. "It's will turn out to better, you will see, weren't you the one who opposed our relationship the most? You should be happy, I finally left your little brother alone."

A loud 'bang' startled me and I jumped up, I saw angry Ace he stood near table with a clenched fist, the table had a crack in it. "Don't joke around! It's impossible to just say 'I did what you asked' now! It's already too late! He loves you too much! He just can't get out of this without getting scarred! He will never be able to forget and you're just saying that everything will be fine?! Don't be a fool! We all know that it won't! Get a grip Law! You're just running away because you're afraid to truly change!"

"That's enough." My voice was cold and demanding; I'm not listening any more of that… "You should leave my matters to me, he will get better, he's strong and he will see for himself that our relationship really wasn't to work out and then he will be happy that we managed to brake-up in time…"

A silent sigh came from Ace's direction, it sounded like coming from a man who was tired of explaining his three year old son what women are all about. "You will regret this decision you know, you will see how hurt he is and you will want to comfort him and everything he will want will be exactly that. You will see."

I heard a silent 'thud' as the doors of my hotel room closed. "I already regret it."

No one except my empty hotel room heard those words, but it really didn't matter, nothing really matters… I took my phone from the cabinet next to my bed; time to make sure that I won't see his hurt eyes looking at me, or I really might to break down and beg him to forgive me… it's already hard not to go running across the street and doing that right now…

A.N. Like always, I can't say that this was any better than last chapter, or if the next chapter will be better… I got hooked up on one Harry Potter fanfic, so I will be reading it right now, I will probably finish it today and tomorrow I will update again. Though if I finish early I might update today as I already have started writing next chapter… See ya soon! :}