A.N. I do this while trying to get over my laziness… *sighs* Why do I even bother…? *sighs again and sweeps her hand* Enjoy?
So I suffocate as I think about life without you,
But everything stays the same - I can't fight for you,
'Cause I don't have what it takes to win for you,
But maybe I'm just afraid of having you?
Law's POV
I clenched my fists and felt my nails dig into my skin; why did he have to call me like that? 'Law!' his voice was so hurt and hopeful, so full of pain and confusion… I quickly walked out of the lift to the parking lot; I probably wouldn't have been able to walk away if I have seen his eyes then… All of my will and reasons would fade away and the only thought left in my head would be embracing him…
I sat in my car and put my head on the steering wheel; I need a new car, this one reminds of him too much… Sitting at this seat I remember all those times when we rode somewhere and all those times he gripped the wheel till his knuckles became white. I also remember that time when I just bought the car and we did it on the back seat…
I started the engine and rode out of the parking lot; I stopped putting alcohol in the car in fear that I might start drinking while driving. No matter how filthy I feel I still have no wish for death… I started chewing the inside of my cheek; I also need a new apartment, I can't stay in a hotel forever, press will soon find out where I live and I have no wish of my private matters being exposed… Especially if it would involve Luffy, the last thing I want is hurting him by getting everything out in public…
I took a slight notice how the streets were quite empty, there weren't a lot of cars and thankfully most of the traffic lights were green. My thought once again to the man I once had the honor of calling a lover. He didn't look as good as I expected him to see after a week; Ace's words came back to me 'He just can't get out of this without getting scarred!' He just needs a little more time, that's all…
I want him back so badly that my heart hurts all the time as I understand that I could have been able to have him if I was a different person and then I hate myself even more. Why can't I be someone else? Oh, how many times I wished to be someone else… I closed my eyes for a moment, but soon opened as a very bad feeling crept to me; something ain't fine…
I turned my head at saw a truck few meters from my car, with a corner of my eyes I saw my traffic light showing red; oh shi…
The truck came crashing into me…
Luffy's POV
A police car followed by an ambulance rushed past me; did there was an accident…? I sighed as I shifted the weight of my back pack on my different shoulder; I never needed a car as I always rode with Law, at least the apartment is nearby… I don't dare to call it my apartment, it feels like he won't be back at all then… But now that I'm alone there it's way too big and empty for me. There is so much space and I'm all alone there, my brothers visited me several times to see if I really was alright, but none of them stayed as they have their own lover to go back to…
I felt a tear roll down my cheek; I miss Law, I want him back… I want to see him angrily staring at his coffee mug early in the morning. I want to eat the food he made, I miss waking up next to him the most. It was so lonely to sleep in that huge alone, that I started sleeping on the sofa. That led to some back pain, but it's nothing…
I shifted my back pack again; I've asked myself so many times already why he decided that it's better apart, isn't he being hurt all about this as much as I am? I hope he didn't go back to drugs, or drinking… When something bad would happen to him I usually would be there and would calm him down, later we would have calming sex and everything would be fine after that… I wonder what he does now…? I wonder if his heart hurt as much as mine? Why isn't he coming back then…?
I took my ringing phone from the mirror edge as I stepped out of the shower. "Hello?"
"Luffy!"
The voice of my little friend surprised me. "Chopper?"
A small sob could be heard through the phone. "Luffy, some here quickly…" Chopper's voice became shaky. "Law got into an accident."
"Wha… what?"
A bigger sob came from the little doctor. "He was going through red and his car was smashed by a truck!"
I felt everything around me freeze; there is no way… I could hear a faint voice of the nurse. "Doctor Chopper, doctor Chopper! We need you in the operating-room!"
"Luffy I need to go to operate Law now! Come here!"
The phone beeped as Chopper ended our conversation; Law got into an accident? Is he alright? Chopper needs to operate him? Maybe it's nothing serious? But Chopper sounded pretty bad… But he often gets over emotional of things… I tossed my phone into my back pack that was on the floor and started quickly wiping water from myself; dating or not, he's still the most important person to me…
Operation took five hours, when Chopper finally walked out of it he sadly said that they did all they could and now all they need to do is to see if he wakes up. The information of what happened was supposed to be confidential, but Chopper told me everything as he knew how important it was for me. It seems that truck hit right into Law's side of the car, so he got the bigger deal of impact.
He had seven broken ribs, his left arm was completely broken and when the glass was breaking it gashed through the left side of his face leaving a deep gash. Chopper said the gash was very curved and went from his cheek bone to eye, apparently one end of it was very near his eye, it was a question if he will be able to see it with it if he wakes up.
Chopper didn't really want to say it, but he mentioned that there's a big chance Law won't wake up from the come he's in. He hit his head really hard and both of his legs were broken, the right one was just joint. There also was some damage to his spinal cord… He had a survival chance on 50/50…
It's been 34 hours since he got out of the operation room, the bigger part of his body was covered in bandages or gypsum… I haven't left his side ever since then, the room he was appointed at had a shower and the nurses would bring me food. I haven't spoken for the last 34 hours, my brother and even some of Law's friends came (he had them even if he thought differently…) I spoken with them a little but I really didn't find my voice for that…
Chopper said that talking with people in come often help them, but I just couldn't find the right words to say. My heart has been frozen ever since I heard of his accident, looking at his half-bandaged face I could feel tears gathering… So instead looking at his face I focused on his right arm, it was part of his body that looked the best. My fingers were resting on the cross tattoo in the middle of his hand, suddenly I found the words I wanted to say. "Traffy…"
A.N. :P Hmmm *tilts her head* Should I mention that the next chapter is the last one? Nah, I'll just skip that part… ^-^
Btw, to the guest who asked, that manga's name which I mentioned is 'coda'. :}